they used me as a pawn

ART by @torturechainn
FT @vomitchainsaw
PROD by @hxlx

HOLLOWPOINT ROUNDS (FT. VOMITCHAINSAW) [HXLX]

This is my letter to the universe — or maybe just to whoever’s in charge of love distribution.
“It gets lonely” is about those lonely Friday nights, third-wheeling like it’s a full-time job, and praying to God (or Cupid) for someone to love — or at least someone who won’t ghost after two texts. It’s vulnerable, it’s sarcastic, it’s a love song for anyone still waiting to be the main character in their own rom-com.

 Part of Heartbreak Gallery — because even unrequited dreams deserve their own frame.
(This song is AI generated)

It gets lonely

Masochist-Mania (Prod. Lezv!e)

Ya Ya

Join Pastor John David and Shepherd of The Valley as we "Sing With the Exiles" in this message series on Isaiah 40-55. In chapters 52 -53, we find that our God Father & Son gave absolutely everything for us.  We discover He never asks anything of us until He has given everything for us. 

SOTV Good Friday Message - "The Iniquity of Us All" - Isaiah 52:13-53:12 - 4/18/25

Cannibal Corpse - Make Them Suffer - Cover - (Max Them Suffer)

Listen to Pastor John David of Shepherd of the Valley Church in West Des Moines, IA confirmation Sunday message.  Our God has overcome for us in Jesus... And He is ready to work through you, His Bold Witness to proclaim Good News!

SOTV Easter2C - "Go and Stand and Speak" - Acts 5:12-20 - 4/27/25

Redeemed// Mother’s Day

Join us in this episode as we look at biblical examples of suffering.

Wrestling With Suffering - Episode 274

"TORN" 
is a haunting and deeply emotional track that delves into the inner turmoil of someone suffering from Borderline Personality Disorder, caught in the impossible push-pull of romantic connection. It captures the constant tension between craving intimacy and fearing abandonment - a fragile dance between holding on too tightly and pushing the other away out of terror.

The song paints a vivid picture of emotional volatility: 
one moment consumed by love and the next by fear of rejection. It's about the overwhelming anxiety of being too much, yet never enough. The fear that every word, every silence, every moment of closeness could be the beginning of the end.

Musically, the track shifts between soft vulnerability and intense, chaotic crescendos, mirroring the unstable emotional states that define the experience. "TORN" isn’t just about a relationship - it’s about the war within, and the desperate wish to be loved without being destroyed in the process.


TORN (lift me up before I fall)

[verse 1] 
I built my home inside your eyes
 But storms don't knock, they just arrive
 I said I'm fine a hundred times 
Your silence told the loudest lie 
I broke in thousand pieces, the ones you haven’t seen
 I tried to wear my fear so carefully 
Still hoped you’d trace the cracks in me 
And stay where others chose to leave
(stay where others chose to leave)

[Verse 2] 
I wear my heart in quiet tones 
Wrote midnight texts and broken poems
 You touched the parts I hide from me 
The soft, the lost, and so much more I’d like to see 
 You said the dark could feel like grace
 Bring it on, with love and face to face 
So I’ll stop running from the light 
And meet you there, if you’ll arrive
(I’ll meet you there, if you’ll arrive)

[Pre-Chorus] 
I know that I’ve been hard to hold
 I kept no distance but too much soul
(too much soul, oh baby yeah)
 I’m learning now to let go all my fears 
just to let you know between my tears
(to let you know)

[Chorus] 
That you’re still here, though you’re afraid
 Still reaching out through all this weight 
I may be torn, but I still try 
To find the stars beneath the sky
 And if I fall, please lift me up  
Your love shines brighter than it all 
Please lift me up before I fall
(please lift me up before I fall)


[Verse3]
 I know that I was scared to trust
 But maybe pain just speaks for us 
Still I believe in many second starts 
And all above in tender hearts...
(all above in tender hearts)

[Chorus] 
Cause I’m still here, though I’m unsure 
Still searching for a safer shore
 I may be scared, but I still shine 
Like morning breaks through window blinds
 And if I fall, please lift me up  
Your love shines brighter than it all
 Please lift me up before I fall
(please lift me up before I fall)

[Bridge]
 Hold my hand like you believe
 I’m a prisoner who wants to be free 
Say the word, I’ll come undone
 And maybe this time we become

[Final Chorus] 
I’m still here, I always was
 Still dreaming through the scattered dust 
I may not know what lies ahead
 But I will rise from where I bled 
And if I fall, please lift me up  
Your love shines brighter than it all
 Please lift me up before I fall
(please lift me up before I fall)


Songwriter and Lyrics: BONDLEZZ (Torsten Ulrich Galts)

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TORN (lift me up before I fall)

This is my 20th Commission who I made for: Sara

Thank You, Sara

Defeating my Demons - Instrumental

We look at Richard Rohr's writings and ponder if suffering is truly needed.

Questioning the Need for Suffering

тгк - https://t.me/KISSSLOTA3

[Текст песни «SUFFER XD’шные»]


KISSSLOTA, заставь их страдать


Я обливаю себя бензином, теперь пиздец огнеопасный
Самый bad блять, KISSSLOTA самый ужасный  X_X
Е, baby, give me more, заглуши всю мою боль
Я хочу чтобы страдали все уебаны 

♫

SUFFER, SUFFER
SUFFER, SUFFER
SUFFER, SUFFER
все уебаны эй
SUFFER, SUFFER
SUFFER, SUFFER
SUFFER, SUFFER
все уеба&&#@…

       LOOOOL >⩊< ⟡ ݁₊ .

