CHOCTIV letting go of the past through the music...

CHOCTIV - let go of the Past

Japan

【𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘸𝘦 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵,,】𝙿𝚛𝚎𝚝𝚎𝚗𝚍 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎 𝚒𝚝𝚜 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚏𝚒𝚛𝚜𝚝 𝚝𝚒𝚖𝚎·.¸¸.·♩♪♫

prod. crshed
sample from nicopatty

lyrics:
i dont really wanna lose it right now
and i cant really tell you why

everytime you speak i think you lie
i just think you forreal in a disguise

im gonna be honest
im gonna be honest

i dont know what you want

im gonna be honest
why is it me you hunt?

im gonna be honest
im gonna be honest

i dont know what you want
im gonna be honest

why is it me you hunt?

i dont really wanna lose it right now
and i cant really tell you why

i dont really wanna lose it right now
and i cant really tell you why

everytime you speak i think you lie
i just think you forreal in a disguise

i dont really wanna lose it right now
everytime you speak i think you lie
and i cant really tell you why

I'm gonna be honest

GROßE CREDITS FÜR DEN BEAT:
prod. rizy
dankeee!

judgen.

made ts bc bored
original by aldn & glaive if u somehow dont know it
idk 
cover art is some stupid discord glitch me and some peeps found that happens when screensharing ur own screenshare
btw no i do not want "a girl inside my phone to be my yin and yang", i have a boyfriend

lyrics:

She said, "Oh, I didn't see you there
Give me a sec', I'm just doing my hair"
And he said, "Fine, but I don't know what to wear
Can't make a decision when you look and you stare"
Now, what will they think when I say I'm not there?
She said, "There's no need to worry, there's no need to care"
But she doesn't understand the weight that these thoughts can bear
It feels like every step he takes is another glare
Now everything hurts, the feeling gets worse
Living in a shell of a body that's cursed
The fight that was fought, with no one to talk to
When you wake up and there's no one around you

Bloodshot red eyes
You make me feel like I might die
I might die, don't cry
Most the time, realize I'm not the good guy
Take my time, tellin' lies, I never reply
Bloodshot red eyes
You make me feel like I might die
I might die, don't cry
Most the time, realize I'm not the good guy
Take my time, tellin' lies, I never reply

Everything you say about me comes back like a boomerang
I just need a girl inside my phone to be my yin and yang
And they been doing crazy shit, her boyfriend bought a wedding ring
And I might have to pull up on his block and let my pistol bang
We could dance all night if you wanted to
And no, I'm not gonna lie, girl, I wanted you
And they keep asking how I'm doing, 'cause I walked in too
Yeah, my life's been Hell, but I walk on through
And I swear to God that I can't explain
And I been running out of dopamine, life is pain
And I might leave this shitty town, just go M.I.A
And I been blowing up fast, might just blow my brain

She said, "Hi, I didn't see you there"
And my mom said, "It's rude to stop and stare"
And my dad always said that life is never fair
And I've always needed help, you were never there

Bloodshot red eyes
You make me feel like I might die
I might die, don't cry
Most the time, realize I'm not the good guy
Take my time, tellin' lies, I never reply
Bloodshot red eyes
You make me feel like I might die
I might die, don't cry
Most the time, realize I'm not the good guy
Take my time, tellin' lies, I never reply

redeyes cover but i cant sing lol

crshed up dirty 30s in a straw 
i dont wana wake up

straws

u dont have to play no more i can take you anywhere 
i could take you anywhere(anywhere)
aint no need to worry bout it you can trust that u done got it 
know i see you standin there 
know i see you standin there (uh huh standing there)
(wait)
dont fall
dont fall 
know that im unbothered (yeah im unbothered)
i cant get involved
you always got a problem (always got a problem)

what do you want from me
i cant fix anything
when you talk to me
always cut me off 
make me feel dumb as fuck (as fuck)
(make me feel dumb as fuck) x2
i call you a bitch 
you call me a dick 
you know that im sick of it x2
aint no one can win
id rather be a dick
you fake to my face
but i cant let you win
(i cant let you win) x4

u dont have to play no more i can take you anywhere 
i could take you anywhere(anywhere)
aint no need to worry bout it you can trust that u done got it 
know i see you standin there 
know i see you standin there (uh huh standing there)
(wait)
dont fall
dont fall 
know that im unbothered (yeah im unbothered)
i cant get involved
you always got a problem (always got a problem

TUA prod noise.

