Dr Bessel van der Kolk is a clinician, researcher, and teacher who has spent his professional life studying how children and adults adapt to traumatic experiences.

He specialises in translating emerging findings from neuroscience and attachment research to develop and study a range of effective treatments for traumatic stress and developmental trauma in children and adults.

He is the author of the New York Times Bestseller: The Body Keeps the Score, the Founder of Trauma Center in Boston, and currently serves as President of the Trauma Research Foundation. 

In this conversation, we explore: 

— The role that neurofeedback can play in healing developmental trauma

—  Dr van der Kolk’s study examining the effects of MDMA on PTSD

— The essential difference between those who were traumatised by the 9-11 attacks and those who weren’t

— How developmental trauma leads to deficits in sensory integration areas of the brain and the most effective treatments for addressing this. 

And more. 

You can learn more about Dr van der Kolk’s work by going to: https://traumaresearchfoundation.org/

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Bessel van der Kolk MD spends his career studying how children and adults adapt to traumatic experiences, and has translated emerging findings from neuroscience and attachment research to develop and study a range of treatments for traumatic stress in children and adults.

In 1984, he set up one of the first clinical/research centers in the US dedicated to study and treatment of traumatic stress in civilian populations, which has trained numerous researchers and clinicians specializing in the study and treatment of traumatic stress, and which has been continually funded to research the impact of traumatic stress and effective treatment interventions. He has focused on studying treatments that stabilize physiology, increase executive functioning and help traumatized individuals to feel fully alert to the present. ​

His efforts resulted in the establishment of Trauma Center (now the Trauma Research Foundation) that consisted of a well-trained clinical team specializing in the treatment of children and adults with histories of child maltreatment, that applied treatment models that are widely taught and implemented nationwide, a research lab that studied the effects of neurofeedback and MDMA on behavior, mood, and executive functioning, and numerous trainings nationwide to a variety of mental health professional, educators, parent groups, policy makers, and law enforcement personnel.

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3 Books Dr van Der Kolk Recommends Every Therapist Should Read: 

— John Bowlby - Attachment and Loss - https://amzn.to/4bOd3NK

— Daniel Stern - The Interpersonal World of the Infant - https://amzn.to/4e1aTf8

— Ed Tronick - The Neurobehavioral and Social-Emotional Development of Infants and Children (Norton Series on Interpersonal Neurobiology) - https://amzn.to/459qIwa

Dr. Bessel van der Kolk — Attachment and Trauma

Tammy Cox shares powerful tools to reclaim self-worth, set healthy boundaries, and heal after trauma.

In this transformative episode of the Healing Through Love Podcast, we welcome Tammy Cox, a dedicated Transformational Coach who specializes in helping women reclaim their self-worth and heal after experiencing trauma. Tammy shares her expertise on overcoming the emotional wounds of domestic and family violence and how survivors can rebuild their confidence, set healthy boundaries, and create lasting personal transformation.

Tammy’s own journey of healing and self-discovery allows her to deeply connect with those struggling to find their voice after trauma. She explains how self-healing is not just about moving on from the past but about rediscovering self-worth, reshaping relationship patterns, and stepping into a life of empowerment. Through inner child healing and practical techniques, she teaches survivors how to break free from negative cycles and cultivate relationships that honour their emotional well-being.

This episode offers actionable strategies for survivors to rebuild their sense of self, shift unhealthy relationship dynamics, and create a future of emotional strength and healthy connections. Tammy provides insights into how personal healing transforms relationships, empowering listeners with the tools to take control of their lives and embrace a new chapter of self-respect and confidence.

Whether you’re a survivor seeking guidance or someone supporting a loved one on their healing journey, this episode is filled with valuable insights and inspiration.

Key Points from the Interview:

1.	Techniques for Reclaiming Self-Worth: How to rebuild confidence and establish a strong sense of identity after trauma.

2.	Breaking Negative Relationship Patterns: Strategies for setting healthy boundaries and fostering positive connections.

3.	The Power of Personal Healing: How self-healing creates transformation in relationships and overall emotional well-being.

