Someone makes an off-handed remark and you bristle. Or they criticize you and you go into full-blown defensive mode before you dissolve into a million pieces. Why does this happen? Why are you so sensitive to some things while others slide off your back? You react when there is some truth in what was said; a truth you don’t want to admit to yourself, let alone have it pointed out by another person. When they call it out you become awash with shame. Shame is a VERY uncomfortable emotion to deal with so instead of feeling it, you deflect, attack, avoid or blame.

Maybe your friend says you can’t be alone, which is why you’re always jumping from one bad relationship to the next. If that’s not true, there would be no reaction. Nothing would be triggered inside of you. But if you strike back and/or want to crawl into a hole… that’s a sign. Shame is talking and it’s time to listen. In this week’s podcast we’re talking about how to deal with criticism and shame. It’s hard to see the unsavory or unlikeable parts of yourself, but acknowledging those parts is the road to self-love, self-acceptance and emotional freedom. When you own your actions and feel the shame, you open the door to healing. No one likes criticism, but it can be an incredibly powerful tool for growth.

WISDOM NUGGET (#wisdomnugget)
Put on your cape and open yourself to all sorts of criticism. Own what’s yours and let it flow through you. Remember you have your magic cape!

#776: Feel Criticized? How To Let It Go and Be Happy (REBROADCAST)

Mystery Kid  @mysterykidbaker 💗definitely doesn't fit into any box. This dual-faceted DJ and producer This dual-faceted DJ pushes the BPMs of dark disco, navigating between rock-tinged EBM and percussive kick breaks. Mystery Kid released her first track on the Nubians Of Plutonia Records (IT) label, signed an EP on Pacotyson Records (FR) and a track on Femnoise Records (ESP), always faithful to her underground dark disco vibes. She began in famous clubs like Badaboum (Paris) and Warehouse (Nantes), this professional queer artist has an eclectic universe revolving around EBM and dark disco. She became national revelation RIFFX 2023, and having great experience of the stage, she had play to huge famous festivals (Made festival 2023, Printemps de Bourges 2023, Astropolis 2023 and We Love Green 2023, Monumental Tour 2023) where she shares the mainstage with many other professional artists (Dylan Dylan, Red Axes, Salome, Belaria, Laurent Garnier, Rebeka Warrior, Irène Dresel ...). In 2024, she became a Rinse FM resident and attracted the programmers of the HOR livestream platform (Berlin). Follow this little alien and enter in her dual dark universe with synth waves and rock vibes, where percussive break and EBM merge harmoniously.

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Anbu - She Said You Wanna Dance [Kyma Komplex] @kymakomplex
Velax - No More Conclusion [Industrial Insights]
The Weird Rider - Essence  [NECROMECHANICA]
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Alpha Sect - Upon Her Wrath [SHISHI] 
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MIND | MATTER - Dead People (QUAL Remix) [INTERVISION015]
@mind666matter @qual_official
Munsinger - Read Between The Lines [UNRELEASED]
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Kris Baha - Double Helix Overdrive [Kindcrime]
@krisbaha @kindcrime-recordings
CRYING SKIES - Doors To The Bright Light [UNRELEASED]
@cryingskies
Organik Fanatik - Prey For Me @organikfanatik
Jultron - Svidomist [UNRELEASED] @jultron
Metakross - We Burned The Palace [OBERWAVE RECORDS]
@peter-cross-517329170 @oberwave
ELEKTROTECHNIK - Parasit [Avoidant] @str-18 @avoidantrecords
ROUGH - Primal [NATURAL SELECTION] @roughdj
Vittorio Di Mango - Dark Kiss (Size Pier Remix) [RND. Records]
@vittoriodm @size-pier @rndtechnorecords

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𝑯𝑶𝑹𝑹𝑶𝑹 𝑺𝑯𝑶𝑾 #49 MYSTERY KID

upon writing this, it had been 3 weeks

~same fights, same diagnose 
same band-aids with undying hope
we never really stopped the bleeding

check your breath, feel my pulse
we'll always choose for bitter or worse
cause now the symptoms seem a part of life

and you never asked me questions, to map out my emotions
isn't that right? 
and when i would share my pain, you'd say that i only complain
isn't that right? 
no, it's not right. 

