mixed n mastered by me 
feat. my bro @ghosoghost
prod by @okayno & @tgwog 
lyrics: 
ahay-
I go to sleep just to wake up on the wrong side of the bed 
everydays just a new day, I'll probably just forget 
all this terror in my way, I wanna fix it but I can't 
I put this pain all in my Pocket, I can't let it get to land

I gotta keep pushing forward
I always think it's over 
till that shit comes back again, I can't deal with being sober 
I can stand up to the lil shit but it keeps getting older 

I'm the problem and I cant solve it 
I'm the problem and I cant solve it
I'm the problem and I cant solve it 
I'm the problem I hope I solve it

I let it fester for too damn long 
did my best just to prove them wrong

GHOSO-
Take a walk in my shoes
I’m bent by the press

Throw me down and torch me out
Dig out the crest

It’s an honest mistake
it’s still 11:11

Pull me out my grave
Its purgatory not heaven

You switch the story
I’m guessin
Roll around in my guess pant

It’s a creature in the night
I roll around but I’m hesitant

I don’t wanna be low
Settle down now
Turn me to a toon
Offa shrooms
You got clowned out

It’s 11:11 and you still haven’t made a wish
How you saying you don’t love me 
When you kissing on my dick
Got the club going up on a Wednesday
Cause she got me sick

Yeah it’s a downhill battle in the mortar

Got me in her pink
Smoking stink
Ghoso explorer 

Got me in a battle for the northern
I ain’t seen sleep in 3 weeks at the border
I ain’t seen sleep in 3 weeks yeah it’s torture

problem

instagram<3

problem w/ ghoso ghost (iji & tgwog)

feat. @ghosoghost 
prod by @okayno & @tgwog
lyrics:
I don't wanna be here I wanna be where u ran off to 
sometimes I wish it was me that day 
I wish I could be freed from staying
I wish I could hear what ur saying 
I'm far away, it's clear , I'm suffocating 

take what u want from me, I ain't got much left anyways 
wish I lived comfortably, how tf could I self sustain 
lived my life underneath, ive kept way too long in the shade 
think I got over me, and I hope that I can keep it that way 

can't hold these demons forever 
one wrong move and I'll sever 
I don't wanna start all over but I wanna start all over

clear

clear w/ ghoso ghost (iji & tgwog)

mixed n mastered by me yay 
prod by @byedias + @222pmb + @tgwog

lyrics -
I don't wanna stay too long 
not sure I can handle that 
I do what I do ik I'm wrong 
my lungs filled up with pack 
and it's not ok ik that I'll never move on 
lose what I say I've never felt like I've proven 
myself, I never could get out from underneath the spell 


and I've let the things you say go right over my head 
living with fear I've been too focused on the dread 
hated this year ik that I'ma hate the next 
rip my brother if i stop growing I hope that I die 
can't trust another I'm just showing that I've run outta time
fires I've smothered all for u to cover up every lie 
it's all just something I'd just rather blow right outta my mind

hard to stay optimistic yea my pockets full but my life's awfully cryptic 
haven't got the memo since a kid and I still fully miss it 
how could I dare forget this , the pain i feel is endless 
I didn't have ways to vent, thank God I picked up the pen

handle that

insta :3

handle that (dias + 222pmb + tgwog)

feat. @kiryoo <3
prod by @tgwog & @litothedon
outro by my bro @glasssibyl
mixed & mastered by me

lyrics :
ahay -
hanging by a thread like a marionette 
I've been so dead 
I've been feeling so fed up 
like I already died 
empty all inside 
(I'm so tired)
take me apart and just tweak what you'd like 
Im so tired of thinking all fuckin night 
(I'm so tired)
but it's passing the time 
feel like I'll never, I'll never arrive 