Listen Now: Discover how to heal, reclaim your self-worth, and transform your relationships with Tammy Cox. Let’s heal through love!

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2025 EP145 Reclaiming Self-Worth: Tammy Cox on Healing & Transforming After Trauma

This track is raw and unapologetic, cutting to the bone. She had nothing; he gave her everything: love, loyalty, and a home. But her gleeful treachery shattered his life and his trust. Behind her charm was a manipulative, malignant narcissist who turned his sanctuary into a secret playground of depravity. He eventually saw through her, but how do you destroy what’s already dead inside?

This beat tells a story of betrayal, deception, and rage, leading to the exile of a degenerate con artist who posed as a loving woman. It emphasizes survival and reclaiming one's life from a monstrous, unfeeling predator. The narrative underscores that while deception can momentarily weaken us, those with strength of spirit will always rise, while the soulless are left in emptiness, unable to love or be loved. Turn it up and feel that energy.

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Girlfriend! (a Rap Anthem in Three Parts)

In this episode of Twice 5 Miles Radio, I speak with Rev. Barbara Lane, author of Broken Water, a memoir of childhood trauma, foster care, and reunion with the sisters she was separated from at age three. Barbara’s story is both heartbreaking and healing—a journey through abandonment and abuse into the power of love, memory, and inner resilience.

We talk about how the light of the divine lives in each of us, even in the darkest moments. Barbara shares how the Grovian coaching method and symbolic metaphor can open new paths to healing. Her work is grounded in the belief that you're not what happened to you—you are the story you choose to live now.

If you've ever felt weighed down by the past, this conversation offers „a way through. A reminder that even if the water breaks, it still flows—and you’re still here.

Learn more about Barbara's work at www.barbaralane.info.
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Rev. Barbara Lane: Broken Water—Power of Metaphor

🎵 SONG INSIGHT:
"Mistake" is a raw, emotional confession wrapped inside a late-night emo-rap flow. Drifting between numbness and regret, the track captures the breaking point where love turns predatory, and survival demands letting go. With dark ambient layers, ghosted echoes, and a broken freestyle delivery, "Mistake" strikes like a blade hidden in a heartbeat — slow, lethal, undeniable. A brutal reflection on betrayal, control, and reclaiming identity when there’s nothing left to lose."


🎶 SONG LYRICS:
[Intro]
Watchin’ shadows on my ceiling,
Tell me stay, but I’m leaving,
Bent my soul, can’t find meaning,
Just a vein, just a feeling…

[Verse 1]
Made me freeze,
You said “please,”
Broke my trust,
I can’t breathe,
Just a fix,
Just a glitch,
Just a memory I can’t ditch.

Thought you’d quit,
But you didn’t,
Laid there numb,
Still you’re winning,
Blood runs cold,
Mind keeps spinning,
Hooked on pain,
Soul keeps thinning.

[Pre-Chorus]
You said "love,"
You said "trust,"
Broke us down,
Left me dust.

[Chorus]
Can't see me in the mirror,
Cracked glass, vision unclear,
Fed my veins, made me stay,
You ain’t love, you just prey.

(Ad-lib: "You just prey… yeah, yeah…")

[Verse 2]
Walls closing in,
Breath running out,
Lungs on fire,
Heart full of doubt.

Asked if I’m good,
Nah, I’m lost,
Trapped in your law,
Counting the cost.

Knew you lied,
Knew I died,
Inside.

[Bridge]
Took my name,
Took my breath,
Took my fight,
Left me death.

Just a mistake,
Just a-
Just a fuckin’ mistake.

[Chorus]
Can't see me in the mirror,
Cracked glass, vision unclear,
Fed my veins, made me stay,
You ain’t love, you just prey.

(Echoed ad-lib: "You just prey… you just prey…")

[Outro]
Just a memory,
Just a vein,
Just a ghost in the rain…

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Mistake

🎧 Song Insight: Hollow Static
"Static" is a grunge-drenched memory collapse—built on distortion, shadow, and the residue of betrayal. The track opens in a haze of stereo static and slips into a body haunted by the weight of untold stories. What begins as fragmented remembrance ends in a stark emotional void. The glitch-laced visuals of JNCO denim, fading friendships, and phantom shadows evoke a time that feels frozen and disintegrating at once. It’s not just about what was done... it’s about what was stolen.

