this is a song about when a beloved online friend dies but u have no way of ever finding out what happened to them. & finding acceptance in the fact that u will never know the truth, or be able to say goodbye. it was a hard song to write & sing but i hope maybe it can help someone who has felt this same uncanny feeling. i love you my guardian angel saint & miss u forever <3. #9

Lyrics;
i dont want a single thing the
way i wanna say goodbye
its been years & years since the last time
i saw ur screen name come online

its really hard like how can i even talk about i
u kno id rather just push it down & swallow it
L Lawliet, tryna figure out just what happened
i think ur the moon now 
& that makes me so happy

its not that bad
ill do a spin
ill sing the songs that i know
u always wanted to sing
i cant break down
i gotta keep doin my thing
cus my thing was our thing
& our thing was everything like

u loved me when i was desperate
u loved me when i was at my most pathetic
in 2019 u sent me a letter
the ink has faded, but its still my most prized possession

yea its rly lonely but ill get over it i guess

i wish i knew
what happened to u
but sometimes ignorance is bliss & maybe
ignorance was ur gift to me
a heart unanswered splits in two
but u help me pick up the pieces
& shape them into something decent

heaven is forever 
heaven is forever
heading to the center
repeat exit enter
heaven is forever
heaven is forever
dying for a bender
repeating together

~

i dont want a single thing
i dont want anything at all
i dont want your money
i dont want your drugs 
i dont want your clothes
maybe i dont even wanna know.

you embody the 9
you embody the 9
you showed me the 9
you showed me how to be 9
you showed me the 9
yeah you showed me the 9
now im always gonna be on time
im always gonna be on time

LuLLabye number 9

Belinda Lüks 2016

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mOnOmelo ve  zaman makinası  2016
DOLLWAVE

Always Waiting Matted Hearted Under The Hydrangea Garden Back Where I Started There Is Complicated Tension & Tendrils Scented Never We Collapse Under The Weight Of Our Amber Affections Intertwined Until Another Cruel Resurrection There Is Nothing New There Is No Tradition If I Follow You Will I Still Be Wishing 

Always Wishing 
Always Wishing

Always Waiting

Welcome Home Baby

Sincerely, pmd9

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