muerte my best friend 🏴‍☠️
prod me nd @kingfelix

feel like i been losin patience, allat shit so wasted
tryna not fall to complacence, this world might be sadist
aint nun savin me, my blood gon stain that dirt nd paint it
all typsa red, lesions gonna make this canvas leak
off the top my head, yu gon watch all o that scarlet creep
down into that scarlet creek
bloodsport all i wreak
death is all i speak

legions in my fuckin brain, i could never sleep
i got leeches in my way, i know they tryna feed
they tryna rip out all the iron in my art (they take frm me)
im so tired of it, im leakin out my heart (blood, sweat nd tears)
this shit burstin thru my ears, turn up the noise til i cant hear
am i even here? am i even real?? (disassociate, associate)
disassociate til im at the gates
yea i look at myself like "what a waste"
i jus wanna unsee my face.

soulcrushing「+kingfelix」##deathcycles

new + old research snippets w/ friends :)

wisdom | research | evolution @avexacortexa

[I] chev chelios +@dancinginrainfall

[II] GABAA-rho +@dancinginrainfall

[III] qbittorrent [solo]
[ https://soundcloud.com/searingthrume/catalyzed ]

[IV] turnt2dust +@inveja nd @dancinginrainfall
[ https://soundcloud.com/searingthrume/hurt-like-hell ]

[V] mothership +@ihatejugo nd @kutliss

[VI] bathed in mercury +@kutliss nd @dancinginrainfall

[VII] feel so anemic [solo]

[VIII] phytochemicals +@chewy

[IX] hell2pay +@gr0lth

[X] cybermancy +@chewy
[ https://soundcloud.com/997s/cybermancy ]

[XI] feel so baddd [solo]

[XII] faux +@alongthewalls

[XIII] anhedoniac +@kutliss

april research showcase | 5-HT2A full agonist [283.4 gmol] ##avexacortexa

Wisdom Research Evolution @avexacortexa 
1:1 like no other 

@searingthrume
@yuracual

I. bare skin 
| https://soundcloud.com/dancinginrainfall/skin |
II. cant understand / difebarbamate
III. no personnel / indapyrophenidone
IV. 1-(1-Ethynylcyclohexyl)piperidine [YNCP]
V. dexoxadrol | delucemine
VI. your lovely skin 
| https://soundcloud.com/dancinginrainfall/enamored |
VII. pyeazolam | clobromazolam
VIII. DSP-0038 [ https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/DSP-0038 ]
IX. HOCPCA | 39x Affinty
X. barbara i gongini | entangled with dread
XI. ICI-190,622
XII. dalmane / doriden [ gluthimide | flurazepam ]
| https://soundcloud.com/dancinginrainfall/oblivion |
XIII. calcium ion channel blockade
XVI. IHCH - 711 / GYKI - 52466 [ high bioavalibility | lipophilicity ]
XVII. α-pyrro​lidino​pentio​thiophenone
XVIII. epidermis piercer | pierce through me
XIX. [x] GABAA-rho w/ @lesioncovered
XX. Superagonist | Tetratonic Rippler Mk. 5
XXI. somnolence | α6β2γ2
XXII. [x] neurogenesis w/ @yuracual

netrunner research release: high affinity neuron depolarization | pharmacodynamics #avexacortexa

down2 self-dissonancy
prod @dancinginrainfall w/ extra frm me

@searingthrume
ima carve my own way out
dont evn try2 doubt me, it wont work, no.
sinkin in this room, i feel like im on death row
sick of feelin like this, yea, ima choke.
fuck tha world, hate it all, tryna find a moat
all in tha distance now, like what happened??
feel so detached from like errything its maddening
[french]femme belle, why do this to me??
yur jus what i need
dont tell me that yur wary of me now???
im tired of breaking down.. :/
yea i feel so worthless as im spillin my guts
i aint fuckin wit it, no. im not fuckin wit it.
its fuckin wit my motions, ruin nervous system
realization set in.. so done, so done...