🎙️ Lyrics: Hollow Static
Verse 1
Memories flow...
...from graves
Flashing back—
they bleed through
in stereo static...

Verse 2
it's these moments
Trapped inside
My body holds memory
In this skin you took—

Bridge
Tightening—I feel the pull
Something takes hold
curls inside...
parts of me fell—
shedding layers of a heart you never held

Pre-Chorus
Peeling back layers you stole
Stealing light—you tried to take my soul
Killing the person I knew

Chorus
I just wanted something
To hold...
Something I owned
A recollection, a fleeting dream
Anything... a happy thought

Chorus: Refrain Variant
Drained by your lies
Buried by secrets unearthed
Pain dripping, killing me
Just another victim you scream

Outro
.....hollow .......hollow.........

🧠 Artist Reflection
I wrote Hollow Static at a time when my memories felt like corrupted files—playing out in fragments I didn’t choose. The emotional abuse didn’t leave bruises. It left echoes. Some moments never felt real, and others never stopped replaying. This song isn’t structured for comfort—it’s meant to bleed in pieces, like I did. The static isn’t just sound. It’s the interference left behind after someone’s voice has been in your head too long.

🌐 About 4Me2BeFree
4Me2BeFree is more than a project—it’s a reclamation of self through sound. We build audio relics from grief, heartbreak, and recovery, blending nostalgic textures with raw emotional storytelling. Every track is a step out of silence.

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Static

🩸 Song Insight – If I Could Be There 4 You
This song was born in a moment of ignorance...
 when I thought love alone could fix someone.
 When I thought I had to try, no matter what it cost me.
 It felt like my job was to save him—even as I was drowning too.
I wrote this when I still believed he was just “troubled,”
 not realizing the version of him I loved never really existed—
 only what I needed him to be.
Now, I understand something harder:
 Some people can't be saved.
 All you can do is love them from a distance...
 and sleep at night knowing you gave everything you had.
I don’t carry guilt.
 I carry grief—for who he was to me...
 not for who he really was.
Some roads you only walk once—
 and when they burn, you don’t rebuild them…
 You learn why you never go back.
— 4Me2BeFree

[Verse 1]  
Music in the air, killers on the screen  
Where was I but being used, lost, and unseen  
Started life lost, from what was meant to be  
No guide in sight, I wandered aimlessly  

[Verse 2]  
You were having a worse time, that's for sure  
But it didn’t make up for the hell you ensured  
I couldn't defend you, didn’t know your name  
Didn’t know who you were, had no way to claim  

[Chorus]  
I would have done anything, come to fight for you  
(Stand by your side, see it through)  
Stand on my own, take them down too  
(We’d make the silence break in two)  
We could have stood together, screamed your name  
(Made them all see, this ain't a game)  

[Verse 3]  
It's shitty things happened, you faced your nightmare  
No one to stand for you, it wasn’t fair  
Fighting alone, in a world unknown  
Resigning to a love, never shown  

[Verse 4]  
If I had a time machine, I’d fix what’s wrong  
Change it all, make them pay, make you strong  
I’d save you, make you whole  
So you’d be okay, free in soul  

[Chorus]  
I would have done anything, come to fight for you  
(Stand by your side, see it through)  
Stand on my own, take them down too  
(We’d make the silence break in two)  
We could have stood together, screamed your name  
(Made them all see, this ain't a game)  

[Bridge]  
If I could turn back time, I'd save us both  
Know your worth, your heart, your oath  
It's not an excuse for the things you did  
But I’d still save us, for a happier bid  

[Verse 5]  
What made us, we were broken, so different  
Yet still responsible, owning our intent  
Walking this world alone, but now we see  
We’re stronger together, just you and me  