Baby, танцуй на мой хуй
Baby, танцуй на мой хуй
Suicide girl самая cute
От KISSSLOT’ы они блюют 
БЛЭТ, они white я black 
Против системы я hack
Все уебаны мне sэck
Все уебаны мне sэck
            
♪ 

блять, а в чем дело?                                
KISSSLOTA по моим венам
KISSSLOTA по моим венам
KISSSLOTA по моим 
WTF’эк
Ее pussy wet, wet
Ща в ушах Radiohead
KISSSLOTA в моем backpack

♪ ♪ ♪ 

Е, воу, мое HP на low
Скоро die походу lol 
Вы XD’шные double lol
Вы XD’шные double lol
AMA really feely pain
Слишком тупой проеб brain
Хочу чтобы suffer сделал train 
чтобы… все уебаны >_<

♫

SUFFER, SUFFER
SUFFER, SUFFER
SUFFER, SUFFER
все уебаны эй
SUFFER, SUFFER
SUFFER, SUFFER
SUFFER, SUFFER
все уебаны…

SUFFER XD'шные (prod. KISSSLOTA)

тгк - https://t.me/KISSSLOTA3

[Текст песни «MDMA RAVE»]


Вы слушаете реальную KISSSLOT’у
Дайте мне пульс


Я не feel’аю ниче, танцую как труп
KISSSLOTA это я сука слизывай яд с моих губ
Самый пиздатый нарцисс еще и самолюб 
KISSSLOTA всем пизда RAVE MDMA MDMA

♫

MDMA RAVE X_X MDMA RAVE
MDMA MDMA MDMA RAVE 😆
MDMA RAVE X_X MDMA RAVE
MDMA MDMA MDMA RAVE 😆

♪ ⊹⟡ ݁₊ .. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁ ⟡ ݁ . ⊹ ₊ ݁.

Эта сука под MDMA
Группа t.A.T.u. в моем player’е ща
Мертвая армия danc’ит прямо под KISSSLOTA
Мертвая армия danc’ит прямо под KISSSLOTA


Я не feel’аю ниче, танцую как труп
KISSSLOTA это я сука слизывай яд с моих губ
Самый пиздатый нарцисс еще и самолюб 
KISSSLOTA всем пизда RAVE MDMA MDMA


MDMA RAVE, MDMA RAVE
MDMA MDMA MDMA RAVE 
MDMA RAVE, MDMA RAVE
MDMA MDMA MDMA 

♫

MDMA RAVE X_X MDMA RAVE
MDMA MDMA MDMA RAVE 😆
MDMA RAVE X_X MDMA RAVE
MDMA MDMA MDMA RAVE 😆

(>_<)!±

MDMA RAVE (prod. KISSSLOTA)

Hello Listeners.

Past, present, future. It all connects, not always in the good way. In order to be whole, you have to accept your past.

Hope you enjoy!

Monzilla - Chained To The Past

produced by rubbish + 1point4
written, recorded, mixed, mastered, and cover art by cam lava
2 part song from the summer of 2023 at 19 years
untied the rope, but left with it

noose

noose2

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Art - Maxi69er
Reddit - /u/T-1m
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Sleep Paralysis.
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Free Running Sleep Circadian Rythmn Disorder.
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Bastard.
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My Name Is Maximilian J. Symons   -
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Hi everyone! 

Just a casual music producer who took a step forward and decided to publish his amazing splendid work :3
Get to listen to music of all sort. From Orchestra, to electronic and whatever.
My variety of is very wide, so you might notice many types and styles!

At the end of the day, my music is intended to only satisfy. 
So go on already! Hop on the tracks, close your eyes and enter an endless world of melodies and harmonies!

Make sure to Like and Subscribe. Peace!

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Daily Devotions and Weekly Messages from God's Word with John David Mull - Christ-follower, husband, and father.  Pastor of Shepherd of the Valley Church in West Des Moines, IA.

18 y.o. 

sss squad кишки/копыта коней

тгк - https://t.me/KISSSLOTA3

🎀 Suffered souls 🎀
Pfp and banner by n3k0manc3r on ig 
I’m so necrotrap :3

I make Christian songs from my Memories, Dreams or Commissions. I have Notebooks filled with my Dreams, so I'll be making a good amount of Music of all kinds :)
Cash App: $MrRainbowtheUnicorn

Songwriter
Music for the ones who feel too much.
(All the songs are AI generated)

We exist to inspire Gospel-centered discipleship everywhere we go.

• In-person: Sun 10am - Crowne Plaza - Union City, CA

We are a growing, multi-generational community united and led by Jesus, bringing renewal and peace at home and around the world.

We are a Friends or Quaker Church located in north Seattle. We are a community of people gathered to Listen to God and follow God's Leadings. We love Jesus! We are all ministers and seek to liberate each other in our ministries. We welcome all who desire to join us in this God adventure as we Listen to God and liberate each other to live into our God place in our world!

www.bondlezz.com

"Welcome to my musical journey, where my personal experiences and emotions come together through the art of songwriting.
Each piece I create reflects the emotions of my life, turning my deepest feelings into impactful lyrics that should inspire and help to heal if needed.
While studying Songwriting and Sound Engineering I am still using AI music production tools to explore soundscapes that enrich my narratives, merging deep emotions
with cutting-edge technology.
Every single word I'm using in my lyrics are written by myself.
(except the lyrics of the tracks I was reworking and did a cover version)
​
From the bottom of my heart I thank you for listening to my tunes."
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Let´s keep posted ... 


„I think songwriting is the ultimate form of being able to make anything that happens in your life productive.“ – Taylor Swift.

New tracks tagged #Suffer