@sinefelt
everything's breaking apart
u been all up on my buttons
like ur tryna whip a damn push 2start
u been playin w my heart
can't tell if u mean harm
either way u cld keep ur mouth shut
bitch shut the fuck up
don't play that card
can't tell what i shouldn't be taking
u know that shit 2 n use it
i shoulda known tho, that's my fault
u waved plenty flags ur putrid

i know i'm not the only one
discounted me, we're done
i just wanna sit down
roll up quick
n nvr go see the sun

damn
i think that i might b losing it
i wonder if u felt the same
if u did i couldn't imagine it
u wouldn't be playing these games

at least i don't think so
can't let me miss your ringtone
if i do it's game over
if i do then u won
bitch pls shut the fuck up
stop lying u don't worry bout me tons

always spills out「+sinefelt nd miseryprism」

.. so much4 that .
prod me nd @dancinginrainfall

i swear2 gawd
yea i cant keep goin on like this
before i met yu i aint feel a thing
carbon bond baby tell me if yu feel that
wasnt lyin when i said i think i need that
yu agonize my bonds, its that magic
turnin my head2 soup
seepin in my heart, chains gettn cut thru
feel yu get me the depth is insanity
2:2 swear her mind feel so close2 me
pull me out the fuckery, pull me outta errything
rlly hope yu feel the same wayyy
way we talk like erryday does sumn2 my brain
hope yu get what the fuk i been sayinnn
swear it b that magic k, yea that magic k

agonize my heart
agonize my bonds
agonize me
tell me whatchu want
nevr want yu gone
love what yu do to my chemistry
only one that i want
think yur jus what i need
see all these other folks?
they could never get me

agonize my bonds.. ♡♡「+miseryprism」##1:1

i strive for what i want .
prod by @yuracual s/o tito
:
sick of yellin at my fuckn wall.
open up my home screen, got like zero calls.
throw that glass slate in the ocean, sick of all this typa wrong.
fckn wit my braincells, killin em all off one by one.
know they all say this shit but im tryn die fore 21.
all the bullshit be crankin up, im not havin fun.
nevrr gon fuckn fall cuz thats jus watchu want.
situational awareness silly bitch, i aint dumb.
nevrr gon fuckn fall cuz thats not what i want.
nd i strive for what i want, nd i don't need yur net chips.
shawty prolly think im weird cuz she done seen my head spill.
ion fuck wit lesions either, its aight i know the deal.

if yu tryn test me then fuck out the way.
man i really aint the one, fuck arnd nd break ya face.
leave yu like a puddle on da floor, what a waste.
if they playin typa bullshit at the party, shoot the place.


testN²much「+yuracual」

old bullshit frm my alt .
prod @inveja nd @dancinginrainfall
:
yea theres vomit all on my floor
i know how it goes, seen this b4
been too detached, nausea, on tha floor
yea i hate the way my head work, i need more
is she gettn what im saying? i been speakin thru the art
hate that we so far apart, plz jus lemme in yur heartttt
do yu evn get what i been tryn say?
hope yu ain't think i been weird but that yu aint say
dont evn think we gotta say it, know im insane
its that a.v.e.x.a. 1:1, fuckd in the brain
swear1 episode a day, but i want change
i been dancin in the rain cuz it wont fade
i know how yu like the rain, hope yu dont fade
i like what yu been doin2 my brain
been so oxidized, reverse the bleedin
look into my eyes, yeh i need it
lemme know yu feel it, like im feelin it
fore i met yu, swear i ain't feel shit
swear i ain't feel shit
yea i ain't feel shit but now i do.

raindance | oxidize 🜞「+inveja nd miseryprism」

but alas, ion got a choice .
production by @dancinginrainfall
:
all these thoughts been surgin thru my head
ion like it, it feel like fireeee
don't wanna be me, yu'd get so sick nd tireddd
like don't even try.. don't evn try it .
fuck lookn up to me, ion wanna be yur sire
not yur role model, fuck yur feelins on the wired
losin my shit, neurons like a livewire
so longgg, so doneee, so goneee
it's not working... (3x)
i don't wanna be me.. ion wANNA BE ME .
WOULDN'T WANNA BE ME .
FUCK IT ALL, I HATE ME .

⁵³ȶɨʟ ɨ ɖɨɛ.. 🝇「+miseryprism」

stepnn on mah nervess
@yungsushihoe prod me nd @083lxcvs

SUSHI$ENTRAL - KILLING SPREE「prod. lesions nd lxcvs」

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