LOSS pt. 2

& I said everything..
that.. that..
that they want from me…
I just don't want for myself..

& I said everything..
that.. that..
that they want from me…
I just don't want for myself..

& I said everything that I touch
it just becomes embers…
then I just sweep it under the rug
until the end of December 

I don't know what to do (what to do)
I don't know what to do (what to do)

Take me out of this hole 
that I done dug for myself
yeah I've been all by myself
done this shit all by myself 

But what the fuck do I do?
But what do I do? 

cuz..
everything…
that.. that..
that they want from me…
is not what i want for myself..

& I said everything that I touch
it just becomes embers…
thats why I just ignore it
til the end of December 

I don't know what to do
I don't know what to do 
I don't even know what to do 
No, I don't know what to do 

Yeah, I need some advice right now
The main thing is how 
How do you do it? 
I need the manual on how to live 
How does it give? 
Does it give me some happiness? 
I'll be happy if it is
It's been a while since I've lived 
and I don't mean just exist 
My mental health collapsing
and the time is just passing me by
I am such a big mess
that is fucking depressing
going in circles again
in my head
and I'm running out of air 

Where did I go? 
Where did I go?
Where did the real me go?

And I'm just hiding from the demons
Demons come and find me
all day I am flying
& I am vibing 
by my damn self
no dont need no damn soul
Emancipate my damn self
i dont answer to no one

i steal food from the movies
& You know that i move it
You fucked with me
I shoot it, 
i shoot it
I showed chu

I don't know what to do
I don't know what to do 
I don't know what to do 
No, I don't know what to do about it
I don't know what to do
I don't know what to do 
I don't know what to do 
No, I don't know what to do about it
do about it
do about it
do about it
no i dont know what to do yeah yeah

Σ ᗰ B Σ ᖇ S

dont know what i been thru (unfinished)

am i a danger to u
you like a stranger
every since i cam in u
it has been plain to see
all the bullshit aimed at me
damn that pussy taming me
and since thats ur frame of mind
damn that shit is plain to see
u said you was prayin for me
but turns out u was preying on me
every day of the week
fly u out to cali for free
gunna fuck a swinger couple, like 
i hope im not a danger to u
like i am to me
living life like this
aint all its cracked up to be
im even losing the memoires of the fond times
when a certain picture pops up
i feel like crying
i aint got no siblings
but i miss my brothers
glad zoey & carter both got a brother now
its getting harder now
to keep being strung out
why am i so weak?
when everybody around me getting stronger now?
why cant i grow
(why cant i do it)
from what dont wanna be no mo
i had so many plans for myself and my kids
i just dont understand
how the demons and the drugs
just control me this much
uh ya
what you think you know about me
u dont know about me anymore
i am a secret pretty delerious, mysterious
and i like the way that the rain
hit the window pane
it tickles my brain a little bit
why cant i
just control myself
why can i
just get a hold of myself
why do i fly so high in the sky
by myself
and i act like not lonely at all
i really am
but i just take a hit
then i just act like i dont exist no more

i wanna get showered in love
i dont know what that feels like
i had that a couple times before
but i gave it away
and i dont know why
but i dont know what it feels like
cuz i numb myself
its funny cuz i think i know myself
but i dont know myself
at all
i got so many addictions
God was in my head before
but now hes evicted
i understand now
why
he makes me the victim
its just karma thats came around
cuz ijust went and fucked aroundalot
im very thankful that i can articulate my feelings now
cuz i can voice em
but can anyone hear me?
testing
testing 12
testing 1233

