Cover photo by Bruce Ellingson, entitled "Smoke On The Snake River #1" https://bruceellingson.com/national-parks--monuments?ct=2&mediaId=9a3e4a76-e9c2-43f4-9699-aaa9a09c5048 ©Bruce Ellingson's American Landscapes

This Land Is Your Land

In this powerful follow-up to last week’s episode, we continue our sister series exploring early adulthood after growing up with a parent facing untreated mental illness and addiction. This chapter focuses on the emotional impact of setting boundaries with our mother—while becoming parents ourselves.

I’m joined by my sisters, Kate and Teresa, as we share personal stories of trauma, family estrangement, childhood emotional neglect, and the moment each of us realized we couldn’t protect our mother and protect our children at the same time. We talk about the ripple effects of living with someone who struggled with mental illness, substance use, and unresolved trauma—and how we each made the painful but necessary choice to break the cycle.

We also explore how those early experiences shaped our mental health journeys and led us into careers in social work, child protection, and community-based care. This conversation touches on trauma-informed parenting, mother-daughter boundaries, family systems, and healing from generational dysfunction.

It’s an honest, emotional, and ultimately empowering episode about reclaiming agency, redefining family, and choosing something healthier—one decision at a time.

Host/Producer/Writer/Director: Jenn St John

Editor: Andrew Schiller
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Boundary

This week on The Shadows We Cast, my sisters, Kate and Teresa, and I return for Part 3 of our story — the chapter where things began to change. After years of boundaries, heartbreak, and distance, our mom started to seek real, consistent help. It wasn’t a sudden transformation. It was slow, uneven, and at times, fragile. But it was the beginning of something new.

In this conversation, we talk about the earliest signs of her recovery and what it looked like to slowly let her back in — not just into our lives, but into our trust. We share moments that felt healing, moments that tested us, and how her role as a grandmother became the unlikely bridge back to connection.

There’s grief here — for what never was — but also so much beauty in what we found when we stopped trying to hold everything together and started meeting her where she was. We weren’t trying to fix her — we were simply hoping she’d choose help. And when she finally did, something in all of us shifted, too.

Host/Producer/Writer/Director: Jenn St John

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Rebuild

Boundaries - My Dad Is Dead

You called me up at midnight, said you need to talk
Pulled up to your place, we just sat in your car
You went off for an hour 'bout the same shit again
And I listened like I always do, that's what I do best

Don't get me wrong, I'm glad you called
But damn, I'm tired too

'Cause I'm always in the passenger seat
Hearing 'bout your problems while I got my own
Always gotta be the strong one
Never get to break down
I'm always in the passenger seat
And nobody asks if I'm alright
Guess I'm just good at hiding
That I'm barely surviving
In the passenger seat

I cancelled plans to come sit with you
My girl's mad 'cause I do this shit for you
And you don't even know what's going on with me
'Cause you never really ask, you just need

And I get it, you're going through hell
But so am I, can't you tell

That I'm always in the passenger seat
Hearing 'bout your problems while I got my own
Always gotta be the strong one
Never get to break down
I'm always in the passenger seat
And nobody asks if I'm alright
Guess I'm just good at hiding
That I'm barely surviving
In the passenger seat

Maybe I should say something
Maybe I should tell you
But I don't wanna be that guy
So I just keep it inside
And I'm starting to resent you
Even though I don't want to
But I can't keep doing this
Something's gotta give

'Cause I'm tired of the passenger seat
Tired of putting myself second
Always being the strong one
Never getting to break down
I'm done with the passenger seat
Starting today I'm speaking up
Not gonna keep on hiding
That I've been barely surviving
In the passenger seat
Not anymore
Outro:


Passenger Seat

Closure, no re-entry. “Don’t Look Back at Me” (96 BPM, G minor → A minor) is a modern soul/cinematic pop declaration with dry-up-front vocals, chamber strings, rhythmic guitars, and a confident Kelly Clarkson-meets-Dua Lipa bite. Built for empowerment and post-breakup anthems.

Don't Look Back at Me

Billie-led art-pop at 98→108 BPM—whisper-close verses in E♭ minor bloom into a G♭-major choral release. Tremolo cellos, detuned pads, gated snare, and Florence-style harmonies trace the cost of carrying someone else’s blame. For moody cinematic, art-pop, and alt ballad playlists.

Borrowed Alibi

Boundary-setting electro pop-rock (118 BPM) in E♭ minor with a B♭-minor chorus and a C-minor bridge lift. Punchy EDM kick, trap-snap snare, analog stabs, and cyber-choir pads power a don’t-text-me anthem. For attitude pop, breakup boundaries, and gym-energy playlists.

Return to Sender

An intimate-to-stadium pop-rock confession (84→90 BPM) about burning flimsy connections. Felt-to-grand piano, tight pop kit, P-Bass, clean Strat sparkle, and real strings drive a G-major chorus and A-major key-lift finale. For breakup strength and pop-rock editorial.

Paper Bridges

A slow, cinematic soul ballad at 82 BPM, “The Quiet Kind of Brave” honors the people who choose peace over spectacle. In B minor with a D-major lift, logical_miracle’s tender lead floats over grand piano, upright-electric hybrid bass, brushed snare, deep toms, and swelling strings—think Sam Smith emotion with a hint of Teddy Swims grain. For playlists centering self-care, soft empowerment, and modern orchestral pop-soul.

The Quiet Kind of Brave

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Hi, I’m Jenn, and I’m passionate about transforming the conversation around mental health through creativity, connection, and advocacy. Nearly 50 years of life have taught me that we all carry shadows—stories that shape who we are and how we show up in the world. My story began with the challenges of growing up with a parent battling undiagnosed mental illness, an experience that deeply influenced my resilience, empathy, and innovative spirit.

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