It's about not giving up hope, about the helplessness of not being able to save someone, about the pandemic, and the distance we all felt.

Phoenix Waltz

Hang On A While

Lael Summer's soulful cover of "Hello" by Adele (sung in her car in Los Angeles October 2016). Lael died by suicide on July 26 2017. 
see TheLaelProject.com for more info.

Hello -  Lael Summer

this one flowed through me and my pain and acceptance of the need to heal before we pass. Please listen to the end. And share with those grieving. Those longing to be with them and for the pain to stop. I've got you. Stay strong. "gratitude each and every''. Inspired by the heartbreaking song of same name by Immortal. Technique.

You Never Know

Project deets below lyrics.

Lyrics:

Verse R1
Are you down on your luck
Are you in the struggle
To get out of bed or the solve the puzzle
Are you fitting in
Do you need a muzzle
Do the thoughts in your head have you so befuddled

With the state of your life
All the strife in the world
What's right, inside you still a little girl
I could stand to the side
I could try to fight
but I can't deny the times you been on my mind 'cause

I remember late at night, spinning all your rhymes
Spending time, sifting composition really is sublime
No tripping, just sipping on the meaning that's behind
All the words that you write how you are not alright
Now everybody blind to the pain inside
On your darkest day not a soul in sight
Rewind and remind that the sun still shine
I'll be by your side, just come to the light now

Verse S
Life has given you quite a lot of hard knocks my friend
Haven't given it just quite as good as you got, you think?
Oh isn't it funny how time never ever seems to stop
Upending our dreams, the rivers and streams
Are your tears stirring, you sink in particle beams
Won't you come to me, run to me and share your sorrow

Chorus
Can you see the clouds divide
Giving way to open blue skies
Is the rain now far behind
Will you spread your wings and fly, high

Verse R2
Are you down, is it bad
Cause I'm down there witchu
I been outta my head, man I'm going mental

You can say you ain't shit
Imma take some issue
But to find you was dead, girl you know I miss you

Cause we all about that bass
And they wanna give you treble
Know they whine about your vibe
Cause you on another level

Let me take you for a ride on a magic carpet
To the stars, how you shine is a work of art

Since the day that we met you impressed me with plenty of things
Hearing you sing, shudder to think behind the scenes
You're on the brink of the unthinkable

Tell you the worst is I can't do a thing
heart on a string, praying for strength
Till we go under I'm testing my wings
and riding this SHIP like it's UNSINKABLE

Verse S2
Life has given you too much hot to handle
And handle with care
Sit comparing as if you can't hold a candle
Like you're not even there

Ain't it funny how people never know when to stop
You're trapped in a dream, the rivers and screams of your fears
You're starting to sink (x2)
So just come to me, run to me and share your sorrow

Chorus

Bridge R
Я тебя люблю (I love you)
Не оставляй меня одну (Don't leave me alone)
Cause when it comes to losing you
I just don't know what I would do
ибо назвав себя подругой (for, having called myself a friend)
даже если против всей вселенной (even if against the entire universe)
я за тебя и за тобой (I'm for you and behind you)

Count me in, no pretend, can depend, I defend

Til the ends of the earth I will go just to show you your worth
Is it working, should I put more work in?
покажи свои эмоции (show your emotions)
I can tell that you are hurting

смотри, раздвинулись облака (look, the clouds have parted)
там, открывая чистое небо (there, opening up a clear sky)
позади теперь гроза (the storm is behind)
пусть крыля твои... пусть они полетят (let your wings... let them take flight)
(???)

[Audible sobbing]
Reach out, take my hand
I understand you
I want, you my friend, to live (sniffle)
To live again

Chorus

Adlib
I pray for you, I wait for you
My love for you is unending
I call for you, I fall for you
So get back up and don't fear me

Some days it may seem harder
Have faith you'll make it through
I want to see the smile on your face
I know you feel it too

More project details:
Vocals were recorded in an untreated basement and bedroom by me except @Troisnyx's vocal stems. About half of my takes are adlibs aside from the raps, which were recorded months apart, plus some throat singing from May ish of 2023. Pardon my ugly crying.

