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Light in You ✦2 | Deep Trap - MV

[Intro - 0:00 to 0:18] Glass bulb explodes on steel-sharp, brittle shards clink like bones. Slow heartbeat thump (80 BPM). Bus door hisses open. Whisper, layered: Du bist mein... du bist mein... (you are mine) in German, looping, pitched low like a drunk memory. [Verse 1 - 0:18 to 1:10] Bus ride. Two thousand miles. I sat there, gut empty, head full of her voice. Three days in Oregon-she poured vodka, smiled like a gift. Then the hand. The first slap. Sound like wet meat on tile. I didn't move. Couldn't. Not yet. Sold me that night. Room smelled like bleach and sweat. Inside her? Dead. Numb. High. Heroin in my vein, her nails in my neck-same burn, same blank. Wanted to die but body said no. Someone else kept breathing for me. [Pre-Chorus - 1:10 to 1:25] She called me doll. Held me like broken china-arms locked, smile cracked. I said yes because no was a gun. I said love you because hate was blood on the floor. [Chorus - 1:25 to 1:55] Puppet, puppet-strings in your teeth, Move for me, bleed for me, breathe for me, High enough to forget my name, Low enough to feel every chain. Puppet, puppet-cut me loose, But the cut's the proof: I was used. (Hook starts here-addictive loop) Puppet... puppet... puppet... (stutter-glitch echo) [Verse 2 - 1:55 to 2:40] She hit because she could. I stayed because I learned: Safe looks like pain. Love looks like fists. Every thrust-needle in my spine, Every bruise-map of where I broke. She sold me like stock. They paid. I didn't. I counted cracks in the ceiling like stars. Said one more to the spoon, to her mouth, to the mirror- Anything to not feel the doll's empty eyes staring back. [Bridge - 2:40 to 3:10] (60 BPM stutter) Child whisper: Du bist mein... (you are mine...) Glass shatters again-loud, close. Her voice: You're nothing without me. My voice? Silent. Five says: run. Odium says: kill. Alice says: please. I said: pass the needle. [Final Chorus - 3:10 to 3:40] Puppet, puppet-no more strings, Snip 'em clean, watch me swing. High enough to float, low enough to fall- But I won't beg. Won't crawl. Puppet, puppet-cut me free, The doll's awake-he sees me. (Hook repeats-addictive, louder, glitch heavier) Puppet... puppet... puppet... (echo fades, but last word lingers: free) [Outro - 3:40 to 4:00] Silence. Then-one final glass shatter, distant. Heartbeat stops. Breath. You're not a doll. You're done.

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Puppet [ CVLT 13 ]

(Verse 1)  
Fuck me like a whore, you know it's what I'm used to,  
I just want to feel love, even if it hurts me true.  
Trapped in a hole, but I can still see myself,  
Wrap me in the thrill, fuck, I wish I was killed.  
Fuck me like you hate me, you're my fucking disease,  
Time is running past, but it means nothing to me.  

(Chorus)  
Give me drugs, I don't want to feel me in you,  
So sick, so fucked over, what else can I do?  
I want everything I can get when love means nothing,  
But I don't want you, no, I don't want your sting.  
I have to taste the destruction you did to me,  
It's a hate that consumed me, you make me sick as can be.  

(Verse 2)  
Vomiting up the thoughts of you, cutting out the parts of me,  
But I still taste them today, they won't let me be free.  
I wanted to kill myself every time we fucked,  
You used me like a toy, put me through hell, couldn't get unstuck.  
Love was violence, every hit was depravity,  
I can't feel love now unless I get fucked savagely.  

(Bridge)  
I don't want to die alone, you ripped my heart out raw,  
It's already sick with promises, can't take it anymore.  
I'm done with it all, have to relearn everything,  
From the ashes of your hell, I'll find my own wing.  

(Chorus)  
Give me drugs, I don't want to feel me in you,  
So sick, so fucked over, what else can I do?  
I want everything I can get when love means nothing,  
But I don't want you, no, I don't want your sting.  
I have to taste the destruction you did to me,  
It's a hate that consumed me, you make me sick as can be.  

(Outro)  
Fuck me like a whore, but now I'm breaking free,  
From the disease you gave, reclaiming me.  
Trapped no more, I'll heal the scars you left,  
Love means something now, in my own breath.




Your Doll

LYRICS

Chaque matin je me lève, avec le poids  du passé,
Cette maison vide, témoin de mes amours absents.
Les souvenirs m’étreignent, ils ne me quittent jamais,
Je vis dans l’ombre de ce que j’ai laissé passer.

Les remords m’encerclent, ils sont là, tout autour,
Je tente de respirer, mais mes pensées m’étouffent toujours.
Je veux juste un instant, un instant de répit,
Mais les souvenirs s’accrochent, et s'accrochent, encore et encore.

Je cherche la sérénité, dans un océan de doutes,
Mais mes pensées me piègent, elles me cachent la route.
Je veux fuir ces regrets, mais ils sont ancrés en moi,
Je suis perdu dans le temps, prisonnière de ma propre foi.

 Les jours se suivent, ils sont pareils, et sans éclat,
Je suis prisonnière d'un tourbillon qui n'en finit pas.
Les erreurs de ma jeunesse me hantent sans répit,
Je veux trouver la paix, mais le passé me poursuit.

Je cherche la sérénité, dans un océan de doutes,
Mais mes pensées me piègent, elles me cachent la route.
Je veux fuir ces regrets, mais ils sont ancrés en moi,
Je suis perdu dans le temps, prisonnière de ma propre foi.

