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Star Gazed Maze

The Unconscious Enslavement Mothyii

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Liquid Of The Goddess

[0:00-0:20] Intro
Know why overdose... Most like me lived thousand lives hell no one notices... Last wish moment peace escape pain take selves...
(Snap to 110 BPM.)
[0:20-1:00] Verse 1
Break down shower scream sit floor madness only place own. Minds born live life abused born into. Took drugs numb couldn't stop memories, Neglected parents didn't understand sexual abuse. No one believes go room, No self esteem eyes society no friends own. Life lied shield kind sides, No trust offer gave world can't see lonely...
[1:00-1:20] Chorus
Ropes darkness closed within torment went through, We 0.01% America borderline diagnosis. Comorbid dissociative identity disorder PTSD exploring, Words broke tape sown wounds together... End everything...
[1:20-2:00] Verse 2
All us tried put back together every time strike down, Ball me corner wanted love accept me. Recoiled fear bred horror hurt put through felt normal. Every scream putting down humiliating forced love, Scar drawn love can't stand broke trust. Beating fight back black out blood floor crying room all wanted...
[2:00-2:20] Chorus
Ropes darkness closed within torment went through, We 0.01% America borderline diagnosis. Comorbid dissociative identity disorder PTSD exploring, Words broke tape sown wounds together... End everything...
[2:20-2:40] Bridge
Every time felt isolated grew smaller smaller ok smile mask crumbles. Chattering invisibility echoing mind two voices one dark more me not me cast covers. Ask fine numb say stand forward fine now set fire inside parts...
[2:40-3:00] Verse 3 / Outro Build
All wanted love feel someone next die, Every beaten memory scream night merges mind. Never knew who ever good enough ever really loved hell you. What suppose feel introspective hate bleeds through demons hold only friends hold...
[3:00-3:20] Outro
See something control let good get take care while drown vile pool transparent lies. Heart shrunk nothing broke hundreds like worst. Saw standing waiting once smile curiosity now drunk days meeting five years sit manipulated leaving... (Fade: "borderline... echoes... eternal, whispers black, sighs ashes forever")





Thousand Lives of Hell

[0:20-1:00] Verse 1
Lay awake weeks fight thoughts, Inner voice split four, Write can't feel breath, Write instead cry scream art. Words no voice can't read front, Walk world shadow self empty shell beating heart glow. Float empty space suffocate, Slit flesh burnt out bleed nothing feel lost...
[1:00-1:20] Chorus
Drink sleep scream everyone kill self, Drugs body shut down tunnel light visible wounds disappear. Nurses called sick boy never forget, 15 read writing hospitalized said sick... End everything...
[1:20-2:00] Verse 2
Didn't see words madness pain abuse feelings no sense, No one help many tried, Wasn't want emotions thoughts bleed mind spin control nothingness. Flash PTSD abuse tears no find run away, No one see borderline most don't know what is...
[2:00-2:20] Chorus
Drink sleep scream everyone kill self, Drugs body shut down tunnel light visible wounds disappear. Nurses called sick boy never forget, 15 read writing hospitalized said sick... End everything...
[2:20-2:40] Bridge
Out all mental disorders worst, Alone around love can't see dying, Voice split write scream art, Shadow shell suffocate slit bleed...
[2:40-3:00] Outro
Borderline shadow... empty shell... (Fade: "worst... disorders... eternal, whispers black, sighs ashes forever")

Borderline Shadow

This is My AI Band for my Trauma Art Therapy Music.
All Lyrics Written & Developments done by me Nexus Khimera. Including how I created the Sound and all Lyrics are from my personal Experiences. 

