muerte my best friend 🏴‍☠️
prod me nd @kingfelix

feel like i been losin patience, allat shit so wasted
tryna not fall to complacence, this world might be sadist
aint nun savin me, my blood gon stain that dirt nd paint it
all typsa red, lesions gonna make this canvas leak
off the top my head, yu gon watch all o that scarlet creep
down into that scarlet creek
bloodsport all i wreak
death is all i speak

legions in my fuckin brain, i could never sleep
i got leeches in my way, i know they tryna feed
they tryna rip out all the iron in my art (they take frm me)
im so tired of it, im leakin out my heart (blood, sweat nd tears)
this shit burstin thru my ears, turn up the noise til i cant hear
am i even here? am i even real?? (disassociate, associate)
disassociate til im at the gates
yea i look at myself like "what a waste"
i jus wanna unsee my face.

soulcrushing「+kingfelix」##deathcycles

new + old research snippets w/ friends :)

wisdom | research | evolution @avexacortexa

[I] chev chelios +@traumacatalyst

[II] GABAA-rho +@traumacatalyst

[III] qbittorrent [solo]

[IV] turnt2dust +@inveja nd @traumacatalyst
[ https://soundcloud.com/lesioncovered/hurt-like-hell ]

[V] mothership +@ihatejugo nd @kutliss

[VI] bathed in mercury +@kutliss nd @traumacatalyst

[VII] anemic [solo]

[VIII] phytochemicals +@chewy

[IX] hell2pay +@gr0lth

[X] cybermancy +@chewy

[XI] feel so baddd [solo]

[XII] faux chemists II +@alongthewalls

[XIII] anhedoniac +@kutliss

april research showcase | 5-HT2A full agonist [283.4 g/mol] ##avexacortexa

Wisdom Research Evolution @avexacortexa 
1:1 like no other 

@lesioncovered 
@yuracual

I. bare skin 
| https://soundcloud.com/dancinginrainfall/skin |
II. cant understand / difebarbamate
III. no personnel / indapyrophenidone
IV. 1-(1-Ethynylcyclohexyl)piperidine [YNCP]
V. dexoxadrol | delucemine
VI. your lovely skin 
| https://soundcloud.com/dancinginrainfall/enamored |
VII. pyeazolam | clobromazolam
VIII. DSP-0038 [ https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/DSP-0038 ]
IX. HOCPCA | 39x Affinty
X. barbara i gongini | entangled with dread
XI. ICI-190,622
XII. dalmane / doriden [ gluthimide | flurazepam ]
| https://soundcloud.com/dancinginrainfall/oblivion |
XIII. calcium ion channel blockade
XVI. IHCH - 711 / GYKI - 52466 [ high bioavalibility | lipophilicity ]
XVII. α-pyrro​lidino​pentio​thiophenone
XVIII. epidermis piercer | pierce through me
XIX. [x] GABAA-rho w/ @lesioncovered
XX. Superagonist | Tetratonic Rippler Mk. 5
XXI. somnolence | α6β2γ2
XXII. [x] neurogenesis w/ @yuracual

netrunner research release: high affinity neuron depolarization | pharmacodynamics #avexacortexa

down2 self-dissonancy
prod @traumacatalyst w/ extra frm me

lesions @searingthrume

ima carve my own way out
dont evn try2 doubt me, it wont work, no.
sinkin in this room, i feel like im on death row
sick of feelin like this, yea, ima choke.
fuck tha world, hate it all, tryna find a moat
all in tha distance now, like what happened??
feel so detached from like errything its maddening
[french]femme belle, why do this to me??
yur jus what i need
dont tell me that yur wary of me now???
im tired of breaking down.. :/
yea i feel so worthless as im spillin my guts
i aint fuckin wit it no, im not fuckin wit it
its fuckin wit my motions, ruin nervous system
realization set in.. so done, so done...

sinefelt @sinefelt

everything's breaking apart
u been all up on my buttons
like ur tryna whip a damn push 2start
u been playin w my heart
can't tell if u mean harm
either way u cld keep ur mouth shut
bitch shut the fuck up
don't play that card
can't tell what i shouldn't be taking
u know that shit 2 n use it
i shoulda known tho, that's my fault
u waved plenty flags ur putrid

i know i'm not the only one
discounted me, we're done
i just wanna sit down
roll up quick
n nvr go see the sun

damn
i think that i might b losing it
i wonder if u felt the same
if u did i couldn't imagine it
u wouldn't be playing these games

at least i don't think so
can't let me miss your ringtone
if i do it's game over
if i do then u won
bitch pls shut the fuck up
stop lying u don't worry bout me tons

always spills out「+sinefelt nd miseryprism」

yu agonize my chemistry <3
prod @traumacatalyst w/ extra frm me

i swear2 gawd
yea i cant keep goin on like this
before i met yu i aint feel a thing
carbon bond baby tell me if yu feel that
wasnt lyin when i said i think i need that
yu agonize my bonds, its that magic k
turnin my head2 soup
seepin in my heart, chains gettn cut thru
feel yu get me the depth is insanity
2:2 swear her mind feel so close2 me
pull me out the fuckery, pull me outta errything
rlly hope yu feel the same wayyy
way we talk like erryday does sumn2 my brain
hope yu get what the fuk i been sayinnn
swear it b that magic k, yea that magic k

agonize my heart
agonize my bonds
agonize me
tell me whatchu want
nevr want yu gone
love what yu do to my chemistry
only one that i want
think yur jus what i need
see all these other folks?
they could never get me

agonize my bonds.. ♡♡「+miseryprism」##1:1

switched to @traumacatalyst will no longer be posting on here

[🝎] covered in lesions #deathcycles
biotechnician @avexacortexa

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