when all this is over is a song about singing songs. it’s about sharing space, connecting, making music together, and how that has always happened and always will happen, even if everything else falls apart. it’s a hopeful song, i think, even if some of it is pretty tricky to hold. 

music and lyrics written and performed by honor ash 
recorded, mixed and mastered by Jason Baldock at The Crunch, Great Yarmouth
photography by Maisie Radley 

when all this is over

Played on a 4 string Kala Baritone Ukulele in a DADGAD tuning. This is an original composition solo performance.

Enchanting Enigma

	
I am content
You’ve given me all that I need
I’ve felt hunger and sorrow yet I
Cannot deny that you were with me

Lord you have been
My strength when I’ve lacked in it me
My peace in grief and anxiety
A constant refuge where I can retreat

Oh God
How could I ever repay
How could I ever give thanks
Enough to show you have grateful I am

I’m still singing of your goodness

Content

	
When the day is lonely
And the night is long
When I wake up tired
And don’t feel strong
When I feel I’ve lost
Before the fight’s begun
Oh Lord, let me know that you’re not done

There’s a peace to be found
In the quiet hours
There’s a hope telling me to hang on
And when I don’t hear your voice when I cry out in prayer
It doesn’t mean that you’re not there

This bend in the road
Has left me confused
It feels like I’m missing the lesson
For the test is long
And the answers don’t come
This change of course
Has me second guessing

Bend in the Road

It’s always before me
It’s always right here
Hits me when I first wake up
With me when I lay back down
It’s always before me

I thought you were dead
But I see glimpses of you
Reflecting in the window
Sitting in the back of the room
Quiet over my shoulder
Rocking in the shadows back and forth
You never take your eyes of me
You need no words

My mind does all the talking
Picking up where we left off
I’m laying here confused
Did I even kill you at all
Whispers from the grave say
Every evil can return
Is your blood on my hands
Or is mine on yours

Always Before Me

I wish I would have known
What I already know
We all leave empty handed
When it’s time to go

Memories I can’t forget
Eternity with my regret

Memories I never made
Worthless now the price I paid
Memories I should have had
A second chance I’ll never have
Memories we can’t retract
What we give is all we’ll have

I Wish I Would Have Known

I can’t remember the last time I made you laugh
Or we walked together without a reason or a task
Cause we got so busy
There’s no room to take the time to love you better

We’ve gotta make time for the ones we love
Cause we make time for the things we really want
And it’s a shame that too often we don’t see
What we already have is everything that we need

I’ll be late for dinner again cause there are deadlines I can’t miss
Tell the kids I’m sorry and I’ll make it up to them
When work gets slower
They can have some more screen time if it make things better

I know I’ve gotta make time for the ones I love
Cause I make time for the things I really want
And it’s a shame that too often I don’t see
What I already have is everything that I need

Love You Better

	
We’re like a good book
That we started but put down
Forgotten, moved around
And got tossed

We never hung in
For the good part to begin
Now we’ll never get back
What has been lost

Should we choose our own adventure
Cause this chapter’s nearly over
Is it time to turn the page
And move on

Or is there still more
Of this story to discover
Can we pick up from the
Place we left off

When I am down
I pull from the shelf of old memories
I dust off the past and open a page
But find it empty

We’re like a good song
That was written long ago
One hit wonder radio
Play now gone

But is there still time to find
Our rhythm and revive
A beating echo from the grave
That lives on

When I am down
I draw from the well of past melodies
I lower my heart and raise it again
But it’s still empty

When you’re around
We bring broken words that still need to mend
Do we have the time, do we have the will
To write the ending

Like Good

All of the weight of worry on my mind
Takes a toll and makes each step a grind
Paralyzed by the fear of the unknown
I just want to pack the car and leave it all behind

Well wherever life should take me
I’ll make it just fine
Counting the mile markers with you by my side

Pass all the stops and see how far we’ll go
Chasing the sunset as the exit numbers grow
Wave to our friends who choose a different way
But don’t give a second thought to the “what if’s” we can’t know

Well wherever life should take me
I’ll make it just fine
Counting the mile markers with you by my side
Yeah wherever life should take me
I’ll make it through
I’m never alone or running empty when I’m with you

Mile Markers

We want to be with you, this is close to being true
Come show up for us, and grant every want
We welcome the gain, but never the loss
We want you but don’t want your cross

I sit on the fence sipping lukewarm coffee
I wait impatiently for what you will give me

I pray for the things that my heart so desires
And worship expecting sensations
But would I still sing if you never showed up
Or failed to meet my expectations

I’m still waiting for my blessing
Have I been singing for nothing

Lukewarm Coffee

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