Welcome I'm Nexus Khimera. I have been a vocalist & lyricist since I was 15 , now I'm 38. My doctors asked me to try it for therapy. I never stopped. I have been diagnosed with Antisocial/BPD Cluster C Personality Disorder, Dissociative Identity Disorder, CPTSD/ PTSD. I've had DID since I was young around 5 next 15 then through 19 to 38. My alters have been writing since 15, to help realise stored buried trauma & use their voices helping them to crawl to the surface. I'm a survivor of sexual, physical & emotional abuse & victim of domestic violence. My alters told me to start creating music here, when I started here I got sick, after playing them over and over. I got nauseous my guts were speaking to me, I could feel them surfacing. Crawling around MelanKholyia N the system. From family, to their friends and every one I tried to get close would abuse me, abandoned me or used me as a doll until I was as hollow as the echoes of the fundamental nothingness the obsidian womb. This is my Trauma Art Therapy. Bringing Mental Health Awareness to music notes. If you struggle with | Dissociative Identity Disorder | Antisocial Personality Disorder CPTSD PTSD. This music just for us <3.
 Thank you for your support. Thank you for not taking my music or stuff out of what I'm really trying to do now with the info I have now told confronted my on my family telling them what happened tonight. As last night for the first time I confronted my family. All I got was lies from them as they turned what they have done against me as they have my whole life now I have proof , at this point their lies and denial has got me to this point.
I will not hide myself or feel ashamed to tell the truth now because I've learn to accept myself for once I my life. I'm sick of this self hate and disgusted because of what I have become because of my environments and things that happened to me. Because of the embarrassment and how much I hate myself because well that's whats happens when everytime you try to say something others are invading the places. That are made to be safe. I'm not going to stay quite ever again I will scream out until I lose all breath. The stigma must be broken .

38 Years old

Syracuse IN

With a Masters & Dissociative Degree N Damage & Art

I write all lyrics in both Bands

Regarding the musical projects, "Echo's N Melankholyia" is an online band where I serve as the lyricist and intend to transition into vocal duties. For the live band "Mothyii," I am the lyricist and vocalist. As a professional artist, poet, and lyricist, I have received diagnoses for ASPD, BPD, DID, ADHD, SAD, OCD, GAD, Panic Disorder, Agoraphobia, and Hypersexuality.

Nexus Khimera utilizes musical expression as a form of trauma art therapy, channeling experiences of abuse, toxic relationships, and addiction into compositions. The artist's work, reflecting a journey of survival and recovery, incorporates elements of Goth Rock, Industrial Rock, Nu Metal, Gothcore, Post Rock, Grunge, Post Grunge, Dark Wave, and cyberpunk. The resulting soundscapes are characterized by haunting atmospheres, dark ambient textures, and emotionally charged layers, reflecting themes of mental health and personal struggle. As Nexus Khimera, I operate as an artist, poet, lyricist, and vocalist, exploring the complexities of the human psyche within the context of cosmic themes. My creative endeavors, influenced by Borderline Personality Disorder and the effects of past trauma, serve as a means of processing and transforming internal struggles. My artistic practice encompasses a range of mediums, including charcoal drawings that blend biomechanical and Lovecraftian elements, dark surrealism, and abstract expressions derived from emotional experiences. Through a combination of AI-assisted and traditional techniques, I aim to confront and transmute personal traumas into evocative visual narratives. My poetry also plays a crucial role in this process. My artistic expression, characterized by free verse, unconventional lyrics, and a distinctive vocal delivery, functions as a therapeutic outlet, allowing for the articulation of complex emotions and observations of a world often perceived through a somber lens.

I invite you to explore this realm of shadowed beauty and candid revelations. Please follow Nexus Khimera on social media to stay informed about his creative endeavors.

Thank you for your visit. I hope your day is filled with moments of both wonder and introspection. I encourage you to return soon.

Please explore my band, Echo's N Melankholyia, and consider subscribing.

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© 2025 by Echo's N Melankholyia. Lyrics by Nexus Khimera. All rights reserved. Music generated with Suno AI. Date: September 5, 2025. "It all Begins." Decipher the underlying messages. Encryption is my method.Characterized by free verse, unconventional lyrics, and a distinctive vocal delivery, it functions as a therapeutic outlet, allowing for the articulation of complex emotions and observations of a world often perceived through a somber lens.

I Invite you to explore this realm of shadowed beauty and candid revelations. Please follow Nexus Khimera on social media to stay informed about his creative endeavors.

Thank you for your visit. I hope your day is filled with moments of both wonder and introspection. I encourage you to return soon.

Please explore my band, Echo's N Melankholyia, and consider subscribing. Thank you all for your support.

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