[0:00-0:20] Intro
(Creepy low drone swells with worm-eaten steam hisses, WWII flicker crackles gas whispers "energy... devour...", evoking pain frustration self-hate ignored truth screaming isolation, sub-bass rumbles like buried rage building dread.)
In the energy I devour to acquire... Stepping outside the static flowing... The toxic death I consume to fuel the mach to the end of everything...
[0:20-1:00] Verse 1
(Monotone rap-growl starts calm numb, snare bones snap fractured frustration, kick slams self-hate thuds, glitch drops stutter pain memories, chrome scrapes venom self-loathing drips, building psychotic frenzy ignored truth screams.)
First step break every law I can to break the social normaily, Fight the censors held like the prison of the media world. If life is so beautiful then why am I suffering from the hands of ones so close to my blood, Suffering breeds beauty these goddamn mental disorders given to me by the hands all around me. In these environments built by suffering made from the trauma I endured while looking for the one, Feeling I couldn't feel because of the life was given at birth.
[1:00-1:20] Chorus
(Deep wail choking reverb strangled pain, glitch fracture frustration void, venom drip self-hate oozes, horror riffs drone ignored truth eternal torment, psychotic grins cackle self-loathing madness.)
I explored the world at 19 to 30 but at 30 I escaped the nightmare I made from the escape of living in another one, In the home I called my hole where the monster brought me to see the demons where the ones with kind creeping teeth itching at my soul... Absorbing the world underground I found to escape the horror that crawled deep into my mind, Where they splintered into shattered self reflections who am I... This is the end of everything...
[1:20-2:00] Verse 2
(Rap-growl detachment dread builds frenzy, insect skitter self-hate carrion feast, chain rattles frustration bondage, flesh-ripping ignored truth wounds, vomiting gurgles pain swallowed madness.)
As the drugs hit my mind like a apocalypse fucking me up like it's first time in love giving myself to a stranger hoping they will love me more than myself, I crawl to the surface eating away eating away at the barriers made to hold the memories I forgot without knowing I had even experienced the pain I felt by the search for myself. In a world full of so much death fear hate hiding the truth blending my truth to explore me and turn my illnesses against me, You always did I hate every word you spoke to me to this day I'm disgusted I was born into a life like this.
[2:00-2:20] Chorus
(Wail escalates evil choking self-hate, glitch spooky static frustration fracture, screams fade ignored truth wind echoes, alien warp creepy pain unease, psychotic cackle madness despair.)
They misunderstand all I say I tell them the truth they act like nothing ever happened you call me a liar, They seem so sure their right at the moments in time they had no idea what I had been through. You say no your just a pathological liar the doctors never heard all the hell I was hiding in the bottomless holes I have inside my fragmented guts to mind, I watch the world die when I screaming the truth right in your face... This is the end of everything...
[2:20-2:40] Bridge
(Slow crawl distorted worms burrow pain, WWII screams frustration peak, gas whispers chant "games... sociopath...", chrome scrape venom ignored truth drip, chain eternal bondage self-hate.)
You played games to long with this sociopath I just got to get this off my chest I wasn't lying you just didn't want to hear the truth, So you denied what was right fucking in front of you so now I'm here screaming it inside your deft emotional dulled. I'm screaming to the world since you don't believe a god damn world I say mother father you should have done better stop lying to yourself, Believing the stories you made up so long ago I hope you know all the pain I can't even remember...


You Called Me A Liar

This is My AI Band for my Trauma Art Therapy Music.
All Lyrics Written & Developments done by me Echos or Nexus Khimera. Including how I created the Sound and all Lyrics are from my personal Experiences. 

