(instrumental: wifiskeleton - and i'm sorry los angeles)
lyrics:
i read all of your messages but that dont mean i care
i keep seeing you in places and i want you out my hair
i dont feel like we're connected you just leave me in despair
thats why i can't feel a thing i just sit and fucking stare

like
hey i dont feel great
you're in my brain
now i'm insane
hey
you drive me insane
you drive me insane
you drive me insane

and im sorry nyc

(prod. bowsa)
lyrics:
it doesnt get better
you only get older
she killed me cause i let her
i just wanted to hold her

i wanna do better
my heart just gets colder
cant breathe cause my chest hurts
you cry on my shoulder

i hate being this way
run me down on the freeway
or give me some leeway
i cant stand when you're away
i feel like a loser
im stuck in my computer
i wasnt trying to lose her
i just fuckin confuse her

with my twisted emotions
that i fuck up with potion
just to put me in motion
wanna drown in the ocean

it doesnt get better
you only get older
she killed me cause i let her
i just wanted to hold her

i wanna do better
my heart just gets colder
cant breathe cause my chest hurts
you cry on my shoulder

killr

(prod. sickboi)
girl i dont think that you care at all
you're makin love with your alcohol
your blood is putrid you're leakin rot
girl i dont want you as mine at all

you're poison
toxin
you're livin in your boxes
your mind is full of garbage
you chewed all my guitar picks

so i dont give a fuck
if you die or if you rot
you're a monster and a thot
you deserve just what you got
i dont care you got me blocked

girl i dont think that you care at all
you're makin love with your alcohol
your blood is putrid you're leakin rot
girl i dont want you as mine at all

ur alcohol

(prod. sickboi)

ily @lac3ss

[apxthy verse]
i thought i cared i didnt
you left my soul just sinning
killed me but you're still grinnin
you're just my perfect villain

i lose my mind about you
i do some crazy things
i cannot live without you
girl you're my everything

i regret that i woke up
every damn morning gotta start with the smoke up
i wish that i could go outside but i froze up
chillin with laces you know that we bro'd up
hit it too hard now i think imma choke up

[laces verse]
you're feeling so good and im feeling so shitty
wanna kill myself but that's just so petty (apxthy's part is better you cunt)
brains in the air just like confetti
 Cuttin myself when my chest feels real  heavy (courtside losers)
make this music before shit gets messy
cuttin' too deep and now this shits deadly
treated her good she still but she still just left me 
still just left me 
brains in the air just like confetti

Cuttin myself when my chest feels real  heavy
make this music before shit gets messy
cuttin' too deep and now this shits deadly

i want her back to kill me
i need her back to hate me
i want her too degrade me 
cause that's just how i love her
i loved it when she hurt me
i loved it when she choked me
i loved it when she broke me
I loved it when- (thats enough you kinky weirdo)

[apxthy verse]
im glad i lost you
i cant be around you anymore
you know im right too
thats why you never call me
you never saw me
you wanted to use me
you fuckin abused me
you saw what i was worth and then you stole it for yourself
i hope you're fuckin happy gettin fucked in a hotel
i hope that you're fuckin ready for your special place in hell
dont you call my fuckin number cause i blocked your fuckin cell

perfect villain /w laces

(prod. peril)

ily @soulsecret-969175940

(apxthy doesn't care)

[apxthy chorus]
im tired of giving a shit
i feel so sick i wanna quit
i dont like you i dont like him
i hate your guts you stupid prick

[apxthy post-chorus]
i cant
keep faking
these fuckin feelings
im fuckin seething
you know im seething

[apxthy verse]
pack a bowl take a toke
im sick of life its just a joke
only happy when i smoke
i like smoking all alone
i hate people you should know
but i cant stand it when you go
please don't leave me all alone
please don't leave me all alone

do you care at all?
will you pick up my calls, my calls?

(goth loser)

[soulsecret chorus]
cant forget all the things you said
why wont they leave my fucking head
never knew what you wanted from me
soon youll find me hung up and dead

[soulsecret verse]
im missing you i got issues i cannot solve them
bloody tissue i think of you your letters, carved them

[soulsecret chorus]
cant forget all the things you said
why wont they leave my fucking head
never knew what you wanted from me
soon youll find me hung up and dead