I'm so tired, I'm so tired
I'm so, I'm so, tired
I'm so tired
I've been so dead, so dead uh
I'm so tired, I'm so tired
I'm so, I'm so, tired
I'm so tired
I've been so dead, so empty x2


kiryo -
so sorry baby i cant break your heart 
driving all alone all up in my car 
taking bars lookin at the stars 
bloody tears falling out my eyes  
yeah okay im so traumatized  
hide my face everytime i cry 
you cant take my place bitch i up this glock shoot it like its hot bitch really im pulling up 
bitch im faded runnin with ur paycheck heard u  is a fan? u got my shit on playback 
okay knew ur ass since way back
but i wont let u come back 
press u like a thumb tack put u on the wall 
had me feeling so high but now im fuckin falling down low 
its so cold 
break me to pieces 
put me in your bed 
my hearts still open

ahay - 
I been so busy pulling strings to get you back 
worried bout this how can I even mention that 
I got this shit on me rn might let it blast 
I might compact 
stuck in the past 
I still remember all the days that we would laugh
smoke in the whip can't see for shit we could've crashed 
we lived thru shit but I jus want my brother back 
I really might compact 
all my life, alkatraz

uhhhh 
uhhhh
im tired
i miss my brotha miss my brotha miss my brotha
hanging on by a thread x6

marionette

marionette w/ kiryo! (tgwog + litothedon + glass sibyl)

sequel to "cover it up"
prod @tgwog & @litothedon
lyrics: 

finally, i took a break from smoking 
life been trying me , it caught up now im choking
that side of me, I never wanted opened
and I ain't have a say in that, what were u hoping? ahhh 
I played the game but now I forfeit ahh
them boys r lame I can't endorse it ahh
and I'd still put it on me bruh

fk that 9-5 trash I'm tryna put in the past 
turn a couple thou into a house and then I might just spaz 
how tf could I laugh 
how tf could I sustain 
whole system corrupt, I don't wanna talk, pls don't explain
can't feel safe anyway, ofc I complain, ofc im insane 
say what you want, but don't insult what I think, your stupidity it better stay contained 

go head n tighten that leash, u don't want to me bite back 
do whatever I pls, and I don't even like that 
stuck in my shell jus like a tortoise 
stuck longing for sum type of importantance


24 today, but I feel fuckin hollow 
same day today, as it would be tmro
every day I wake up to face new sorrows
say what I say, do what I do, u couldn't follow 
shouldn't have let ur bum ass drive my fuckin car 
shouldn't let my friends get too damn far 
wish I had a better understanding from the start 
if I could run it back I'd definitely see it from afar

opened

opened (tgwog & litothedon)

mixed n mastered by me. 
prod @blxty & @tgwog
Lyrics: 
ahay- 
I know everything exists within my pain 
can't keep running, but I never change my pace 
Medusa, there's some shit I'll never face 
there ain't no way I could be rich, my feelings changed 

I don't sleep right 
I don't think right 
I don't act right 
Yeaa
I don't feel right 
on the brink like 
is this sink too high? 
bluhh
Im in that zone again 
everything is closing in
nothing seems fine 
but ima be alright 

just another day 
I disassociate 

at least I changed.. 
you wanna talk about me? 
at least I changed.. 
you always talk about me... 

LXCCA-
Gave me a lil hope and then ya snatched it 
Havent seen right ever since like broken glasses
She was the cause of my decline and it was rapid 
Remember back the words would rhyme I  wasn’t rapping 
It hurt so bad said said how it was I wasn’t cappin 
She wasn’t at fault but was a factor 
I wasn’t at fault but was a factor 
Now I got motion shoutout Kappuh 
Help my dawg out in the field just like a tractor 
Ya I smiled in some faces then adapted 
Ya I smiled in some faces started laughing

I might’ve changed but I evolved 
You stay the same bump on a log 
I always work like a revolver 
Been in the game not far along

medusa

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medusa / changed w/ LXCCA (blxty & tgwog)

prod by @blxty @47e @tgwog
lyrics:
me-
let me be real 
i dont know where my heads at, whats the deal
need to process not choke, but i cant feel 

i dont wanna face it anymore
will anybody ever listen to me?