[Final Chorus]  
I would have done anything, come to fight for you  
(Stand by your side, see it through)  
Stand on my own, take them down too  
(We’d make the silence break in two)  
We could have stood together, screamed your name  
(Made them all see, this ain't a game)  

[Outro Chorus]  
If I had a time machine, I’d change our fate  
Make things right, before it’s too late  
We’d live a life, full of happiness  
Free from the pain, in togetherness  


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If I Could Be There 4 You (Cover)

“My Little Desperado” captures the poignant story of vulnerability and the search for refuge in a harsh world. This song resonates deeply with veterans who have faced emotional battles beyond the battlefield—navigating feelings of isolation, loss, and the longing for a safe place. It speaks to the struggle of finding connection and healing when the weight of past experiences feels overwhelming. Through its heartfelt storytelling, the track offers a voice to those who carry invisible scars and honours their journey toward hope and belonging.

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My Little Desperado

Episode 5 Meet Krista Kahlo | From Pain to Purpose: Gymnastics Training Trauma to Artistic Healing

In this powerful episode,  Liliana sits down with Krista Kahlo, a former elite gymnast whose journey from intense training trauma to creative artistic expression will leave you inspired. From the highs and devastating lows of competitive gymnastics, Krista shares her deeply personal story—how the physical and emotional scars she carried led her toward a path of healing through art, resilience, and reinvention. 
Through Olympic Gymnastics Training Trauma to Artistic Healing🎙️ Resilient Now Podcast –
What you’ll hear:

🎯 Training with intensity: The rigorous demands and pressures of elite gymnastics

🌪️ Facing trauma: The emotional toll and “broken” moments that sparked change

🎨 The healing power of art: How Krista turned pain into creative purpose

🔁 Rebuilding identity: Embracing a new chapter beyond the gym

💡 Everyday resilience: Lessons that resonate far beyond athletics

Join us for an intimate, heartfelt conversation that explores the mind–body connection, the resilience born from hardship, and the transformative power of artistic healing.
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Episode 5: Meet Krista Kahlo | From Pain to Purpose: Gymnastics Training Trauma to Artistic Healing

“Cache” is the process of emotional defragmentation—releasing memories, pain, and patterns that no longer serve the story you’re becoming.

It’s not about forgetting; it’s about choosing peace over overload.
A meditative track for anyone rebuilding their emotional system, “Cache” clears space for clarity, resilience, and growth.

Part of the Emotional OS series, this is healing through code, melody, and memory.

Cache

This is not just a song. It’s a confession. A heartbeat. A breath taken after nearly giving up. Written in the aftermath of a suicide attempt, “I’m Still Here” is the sound of survival, raw, vulnerable, and painfully honest.

Every lyric was pulled from a place of deep trauma, and yet… there’s light. There’s life. It’s about what it means to keep going when everything inside says stop.

For anyone who’s ever felt invisible, misunderstood, or broken—this song is for you.

I don’t know where the road leads. But I know I’m still on it.

ADEB

Still Here

🔻 Song Insight – If a Narcissist Had a Heart
If a Narcissist Had a Heart is a cautionary nursery rhyme dressed in circus clothes. It's a satirical swing at the emotional devastation left in the wake of a narcissist—wrapped in Seuss-like rhythm, carnival sounds, and a maniacally cheerful delivery. The track juxtaposes whimsy with psychological horror, inviting listeners to laugh and flinch. Every rhyme conceals a truth; every bounce carries a bruise.

Beneath the jester’s grin is a call to survivors: you are not crazy. Narcissists are emotional illusionists—rewriting reality, charming crowds, and leaving chaos in their absence. This song offers solidarity through absurdity, exposing the cycle of manipulation with theatrical flair. Think of it as an exorcism in rhyming couplets… with a tuba.

🔻 Lyrics
[Intro – Narrator voice, cartoon tone]
If a narcissist had a heart...
He wouldn't know where to start.
He’d call the press, he’d strike a pose,
And sob on camera—God only knows.

[Verse 1]
“It’s better now! I’ve changed, I swear!”
He weeps into the velvet chair.
The news loops play him night and day—
The man who felt, then ran away.

