LYRICS:

(00:38) 
I’m hanging tight and holding steady, knowing love is messy, if you ain't with me, you against me, but I know you’ll miss me
Even though that makes me sound like I'm a little petty, you always told me “if I need to go --- you need to let me”
And I'm respectful of that cuz you never gonna disrespect me, 
Know what I'm able - to do in the booth, I can either - go crazy or - do this gently
Sad looking back in the past, for the words in this track, but I'm actually glad you met me
Helping to put me back on a path, it’s matter of fact, it still impress me
(01:04) 
Heartbroken, floating all-alone in open oceans, continue rowing, I'm just hoping that this’s almost over 
My burden’s HURTING, boulders on both my shoulders, Heavy, my boat is quickly filling up with water, slowly tipping  
Fact of the matter, at end of the day, when the sun goes down and daylight’s ending 
I'm really “just glad” that we had what we had, in a time and place, that was worth remembering 
Back all the way up against the wall, no rest, haven’t slept at all
Look deep in my crystal ball, try to understand to where this fell apart

My heart is slowing healing, clouds are lifting, fog is clearing 
Even though I feel like I'm broken, it really don’t matter, cuz I know that I’m worth it 
Although I never expected, I’d ever respect you, I’ve finally accepted the truth
As for the pain I projected, I'm finally reflecting, expressing my pain in the booth  
And I'm fired up like a cannonball, but deep down, I ain't mad at all  
I wait, but she won’t call, self-medicating with alcohol
Even admitted she afraid, what I'm able to do, every time that the pain get through
Well aware of the wrath, that a pen can have, load the gun, and tie the noose 
(01:55) 
It’s not surprising, no longer smiling, you’re terrified
I just keep on writing I’m fighting, just trying to feel alive
Inside I'm dying, eyes are crying, and my tears aren’t drying 
There’s no denying, my love undying, you see me trying, 
Now it’s over, like a curtain call, tears spill out as the curtain falls 
Desperately waiting for the pain to pass, I'm partly to blame, I'm accepting that 
Not really sure how I'm supposed to act, I didn’t get away with my heart intact, 
Hate the fact that she won’t react, and I cannot chase what I can’t attract  
No second guessing, I'm feeling restless I feel the pressure,  
I am invested, I am improving, and I am progressing
I keep my guard up like armor, heart on my sleeve, I'm waking up 
I’m kicking screaming, dreaming, thinking you next to me
(02:33) 
Even when my temper gets the best of me, I'm pretending that nothing’s affecting me 
Be the first to admit, that I thought you were it, and I was pretty damn we were meant to be
Straight passed out of the bathroom floor, right back through the revolving door
I'm stuck in the eye of the storm, and know that it’s way too far to, for me swim to shore
Hard to accept that she’s really gone, it’s hard to accept that she’s moving on, 
Face to face with the fact that, you’re never coming back, understand that I'm ok with that 
Knowing that I'm worth the investment in, I ain't nothing compared to the rest of them
I'm the best of the best, of the best of the best, of the best of the best… but now that’s done

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I am a rap artist and musician out of Northern Virginia

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