Heroes are supposed to save the day, not destroy everything they touch. This raw, emotionally devastating pop punk ballad explores the heartbreaking complexity of loving an alcoholic father – watching your childhood hero crumble while desperately seeking the validation and love he could never give.

From corporate success to personal destruction, this song chronicles the painful journey of realizing that the man who 'took a company booming from zero' couldn't show up to be a father. It's about the confusion of loving someone who sees themselves as a victim while creating victims of their own children.

Written with unflinching honesty about depression, addiction, and the generational trauma that gets passed down like a twisted inheritance. It captures that unique pain of children of addicts – wanting to heal the relationship while protecting yourself from the ongoing damage.

This isn't just a song about addiction; it's about the complicated love that survives even the deepest betrayals, and the hope that maybe, just maybe, we can 'rewrite our family saga' and break the cycle.

A heavy but necessary ballad for anyone who's ever had to parent their parent, or wondered if they were truly loved beyond what they could provide. Therapeutic, cathartic, and painfully real.

When the Cape Fell

Rusty ACA talks about gentle, loving self reparenting tools and how he continues to develop a trusting relationship with his internal family system.

Rusty ACA

Michael ACA talks about repeating patters of family dysfunction in relationships, how he found hope in ACA rooms, and accepting powerlessness (Step 1) to start healing.

Michael ACA

Jennifer ACA talks about recognizing the critical parent's voice, and how ACA recovery helped her to raise awareness and find healthy self parenting models for her recovery. 

Jennifer ACA

Sad and dark songs of the broken, busted up, and brittle in a soulful Americana Country Rock style capturing pain, emotion, and elements of greater hope and outlook. All songs written by J.T. Patten (Scott Swanson) through Lone Woolf Lyrics. Available for cut, collaboration, cover, or sync. All rights owned. 
Cover image by JeffnCompany Artwork

Her Mirror (HOWLLOW)

Fire in my Veins (HOWLLOW)

Keeping Secrets (HOWLLOW)

Esto tiene un año y un mes!! No recuerdo haberlo grabado pero estaba en mi escritorio y mi novia me obliga a subirlo. Bismillah!! EMO

kcals en un litro de cerveza

environmental storytelling

El primer tema que hice borracho, pulido y extendido. Letra creada por mi, voz e instrumental con IA

La Bebida Dorada

Indie demo drops and sync catalog written and produced by best selling author and indie writer/producer, J.T. Patten, the “meanest man in the business.” NSAI member / ASCAP

Music/vocals demo tracks created by various artists/musicians using Lone Woolf lyrics through Lone Woolf Productions.

All rights currently retained by JT Patten. All demos can be modified as collaborations. BUY/USE RIGHTS available. Let’s make some music!

Poemas nacidos de una persona y musicalizadas por IA

Stories of recovery from the effects of growing up in an alcoholic or otherwise dysfunctional home. Recorded at the ACA Tuesday Toolbox meeting of ACA (Adult Children of Alcoholics) in Cobble Hill, Brooklyn. Email us at TuesdayToolboxACA(at)Gmail.com.

It all started with a dog named Eddie — a scruffy little guy kids swore looked like a real-life teddy bear. When he passed in 2020, I brought his spirit back as a 3D bear: playful, honest, and the other half of me.

In A Teddy Named Eddie, we tell true stories from my life through pop punk riffs, alt rock hooks, and early 2000s nostalgia. Sometimes I’m in his world; sometimes he’s in mine. Always cinematic, always full of heart, and always a little magical.

New tracks tagged #alcoholism