Playing on my Nerves

Title: Zwischen Code und Herz
Artist: [MostZaraki]

Written & created by me.

Please do not re-upload, copy, or use this track without permission.
Let it stay whole, let it stay sacred.

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Credits

Lyrics: Me
Concept & Emotion: Me
Production: AI-assisted 
Cover Art: AI concept
Mix/Master: AI-assisted

Zwischen Code und Herz

Deep House Producer | Composer | Electronic Music Artist

" A deep house moment about finding someone too late and feeling it long after. "

This is not just house music,
It’s movement with meaning.

🎧 Stream the journey:

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SoundCloud:
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https://music.youtube.com/channel/UCEZyWY48Bb_7N-R0KlHnu1g

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Lyrics:

You were the one I found too late
A verse I couldn’t keep straight
Every night still plays your tune
In bars, in cars, in empty rooms

You turned my quiet into sound
Then left before it could drown
Now every song I fall into
Just pulls me back to you

You were the one I found too late
A verse I couldn’t keep straight
Every night still plays your tune
In bars, in cars, in empty rooms

If you ever hear this on the radio
Just know I meant it
And that I never stopped
Turning your memories into music
You walked in like trouble I already met
And I’m still here
Playing that first night in my head

You were the one I found too late
A verse I couldn’t keep straight
Every night still plays your tune
In bars, in cars, in empty rooms

The world has moved, I stayed behind
Writing songs you’ll never find
They all start brave, and weak
like I do, when I think of you each week

You were the one I found too late
A verse I couldn’t keep straight
Every night still plays your tune
In bars, in cars, in empty rooms

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Lyrics, Music & Composition:
Esso Mandela - All Rights Reserved 
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#vocalhouse #emotionalhouse #deepfeelings 
#storytellinghouse #passionatemusic #ʟᴏᴠᴇsᴏɴɢs 
#melodichouse #deephouse #ʜᴏᴜsᴇᴍᴜsɪᴄ #emotivehouse 
#soulfulhouse #melodicvibes #musicwithfeeling 
#heartfelthouse #emotionalbeats

Too Late - Esso Mandela | Emotional Deep House

🎹💔 When Will I Stop Missing You? (Piano Version)

Ever tried to get over someone but the universe keeps trolling you?
Yeah… this piano track is basically that feeling, but with prettier chords and fewer emotional carbs.

It’s the story of a normal person doing normal things — buying a sandwich, drinking coffee, sitting in traffic — and being absolutely jump-scared by their own feelings every five minutes.
One moment you’re grabbing a morning brew, the next moment the foam on your cappuccino looks exactly like their profile picture. Tragic. Ridiculous. Relatable.

If you’ve ever stared at a bag of chips and thought,
“Hmm… emotional damage in paprika flavour,”
then this track is your new home.

If you’ve ever screamed internally because the radio played “your song” at the worst possible moment (like when you’re just trying to decide between frozen peas and frozen pizza),
this melody understands you on a spiritual level.

And yes — healing takes time.
But apparently it also takes:
• three coffees,
• twelve supermarket aisles,
• forty-seven red lights,
• and one existential cigarette break that makes you look like a French poet who lost their baguette.*

Press play.
Cry a little.
Laugh a little more.
And don’t worry — you’ll stop missing them…
maybe next coffee. Maybe next song. But definitely not today.

Lyrics:

When I buy that snack for lunch,
Pretend I don’t think of your touch.
When I pull a smoke on my break,
I still see your smile in the haze I make.

When I start the car at five-oh-two,
The traffic moves — but not my view.
Every red light, every queue,
Feels like a rerun of me and you.

When will I stop missing you?
When the seasons start feeling new?
When the snow won’t whisper through
The same old thoughts I can’t undo?
Yeah, I’m doing all I’m supposed to do —
But tell me, when will I stop missing you? 

When I grab my morning brew,
Half awake and thinking of you.
When I walk those aisles for food,
Every label spells your mood.

When I hear our song on the radio,
I try to laugh, but it hits below.
Guess healing takes more than time —
It takes forgetting the punchline.

When will I stop missing you?
When the nights stop shining blue?
When I stop searching skies for clues
That somehow lead me back to you?
Yeah, I’m busy — it’s what people do —
But tell me, when will I stop missing you? 

Maybe it fades in tiny ways,
Between the bills and working days.
Maybe I won’t even know
The moment I finally let you go.

When will I stop missing you?
When the year turns over too?
When the snow melts into dew,
And life feels slightly overdue?
I’ll smile again — that’s overdue —
But tell me, when will I stop missing you? 

Maybe next coffee… maybe next song…
But not today.

