❗️❗️2024 REMASTERED VERSION: https://soundcloud.com/saturn-candies/rabbit-hole-ft-dex-vocaloid-original-song-2024-ver

WARNING: THIS SONG HAS THEMES OF SELF HARM AND SUICIDAL THOUGHTS!!! 
First, I'll put something I wanna say, second, I'll put the lyrics. 
What I wanna say: 
This is a song about things that apply to my everyday life, and a situation that has been resolved. It's not at all what I expected to be my first song, but that's okay!!! Random fact: I started and finished entire the instrumental in one night

The Lyrics:
I’m trying to keep myself together
I can not do this for much longer
Nothing I do will make me want to stay alive

It’s pulling all the wires I’ve wired
My head’s been aching, and I’m tired
As I go down this route, I soon begin to strive

I got no one to turn to, and now I’m breaking in two
Hopelessness is all that I’ve got, leaving me inside here to rot

He said that he wasn’t mad, but he was
I could see it in his eyes, and he was
I’m stuck, trapped in this cave
I just need to behave
 
Well deserved scolding, right?
Father puts up quite a fight
My emotions in his sight
Now I guess that that’s not right

Buried in these thoughts of mine over and over again
So now, I shall make my way down the rabbit hole again

Does someone with a soul like mine even deserve to live?
To all the ones around me It’s my effort I have to give

Crying more than I want to, that shows I’m breaking in two
All these thoughts are all that I’ve got, why don’t they all leave me to rot?

Screaming helped me out, and I so there I was
I was hoping for any pain there was
And so, to myself I say, “This will all end one day”

I deserve scolding, right?
Mother puts up quite a fight
I put the truth in her sight
But she thought that they were lies

Buried in these thoughts of mine over and over again
So now, I shall make my way down the rabbit hole again

Tell me, what if I threw this life away?
Tell me, what if I slit the pain away?
Tell me, what if I could make this all end?
Tell me, what if I was what you would like?

Someone tell me why I can’t help but cry
Someone tell me why, someone tell me why!
Someone tell me why i’m so terrified
Someone tell me why
"There’s no reason why!"

Nothing I think feels right!
Black and white are in my eyes!
Are they good, or are they bad?
Am I allowed to be sad?

Sitting alone in the night, of course that’s the case again
So now I shall make my way down the rabbit hole once more

What am I doing wrong?
What have they been all along?
Can I fix this mind of mine?, or will they say not to whine?

Buried in my memories, why is this the case again?
All of them will guide my way down the rabbit hole again!
(lyrics end here)

I'll see if I can make a google doc explaining the lyrics, for now, those are there. 

Tuning, instrumental, and art in the picture is all by me BTW!!! 
Instrumental: https://drive.google.com/file/d/1VY9GOdV6NyfjjsczgKKzCEnXY0vwYHbJ/view?usp=sharing

ANOTHER RANDOM FACT (since you're now down here): I actually saw a rabbit while thinking of this song, it's kinda funny to me.

Rabbit Hole Ft. DEX [Vocaloid Original Song]

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i go by televised, dex, charon, keiko, invidia, marz, lucian, vanity

Vsynth Song Producer, artist, storywriter, 
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contact email: saturncandiesmusic@gmail.com

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