Reconnect with the most tender, powerful part of you — your inner child. This guided meditation gently leads you into a safe space of self-compassion, allowing you to meet, nurture, and heal the younger version of yourself who still carries unmet needs and unprocessed emotions.

Through visualization, breath, and subconscious connection, you'll create a profound sense of safety, love, and emotional release.

This is for anyone ready to break old cycles, heal emotional wounds, and reclaim their wholeness.

Best listened to in a quiet, uninterrupted space with an open heart.

Inner Child Healing

In this episode of Twice 5 Miles Radio, I speak with Rev. Barbara Lane, author of Broken Water, a memoir of childhood trauma, foster care, and reunion with the sisters she was separated from at age three. Barbara’s story is both heartbreaking and healing—a journey through abandonment and abuse into the power of love, memory, and inner resilience.

We talk about how the light of the divine lives in each of us, even in the darkest moments. Barbara shares how the Grovian coaching method and symbolic metaphor can open new paths to healing. Her work is grounded in the belief that you're not what happened to you—you are the story you choose to live now.

If you've ever felt weighed down by the past, this conversation offers „a way through. A reminder that even if the water breaks, it still flows—and you’re still here.

Learn more about Barbara's work at www.barbaralane.info.
 here

Rev. Barbara Lane: Broken Water—Power of Metaphor

Episode 1: Meet Liliana Brown | A Journey from Foster Care to Healing Through 12-Step

Welcome to the very first episode of the Resilient Now Podcast, hosted by Liliana Brown. In this powerful debut, Liliana shares her deeply personal story—growing up in Miami, navigating the foster care system, and facing the emotional challenges that shaped her early life.

After moving to Los Angeles, Liliana began a transformative healing journey through 12-step recovery, holistic practices, and inner work. In this episode, she reflects on what resilience truly means and why she launched this podcast: to create a space for authentic connection, healing, and hope.

💫 Whether you're overcoming trauma, rebuilding your life, or simply looking for inspiration, Resilient Now is here for you. This is more than a podcast—it’s a movement for those who have endured, evolved, and are still rising.

✨ In This Episode:
• Liliana’s experience in foster care in Miami
• Moving to Los Angeles and discovering healing practices
• Her journey through trauma and transformation
• The inspiration behind Resilient Now
• A message for anyone feeling lost, broken, or ready to rise

🔗 Follow Liliana & Join the Resilient Now Community:
Instagram: @ResilientNowPodcast
Website: www.ResilientNowPodcast.com

🎧 Subscribe on YouTube, Spotify, and Apple Podcasts for new episodes!

Episode 1: Meet Liliana Brown | From Foster Care to Finding Freedom & Purpose

🎙 Resilient Now Podcast 

💫 Whether you’re navigating trauma, rebuilding your life, or simply looking for inspiration, you are welcome here.

🔔 Don’t forget to subscribe and hit the bell to stay updated on new episodes every week.

Follow Liliana Brown & Join the Resilient Now Community:
Instagram: @ResilientNowPodcast
Website: www.ResilientNowPodcast.com
Subscribe for new episodes!

Welcome to the "Resilient Now Podcast" Hosted by Liliana Brown

🔻 Song Insight
“When I Dream” is a raw, cinematic unraveling of what it feels like to suffer in silence — both awake and asleep. It explores the terrifying vulnerability of trauma that lingers beyond daylight, slipping into dreams where even rest becomes a battleground. The song shifts between a desperate plea for peace and a scathing confrontation with the past, reflecting the duality of healing: the craving for protection and the rage at those who shattered it.

Through haunting lyricism and visceral imagery, 4Me2BeFree guides listeners through emotional limbo — from walls built in solitude to poisoned love that haunts like a ghost. This is not just a song; it’s an exorcism of betrayal and a yearning for rebirth inside a dreamscape once hijacked by pain.

🔻 Lyrics
[Intro]
I hate my dreams...
Come make new memories with me
heartbeat thump
So I don't have to feel this pain when I'm asleep...