[apxthy verse]
we break up
i dont care
i just see you everywhere
i really hate your fuckin face
wanna put you in your place
i hate that i still hold on to you
when all you do is hurt
i hate that i cant let go of you
ill kill myself like kurt

you definitely dont gaf abt me
but i dont care ill
chill at the crib and watch mike wazowski
(both of you sound like shit lol)

loserboys /w soulsecret

(prod. neverl0se)

you dont wanna love me
you just want my body
im so fuckin lonely
whenever you're around me
i get so fuckin antsy
you make me fucking crazy
i dont want you baby

we had somethin fuckin perfect
you were so insecure
you couldn't admit you were hurting
i really loved you girl
you tore me into pieces
you left my body bleeding
my ghost is in your ceiling
im in your head im feeding

you dont wanna love me
you just want my body
im so fuckin lonely
whenever you're around me
i get so fuckin antsy
you make me fucking crazy
i dont want you baby

you cant put down the bottle
our love is in your hands
you set me off full throttle
you leave me with no chance

i handed you the dagger
and put it to my chest
i forgot nothing matters
when you slit my fuckin neck

you dont wanna love me
you just want my body
im so fuckin lonely
whenever you're around me
i get so fuckin antsy
you make me fucking crazy
i dont want you baby

you cant put down the bottle
our love is in your hands
you set me off full throttle
you leave me with no chance

i dont want you

(prod. peril)

you dont look the same
changing every day
never the same face

you saw my scars and bailed
i found you on the rails
thats why i still bite my nails

im tired of doing the same shit
same loop everyday i wanna quit
tired of hating everyone i know
i just wanna pack my things and go
im tired of feeling the same shit
same thoughts in my brain i wanna quit
tired of hating everyone i know
ill float away in the afterglow

still fill my lungs with smoke
im in my room alone
my head remains unknown

theres gaps in my memory
fading photos i cant see
what ever made you want me?

was it my hair, was it my eyes?
my charming smile, my disguise
tailor made to fit your mind

im tired of doing the same shit
same loop everyday i wanna quit
tired of hating everyone i know
i just wanna pack my things and go
im tired of feeling the same shit
same thoughts in my brain i wanna quit
tired of hating everyone i know
ill fade away in the afterglow

tired

(prod. JessieRosse)

ily @reddwinterr

[apxthy verse]
i forgot how to love you
and thats pretty apparent
you wanted to leave
so you called up your parents
i packed up your bags
and told you i never cared and
stabbed you in the back
rip out your flesh and i tear it

im a monster and thats alright
you're helpless no you cant fight
imma eat your heart like you did mine
this is retribution im divine

[reddwinterr verse]
Retribution, my life story
There's no angels up above
Imma get back at you girl
And everyone you love

Everytime I cut my thighs 
and everytime your in my mind
Just one more pill I'll be just fine
Hopefully I wont wake up this time

All alone ain got no one with
Bipolar shawty signed my name on her tits
Hate my fucking life so I cut on my wrists
Jump off a bridge and I wont be missed

retribution /w reddwinterr

(prod. sickboi)

ily @internetfraud

[apxthy verse]
i cant deal with all of my problems
run away from things i cant solve and
you said that you really dont mind
but i cant seem to shake it this time

i apologize that i cant understand
cant think with these chems in my head
i fill my lungs with vapor
roll my joints with notebook paper

just to feel something different
instead of indifference
can you hear the dissonance
its so fucking sickening

i dream of these nightmares
i hate that i dont care
you listen but you arent there
i hate you im so scared

[internetfraud verse]
can’t think so i fill my lungs with smoke
better days before i was on my own
don’t talk, i just want someone to hold
no conversation, just hold my place in

youuuuuuuuuur heart, 
girl in yoouuuuuuuuuuuuur heart,
i’ve felt so alone girl, so alone,
one day i hope you’ll hit my phone

look at my face,
look how i bleed,
look at my thighs girl,
above my knee

look at my face,
look at my face,
can’t match my pace girl,
can’t match my pace

wake up, getting high off of the wakeup 
numb my mind cus i’m tired of the fake love
f-f-fake friends that gave me fake numbers
i-i-incel i don’t got no lover

you think we’re friends? you really don’t know me

oh you don’t know me

im fine, awesome in fact /w internetfraud

(prod. wixxy.mp3)
i cant seem to find a reason
for your eyes and mine to be bleeding
we can't make it right so we're fleeting
you're the only one that i'm needing

these drugs in my brain
they make me feel so insane
being sober ain't the same
but i act like im okay

so it never really matters
all my blood will fucking splatter
put my organs on a platter
inflate my ego make it fatter

make it stronger
then i'll last a little longer
im a failure im a goner
leave my body in the water

i cant seem to find a reason
for your eyes and mine to be bleeding
we can't make it right so we're fleeting
you're the only one that i'm needing

reason

apxthy doesn't care

apxtheticloser on tt and ig follow for a cookie

New tracks tagged #apxthy