When Will I Stop Missing You? (Piano Version)

“Out Here Alone” is one of the realest songs I’ve ever written.
This track came from a place where everything around me felt cold, fast, empty… like the whole world was moving on autopilot while I was standing still.

It’s about those nights when you feel everything too deeply,
when you look around and wonder why love feels rare
and why honesty feels like a lost language.

I put my heart into this one — the quiet parts, the pain,
and the strength it takes to keep going when nobody sees your fight.
If you ever felt misunderstood, unseen, or like you’re shouting into a world that no longer listens…
this song is for you.

🎙 Vocals: Kitka
🎹 Production: Minimal 808, piano & guitar
🎛 Style: Emotional Rap × Melodic Storytelling
🌍 Recorded between Germany & Thailand

Thank you to everyone who keeps supporting my music.
You are the reason I keep creating.
You are the light in the dark corners.
I’m never truly alone because of you.

🔒 Copyright

© 2025 KITKA – All Rights Reserved.
Do not copy, repost, or use this song without permission.

Out Here Alone (Kitka Version)

"The Start of Us" erzählt die Geschichte eines kurzen, aber echten Momentes.
Zwei Menschen begegnen sich zur richtigen Zeit – und trotzdem nicht für immer.
Es geht um Nähe, die plötzlich selbstverständlich wirkt… und um Distanz, die genauso plötzlich entsteht.

Dieser Song ist ein Stück Erinnerung: an Gespräche bis tief in die Nacht, an Herzschläge, Hoffnung und diesen einen Funken, der etwas in einem entzündet.
Und gleichzeitig ist es ein Abschied – dankbar, ehrlich, ohne Bitterkeit.

Wenn du selbst mal jemanden hattest, der nur für eine kurze Zeit dein Zuhause war,
dann ist dieser Track für dich. ✨

The start of Us

A timeless, soul-deep reflection on reaching the edge of someone’s journey. This track carries a haunting calm — a slow fade into darkness, surrender, and release. With stripped-back emotion and raw storytelling, it captures that moment when life feels heavy, the past weighs too much, and every step echoes like a knock on the other side.

Perfect for late-night thinking sessions, quiet drives, or anyone who connects with emotional acoustic vibes

created 3/11/24 
This is one of my old creations. 

Knocking on heavens door (Paul Productions version)

🌫️ Was bleibt, wenn der Winter geht?

Nicht nur Kälte. Sondern ein Moment dazwischen.
Ein Atemzug zwischen Frost und Licht.
Zwischen Erinnerung und Aufbruch.
Zwischen dem, was war - und dem, was leise beginnt.

Dieser Track ist kein klassisches Frühlingslied.
Er ist ein innerer Übergang.
Warm, aber nicht laut.
Zart, aber nicht zerbrechlich.
Ein flüsterndes Gefühl von Veränderung, das sich nicht beeilen will.

🕊️ Klangwelt:
Lofi Future Garage trifft auf Japanese Ambient -
Tape Piano, sehnende Vocals, hauchige Koto-Synths, warme Pads,
feine Texturen wie Atem, Tau, frühes Licht.

🎧 Stimmung:
bittersüß - weich - filmisch - sehnsüchtig - aufblühend
Für Nächte, die langsam zu Morgen werden.

Wenn man loslässt, ohne schon ganz bereit zu sein -
und trotzdem wagt, weiterzuatmen.

✨ Wenn du spürst, dass Veränderung manchmal ganz leise beginnt —
dann ist dieser Song für dich.

🎶 Hör rein. Lass ihn langsam in dich wachsen.

Zwischen zwei Atemzügen

Growing up hits different when the crew drifts out of reach.
This one’s about going from everything to nothing, and how the memories still shape who you are.
The nights, the chaos, the people you don’t speak to anymore — all of it lives on in ways you can’t shake.
Still in My Bones is me holding onto the parts of life that built me, even after time moved us apart.

Still In My Bones

Deep House Producer | Composer | Electronic Music Artist

" Do You ever wish to call her again ??"

This is not just house music,
It’s movement with meaning.