and the more that i think of it
in fact, we were making each other sick
healing began when i quit
and i gave you all there was to give
but like you said, love is not the fix
guess we're better off like this
i hope you get better
(cause it wasn't right, no, it's not right)

a fever you can't sweat out is what we used to sing out loud
you would never put your fun at risk
i know you loved me but
your actions didn't show it off
i was not high on your bucket list

on the couch i'm crying
next to me you started napping
isn't that right? 
and though my nose was bleeding
you just tell me to keep breathing
isn't that right? 
no, it's not right. 

and the more that i think of it
in fact, we were making each other sick
healing began when i quit
and i gave you all there was to give
but like you said, love is not the fix
guess we're better off like this

i hope you get better

Better (Off) [wip vocals]

Anxiety

pls dont avoid me

hi <3 this is a song i wrote about suffering for love and wondering if it is, after all, worth it. can you guess i still don't have an answer? hope you like this one!

Worth It

Discuss attachment styles, emotional healing of wounds, practical techniques for healing and daily practices.

Book Review: Healing Your Attachment Wounds

teenage bedroom melodrama

Produced by @t.murp
Mixed and mastered by @idreaminstereo

Losing Me

snap back quick
get into it

kerosene oil pour a bit
and i like how the flame jump
i told you not to wait up

interstate speed, how i like to leave
and i let them question the key to me
“how do you keep company?”
well i thought i was easy to read

be so seen, and i recoil in it
you catch me staring at the gas pump
told you not to show up
now watch how i leave, how i split

interstate speed, how i like to leave
and i let them question the key to me
“how’s it feel to be free?”
well i thought i was too easy to read

the flashback thick
i can’t admit

kerosene oil pour a bit
(and i like how the flame jump)
strike the match head, now the shit’s lit
(i told you not to wait up)
well i thought i was easy to read
(the flame is the true key to me)

interstate speed, how i  tend to leave
before they stick their knives in me
“how do you keep any company?”
well i thought i was easy to read
i was too easy to read

Key2Me

A home demo from 2025. From the EP Phantasies.

Kathryn (Demo 2025)

Beatscapes 1128

Faceless Mind - 16 Steps At Byfogde O (Fundamental Records) (2015)
Baby T - I Wish (Central Processing Unit) (2020)
Human Rebellion X Shun - Dosage and Capacity (Ovelha Trax) (2023)
Kafkactrl - XOR Calculator (Gladio Operations) (2024)
Luke Eargoggle - Freaks Are Spinning (KONDI) (2004)
Sound Synthesis - Nexus Of Dark Energy (Orbital Mechanics) (2021)
Transparent Sound - Pissing Against The Wind (CRC Yellow Snow Remix) (Exalt Records) (2024)
X-Truder - M4NIAC (Borg Recordings) (2024)
Go Nuclear - Respond 2 Techno Sound (Ovelha Trax) (2022)
Somnolent Works - Lost Transmission (Ovelha Trax) (2024)
Sound Synthesis - Deep Space Scanner (Orbital Mechanics) (2022)
X23 - Can You See (Battery’s Park’Studio) (2024)
Generali Minerali - Mars Generation (RFR) (2021)
Heliopause - Lights Flicker (Robotmachine Records) (2024)
Mr Gentle - Cyber Arps (Lloyd Stellar Remix) (Preset) (2020)
Neonicle - New Culture (Feat. Dyroplane) (Electro Music Coalition) (2024)
Sigma_ALgebra - Cauchy Schwarz  (Science Cult) (2024)
SOD-90 - Carousel (Strange But Dance Music) (2024)
Zadig - Circular Causality (Oscar Mulero Remix) (Sotor Records) (2021)
G303 - Acid Dropping (Zodiak Commune) (2024)
Parand - DATA03 (Nurse) (2020)
Turk Turkelton - Sugar (RAIDERS_RECORDS) (2020)
Zobol - Retrofuturism (Tiger Weeds) (2024)
Dirk Wiertz - Girl Scout (LDI Records) (2025)
Jadzia - Triple Check (Kosmodod Remix) (Ovelha Trax) (2024)
Mayo - Frenemies (Danny Daze Hell Mix) (Fides) (2022)
PRZ - Lazerton (Cultivated Electronics) (2024)
Helsmoortel - Violance (Avoidant) (2021)
Cyborg Rhetoric - Ventilate (Ovelha Trax) (2022)


Beatscapes 1128 - www.radiocentraal.be

Do you crave connection but keep everyone at arm's length? You might be what Tracy calls an "accidental asshole."