@vexle1

lyrics:
sick of the way i feel
sick of the way i live my life
sick of the things i hear at night
one second short im out of time 
im not alone i fear 
im not alone inside my bed
im not alone inside my head
falling behind im out of breath

and im so sorry im a mess
thats all ill ever be
thats all ill ever be
i been smoking on this gas just to laugh the stress
i dont care what you think of me i think of me less
yeah this life shit its all about perspective 
every single move ive made it hasnt been effective 
switch it up change it up yeah thats the objective 
every single move ive made it hasn't been effective 

sick of the way i feel
sick of the way i live my life
sick of the things i hear at night
one second short im out of time 
im not alone i fear 
im not alone inside my bed
im not alone inside my head
falling behind im out of breath




sick w/ vexle (decrept)

if you prod this dm me 
feat @dieperry
pic by https://www.instagram.com/4444jaime/

(perry)
i'm loosing it
don't wanna exist 
this blade is perfect, for my damn neck 
i'm strapped to the bed, it's so perfect 

i'll let you murder me 
is this your fantasy?
i'll let you murder me 
is this your fantasy?
is this your fantasy?

(me)
i'm still your fantasy i know you're missin' me 
heart cold like december said i took too much whatever  
you say i'm taking too much
but i don't really give a fuck)
you could kill me not enough 
you could kill me not enough

i'll let you murder me 
is this your fantasy?
i'll let you murder me 
is this your fantasy?
is this your fantasy?

(me)
i might post my new partner, just like you 
kinda crazy cause the stuff we been through 
when i look in her eyes all i see is you 
same color as my pills yeah they light blue 
yeah they light blue 
yeah they light blue
yeah they light blue

i might post my new partner, just like you 
kinda crazy cause the stuff we been through 
when i look in her eyes all i see is you 
same color as my pills yeah they light blue 
yeah they light blue 
yeah they light blue
yeah they light blue

light blue (feat. D!E PERRY)

mhm mhm uh mhm uh
mhm mhm uh mhm uh
mhm mhm

why do u-u-u-u
why do u-u-u even bother
you dont need to be a martyr (huh)
every time i see you, I treat me like a stranger (strange-e-e-huh)
treat you like a stranger, why you always testin me (testing me-e-e-e)
already on to the next i see (huh huh)
miss your body like XTC (miss your body like XTC)
(XT-c-c-c)

(wh-wh-why do u-u-u)
am I the only one who's sa-ane
always playin  them ga-ames
i dont think that i can sta-ay
hate to rain on u-u-u-ur para-ade
(st-stay sane, ga-game games, sta-stay, ay-ay)
what you wa-a-ant from me (huh)
i cant fix everything
i cant fi-i-i-ix anything
when you ta-a-a-alk to me (huh)
always cut me-e-e-e off 
make me feel du-dumb af

why do u-u-u-u
why do u-u-u even bother
you dont need to be a martyr (huh)
every time i see you, I treat me like a stranger (strange-e-e-huh)
treat you like a stranger, why you always testin me (testing me-e-e-e)
already on to the next i see (huh huh)
miss your body like XTC (miss your body like XTC)
(XT-c-c-c)

why do u-u-u-u
why do u-u-u even bother
you dont need to be a martyr (huh)
every time i see you, I treat me like a stranger (strange-e-e-huh)
treat you like a stranger, why you always testin me (testing me-e-e-e)
already on to the next i see (huh huh)
miss your body like XTC (miss your body like XTC)
(XT-c-c-c)

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