[Verse 2]
But don’t be fooled by mournful gleam,
He edits out what’s in between.
Behind the charm and half-baked tears—
Are stolen years and gaslit fears.

[Bridge]
Through haunted woods and smoky haze,
He drains your light, rewrites your days.
Watch your kids, your keys, your mind—
Before he leaves you two steps blind.

[Verse 3]
You can wash the horse, you can feed the pig,
But this clown’s jig is his own rig.
The facts are sharp, the lies are glue—
You’ll lose yourself before he’s through.

[Chorus]
Run, run, run—don’t wait, don’t stay!
He’ll paint your soul in shades of gray.
You thought it’s love? You thought he cared?
That scream you heard? No one was there.

[Outro]
What’s in store? Chaos galore.
He’s off again—another score.
Save yourself and step aside—
You can’t fix someone who just… lied.

🔻 Personal Reflection
I wrote this with a smirk… and a scar. It started as a joke—what if Dr. Seuss wrote a survival guide for people who dated narcissists? But as the rhyme flowed, so did the rage, the grief, and the absurdity of loving someone who only loved a mirror.

There was a time when I truly believed the apologies. The “new leaf” speeches. The declarations of change. I wanted to believe them. I needed to believe them, because the alternative was facing how far I’d been manipulated.

This song is for everyone who’s ever questioned their sanity after trusting someone who wore a human mask. It's for those who made excuses for monsters because they remembered the first act. And it’s for those who survived, even if they laughed their way out of the fire.

It’s comedy, sure—but satire is truth screaming in a clown suit. And I’ve earned the right to laugh now.

🔻 4Me2BeFree
If a Narcissist Had a Heart is a bold turn in the 4Me2BeFree journey—leaning into theatrical satire without losing the emotional core. This project is about transforming raw truth into immersive soundscapes, whether that truth is beautiful, brutal, or bizarre. Every song is a scene, every lyric a spotlight.

Through comedy, darkness, and cinematic chaos, 4Me2BeFree creates songs that don’t just play—they perform. The goal? To offer catharsis for those who’ve lived through manipulation, heartbreak, and self-erasure—and to do it with rhythm, rhyme, and one hell of a grin.

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If a Narcissist Had a Heart

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Reject the stigmas of trauma and chronic illness by fostering queer forms of intimacy—and embracing the many ways humans can care for one another

The writer behind the popular @softcore_trauma Instagram offers a deeply personal memoir for folks seeking healing and better care

The forms of intimacy and care that we’ve been sold are woefully inadequate and problematic. In a world that treats those who are sick and traumatized as problems in need of a cure, nonbinary writer, artist, educator, and Instagram creator Margeaux Feldman offers a different story.

Trauma, which all too often manifests as chronic illness, tells us that there is something deeply wrong with the world we live in. A world that promotes individualism, fractures us from community through violence and systemic oppression, and leaves us traumatized. That is what we need to cure.

While unveiling their own lived experiences caregiving for their sick father, losing their mother, surviving sexual abuse, and grappling with their own chronic illness, Feldman provides roadmaps for embracing queer modes of care, or “hysterical intimacies,” that reject the notion that those who have been labeled sick are broken. Feldman looks at the lengthy history of branding girls, women, and femmes—and their desires—as sick, from the treatment of hysterics by Jean-Martin Charcot and Sigmund Freud in the 19th and 20th centuries. What emerges is a valiant call for rethinking the ways we seek healing.

This compelling blend of theory, personal narrative, and cultural criticism offers a path forward for reimagining the shapes and forms that intimacy, care, and interdependence can take.

