prod. @ssaeyxng

js leave me, i’ll b better off alone
js leave me, pls don’t miss me when i’m gone
u don’t need me, srry i can’t get back to ur calls
js leave me, js leave me…
it’s like every time i get close i js seem to hurt u
i should probably go, you’ll find someone else to turn to
js know i really tried, i loved u sm
its my final act of love, i’ll b watching from above

it kills me slowly
thought you’d b the one who could change that
rushin into love, why’d i chase that?
laughin in my face, why’d u do that?
ash ur cig on my skin
they serve as a reminder
that i couldn’t b him
but i’m sure you’ll find it
i should disappear
then ur answer will b clear
wanted u to understand me
(but) i don’t think i’ll find it here

just leave me (prod. saeyxng)

prod. @neohnq

i can’t get the time back
think i’m on the right track
got no left to talk to 
so i sit and write tracks
blinds down alone with nothing but my shadows
bottles piling up, i don’t want to see tomorrow

scrolling through the messages
tryna see where i went wrong
wonder if u hear my voice, if u hear my songs?
never meant to make u cry, can’t wipe ur tears
no more, i’m the reason that ur not here

i hate rainy days, cus that’s when i lost u
can’t forgive myself, but i haven’t tried to
worried bout ur health, but i went and hurt u
don’t want nobody else, girl i just want u..

i just want u w/ farlane (prod. neohn)

prod. @neohnq

sorry about last night
i fell too fast
n-never seem to do right
now we both crashed
i always seem to blame myself
b-but i can’t act like someone else
why’d i get involved?
should’ve left u all alone
girl i led u on
never meant to do u wrong
i wanted this to work
but i couldn’t say the words
this ain’t what u deserve
all i ever did was hurt u.

and u kno i think sometimes
should've always treat u right
tbh you've been on my mind
i only want the best for u..
n i saw u in my dreams, hope it comes true
didn't realise how much i would miss u
i would trade anything js to kiss u
mayb in another life i'll get to see u
i'm still the same, haven't changed, no way
i've been on the run ever since that day
i js rlly hope ur ok..
you've been on my mind always..

sorry about last night
i fell too fast
n-never seem to do right
now we both crashed
i always seem to blame myself
b-but i can’t act like someone else
why’d i get involved?
should’ve left u all alone
girl i led u on
never meant to do u wrong
i wanted this to work
but i couldn’t say the words
this ain’t what u deserve
all i ever did was hurt u.

all i ever did was hurt u (prod. neohn)

always on sum shi like whatchu tryna do?
always got someone to fall on, kno u pick n choose
u fucked up, say you’ll change, bby tell me sumn new
far gone, so long, all ur lies become a truth

paint me out to be a villain
it ain’t gonna work, why u acting like a victim?
stupid, omg, tell me what i’m missing?
say u understand, i don’t think u ever listened

a little trust would b nice
i ain’t gonna stay the night
what the fuck u want this time?
all i do is never right 
i’m so sick of all the fights
why u always get so violent?
spent too long js being silent

n i’m done, i can’t fix the situation again
feelin dumb, making me believe it’s all in my head
feelin numb, it’s so hard for me to sit and pretend 

u should go..
i don’t wanna play ur games, go find someone else
even after all this pain, i still wish u well
but u stay talkin down on my name, bby wth?

always on sum shi like whatchu tryna do?
always got someone to fall on, kno u pick n choose
u fucked up, say you’ll change, bby tell me sumn new
far gone, so long, all ur lies become a truth

paint me out to be a villain
it ain’t gonna work, why u acting like a victim?
stupid, omg, tell me what i’m missing?
say u understand, i don’t think u ever listened

villain / victim (prod. xtasane)

lyin to my face, bby whyd u do tht
i kno u been goin round my back, u think im stupid
i shouldve knew this
gave too many chances
all u did was damage
why u keep attacking?

this shi make me sick, i can feel my stomach turnin
who tf gon tell u that u r a perfect person
think i trust too much, but at least i tried to learn it
i don't miss ur touch, all our photos had to burn em

wake up its a brand new day
i can hear the birds chirpin
2 or 3 joints to tha face
its common occurrence
so y the fuck i feel this way
spew up all the shit i ate
knots up in my stomach
it cant wait
i need it rn
i know u cant give me what i need
dont think i ask for too much
but u still turn it back on me
i got empty packs in my jeans
i cant give it up
now whenever i think abt it
i throw it all up

lyin to my face, bby whyd u do tht
i kno u been goin round my back, u think im stupid
i shouldve knew this
gave too many chances
all u did was damage
why u keep attacking?

this shi make me sick, i can feel my stomach turnin
who tf gon tell u that u r a perfect person
think i trust too much, but at least i tried to learn it
i don't miss ur touch, all our photos had to burn em

makes me sick w/ neohn (prod. takuori)

Wish we could go back in time
Maybe things would turn out differently
I made you mine
But in this life something’s aren’t always meant to be
I got a crush
I see where we went wrong now
I had to rush
I got some problems that I really need to sort out
When I said I love you, just know I truly mean that
Touching on my body, girl you make me feel so seen yeah
I’m not perfect but I try my best, yeah I promise
Longing, crying in my bed way too often

Never saw eye to eye, maybe in another life
All I ever wanted was to know what’s really on your mind
I know you’re hurting
Well I’m hurting too
Girl I’m hurting
Cause it can’t be you..