You're not trying to be a jerk. You built that wall as a kid to survive. But now it's blocking the very thing you want most.

You date with one foot in, one foot out. You need drama to feel anything. When someone actually wants to love you? Boring. Or terrifying.

Stop waiting for someone who won't trigger you. That person doesn't exist. The work is dealing with the discomfort of letting someone in.

In this episode, Tracy explores:
* Why you need tension to feel attraction
* How the "perfect person" fantasy keeps you unavailable
* Why you get pissed when you actually get attached
* Why you contact exes months later
* How to feel without the protective facade

"Emotionally available people do not seek out unavailability." ~ Tracy Crossley


#816: The Truth About The Accidental A$$hole

Are you exhausted from forcing everything to happen? From pushing through goals that leave you feeling empty once you reach them?

Most avoidants live like they're perpetually on fire—reacting, controlling, forcing outcomes because "easy" feels dangerous. But here's the thing: all that forcing keeps you from the very flow state that would actually get you where you want to go.

In this episode, Tracy explores:
* Why ease feels dangerous when you're avoidant
* The difference between forcing and allowing
* How perfectionism keeps you stuck in empty cycles
* Sitting with discomfort instead of reacting
* Recognizing when you're escaping versus flowing

"When you're forcing, you're coming from a state of lack. You can't force a healthy relationship. You can't force anything meaningful. But we keep trying because we're afraid to let go of the false building we've created that everyone can admire." ~ Tracy Crossley


#617: How To Stay In The Flow As An Avoidant

thinking if i did right while i write this song
do i really see fine, is my vision flawed
doubting if i played my moves or if stalled
now i cant call, anxiety. mask on

my vision is blurry
i was such in a hurry
that i called out for help
to a person that couldnt
and wouldnt at all
not because its their fault
but cuz all their traumas created them from
the ground up
now im in the honda
elements in body rocking like thunda
ponder why i tried it at all
wishing for a last date near the pond

Avoidant detachment

We are from the Banksy school of bios.....

𝐿𝑎𝑏𝑒𝑙 / 𝐺𝑢𝑒𝑠𝑡 𝑀𝑖𝑥 / 𝑅𝑎𝑑𝑖𝑜 𝑆ℎ𝑜𝑤
𝑯𝑶𝑹𝑹𝑶𝑹 𝑺𝑯𝑶𝑾 💥
🥽 𝗙𝗢𝗨𝗡𝗗𝗘𝗥: @ultrapaulina2
📻 𝗣𝗥𝗘𝗠𝗜𝗘𝗥𝗘𝗦 𝗢𝗡 @radiokapital
🔝 𝗠𝗨𝗦𝗜𝗖 𝗖𝗛𝗔𝗥𝗧𝗦 @horror-havnbeat

𝗠𝗜𝗦𝗦𝗜𝗢𝗡:
Promote 𝐄𝐥𝐞𝐜𝐭𝐫𝐨 𝐁𝐨𝐝𝐲 𝐌𝐮𝐬𝐢𝐜:
and unite its international community.
𝐄𝐯𝐨𝐥𝐯𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐬𝐢𝐧𝐜𝐞: 2021 