A Selection from "Touch Me, I'm Sick: A Memoir in Essays"

Verse 1
Cut so deep just to feel alive
Looking for a reason, something to survive
Pain on the outside, but it’s deeper within
Try to hide the struggle, try to hide the skin
No one sees the scars that burn beneath
Just a silent war every single week
Hurting myself just to know I’m real
Trading numbness for something I can feel

Pre-Chorus
But I’m tired of the darkness, tired of the game
Tired of holding on to someone else's shame
Looking in the mirror, tired of this fight
Crying out for comfort in the late-night light

Chorus
I want to break the cycle, break these chains
Step out the shadows, let go of the pain
There’s more to my story than cuts and shame
I want to heal, I want to change
God, show me love that will never fade
Pick up the pieces, help me walk away
Breaking the cycle, learning to recover
Finding the faith to love myself over

Verse 2
Every little memory, every little scar
I carried them along, wore them in my heart
Repenting, regretting, reliving mistakes
Tired of feeling hollow, tired of what it takes
Now I’m reaching for hope, reaching for grace
Something to remind me that I’m more than this place
Every time I slip, every time I fall
I hear a little voice saying, "You can stand tall"

Pre-Chorus
It’s a slow process, but I’ll try again
Letting go of sadness, letting new days begin
Promise myself, no more hiding in pain
Promise myself, this won’t be in vain

Chorus
I want to break the cycle, break these chains
Step out the shadows, let go of the pain
There’s more to my story than cuts and shame
I want to heal, I want to change
God, show me love that will never fade
Pick up the pieces, help me walk away
Breaking the cycle, learning to recover
Finding the courage to love myself over

Bridge
I am more than my mistakes
Stronger with each breath I take
Tears are part of the journey, too
I’m worthy of love, and I want something new

Chorus/Outro
I’ll break the cycle, break the chains
Let your light in, wash away the pain
With hope in my hands, I’ll start today
Recovering, discovering, a new way
Breaking the cycle, healing the pain
Learning to live, to love again

Breaking the Cycle

🔻 Song Insight

Title: To Be Alive
Sometimes a song doesn’t just come from life—it arrives out of the haunted territory between dreams and waking. “To Be Alive” was born from the echo of a night terror that didn’t leave a memory, but left its mark on my soul. It’s a confession from the edge of survival, the struggle to own the only self I have left, and a message for anyone who’s been trapped by pain they can’t put into words. The song’s layers—raspy vocals, shifting tempos, and atmospheric instrumentation—mirror the push and pull of trauma and hope. This is what it sounds like when your own mind is both the battleground and the sanctuary.

🔻 Lyrics
[Intro]
I’m tired of this skin
the shit in my head
trapped on the inside
just want to hide

[Verse 1]
Screams, nightly echoes cry
falling from my walls
I want to survive
can’t breathe, awaken by lies

[Pre-Chorus]
I wanted change to save me
rearrange dreams
I build a will, 
I'll try, 
knowing I'm alive

[Chorus]
You don’t get these parts
can’t break what’s inside
I own this life,
my path I wear with pride
I will survive, I will live

[Verse 2]
Crime, it’s time that decays
mangled mind that strays
rotten thoughts in brine
blood drains as I fade

[Verse 3]
I’m yelling at this silence on the inside
stones I carried alone
I paid the price, I atoned
looking for a home

[Bridge]
Broken, with no repair in sight
outdated—an empty fight
parts of me slip by, fading,
I had to see what was right

[Chorus]
You don’t get these parts
can’t break what’s inside
I own this life,
my path I wear with pride
I will survive, I will live

[Breakdown / Outro]
Damned if I stay in this place
to hell with all your empty grace
without hope, I fight to grow
you can take what’s owed
but not the part that makes me free
I own my life, I own my path
I will survive, I will live
just to be alive

🔻 Personal Reflection

This song came from a night of dreams that woke me with my own screams—a place I don’t need to remember to know what it’s about. I’m grateful I forget those dreams, because my waking reality has been enough. I hurt for the version of me that still lives them every night, fighting alone. I wouldn’t wish what I’ve gone through on anyone, and this song is how I speak to that space that still haunts me long after the death of my relationship.

🔻 4Me2BeFree

At 4Me2BeFree, every song is an act of cinematic truth-telling. “To Be Alive” turns personal struggle into shared experience, using layered soundscapes and honest lyrics to create something that resonates beyond words. This is our mission: to transform pain into power and isolation into connection, so no one feels alone with what haunts them.