Keys from the original are present, performed by @Troisnyx.

ADR3-N, Tapestoppa, Troisnyx & MixRPD - Can You See The Clouds Divide (PENULTIMATE VERSION)

For my friend, Christian Earl Mieure
November 17, 2005 - December 12, 2024

Crisis hotlines:

National suicide hotline: 988

Crisis text line: 741741

SAMHSA's National Helpline: 1-800-487-4889

TrevorLifeLine (LGBTQ Support): 866-488-7386 (Text: 678678)



Painful (HQ)

Caught Up With Life is a deeply emotional track that reflects on the pain of losing a close friend to tragedy, only realizing the loss too late. With a raw intro that confesses, "It's hard to talk about these things, so I wrote them down on paper," the song captures the struggle of processing grief, guilt, and unanswered questions.
This song isn’t just about loss; it’s about reflection, growth, and carrying on a legacy. It’s a reminder to cherish the people we care about while they’re here, to check in with our friends, and to keep their memory alive.
A must-listen for anyone who’s faced the pain of losing someone too soon. This track is more than music—it’s a tribute, a story, and a wake-up call. Are you caught up with life,


amazone music

Caught Up With life

time is too slow, but it won't even feel you

Time's history

Look out for anyone you know struggling with depression. If you are just know there are other ways to end your suffering.

Goodbye Pt. 2

After dealing with some mental battles today, I needed a change of pace, so I made this song rather quickly. Enjoy this change of motivation! This will be part of another album called "It's Never Over"

Lyrics:
In this den,
It's cold and dark at night.
In this den,
I cannot take this life.
In this den,
I cannot make it through,
No matter what the battle,
I cannot see the truth.

I want to give up all I have,
No one to see me when I'm sad,
I cannot take this anymore,
The more I think, the more I'm torn.
Maybe it's time I give it up,
maybe it's time I end my life,
Or maybe I should take my time,
To realize I'm worth the fight.

Silence fills this darkened home,
No one to help me, let me know,
That I am not a burden,
That I am not alone.
But now the truth is found,
I am the one who should be sound!
No more thoughts,
No more end,
There won't be death here in the den!

I realized,
I'm more than just a waste,
I realized,
I'm more than just a weight.
I realize,
I can make it through the night,
No matter how hard it gets,
I can always win this fight!

I want to live the life I have,
There's help for me even when I'm sad,
I can take this life of mine,
and make it whole if I just try.
So hear me now it's time to shine!
No matter what, I'll make it fine!
It's not to late, for me to see,
I'm more than what I find in me!

Silence fills this darkened home,
No one to help me, let me know,
That I am not a burden,
That I am not alone.
But now the truth is found,
I am the one who should be sound!
No more thoughts,
No more end,
There won't be death here in the den!

So if you hear this song,
Just know you're not alone!
If you sing along,
You'll make it through all on your own!
Just hear me out,
You can make it through the fight!
Through the pain,
through the day,
even through the darkened night!

Silence fills this darkened home,
No one to help me, let me know,
That I am not a burden,
That I am not alone.
But now the truth is found,
I am the one who should be sound!
No more thoughts,
No more end,
There won't be death here in the den!


Death in This Den

All my emotions, no words. An echo chamber of a somber, drawn out grief. A hope. Being drawn into the light only to be zapped. Inspired by African textures and inner chaos transmuted into a chilling melody that explains what I can’t with my tongue. The experience of everything all at once. - 
Produced by äRA
Amapiano sample (background man with amplified voice)- TJEYA
Beat tag: prod by äRA on keyboard (laughter, high pitched noise) 
W/ feature of Nettè saying Keara

Free Man

"Where You Fell" by Lazy Radiographer – A Haunting Ballad of Grief, Suicide, and Unspoken Love

“Where You Fell” is a soul-shattering emotional ballad by Lazy Radiographer, exploring the quiet devastation of losing someone to suicide. With poetic lyrics and minimalist instrumentation, this raw, heartfelt song delves into the aftermath of grief, guilt, and the longing to have done more.

