care at all (prod. sickboi)

(prod.downtown suicide)
i dont give a fuck
i guess you're outta luck
cause im waiting on something
that'll never fucking come

and i know thats fucking stupid
and i know im fucking useless
and my blood is fucking putrid
filled with chemicals and fluids

cause i cant fucking try
no matter what you tell me
ill just rot away and die
thats my only ending

its the truth and i know it
its a prophecy from poets
im sick in a barrel 
puking up my innards
will you sing me a carol?
treat me like a sinner

im contagious baby
im full of mucus lately
i wish that you could save me
but ill be going crazy

im contagious baby
im full of mucus lately
i wish that you could save me
but ill be going crazy

coughin blood in the bathroom
i miss when i had you
smoke another gram up
i feel like i have to

run away from faces staring at me
i dont think that i can breathe
everybodys eyes are all i can see
cascading down and toppling

im contagious baby
im full of mucus lately
i wish that you could save me
but ill be going crazy

im contagious baby
im full of mucus lately
i wish that you could save me
but ill be going crazy

contagious (prod. JessieRosse)

[charles]
I saw you staring at me in the middle of the road
i saw you staring at me like the reaper that i sewed

I saw you staring at me in the middle of the store
i saw you staring at me now youre calling me a whore 


[apxthy.]
i wont tell you a thing
about me or my friends
because i know you're just
a means to the same end

i loop my fucking failures
cause im scared of fucking change
i have toxic behavior
because im fucking deranged

[both]
Can i tell you anything, i dont even know, 
can i tell you anything, i dont even know, 
can i tell you anything, please dont go, 
can i tell u anything, i dont even know, anymore 
because youre gone 

ever since regular show went off the air my life sucks (prod. sickboi) (apxthy. remix)

(prod. JessieRosse)

i dont know if ill be alright
ill take ten pills to get through the night
wont feel a thing if i do this right
i just cant wait to end my whole life

its pointless
its stupid
you're worthless
you're putrid

i cant help but feel useless
i cant help but abuse this
everything you say is wrong
the smoke helps me write my songs

clouds are all i breathe out
ill never be rid of doubt
nothing that i care about
i think that imma black out

if i see her face again
feeling all this pain again
ill be fine if i play pretend
ill never feel a thing again

ill be alr


(prod. dead yami)

[soulsecret verse]
i woke up cut my wrist 
got called a fag then cut again 
im sad i hate this 
i want you you want him

[soulsecret chorus]
theres nothing i can do to stop it
i guess im fucked
why are you such a bitch
although you're who i love

[apxthy verse]
i can't give a fuck about you
and i'm sorry thats the case
when i stop and think about you
i wanna punch you in the face

[soulsecret chorus]
theres nothing i can do to stop it
i guess im fucked
why are you such a bitch
although you're who i love

theres nothing i can do to stop it
i guess im fucked
why are you such a bitch
although you're who i love

[apxthy bridge]
why do you do all
the same old bullshit
putting me through
shit that isn't worth it
you know you're a bitch
i dont gotta tell you
ill put you in a ditch
im gonna fucking end you

[soulsecret chorus]
theres nothing i can do to stop it
i guess im fucked
why are you such a bitch
although you're who i love

theres nothing i can do to stop it
i guess im fucked
why are you such a bitch
although you're who i love

[both outro]
theres nothing i can do to stop it
i guess im fucked
why are you such a bitch
although you're who i love

i guess im fucked!

(prod. maako)

[@reddwinterr]
I don't know what I'm doing with my life
I don't know why I cut in the nighttime
Call me X you look good in the moonlight
Now I'm stressed cuz all we do is fight
You hate me and I really cant help that
All I really want is a text back
All that shit you said I never did that
You said you love me you ain't meant that

[@apxtheticloser]
imma write this verse and they'll call me a skel clone
got a bad bitch and shes callin my cellphone
now they wonder why they see me with headphones
she tell me that she hate me but she lay in my bed though

wake up early smoke all night
im like a deer in your headlights
ill end up dead and ill feel fine
cause theres nothing good in my life

i just wanna be with you (apxthy. remix)

(instrumental: wifiskeleton - and i'm sorry los angeles)
lyrics:
i read all of your messages but that dont mean i care
i keep seeing you in places and i want you out my hair
i dont feel like we're connected you just leave me in despair
thats why i can't feel a thing i just sit and fucking stare

like
hey i dont feel great
you're in my brain
now i'm insane
hey
you drive me insane
you drive me insane
you drive me insane

and im sorry nyc

(prod. bowsa)
lyrics:
it doesnt get better
you only get older
she killed me cause i let her
i just wanted to hold her

i wanna do better
my heart just gets colder
cant breathe cause my chest hurts
you cry on my shoulder

i hate being this way
run me down on the freeway
or give me some leeway
i cant stand when you're away
i feel like a loser
im stuck in my computer
i wasnt trying to lose her
i just fuckin confuse her