i made all these mistakes
and they piled up
real high
real tall
real wide
showed whos on my side
down to ride
thats really nobody
if it aiint about money
if it aint about drugs
if it aint about bitches
them so called fair weather friends will come up missing
they gone ditch u
for the new shit thats poppin
nobody will ever hesitate to drop u
if it save them
them will lock u up and thats a promise
wait hold on
you dropped your pocket
lemme pick it
i dont do that often
soften the blow on vacation
by taking some medication
i dont do no meditation
my mind constantly runnin
bout to go get an onion
split it in half and make some profit
i do non contact deliery
but its gon cost u a little fee
if you were me
would you do that to u?
need some honesty
go to a duck off spot to get faded
fuck that bitch
i dont wanna say it again
for payback
i just wanna go stay with her friend
im a repeat offender
thats gunna repeat the offending
like con fetti
im gon stay with the fetti
can you tell me u gettin ready
to get the fuck out of here
no i dont stay
in one location
for way too long
damn its crazy
one hit got me so gone
she sprawled out like a starfish on the lawn
im still here til the morn
i got no where to go
except for the QT to go pee
i got no place to go
no people to see
i still got a hunnit bands
but my parents are punctual
on how it needs to be
dysfunctional
and thats really fundemntal
u want me to take hold of that money?
like im seeing dark figures out the side of my eye
but they not there when i look that way
got a rock collection
that i misplace everyday
its probably brain rot
as a kid..
i was spoiled rotten
then i pawned everything i got
pawned a silver spoon too
 a whole dining set
that shit was alot of money too
how metaphorical
is it?
if ya pawn the silver spoon
pretty much gave away everything that i didnt earn
put it on fire and burned it all
yea i learned my lesson
and i did the right thing
a u turn right now
turn the page into a new chpt
n closedthe book
and then put the book somewhere safe
ya know
somewhere u will remember 
nah fr remember

dont exist no more (DANGER)

a new life - Zeke Blue (Ԁᴉ˥Ⅎ ˙ʎƃƃƃɐɥ𐌔)

lets just make music... music
lets just make music... music
lets just make music... music
n lose it

lets just make music... music
lets just make music... music
lets just make music... music
n lose it

ah-hem
i am so resentful at technology
i dont even know why everyone has to bother me
but never acknowledge me
dont need no college degree
blockin a couplle numbers at once
will always make me feel so free

go directly to the connect
ya we blow it all
(45) dollars worth
and block your shot
that is correct
im charged up
like im at a docking station
i need a doctor, doctor
why does everyone look like snakes in the grass
cuz they be plottin, plottin
hit the shit in plain sight
idc what you do
but best spell my name right
i only say shit once
if i gotta say it twice
you can havea good night
that pussy put up a good fight
old dealer wanna rob me
now shut the fuck up
i get to this money
count these hunnits
then i throw em all


lets just make music... music
lets just make music... music
lets just make music... music
n lose it

lets just make music... music
lets just make music... music
lets just make music... music
n lose it


big shot of cream soda in a soda can
if i give a bitch a taste of it
she gon be hooked on this shit man
on my wrist
got some rubberbands
in case i wanna go pop shit
i stayed 3 years too long
with a btich that was toxic

got too invested in the bop shit
ya i left myself no option
but to do the great escape on this hoe
aint no way i let myself go like this
aint no way i let myself go like this
aint no way i let myself go like this


lets just make music... music
lets just make music... music
lets just make music... music
n lose it

lets just make music... music
lets just make music... music
lets just make music... music
n lose it


imma be honest
i aint even wnna do this third verse
but id body anybody that hopped on this shit
then throw on the dirt
get some dirty sprite
then i might uhh...
nodd off
to get my mind right
like
right now
whats yo sign huh?
come get that fo
i go hit the plug
get a fat sac then blow it all
forty5 on my lap
ya you know gotta stay strapped
dirty sprite
what u know bout that
let me go ahead
and then i nod off
go get the moeny
thats a fact


lets just make music... music
lets just make music... music
lets just make music... music
n lose it

lets just make music... music
lets just make music... music
lets just make music... music
n lose it

lets just make music

dont trust who you are or what ive become

Snow Aalegra - In Your Eyes (𝗱ı𝗹Ⅎ 𝘀ǝ𝗼Ⅎʞɔ𝗻𝗛)

hourglass - BLP Kosher (𝗱ı𝗹Ⅎ 𝘀ǝ𝗼Ⅎʞɔ𝗻𝗛)

nobody (prod. by tsnow)

the pain is lingering 
it has been here so long
you wont see no evil
if you dont think that its wrong
im rock solid
when it comes to collecting stones
aint got too many friends
cuz im neglecting those
before i speak
i rehearse it
like im perfecting a toast
i just keep shooting my shot
cuz i wanna see how far it goes
life sucks sometimes
like im sucking on painted toes
everybody thinks shes a saint
shes licking on my taint
lets go
feel like i got crucified
by gettin crossed
by my brother
that shit really bother me
ive been harboring 
all these feelings and resentments
towards him and myself
no kidding
used to hit licks with him and split it
on fake plugs
that reallt were really just children
yea karma came back for vengence
made me give both of my families away
then that shit is gut wrenching
i should have made different decision
i really should have fuckin listened
used my gifts instead of sinnin
but in reality
i just didnt
full of shame
everything i fucked up
i just hid it
have you lived a perfect life so far?
do you get it?
this shit is really shitty
in my face goes a titty
i just wanted the kitty
now i got so many problems
dont know waht to do with it