7gs a day i don't wanna fuckin feel a thing anymore ay
get my keys and skate, I just wanna feel the way I used to before ay 
i dont wanna explore a
different kind of escape plan
made it this far i cant wait man 
no more no more
rip my lil brother wish i got ur feet out that door 
now everyday feels accompanied by the past I can't ignore it

medicate (idk) till I suffocate and boy am I all for it x2

LXCCA-
Seeing things, can’t feel a thing 
Tried all the meds there ain’t no healing me 
Know all my friends don’t wanna hear from me
 All the people I wish were here to see
 I don’t wanna face it wanna wake up but I can’t 
I don’t wanna chase her but she got me in a trance
 Don’t care to be famous but still rock designer brands
 Get to the paper to the paper like a stamp
 Hang my coat on my way out
 I won’t need it where I’m going 
The way that things are going now
 Tryna fix it I’m not proud 
And my feelings always showing
 Painted to look just like a clown

idontwannafaceit

idontwannafaceit w/ LXCCA (blxty + exo + tgwog)

mixed n mastered by me
prod @tgwog & @prodjayysoul
Lyrics:

I just wanna feel safe 
I just wanna fail-safe

flashback 2008, how TF are these my guardians
all they do is take, 
all the lessons learned were obvious 
 howd my life become so bottomless 
my younger version's what the problem is 
I'm never getting over it 
i smoke a little too copious 
look at the mess u roped me in 
 I'll never view it soberly 
take every bit of hope for it 
I'll talk about it openly 
entrust my ignorant relative 
hope there's a different trope for me 

I just want y'all to leave me the fuck alone 
it's been too damn long now you care about me huh? 
got off the pills but I still pop edibles 
I'd rather die then talk to the Federals 
there ain't a way for me to move through it all 
I'm afraid I'll never feel safe at all

safe

fail-safe (jayysoul & tgwog)

mixed and mastered by me :)
prod by @prodjayysoul + @luckeyknows + @tgwog
lyrics :
they could never get the picture 
I keep running from the frame
stay tf out of my mentions 
don't wanna hear u say my name 

5 years since my brother died
I still can't figure out the process
I'm constantly replaying every night 
lose out on sleep, but at least there's progress

should've been me, you had aspirations now apart of me 
plenty of dreams, put my concentration into charting themes 
I change the scene, had to contemplate, can't speak on what I've seen 
what could that mean
I remember when we went to make that play 
that fuckboy tried to rob us, you didn't care about no blade
laid the paws down, while i sat back and watched in a daze 
everything I did, it comes with shame 
I wash my soul but still I'm left with a stain 
I wanna fold can't deal with all this disdain 
I process everything like I'm in a play 
the people watching never hear what you say

picture

picture (jayysoul + luckey + tgwog)

for jerm. 🖤 miss u lil bro
mixed n mastered by me
prod by @tgwog @blxty @popilization
Lyrics:
 everything gets taken 
no use in faking 
Im constantly smoked out, hope it ain't laced in 
my cards they never made sense
they test my patience 
I never made it 
back to civilization

shoutout to tg
I swear I speak freely
if it weren't for all these beats I wouldn't be me
my body's weakly 
put together weepings 
just so u could see me 
passing through the seepings 

I never meant nothing to no relative 
every time I close my eyes I start to forget 
but then I open them 
I know I can't relive
that shit can't come again 
ima be the parliament 

I'll never fit in with the usual
I stick out like a Boner 
lash out like I don't know her 
been packed in like a folder 
I'll never listen like a cuticle 
I keep growing despite me 
there's no use in us fighting
wish I could stop the lightning 

I'll never be a bug 
ok there's times I was a scrub 
and maybe just a fuckin bum 
its always been just what it was 
another one with different flaws 
never wanted my life in Gauze 

dreaming bout counting 0s n 1s I must be computing 
Im probably just confusing 
I know I come off moody 
I know just where It's from 
I know I'm kinda loopy 
but I'll find just what you want 

I put the smoke down I got sick 
I broke down counting up sticks 
put my old thoughts back to the front 
time to face shit no more running 
miss my brother always think about the kid 
everything I do is betterment 
processes never been spent 
you was real ever since a jit 
I've been through it all but I ain't spent 
5 years has been the longest 
all the tears finally make sense 
relatives stay tryna reach me 
I've been doing just peachy 
latchin on used to be bleak 
now I'm steady patchin up leaks 
finally found what I was seeking

civilization

civilization (tgwog  + blxty +  pop)

[ay-hay]
long live jerm.
he/they

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