with my twisted emotions
that i fuck up with potion
just to put me in motion
wanna drown in the ocean

it doesnt get better
you only get older
she killed me cause i let her
i just wanted to hold her

i wanna do better
my heart just gets colder
cant breathe cause my chest hurts
you cry on my shoulder

killr

(prod. sickboi)
girl i dont think that you care at all
you're makin love with your alcohol
your blood is putrid you're leakin rot
girl i dont want you as mine at all

you're poison
toxin
you're livin in your boxes
your mind is full of garbage
you chewed all my guitar picks

so i dont give a fuck
if you die or if you rot
you're a monster and a thot
you deserve just what you got
i dont care you got me blocked

girl i dont think that you care at all
you're makin love with your alcohol
your blood is putrid you're leakin rot
girl i dont want you as mine at all

ur alcohol

(prod. JessieRosse)

ily @reddwinterr

[apxthy verse]
i forgot how to love you
and thats pretty apparent
you wanted to leave
so you called up your parents
i packed up your bags
and told you i never cared and
stabbed you in the back
rip out your flesh and i tear it

im a monster and thats alright
you're helpless no you cant fight
imma eat your heart like you did mine
this is retribution im divine

[reddwinterr verse]
Retribution, my life story
There's no angels up above
Imma get back at you girl
And everyone you love

Everytime I cut my thighs 
and everytime your in my mind
Just one more pill I'll be just fine
Hopefully I wont wake up this time

All alone ain got no one with
Bipolar shawty signed my name on her tits
Hate my fucking life so I cut on my wrists
Jump off a bridge and I wont be missed

retribution /w reddwinterr

(prod. sickboi)

ily @internetfraud

[apxthy verse]
i cant deal with all of my problems
run away from things i cant solve and
you said that you really dont mind
but i cant seem to shake it this time

i apologize that i cant understand
cant think with these chems in my head
i fill my lungs with vapor
roll my joints with notebook paper

just to feel something different
instead of indifference
can you hear the dissonance
its so fucking sickening

i dream of these nightmares
i hate that i dont care
you listen but you arent there
i hate you im so scared

[internetfraud verse]
can’t think so i fill my lungs with smoke
better days before i was on my own
don’t talk, i just want someone to hold
no conversation, just hold my place in

youuuuuuuuuur heart, 
girl in yoouuuuuuuuuuuuur heart,
i’ve felt so alone girl, so alone,
one day i hope you’ll hit my phone

look at my face,
look how i bleed,
look at my thighs girl,
above my knee

look at my face,
look at my face,
can’t match my pace girl,
can’t match my pace

wake up, getting high off of the wakeup 
numb my mind cus i’m tired of the fake love
f-f-fake friends that gave me fake numbers
i-i-incel i don’t got no lover

you think we’re friends? you really don’t know me

oh you don’t know me

im fine, awesome in fact /w internetfraud

(prod. wixxy.mp3)
i cant seem to find a reason
for your eyes and mine to be bleeding
we can't make it right so we're fleeting
you're the only one that i'm needing

these drugs in my brain
they make me feel so insane
being sober ain't the same
but i act like im okay

so it never really matters
all my blood will fucking splatter
put my organs on a platter
inflate my ego make it fatter

make it stronger
then i'll last a little longer
im a failure im a goner
leave my body in the water

i cant seem to find a reason
for your eyes and mine to be bleeding
we can't make it right so we're fleeting
you're the only one that i'm needing

reason

free @soulsecret-969175940 he did nothing wrong fr

stream the first one here by @prescriptionoverdose: https://soundcloud.com/prescriptionoverdose/free-soul-and-fuck-his-lawyer

(prod. tothem00n)

(free soulsecret and fuck his lawyer)
(let him back on discord or i'm gonna find you and kidnap you and tear you to shreds and eat your body parts)
(apxthy doesnt care)

i dont think you get it
i think i might end it
free my guy soulsecret
how long will you keep him?

off of discord where he belongs
chilling with the gang making songs
we used to chill like all night long
now his lawyers why hes gone

(no seriously why the fuck isn't he back on discord. you shitty fucking lawyer I hope your wife fucks the mailman)

fuck those stupid fluoride minds
they never could feel his vibe
hes soulsecret not soulshooter
let him use discord on his computer

back on discord where he belongs
chilling with the gang making songs
we used to chill like all night long
now his lawyers why hes gone

(soulsecret we miss you so much twin. come home safe soon gang. porchrot)

free soul and fuck his lawyer 2

(prod. @win113)
lyrics:
i be rottin on the porch with the gang
we be mobbin at the spot we be sippin on champagne
shorty crazy she got demons in her brain
shoulda known she was a junkie when i watched her do cocaine

i be sippin on some potions like a brewing stand
me and tyler pull up to yo crib and we aint throwing hands
porchrot shit we gon focus on them dividends
if you wanna live you best not run or else you gettin slammed

dont be talkin bout some bullshit i dont care
i cant stand it if i cannot smell my weed up in the air
shorty bad she tryna sit up like a chair
i been dead since i been livin i dont need no medicare

rottin on tha porch

@soulsecret-969175940 did the chords, i did the lead, he did the original vocals but i added layers