taking the scenic rout
looking for some meaning
gunna head straight home
cuz im running low and im fiending
you should know by now
that seeing isnt believing
and everybody lie to damn much
with no reasoning
i already got so much damn favor
ion need no seasoning
ya i know
thats the fuckin reason that hes scheming on me
shit dont even matter to me
got these demons in me
and these fuckin bitches
that want the fuckin semen in me

i dnt understand some of these people 
i swear to god they be evil
and the most evil ones i seen
is the ones that be using needles
all the bs
i pull up like Evel Knievel on that
switching lanes i get some brain
from this cute thang
but she dont know my name
ya thats the insane pot
ya im smokin out the same pot
that governer of the city be in
and its okay if you dont know the meaning

u wont see no evil, if u dont think that its wrong

im doing good deeds
im spreading the seed with the semen
wide awake
i woke up the demons
ya im worshiping drugs cuz im fiending
feelings go so deep
i can go only down
cuz the hills are so steep
you looking at me like you know me




lace my own shit
only way i can pay for this is with consequences
i probably go voluneet to go live in poverty
ya the demons around me
they just surrond me
they just surrond me

ive exerienced outer body phenomenon
and a bunchof other crazy shit
i dont know what the fucks going on
but if you do can you tell me
been kind of rebelling
against the world and how it works
even down to the english spelling

i dont shower
cuz the old evil spirits dont like how im smelling
its kind of repelling them
its kind of expelling them out of my body
i get uneasy when its foggy
i really hate when my food is soggy
i dont really feel much
but when i do…
i hop on the beat like a  froggy

i just be saying things
i dont really know where this shit comes from
but i just beat her back in
like a rumpum a rumpapapumpum
she suck on my dick like a dumdum
d-d-d-dumdum
lemme get personal space
i just be fuckin her face
how does it taste slut
you can try all you want to offend me
better be in the vacinety
 just know i got the remedy
to beat yo ass to infinity
if i whip this out, you statue of liberty
if yo girl dont like you, so just give her to me
there was a couple hand prints on her ass
when she takin the meat really deep\
yea

i bet you dont like none of that
i dont ike none of that either
stick the money up in the freezer
i used to just be a cheater
but i dont changed my ways with that
karma done came around and paid me back
and thats that
catch me sneakin in the back
but i aint going in public
no no im not
we could sit right here and pop all this bubbly
no no im not
god damn it bae
you fuckin lovely
yes you are
so i hope you really love me
like…
you say you do

man i wish i could go way way back
way way back
way way back
man i wish i could go way way back
way way back
way way back
man i wish i could go way way back
way way back
way way back
man i wish i could go way way back
way way back
way way back

yea
like way back
i am not right
so stay back
 been lookin for some payback
been lookin for where you stay at
its premeditated if i say that
so imma just shut my lips
ya change some i might
but i dont even want this shit
 theres an angel on my shoulder
because he overdosed
almost became one too
shit i came close 
i put the smoke in my chest
and ya the ghost tested me too
i dont know what the fuck you want from me
but it wanted me too
i got a ghost thats close to me
i guess hes fuckin chosen me
and that fuckin blows
cuz i feel like im gunna overdose soon
but supposedly
the shadows that i see have been posing a threat
roll up like a roly poly when i end up losing a bet
shit is real hectic
when i end up in debt
shes a bad ass bitch
she might end up at the vet
ya i never gave a shit
who been reppin they set
they arguing over colors
and they gon end up dead


man i wish i could go way way back
way way back
way way back
man i wish i could go way way back
way way back
way way back
man i wish i could go way way back
way way back
way way back
man i wish i could go way way back
way way back
way way back

VOICES OG

cappin'

talk my shit

Clouds - Kendrick Lamar • (Ԁᴉ˥Ⅎ ˙ʎƃƃƃɐɥ𐌔)

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i do this for the love of music.

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