Welcome I'm Nexus Khimera. I have been a vocalist & lyricist since I was 15 , now I'm 38. My doctors asked me to try it for therapy. I never stopped. I have been diagnosed with Antisocial/BPD Cluster C Personality Disorder, Dissociative Identity Disorder, CPTSD/ PTSD. I've had DID since I was young around 5 next 15 then through 19 to 38. My alters have been writing since 15, to help realise stored buried trauma & use their voices helping them to crawl to the surface. I'm a survivor of sexual, physical & emotional abuse & victim of domestic violence. My alters told me to start creating music here, when I started here I got sick, after playing them over and over. I got nauseous my guts were speaking to me, I could feel them surfacing. Crawling around MelanKholyia N the system. From family, to their friends and every one I tried to get close would abuse me, abandoned me or used me as a doll until I was as hollow as the echoes of the fundamental nothingness the obsidian womb. This is my Trauma Art Therapy. Bringing Mental Health Awareness to music notes. If you struggle with | Dissociative Identity Disorder | Antisocial Personality Disorder CPTSD PTSD. This music just for us <3.
 Thank you for your support. Thank you for not taking my music or stuff out of what I'm really trying to do now with the info I have now told confronted my on my family telling them what happened tonight. As last night for the first time I confronted my family. All I got was lies from them as they turned what they have done against me as they have my whole life now I have proof , at this point their lies and denial has got me to this point.
I will not hide myself or feel ashamed to tell the truth now because I've learn to accept myself for once I my life. I'm sick of this self hate and disgusted because of what I have become because of my environments and things that happened to me. Because of the embarrassment and how much I hate myself because well that's whats happens when everytime you try to say something others are invading the places. That are made to be safe. I'm not going to stay quite ever again I will scream out until I lose all breath. The stigma must be broken .

38 Years old

Syracuse IN

With a Masters & Dissociative Degree N Damage & Art

I write all lyrics in both Bands

Regarding the musical projects, "Echo's N Melankholyia" is an online band where I serve as the lyricist and intend to transition into vocal duties. For the live band "Mothyii," I am the lyricist and vocalist. As a professional artist, poet, and lyricist, I have received diagnoses for ASPD, BPD, DID, ADHD, SAD, OCD, GAD, Panic Disorder, Agoraphobia, and Hypersexuality.

Nexus Khimera utilizes musical expression as a form of trauma art therapy, channeling experiences of abuse, toxic relationships, and addiction into compositions. The artist's work, reflecting a journey of survival and recovery, incorporates elements of Goth Rock, Industrial Rock, Nu Metal, Gothcore, Post Rock, Grunge, Post Grunge, Dark Wave, and cyberpunk. The resulting soundscapes are characterized by haunting atmospheres, dark ambient textures, and emotionally charged layers, reflecting themes of mental health and personal struggle. As Nexus Khimera, I operate as an artist, poet, lyricist, and vocalist, exploring the complexities of the human psyche within the context of cosmic themes. My creative endeavors, influenced by Borderline Personality Disorder and the effects of past trauma, serve as a means of processing and transforming internal struggles. My artistic practice encompasses a range of mediums, including charcoal drawings that blend biomechanical and Lovecraftian elements, dark surrealism, and abstract expressions derived from emotional experiences. Through a combination of AI-assisted and traditional techniques, I aim to confront and transmute personal traumas into evocative visual narratives. My poetry also plays a crucial role in this process. My artistic expression, characterized by free verse, unconventional lyrics, and a distinctive vocal delivery, functions as a therapeutic outlet, allowing for the articulation of complex emotions and observations of a world often perceived through a somber lens.

I invite you to explore this realm of shadowed beauty and candid revelations. Please follow Nexus Khimera on social media to stay informed about his creative endeavors.

Thank you for your visit. I hope your day is filled with moments of both wonder and introspection. I encourage you to return soon.

Please explore my band, Echo's N Melankholyia, and consider subscribing.

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© 2025 by Echo's N Melankholyia. Lyrics by Nexus Khimera. All rights reserved. Music generated with Suno AI. Date: September 5, 2025. "It all Begins." Decipher the underlying messages. Encryption is my method.Characterized by free verse, unconventional lyrics, and a distinctive vocal delivery, it functions as a therapeutic outlet, allowing for the articulation of complex emotions and observations of a world often perceived through a somber lens.

I Invite you to explore this realm of shadowed beauty and candid revelations. Please follow Nexus Khimera on social media to stay informed about his creative endeavors.

Thank you for your visit. I hope your day is filled with moments of both wonder and introspection. I encourage you to return soon.

Please explore my band, Echo's N Melankholyia, and consider subscribing. Thank you all for your support.

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