I can see you got a lot on your mind
But you're still in my brain
18 years was long enough
To be going on this way
When I taped my windows shut
I knew I'd gone insane
But I let things get so bad
It all made so much sense to me
You made things so bad too
Should I express it all for you?
19 years passed by quick
There's alot inside my brain
This might've been long enough
It hurts to go on this way
When I taped my windows shut
could you tell I was insane?
You let things get so bad
That makes so much sense to me
Cuz you made it so easy to
Express it all for you
20 years have passed in a flash
Do you even remember?
The little boy I used to be
Mom do you remember me?
When I taped my windows shut
It wasn't much to me
Things hurt so bad all the time
And that makes so much sense to me
It's gonna be so easy to
Express it all for you

express it all for you (cover) ft. apxthy

prod by me

ily soul

lyrics:

[apxthy verse]
i miss my nights without you
i used to be so calm
i miss my simple values
now everything is wrong

im losing face
my memories erased
i cant keep pace
please give me some space cause

[apxthy chorus]
i dont wanna give a shit bout nobody but me and mine
wanna run away and break your arms and break your fuckin spine
find you in your house and leave you chokin on a rusty knife
never really gave a shit bout nobody but me and mine

[soulsecret verse]
i miss my days without you
i used to be so bright
i miss my simple values 
now nothing ever goes right
i said it
for the last time

[soulsecret chorus]
i dont wanna give a shit bout nobody but me and mine
wanna run away and break your arms and break your fuckin spine
find you in your house and leave you chokin on a rusty knife
never really gave a shit bout nobody but me and mine

[outro]
i cannot deal with you
you are a burden to me
 kill myself no thought of you
wildflower im still blooming
so let me be 
let me on my own
dont keep me here
i just wanna go home

me and mine

(prod. sickboi)

(porchrot)
(apxthy doesnt care)
i cant see the signs
blood is dripping from my eyes
only tears that i can cry
i think that it might be why

i been stuck inside my head
thinkin bout u till im dead
everyone thinks im upset
all these feelings i regret

ive been sitting in my closet smoking weed to feel some shit
every day that ever passes it gets worse and i hate it
think ill feel this way forever like im broken into bits
i think that i might feel better if she let me see her- (shut up u hypersexual loser)

(goth loser)
(fuck that shit up soul)

(yeahh yeah yeah)
hashtag on my wrist
my veins bursting like a cyst
keep ur name carved on my shit
i am in love wit a goth bitch

got some money in my bag
its that shit you wish you had (g-goth lo-ser)
but thats shits a cover up
my wrist still bleeding what the fuck
i keep my money on the up
i keep my wrist all fuckin cut
i gotta bitch she wanna fuck
she is so goth she on my nuts

but thats shits a cover up
my wrist still bleeding what the fuck (ive been sitting in my closet smoking weed to feel some shit)
i keep my money on the up
i keep my wrist all fuckin cut (every day that ever passes it gets worse and i hate it)
i gotta bitch she wanna fuck
she is so goth she on my nuts (think ill feel this way forever like im broken into bits)
(yeah yeah)
i think that i might feel better if she let me see her- (p-p-porch rot)

bloody thoughts

(prod. manolo)

i dont wanna feel today
i dont wanna see your face
i just wanna run away
ill just find another place
ill see you on the other side
on the other side
catch you on the other side
on the other side 
x2

im going back to the days i left behind
my bones crack everyday but ill be fine
im chasin thrills cause i cannot stand my mind
avert my gaze cause i cannot stand the sight

of you and him lookin happy and alone
i cant stand to see you come
i cant stand to see you go
and i promise i wont run
but i really gotta know
would you pick him over me
would you kiss me in the snow

when you tell me that you love me 
baby i dont think you mean it
you're an actor on the daily
and im busy keeping secrets
honey you dont gotta hold me
ill do better if we leave it
girl im not your one and only
in the past is where we'll keep it

i dont wanna feel today
i dont wanna see your face
i just wanna run away
ill just find another place
ill see you on the other side
on the other side
catch you on the other side
on the other side 
x2

used to meet you round the back of the apartment
kissin in the moonlight takin off your garments
could tell you didn't care when you said that i was "charming"
break it off quick, fast decisions are the smartest

i dont feel a thing anymore
dont think about you
i dont really dream anymore
dont dream about you
i get high and sing when im bored
dont sing about you
you tried to break my heart im sorry i dont care about you

i dont wanna feel today
i dont wanna see your face
i just wanna run away
ill just find another place
ill see you on the other side
on the other side
catch you on the other side
on the other side 
x2

other side

apxthy doesn't care

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