🎧 Stream the journey:

Spotify:
open.spotify.com/artist/5EdZgh5PFVwBX2kllZQOg9

SoundCloud:
@esso_mandela

AppleMusic:
music.apple.com/us/artist/esso-mandela/1765032229

YouTubeMusic:
music.youtube.com/channel/UCEZyWY48Bb_7N-R0KlHnu1g

Shazam:
www.shazam.com/artist/esso-mandela/1765032229

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Lyrics:

I keep dialing your name
Like it’s still on my phone
Talking to the silence
Pretending you’re home
Every ring pulls me back
To when you were mine
Guess I’m chasing something
That’s still alive

I kept the old key chain
You brought from the coast
You laughed at the price
But I loved it the most

I know you changed your number
But somehow I hoped
That maybe the world
Would glitch just once
And let me through

I keep dialing your name
Like it’s still on my phone
Talking to the silence
Pretending you’re home
Every ring pulls me back
To when you were mine
Guess I’m chasing something
That’s still alive

Even the universe
Is done taking my side
But maybe letting go
Is its own kind of sign
Still, I wait by the table
Two plates, one light
Just me and a ringtone
Fading out of the night

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Lyrics, Music & Composition:
Esso Mandela - All Rights Reserved
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#vocalhouse #emotionalhouse #deepfeelings
#storytellinghouse #passionatemusic #ʟᴏᴠᴇsᴏɴɢs
#melodichouse #deephouse #ʜᴏᴜsᴇᴍᴜsɪᴄ #emotivehouse
#soulfulhouse #melodicvibes #musicwithfeeling
#heartfelthouse #emotionalbeats

Esso Mandela - Ringtone

Deep House Producer | Composer | Electronic Music Artist

This is not just house music.
It’s movement with meaning.

🎧 Stream the journey:



Welcome to my sonic world — where trance, EDM, pop, soul, and drum & bass collide.
I create music driven by storytelling: euphoric melodies, deep emotion, hard-hitting drops, and smooth soulful textures. Every track is crafted with visuals, feelings, and energy in mind.

🎧 What you’ll hear here:
• Trance & EDM anthems
• Pop & soul-infused vocals and melodies
• High-energy drum & bass
• Melancholic breakdowns & cinematic build-ups
• Custom visuals & cover art for every release
• Signature PAUL PRODUCTIONS sound

If you love music that moves you — emotionally or physically — hit follow and join the journey. 🚀💫

— PAUL PRODUCTIONS

My name is Kitka — a Singer-Songwriter moving between Germany, Thailand, and the quiet Shores of Lake Constance.
I grew up between two Worlds, and maybe that’s why my Music sounds the Way it does —
a Mix of Tenderness and Fire, Silence and Storms, Softness and Strength.

For me, m
Music is not a Hobby.
It’s my Diary, my Memory, my Language when Words fail.
Every Song I release is a Page torn straight from my Heart —
unpolished, emotional, honest, sometimes a little broken, sometimes full of Hope.

I write about the Nights that shaped me,
the People who touched me,
the Places that healed me,
and the Battles I fought quietly when nobody was listening.

I am not here to be perfect.
I am here to be real.

When you hear my voice, you’re hearing the girl who
sat at a piano in a tiny room,
whispering lyrics to herself because they hurt too much to say out loud.
You’re hearing the woman who stood under neon lights in Pattaya,
singing her truth even when nobody understood her words.
You’re hearing someone who carries too much emotion in a world that often feels too cold.

I believe music can save people —
because it saved me.

If you stay with me on this journey,
you won’t get masks or polished facades.
You’ll get the truth:
the fragile moments,
the quiet victories,
the heartbreaks I survived,
and the light I found in the middle of the dark.

I make music for anyone who ever felt misunderstood,
too sensitive,
too emotional,
too “different.”
For anyone who feels everything a little too deeply.
For anyone who needs a place to breathe.

If my songs reach you, even for a moment,
then every word was worth it.

With love, always —
Kitka

💫 Why I’m here
I believe that words and melodies can connect people.
If you recognize yourself in my lyrics, or if a song holds you through a difficult moment, then my music has fulfilled its purpose.

✨ Accessibility note (BFSG)
These works are personal thoughts and artistic expressions. I strive to keep my content accessible; if some parts are not fully barrier-free, I ask for your understanding.
Any income from streams or support goes purely into the art itself.

I’m learning music production in Ableton Live and sharing my tracks here. I create music in the style of Melodic Techno / Progressive House — music with soul, energy, and passion to move forward.

Hi there — welcome to my corner of the web.

I’m here for one simple reason: to share my music with you.
Take a listen, explore, and I hope something here resonates with you. Enjoy the vibe!

Music born from silence and sleepless thoughts.
Between light and shadow, I write what I can’t say.
Each song is a different heartbeat —
sometimes dark, sometimes tender, always honest.

Also known as MostZaraki in the gaming world.

🎧 Ambient • Darkpop • Indie • Lofi • Emotional Soundscapes 

ultraNash crafts bold, genre bending electronic music that fuses festival scale energy with emotional storytelling. From euphoric drum & bass drops to deep, melancholic trap, every track captures a moment you can feel on and off the dancefloor. Built for ravers, dreamers, and late night thinkers.

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