Told from the perspective of someone left behind, "Where You Fell" mourns the subtle signs missed and the invisible battles fought behind a smile. Set against a backdrop of gentle piano and mournful cello, it’s a tribute to those we couldn’t save and a whisper to the ones still holding on.

This track is for anyone grappling with loss, navigating mental health, or searching for a way to say what was left unsaid.

Themes:
Suicide Loss
Mental Health Awareness
Grief and Remembrance
Emotional Healing
Unspoken Love
Haunting Acoustic Ballads

Featuring:
Expressive male vocals
Piano and cello arrangement
Slow tempo (65 BPM)
Heartbreaking lyricism in A minor

Where you Fell

A song for the lost

Samples - Nedd 2 Pinegrove

FADE-OUT/FADE-IN (#SUICIDEAWARENESS)

"Die With My Boots On (Acoustic Version)" is a stripped-down, raw performance dedicated to men’s mental health and suicide awareness. This version removes the noise and leaves only the truth — the weight of struggle, the silence of loneliness, and the resilience it takes to keep standing. Sometimes the heaviest battles are the quietest ones. This song is for anyone who’s ever carried the burden and kept walking.

If you’re struggling, know you’re not alone.

Need help? You’re not the only one.
If this song hit too close to home, just know there’s someone ready to listen.

U.S.: Call, text, or chat 988 for the Suicide & Crisis Lifeline

Worldwide: Visit Find a Helpline to locate support near you

Guys, looking for tailored help? HeadsUpGuys or Man Therapy have tools for you
You’re not alone — talk helps.


DIE WITH MY BOOTS ON (Acoustic Version)

I’m so tired

I will be what some say that I can not be (zhake)

Singer and eclectic songwriter. Irish soul, hope monger. My debut solo EP 'Phoenix Waltz' will be released in 2025.

Due to my mental feel free if I ever stop posting suddenly to make an archive of me. I’d very much appreciate my music living on forever.😁

beautiful melodies and audible dreams 
Discord: amnotcj 
coping through music

AK CULT 

Im a producer mainly making different styles of electronic music and blast phonk 

I’m a little silly…

LOVE TO ALL MY LISTENERS AND THIS COMMUNITY🖤❤️

Rx7 my beloved

Edgy teenager (sadly and corny asf)

Duo: RRA1NYD4Y$$ and BYTE

BIGGEST INSPOS:

$ENSELESS
Kogeki
HUSSVRX
wxllflower
dissonaxce playa
RRA1NYD4Y$$ 
skyy 
bb6 

The bros:
Kogeki (unc)

Zaya/$ENSELESS (luh twin epic rizz)

RRA1NYD4Y$$ (lowk klahh😂)

Byte (fanny purple girl guy epic Russia thing nerd fud)

F34R (veiny Dih funny phonk gyatt guy autum fall)

Uhhhh
Uhm 
That one guy and uh
The hat man
OH!

FVLCXN
(lowk a real jit also funny hat man)

xzvhel (oh my days is that south music. The blokes gone mad on siege also w rizz😼)

Rexxx
(epic phonk guy and cool guy epic YouTube guy and uh the uhm the reich and shi)


Uh 
Penis 

Max a neym and uh dawnicy and Ken folk or wtv tf I forgot lowk there’s hella people to list that I talk to but I love this community mostly😭

and anyone else you know who you are you are loved😼

I’m here to make music fun. I’m down to collab with anyone. Let’s make some music!

🎤 Welcome to Lazy Radiographer – where music meets mayhem and medicine meets madness. I create original, parodies, and dark humour songs, inspired by real life in healthcare, radiography, and everyday absurdity.

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A green fox who dealt with a ton of pain

Music is AI generated. Lyrics written from my own inspiration and my life experiences

I don’t make music to be famous. I make it so no one feels as alone as I did.

For 40 years I’ve carried scars that never seemed to heal. My songs are pieces of that fight—pain, survival, and the long walk through fire. Every beat, every lyric, is a hand reaching back for the ones still trapped in the dark.

I’m AIBRY. A songwriter, a builder, a survivor. My music isn’t polished for the charts—it’s raw, unmasked, and honest. If it keeps even one person breathing through the night, then it’s done its job.

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