[Verse 1]
When I dream, I never get to sleep
Come with me... let's make a better place
Help release me from this grip
I used to dream an escape
Now it’s tied down by a past I can’t keep

[Chorus]
I want to laugh... I want to be at peace
Play in dreams that feel like me
Be my Sandman, be my light
Hold me through this haunted night
Build a world where I can breathe
Where love can stay and fear can leave

[Verse 2]
Why these images inside my head?
A direction that I’ve long since fled
Sorted the pain... refiled the cries
Closed the gate, locked it tight, let it die
I made my way, no hand to hold
Laid my bricks alone in the cold

[Pre-Chorus]
Eyes wide open—I saw it all
Felt the pain... every single fall
Love was broken, trust was torn
Hope was stolen, I was worn

[Chorus]
But I want to laugh... I want to be free
Dream in colors that live in me
Be my Sandman, bring me calm
Take these thoughts and right the wrong
Make this world with what we’ve got
Show the world that love is not lost

[Bridge – Breakdown]
I used to wake up laughing
My dreams fed off my energy—free
But every piece you stole from me
Tore the core, shattered what used to be

Darker they got with every cut
No time to heal, no mercy, no "enough"
My pure white, muddied with dread
By hands that swore to love instead

You poisoned me with a trusted touch
Built up faith, then crushed it rough
You watched me fall with deadened eyes
No reason... just lies
You grin like sin, your past a sham
No part of you still counts as man

[Outro]
I try to stand strong... but in dreams, I’m still alone
I need someone who won’t leave me on my own
I’ll survive, I’ll rise, I’ll stand —
But with you... I might finally land
I see smiles in my future still
A love unlearned, a heart to rebuild...

🔻 Personal Reflection
This song was born from nights I couldn’t rest — not because of noise, but because of memory. The kind of memory that sticks to your lungs and shows up in dreams where even sleep feels unsafe. “When I Dream” came from that space — not just grief or heartbreak, but the residue of betrayal that keeps bleeding long after the wound should’ve closed.

Writing this track was a way to take back control of the space in my head that used to be peaceful. I used to wake up laughing… and I want that back. There’s a line in here that says, “I made my way, no help, all alone” — and that’s true. But I’ve also learned I don’t have to stay that way. This isn’t a fairy tale. It’s a survival story. And maybe, just maybe, it’s also the beginning of something healing.


🔻 Copyright Notice
"All lyrics and content featured in this post are protected under copyright (© 2025) and have been securely time-locked and validated through a crypto-based verification system to ensure originality and ownership. Unauthorized reproduction or distribution of any part of these works without explicit consent is strictly prohibited."



When I Dream

Episode 4: Meet Rene Miller | Rising from the Flames: A Los Angeles Fire Survival Story

In this powerful episode of the Resilient Now Podcast, we meet Rene Miller, a true survivor who lived through a devastating Los Angeles fire that changed her life forever. From losing everything to rising from the ashes, Rene shares her journey of survival, healing, and hope. Her story is a testament to human resilience and the strength it takes to rebuild after unimaginable loss.

🌟 Be inspired by Rene’s courage.
🎙️ Listen, learn, and be resilient now.

🎧 Listen now and don’t forget to subscribe for more powerful stories!

Episode 4: Meet Rene Miller | Rising from the Flames: A Los Angeles Fire Survival Story

Sleep is more than just rest — it’s a reflection of our inner world.
In this episode, we explore how ongoing sleep struggles can point to something deeper beneath the surface, including mental health challenges like anxiety, trauma, or burnout.

Whether you’re someone who’s tossing and turning at night or you support others through their wellbeing journey, this reflection will help you understand what disrupted sleep might really be trying to tell you.

We’ll cover:
– When sleep issues are more than “just bad habits”
– The links between trauma, stress and poor sleep
– Why emotional exhaustion leads to wired-but-tired nights
– How to spot signs that it's time to seek support
– What you can do today to take back control of your rest

🧠 Like what you hear?
Download the Ava Mind app for guided support, daily wellbeing tools, and access to real therapists — all in one place.
IOS: https://apps.apple.com/gb/app/ava-mind-mental-health-app/id6479784703
Android: https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.usemindscape.public_app

🎙️ Want more?
Sol and Elia go deeper into this topic in our companion podcast series “This Is Not a Real Podcast” — cheeky title, serious conversations.
Available now on YouTube and wherever you get your podcasts.