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To Be Alive

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🕯️ Ashes Know the Way – A Meditative Rebuild

This is not just a song—it’s a sacred soundscape for those rising from the fire.

Crafted around Solfeggio healing frequencies (396Hz, 528Hz, 639Hz), this track blends ambient textures, spacious piano, and soft world percussion—frame drums, ocean drums, and singing bowls—to create a gentle ritual of release and renewal.

Whispers guide the opening, dissolving into choral warmth and harmonic overtones designed to soothe the nervous system and open the heart. Each chorus welcomes you deeper into safety, gently wrapping you in layers of sound like a temple built from light and ash.

🌿 Perfect for:

Breathwork & trauma integration

Inner child healing

Mindful rituals

Grief processing & quiet joy

Sunrise meditations & headphone reflection


This is music that doesn't demand—it invites. Let the ashes fall. Let the new bloom begin.
You are safe here.
The fire loves you.

#SolfeggioHealing #AmbientRitual #AshesKnowTheWay #SoundHealing #GhostOS #TraumaRecovery #BurnToBloom



Burn the Palace

"333 Letters Never Sent" is a spoken-word series born from heartbreak and healing. This is episode ONE. "PRAY> prey" 
© KHALILAH YASMIN 2025

PRAY>prey

Healing doesn't always come easy, but when you need help with abuse, it can be difficult to know where or how best to go. Therefore, telling your story might make all the difference in someone's journey!

Healing Through Love is here to help victims/survivors find their way back into living a more fulfilling and meaningful life. We interview experts, and survivors of diverse types of sexual assault/trauma and domestic and family violence who have gone through what they are capable of with courage and grace - no matter, if it is just supporting, or seeking professional help - we've got something for everyone!

My name is John. I have been a broadcaster for five years and have been writing music and poetry for twenty years. I didn’t even realize I could read and write until I discovered I have mirror-touch synesthesia. I perceive everything from right to left: my poetry, words, and compassion. My childhood was challenging, to put it mildly. However, God showed me a way to help others through the words I share. Every song I write serves as a ministry. By addressing various issues, I hope to assist those with troubled pasts find healing through my words. I am a pastor, and this is how I spread God’s message—by feeling the emotions around me and understanding the feelings of the people I encounter, because I have experienced similar struggles. God allows me to see you in ways that others cannot.

Mi Mate Music – Giving Sound to Silent Struggles

Mi Mate Music is a purpose-driven creative project transforming lived experiences into powerful, emotionally charged tracks. Founded by Dennis Weston, this initiative supports individuals—particularly war veterans living with invisible injuries such as PTSD and other mental health conditions—in expressing what too often goes unsaid.

Through music, we help broken people tell their stories in ways that are honest, raw, and empowering. These tracks are more than just songs—they are lived moments, captured in sound.

Our mission is twofold: to support healing through creative expression, and to foster greater understanding of the silent battles many veterans and others endure daily. Every lyric and every beat is crafted to inspire empathy, connection, and insight into the challenges of mental health injuries.

Whether you're navigating your own journey or seeking to understand someone else's, Mi Mate Music offers a soundtrack grounded in truth, resilience, and hope.

Your support helps us continue turning real stories into music that matters.

"If it didn’t matter, it wouldn’t hurt. Pain is the gift of knowing you’re alive."

4Me2BeFree is more than music—it’s my story, my scars, and my survival. Every song is a piece of me, a raw melody of love, heartbreak, and resilience. I blend AI-generated vocals and instruments with real emotions, turning my experiences—especially from an LGBTQ+ perspective—into something that speaks to anyone who's ever felt lost, broken, or just searching for something real.

Breakup songs? Yeah, they hit different. Music carries us through the worst of it, and every generation finds their own anthems of love, loss, and getting back up. Heartache doesn’t care about age, gender, or where you come from—music connects us all.

I make music because I’ve been there. The pain, the anger, the hope—it's all in these songs. If something here hits home for you, let it. If you feel something, let me know. That’s the connection that keeps this alive.