𝗚𝗨𝗘𝗦𝗧𝗦:🦇
2023
#1 @Illnurse ILLNURSE
#2 @ekatamusic EKATA
#3 @4fgang1  DJ ZAMOCNO
#4 @odilonsgrip ODILONS GRIP
#5 @saintclairr b2b @theppie MIDNIGHT CHAOS
#6 @connor_noctambuss 
CONNOR NOCTAMBUSS
#7 @manasyt MANASYt
#8 @laurapalmer11 LAURAPALM3R
#9 @thenorthernscum LORENZO MORI
#10 @rynzler1 RYNZLER (LIVE ACT)
#11 @ona_vera ONA:V
#12 @evildust  EVIL DUST
#13 @panternoise PANTERNOISE
#14 @dj-delectro DELECTRO
#15 @georgi-penstkart PENSTKART
#16 @giallovirgo GIALLO VIRGO
#17 @post_traumaticcc POST TRAUMATIC
#18 @ricardocastro RICARDO CASTRO
#19 @aufnahme-wiedergabe PHILIPP STROBEL
#20 @go-nuclear GO NUCLEAR!
#21 @romancedisaster ROMANCE DISASTER
#22 @zeitreise_brutal_forms ZEITREISE
#23 @notausgangmusic NOTAUSGANG
#24 @shialabiff SHIA LABIFF
#25 @w1ldatheart WILD AT ♡
#26 @djgraftak GRAFTAK
#27 @dvsnme DVS NME

2024
#28 @electrosexual ELECTROSEXUAL
#29 @ezuri EZURI/LESS
#30 @adam_ra ADAM RÅ
#31 @disco_for_the_damned BYRNE
#32 @flora_xc FLORA
#33 @heatherhelix HEATHER HELIX
#34 @miseriarecords 89s† CARLOS GRABSTEIN
#35 @mildaffect MILD AFFECT
#36 @zosia-ho-ubowska MALA HEBRA
#37 @jorgenthorvald JØRGEN THORVALD
#38 @madmoizel MADMOIZEL
#39 @cat-gadget CATGET
#40 @luct_melod LUCT MELOD
#41 @existentialdoubt EXISTENTIAL DOUBT
#42 @carmillasioux CARMILLA SIOUX
#43 @alone-in-the-dark-dj ALONE IN THE DARK
#44 @kunihiko-yoshida  FECROMASS
#45 @djtygre TYGRE
#46 @norbert-thunder NORBERT THUNDER
#47 @klangwergkh KLANGWERGKH
#48 @thildaart THILDAA
#49 @mysterykidbaker  MYSTERY KID
#50 @lzndj  LZN
#51  @dj-mademoisellecherie 
MADEMOISELLE CHÉRIE
#52 @sv3n SV3N
#53 @ultrapaulina2  ULTRA👩🏼‍✈️🦇
#54 @kowaofficial KOWA
#55 @misslucifer MISS LUCIFER
#56 @rlaeuchli ROLANDO PORRO

2025 
#57 @rq_6470 Q-6470 
#58 @user-909973132-441989573 
ELECTRIC VISIONARY
#59 @la_sanguijuela666 LA SANGUIJUELA 
#60 @solowinski SOLOWINSKI 
#61 @andrea-arias-zige ANDREA ARIAS | ZIGE
#62 @holoe HOLOE
#63 @joelewandowski Joe Lewandowski

Welcome to the Mindful Book Critic where our blog is about share the love of insightful knowledge to our listener.

The Aquanaut drifted.
Bass in it's wake.

An Ambassador at the helm,
Spinning Electro into the void.

A Black Hole opened.
The Rhythm answered.

Mushrooms fell.
The Universe danced.

Vincent Russo has been composing music since 1988. He is a self taught musician on both guitar and keyboards. While growing up on Long Island, Vincent explored rock, blues, jazz and western classical music. Over the years Vincent has produced a wide range of works from chamber, symphonic, choral as well as more pop oriented and electronic styles of music.

hi 🌹
i write songs that make you feel less alone ❤️

A lot of us live in our head, disconnected from our feelings and intuition. This podcast touches on releasing insecure attachment, accepting your authentic self and getting “unstuck” by connecting to how you FEEL instead of how you THINK. I’ve been there, and discuss sensitive subjects using my own experiences with a lot of laughs and even more empathy… because we’re all flawed humans.

i started sharing my songs in 2016 - i've been writing and composing a lot longer, ever since i got my keyboard in 2004. upgraded my keyboard in 2021

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