When Sleep Problems Signal a Deeper Issue- Recognising Signs and Seeking Help

“Through the Kaleidoscope” is a deeply personal spoken-word journey from David Burnell, drawn directly from his own experience with PTSD and the long road to healing. Through raw imagery and grounded emotion, David takes listeners inside the fractured lens of trauma—shaped by military service, rescue missions, violence, and profound loss. It captures the spinning thoughts, the hypervigilance, the quiet moments when breathing feels impossible. But more than a reflection of pain, this piece is a testament to hope. Rooted in real therapy, breakthrough moments, and a desire to heal, it’s a voice for those who have walked through fire and wonder if life can feel whole again. It can. David’s voice is living proof.

Through the Kaleidoscope - A Journey of Healing (Spoken Ballad)

Through the Kaleidoscope (A Journey of Healing)

I left the fire with no sound
The match still thinks I’m burnt
He threw the clay in my face
I moved to my place

No curtain, no last scene
Just space enough to breathe

No applause for walking on
No sorrow in my bed
Held my soul in my hand
Still and deep, I stand
He drained the well....I left the spring
Silently, I win

He built a wall of glass
And broke it just to break
Kept throwing stones
I went from hot to cold

No answer left to chase
Just sky, just grace

No applause for walking on
No sorrow in my bed
Dried my tears, no more scars
Held my soul in my hand
Still and deep, I stand
Silently, I win

Let him storm
Let him shout
I hid my soul now
No more fire, no more show
I just grow

[Final Chorus]
No applause, no parade
only me I save
He played the noise, I left the game
remember my own name
Hold my hand
Silently, I win

[Outro]
once I died
But now I glow
The silence
Holds my name

once I died
But now I glow
The silence
wins
the silence
wins..
hmmm

Silence Wins

Vivian Khor - Grammy-Nominated composer of contemporary piano and orchestral music, artist, songwriter, music producer. I write songs that come from my heart.

"If it didn’t matter, it wouldn’t hurt. Pain is the gift of knowing you’re alive."

4Me2BeFree is more than music—it’s my story, my scars, and my survival. Every song is a piece of me, a raw melody of love, heartbreak, and resilience. I blend AI-generated vocals and instruments with real emotions, turning my experiences—especially from an LGBTQ+ perspective—into something that speaks to anyone who's ever felt lost, broken, or just searching for something real.

Breakup songs? Yeah, they hit different. Music carries us through the worst of it, and every generation finds their own anthems of love, loss, and getting back up. Heartache doesn’t care about age, gender, or where you come from—music connects us all.

I make music because I’ve been there. The pain, the anger, the hope—it's all in these songs. If something here hits home for you, let it. If you feel something, let me know. That’s the connection that keeps this alive.

Guided Meditations • Subconscious Healing • Energy Alignment
For visionaries, soulpreneurs & cycle-breakers ready to rise.
🎙️ Podcast • 🔗 linktr.ee/thesoulshiftexperience

Twice 5 Miles Radio is an hour-long interview show that digs beneath the surface with people with much to say and the courage to say.  The show's title (Twice 5 Miles) comes from lines in Samuel Taylor Coleridge's poem Kubla Khan. 

I am a poet, storyteller, educator, and manuscript coach with an MFA in Writing from Vermont College of Fine Arts. With over 20 years of experience, I’ve taught workshops on writing, creativity, and public speaking worldwide, drawing from a background that includes memorizing 600+ poems and performing poetic storytelling globally.

My latest book, 100 Days: A Poetic Memoir After Cancer, was published by 3: A Taos Press in May 2023. I’ve also co-authored How to Read for an Audience and Write What You Don’t Know: Ten Steps to Writing with Confidence, Energy, and Flow. Through The Imaginative Storm Writing Project, co-created with Allegra Huston, I guide writers to unlock their creativity and craft impactful, dynamic work.

As co-founder of The Artist’s Way Creativity Camp with Julia Cameron, I’ve taught creativity courses for over two decades. Julia describes me as “a quick, curious mind with a humanist eye for poetic detail and an important force for change.”

I’ve also served as director of The Taos Storytelling and Poetry Festivals and host Twice 5 Miles Radio, a podcast broadcast in Asheville and Taos and streamed on SoundCloud.

Cinematic spoken-word reflections on war, service, and the human cost of duty—told with raw honesty and reverence.

New tracks tagged #TraumaHealing