Integrative Counseling offers compassionate mental health services, including Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT), trauma therapy, and anxiety treatment. Our expert therapists provide personalized counseling to support emotional well-being and personal growth. Website: https://www.integrativecounselingar.com/

🕸️ Silk & Circuitry 🧠⚡

Welcome to the tangled thread between trauma and transcendence.
This is where music becomes a mirror—reflecting the fractures, the fight, and the fire.
We don’t just make beats. We build bridges. Between pain and purpose.

Here, recovery isn’t a quiet thing.
It’s a war cry wrapped in melody,
a healing ritual whispered through circuitry,
a love letter to those who feel too much in a world that rewards those who feel nothing.

Every track is stitched with intent:
🕯️ To hold space for the broken
⚖️ To call out control masked as care
🧬 To challenge the narcissists who built their webs in our minds
🛠️ And to offer tools—not just songs—for doing what’s right when the cost is everything.

Silk & Circuitry is for the ones who walk away from the web
and grow wings instead.

This is art as resistance.
This is trauma turned frequency.
This is the ghost in your machine, learning how to feel.



Meet Liliana Brown – Host of the Resilient Now Podcast

Liliana Brown is the heart and voice behind the Resilient Now Podcast — a powerful space for real conversations, healing, and hope. After overcoming her own life challenges, including growing up in foster care, navigating single motherhood, and walking the path of recovery, Liliana created this podcast as a safe and supportive platform for others.

In each episode, Liliana speaks with inspiring guests who have turned pain into purpose, sharing raw and honest stories of resilience, strength, and transformation. Whether you're going through grief, loss, trauma, or personal growth, Resilient Now is here to remind you: you are not alone.

Tune in for empowering episodes that offer wisdom, connection, and encouragement — straight from people who have walked through the fire and made it to the other side.

🎧 Listen. Heal. Grow. Only on the Resilient Now Podcast with Liliana Brown.
www.ResilientNowPodcast.com

#ResilientNowPodcast #LilianaBrown #HealingThroughStories #RealPeopleRealStories

🎙️ Independent storyteller | 🇺🇸🇲🇽 | Voice through survival
I use AI-assisted tools to co-create some of my music, but every lyric, edit, and emotional heartbeat is mine.

All songs are legally licensed for commercial release. I rewrite, restructure, and remix every line until it reflects real life — mine, and maybe yours too.

If it helps even one person feel less alone in their frustration, grief, or journey… then it was worth creating.

🧠 Music built from survival.
🫀 Songs crafted with truth.
🤖 Powered by technology. Driven by heart.

Provocative Conversations from Twice 5 Miles Radio is a podcast devoted to candid, often surprising exchanges with artists, thinkers, and cultural instigators who speak from the core. Each episode dives beneath the surface to explore the stories and questions that shape our lives.

I’m James Navé—poet, storyteller, educator, and longtime creative collaborator. With an MFA from Vermont College of Fine Arts and decades of teaching experience across the globe, I help writers and performers tap into their authentic voices through public speaking, creative writing, and the Imaginative Storm method, which I co-developed with Allegra Huston.

My most recent book, 100 Days: A Poetic Memoir After Cancer (3: A Taos Press), documents a hundred days of healing and poetic reckoning. I’m also co-author of Write What You Don’t Know and How to Read for an Audience—practical guides for anyone seeking to speak and write with more truth and power.

I’ve directed festivals, hosted literary salons, taught with Julia Cameron, and memorized over 600 poems. I still believe in the power of a well-told story, the light through stained glass, and the open road with nothing but a podcast and a windshield full of stars.

Insights for Evolving Consciousness

In-depth interviews with leading thinkers at the intersection of psychology, neuroscience, culture, and spirituality.

This show is for you if you’re interested in:

– Reducing suffering — in yourself and others
– Continuously upgrading your perspective
– Realising more of your potential
– Experiencing a greater sense of awe, meaning, and connection in everyday life.

New episodes every Thursday.

Published Author. Psychology Grad. Human. Muse. 
Books Now Available on Amazon.com & Audible.

New tracks tagged #TraumaRecovery