will you remember how i loved you slow?
like fragile petals caught in frost’s cruel glow
i loved you in a garden poised to die
now wilted in midnight, i still wonder why

remember

Oh to die while in my twenties
Always left my family anyways
Came in this world an abomination, left an even bigger disgrace
Please don't follow my mistakes, I only told you 'cause I'm so real
I'll take those secrets to the grave, 'cause we were anywhere but here
Some of us just wanted to be in the ground
Some of us just hated when you were around
Stuck in the corner off hella drugs, it all goes up to come back down
Touched the sun with you, it was hella fun
I'm sittin' here, wonderin', "Where's my gun?"
But everythin' just goes to shit

monologue

Man, I'm just callin' this shit into my life at this point, bro
'Cause I called death into my life every single day when I wake up, bruh
'Cause my life is not fair, bro, I'm upset at a circumstance, and I'm angry at the world
And I'm stuck being a sick ass, angry kid, bro
Balled up in the corner of every room that I enter, bro
Sittin' there alone, even when I'm with people, and it's not fair, bro
So people just gon sign out for a long time, bruh, it is what it is
Shit, it happens, where I can't even formulate my pain into sentences anymore
So there's really no point in like tryna express myself on a higher level
Because people will never sit there and try to understand it on the level that they should, bro
They're only gonna cope with it, remember that
They're only gonna cope with it, in the way that they can understand it, bro
They not finna understand it from a fucked up ass perspective like mine
So when you wonder why I do shit, just don't

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