HOW TO STOP TIME (the pretty way)

PRETTY MF

MAGIC

ITS COOL

у меня в плеере играет инцелкор и ко мне применяют физическое насилие

Lyrics: 

You made love feel
like a minefield 
always watching my step
always in hyper-alter

You covered 
your violence well 
with honey and silk 

Now I'm left alone 
to dwell
with the raging wars you built 

was it just a dream
i never woke up from?
Who am i now that 
you killed who I was?

i think i'm turning bitter
i thought i could stay soft 
but its getting dark and cold out
and all my inner skies dusked 

I’m praying for the sun 
to rise within 
my bones

but it never interrupts the night
i can’t seem
 to rise above

all i can do is 
worship the shadows 
that teach me little things about myself

was it just a dream
i never woke up from?
Who am i now that 
you killed who I was?

I’m standing in the twilight,
half alive and half erased
learning how to love myself
in the ruins of your name.

If I ever get my body back
from the places you controlled,
maybe then the dusk will lift
and I’ll stop feeling so wrong.

There’s a chapel in my ribcage
where your echoes never die.
I light candles just to warm myself
but they only make me cry.

If salvation ever finds me,
let it find me on my knees
praying to a future
where your hands are no longer haunting me.

was it just a dream
i never woke up from?
Who am i now that 
you killed who I was?

i think i'm turning bitter
i thought i could stay soft 
but its getting dark and cold out
and all my inner skies dusked 

dusk (Demo)

i don't care that you're sad because you never cared about me..a song about a toxic mother

I Don't Care That You're Sad

Lyrics: 

I remember being young 
and so fucking reckless
dancing non-stop 
with high heels on 
until the sun came up 

drinking the devil’s juice
waking up next to strangers 
walking home feeling empty 
stuck in a chronic daydream
i should feel nostalgic but i don’t

i spent 
my youth
destroying myself

(holy rebel)
(known better)
(disappear) 

(looking for God)
(looked above)
(somewhere in the sky
in the cushions of clouds)

maybe i was searching
for a softer place to land
in the bottom of a bottle
or the warmth of 
someone else's hands

deep down i just wanted 
my mother’s love
never knowing what to do next
or where to go 
do i leave my homeland?
pack up and go
explore? 

I was a holy rebel 
maybe i should’ve known better
than thinking my pain
would disappear

I was looking for God 
maybe i should’ve looked above 
somewhere in the sky 
in the cushions of clouds

(i still taste the whiskey in my mouth)

my religion
was rebellion
truth is 
i just wanted 
to be seen 
‘cause i was left 
alone to
my own devices 

my religion
was rebellion
truth is
i just wanted 
to be loved
as the silence grew
louder and louder

I was a holy rebel 
maybe i should’ve known better
than thinking my pain
would disappear

I was looking for God 
maybe i should’ve looked above 
somewhere in the sky 
in the cushions of clouds

(i still taste the whiskey in my mouth)

HOLY REBEL (Demo)

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