And that’s the truth and we know it
Tried our best to make it work
And instead we fall
Want both of us to be happy yeah I swear that’s all I want
It’s gonna hurt so bad, but we need to move on

Maybe we’ll cross paths again, I hope we really change
Wonder if we’ll cry again, when we see our faces
Baby just take it slow, it’s not a race
I believe in you, you’ll be okay

Wish we could go back in time
Maybe things would turn out differently
I made you mine
But in this life something’s aren’t always meant to be
I got a crush
I see where we went wrong now
I had to rush
I got some problems that I really need to sort out
When I said I love you, just know I truly mean that
Touching on my body, girl you make me feel so seen yeah
I’m not perfect but I try my best, yeah I promise
Longing, crying in my bed way too often

rush (prod. saeyxng)

Love Just Isn't For Me

harcadım maddelerle gençliğimi ve de biliyorum zamanım yok

her zaman sanıyordum tek değilim ama artık yakınım yok

ruhum ele geçiriyor benliğimi doğru düzgün bi kararım yok

ısrarla siliyorum geçmişimi eskiye dair hikayem yok


oldukça karaldı göz altlarım gün geçtikce çoğaldı yaram

üzgünüm sakin kalamadım ama sen beni anlarsın sandım

bu sefer yalanlara kanamadım artık çok geç kalmadı saat 

hayır olamaz bunlar bi raslantı neden tanrım beni yarattın!


çok küçük yaşta hayatla direndim hergün dua edip sabrettim

gördüm karanlığı çabuk iğrendim böyle bitmemeli kehanetim

günahkar değilim ama kirlendim delirdim ruhum intihar etti

belki soytarı olduğumu kabul ederdim daha şimdilerde fark ettim


yaşıyorum ama hissedemiyorum

yaradandan merhamet dileniyorum 

doğru ne yanlış ne ? bilemiyorum

hayır kendimi affedemiyorum


istiyorum umutlarla yaşamak

ama artık zamanım yok.

istiyorum ölmek... 

hayır artık zamanım yok.


harcadım maddelerle gençliğimi ve de biliyorum zamanım yok

her zaman sanıyordum tek değilim ama artık yakınım yok

ruhum ele geçiriyor benliğimi doğru düzgün bi kararım yok

ısrarla siliyorum geçmişimi eskiye dair hikayem yok


içimdeki çoçuğun hayalleri yarım kaldı ama artık zamanım yok.

annem gözü yaşlı babam sinirli ama affdilemeye zamanım yok

evet yaptım çokça hata ve hepsinin sonucuna katlandım

geri'ye dönüp düzeltmek istedim özür dilerim artık zamanım yok.












zamanım yok. + askha / p. Wish

молодой
холли 
ммм

я пойду к психотерапевту 
пускай пропишет мне таблетки
пускай пропишет мне рецепты
пускай пропишет мне рецепты

о хватит претворяться глупой
к чему ведут эти поступки
к чему ведут мои поступки
я и снова закрываюсь будто сумка
(ебанная сумка)
я боялся сюда попадать
ну кто бы мне ща руку дал
а ща такие кто куда
да я понимаю, типа надо по делам
и мне походу пора (я пошел)
и мне пора
угу

я пойду к психотерапевту 
пускай пропишет мне таблетки
пускай пропишет мне рецепты
пускай пропишет мне рецепты

пойду (prod. by corn)

Детка меня очень сушит, принеси мне Hell’а (Hell)
Адская хуйня бежит по моим венам (Ра-а)

Давай пропишем pad’ы, мне нужен только твой голос (А-а)
Ты не умеешь петь? Да похуй, в рамках жанра – норма (Угу)
Нужно чтоб было комфортно, тебе так комфортно? (А-а)
А мне понравилось бы больше в стиле «обнаженка»

А мы кайфово вместе дрейним (У-у)
Моя drugbaby, а (Моя drugbaby)
А мы кайфово вместе дрейним (А-а, у-у)
Моя drugbaby, м-м

Я закрываю дверь на ключ, чтоб больше не сбежала (Нет)
Я закрываю дверь и чувствую себя маньяком (А-а)
Чувствую тебя мало (Очень не хватает, ха)
И меня тоже уже ма- (Fuck)
Давай покурим на балконе, у меня есть gas (Gas)
Давай без тормозов, это только в этот раз (У-у)
Давай по чесноку, что в твоей голове? Не парься
Давай я помогу, моя drugbaby, постараюсь (Ра-а)

Давай пропишем pad’ы, мне нужен только твой голос (А-а)
Ты не умеешь петь? Да похуй, в рамках жанра – норма (Угу)
Нужно чтоб было комфортно, тебе так комфортно? (А-а)
А мне понравилось бы больше в стиле «обнаженка»

А мы кайфово вместе дрейним (У-у)
Моя drugbaby, а (Моя drugbaby)
А мы кайфово вместе дрейним (А-а, у-у)
Моя drugbaby, м-м


Drugbaby3 (prod. by corn)

@misfxtsforever + @livingunveilsvirtue + @krashteamradio

💭 @traumacenter1

insomniac 2017-2022

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