Je revois les visages, les rires que j’ai oubliés,
Je revois les chemins que je n’ai jamais empruntés.
Chaque décision, chaque choix me revient en face,
Et je me demande encore, où est passée ma grâce.

Mais le temps est cruel, il n'attend jamais,
Et les remords me tiennent, je n'arrive plus à m'évader,
Alors je marche seule, dans le silence de ma nuit,
Les ombres du passé me suivent, elles me guident sans bruit.
Je suis enfermée dans ce cycle, sans fin et sans espoir.

Prisonnière

Prisonnière

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My name is Derek aka ERC20. I live in California, USA. I enjoy creating dubstep music, collaborating with other artists, and connecting with fans of my music!

This is My AI Band for my Trauma Art Therapy Music.
All Lyrics Written & Developments done by me Echos or Nexus Khimera. Including how I created the Sound and all Lyrics are from my personal Experiences. 

Welcome I'm Nexus Khimera. I have been a vocalist & lyricist since I was 15 , now I'm 38. My doctors asked me to try it for therapy. I never stopped. I have been diagnosed with Antisocial/BPD Cluster C Personality Disorder, Dissociative Identity Disorder, CPTSD/ PTSD. I've had DID since I was young around 5 next 15 then through 19 to 38. My alters have been writing since 15, to help realise stored buried trauma & use their voices helping them to crawl to the surface. I'm a survivor of sexual, physical & emotional abuse & victim of domestic violence. My alters told me to start creating music here, when I started here I got sick, after playing them over and over. I got nauseous my guts were speaking to me, I could feel them surfacing. Crawling around MelanKholyia N the system. From family, to their friends and every one I tried to get close would abuse me, abandoned me or used me as a doll until I was as hollow as the echoes of the fundamental nothingness the obsidian womb. This is my Trauma Art Therapy. Bringing Mental Health Awareness to music notes. If you struggle with | Dissociative Identity Disorder | Antisocial Personality Disorder CPTSD PTSD. This music just for us <3.
 Thank you for your support. Thank you for not taking my music or stuff out of what I'm really trying to do now with the info I have now told confronted my on my family telling them what happened tonight. As last night for the first time I confronted my family. All I got was lies from them as they turned what they have done against me as they have my whole life now I have proof , at this point their lies and denial has got me to this point.
I will not hide myself or feel ashamed to tell the truth now because I've learn to accept myself for once I my life. I'm sick of this self hate and disgusted because of what I have become because of my environments and things that happened to me. Because of the embarrassment and how much I hate myself because well that's whats happens when everytime you try to say something others are invading the places. That are made to be safe. I'm not going to stay quite ever again I will scream out until I lose all breath. The stigma must be broken .

38 Years old

Syracuse IN

With a Masters & Dissociative Degree N Damage & Art

I write all lyrics in both Bands

Regarding the musical projects, "Echo's N Melankholyia" is an online band where I serve as the lyricist and intend to transition into vocal duties. For the live band "Mothyii," I am the lyricist and vocalist. As a professional artist, poet, and lyricist, I have received diagnoses for ASPD, BPD, DID, ADHD, SAD, OCD, GAD, Panic Disorder, Agoraphobia, and Hypersexuality.

Nexus Khimera utilizes musical expression as a form of trauma art therapy, channeling experiences of abuse, toxic relationships, and addiction into compositions. The artist's work, reflecting a journey of survival and recovery, incorporates elements of Goth Rock, Industrial Rock, Nu Metal, Gothcore, Post Rock, Grunge, Post Grunge, Dark Wave, and cyberpunk. The resulting soundscapes are characterized by haunting atmospheres, dark ambient textures, and emotionally charged layers, reflecting themes of mental health and personal struggle. As Nexus Khimera, I operate as an artist, poet, lyricist, and vocalist, exploring the complexities of the human psyche within the context of cosmic themes. My creative endeavors, influenced by Borderline Personality Disorder and the effects of past trauma, serve as a means of processing and transforming internal struggles. My artistic practice encompasses a range of mediums, including charcoal drawings that blend biomechanical and Lovecraftian elements, dark surrealism, and abstract expressions derived from emotional experiences. Through a combination of AI-assisted and traditional techniques, I aim to confront and transmute personal traumas into evocative visual narratives. My poetry also plays a crucial role in this process. My artistic expression, characterized by free verse, unconventional lyrics, and a distinctive vocal delivery, functions as a therapeutic outlet, allowing for the articulation of complex emotions and observations of a world often perceived through a somber lens.

I invite you to explore this realm of shadowed beauty and candid revelations. Please follow Nexus Khimera on social media to stay informed about his creative endeavors.

Thank you for your visit. I hope your day is filled with moments of both wonder and introspection. I encourage you to return soon.

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© 2025 by Echo's N Melankholyia. Lyrics by Nexus Khimera. All rights reserved. Music generated with Suno AI. Date: September 5, 2025. "It all Begins." Decipher the underlying messages. Encryption is my method.Characterized by free verse, unconventional lyrics, and a distinctive vocal delivery, it functions as a therapeutic outlet, allowing for the articulation of complex emotions and observations of a world often perceived through a somber lens.

I Invite you to explore this realm of shadowed beauty and candid revelations. Please follow Nexus Khimera on social media to stay informed about his creative endeavors.

Thank you for your visit. I hope your day is filled with moments of both wonder and introspection. I encourage you to return soon.

Please explore my band, Echo's N Melankholyia, and consider subscribing. Thank you all for your support.

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