produced by @histarkey
mixed by @1tezzu

lyrics:

(hook)
i got a lot on my mind ok
big blade on my waist motherfucker
imma make that boy fly away 
im so high ok
wanna hideaway
pop a 30 make my eyes dilate
so many tears that i cannot wipe away
i cry at night while I lay awake

(verse)
and im coming for you like a quiet place
better stand tall throw your pride away
imma burn your body in my fireplace
bitch im elevating to a higher state
4 xans make me isolate
this choppa cook him like a microwave
fuck a lowball need a higher pay

ok
ok!

try me you know I don't play
talk down put metal in your face
like some braces
VVS E color stones on my bracelet
c63 AMG what im racing
stop complaining
big gas what im facing
bitch im complacent
you're overrated
wanna be me and they hate it
you're too basic
all of your bullshit to me's
entertaining
please shut the fuck up
lil bitch you're so frustrating

(hook)

(verse 2)
im with failsafe we gone gun em down
im with starkey know that we don't
fuck around
im making frequencies
you know im making sound

(bridge)
I dont even wanna stay
I dont even wanna stay

(verse 2)
I dont even wanna stay
I feel so damn out of place
talk down on my name
I blow your brain
big gas bitch you know
im smoking on that stank

(hook)

Fly Away

fly away

produced by @histarkey and @plantmusicru
mixed by @1tezzu

can you hear me calling?

calling (can you hear me)

produced by @proddk and @margoproxy
mixed by @1tezzu

glamour.

produced by @histarkey
mixed by me
original artwork by @jana_sojka on instagram

to who carries a heavy heart in silence
I do the same
I love you
even when I can’t love myself
It’s going to be okay someday
when you’re all alone
I hope you think of me
the same way I think of you

lyrics:

ive been trying my hardest
i just cant get out of bed
(i just cant get out of bed)
yeah i know

and ive just been stuck
with the things that you
put in my head
i can't forget all
the things that
you said
questioning every damn
thing that we had
i just can't help feeling
i need you back
im so fragile im tired
of being this way i know
any day i hope
for a call back
and i try my best
just to get my back stabbed
you know that i don't deserve that
i tried to be there for you
i just cant stay mad at you oh why
i dont know why
i dont know why
you live in my mind
its hard to let go i cant lie
i cant lie
its so damn hard to say goodbye
i cant stop crying
were now a thing of the past
you were so kind
i worked so damn hard
for us i tried
i hope that you know
that i loved you
and i respect the things you do
and i trust you
i hope you're well
cuz i can't tell you
face to face
how i am right now
i lay in bed with a broken heart
a broken heart
you broke my heart
i cant eat it hurts i starve
the blood pours out of 
the cuts i carve
i tried to remember
the times we had
together
together
i put love in that letter
love in that letter
i just cant forget that
i used to hope that you would write back
but look at where both of our lives at
i hope
i hope
you walk down a good road

I’ve been trying my hardest
i just cant get out of bed
(i just cant get out of bed)
yeah i know

noir.

produced by @dreamno7e
mixed by me

lyrics:

i got snow in my boots
when we walked out the house
and with you
i know
why
i know

it's so cold
it's so cold
baby it's so cold
look at all this snow
you gave me your coat
we went out for coffee
made me feel at home
under blankets 
watching movies
and our tv shows
do you really love me
baby yes or no?
tell me yes or no

tell me yes or no
was it all a lie?
i tried
to be so good to you
to be so good to you
to be so good to you

i want nothing but the best
for you my darling
my darling
and it's hurting
my mind
can't keep quiet
there's no silence
i feel tired
it's so bright
outside
with all of this snow
look at all this snow
and it was just for us
it was just for us
it was just for us

now you're up and gone
you froze my heart
along with
breaking my trust
i just can't keep packing up
one moment you say you love me
next moment we're breaking up
why do you keep giving up on me?
huh on me?

Cabin

cabin

produced by @histarkey
mixed by me

lyrics:

I just wanna know if you’re
okay
kay-
okay
I just wanna know if you’re
okay
kay-
I-
I hope that you would do the same
Know I-
Go
Away

Breathe in
The world around us
Look at the world around
-round
I- 
hunch my body
curl in doubt
doubt- dou-dou-
I stay silent and close my mouth
I doubt-

Down again I fell face first in the mud
Leeches all over my skin from the flood
And I pray to god
For better days
And I hope that mommas proud of me

And I hope that mommas proud of me
cause I try so hard
I know who you are
I hope that
you’re
okay
(why)

I just wanna know if you’re okay
dou-dou-
I just wanna know if you’re okay

Cross my heart and hope to di-
die
I hold my love for you so tight-

lets walk around the I-
th-the world that we call ours
we call ours

I can’t walk around the
fact-fact
that I

reflect myself so you’d say I’m
nice

know that I-

hold the peace for all of our lives
I-
know-
you’re-
loves not-not
mine

so I
(go)

know I go away

produced by @histarkey & @dreamno7e
mixed by me

i'm sorry for being gone for awhile,
i needed some time on my own to grow.
a garden needs healthy soil to thrive
I had to learn to love myself 
for me to love you
and I hope you do the same

I have a wonderful world I want to show you
my love, and i'll hold your hand walking through it.

yours truly,
- joie

lyrics:

i ain't do this before
we both did our best
you know we're new to this
of course
i can't keep trying to
fix what i've not broken
i feel paralyzed i'm frozen
you wear a mask
disguise your emotions
do you like me after all?
after all?
is it likely the afterthought?
and adderall?
and the light green pastel walls
covered in alcohol and I can't find

you there
and you only love [me]
when you're pulling my hair
you always tell me i dont care
when you know you
act like im not there

why is it so hard to be mad at you
hard to be mad at you
you know I just wanna be happy
I’m done with the attitude
I climbed too high on top of the ladder
I’m numb to the altitude
I thought that I was doing much better 
I did what you asked me to
took my heart through the holes 
of my sweater and still I was happy to
keep you in the warmth of the 
leather my Italian jackets use
and everyday I’m under the weather
it’s hard to get back into
the last time I went out don’t remember 
I don’t know what happen to 

me I know
so tell me more about 
what I don't know
and you take 
from me more
all the life I show
and you ask me
these things
like I might
just know
(i dont!)

i ain't do this before
we both did our best
you know we're new to this
of course
i can't keep trying to
fix what i've not broken
i feel paralyzed i'm frozen
you wear a mask
disguise your emotions
do you like me after all?
after all?
is it likely the afterthought?
and adderall?
and the light green pastel walls
covered in alcohol and I can't find

grapefruit

produced by @silasroe, @lavanguard, & @martinleib
mixed by me

lyrics:

I-
u-uh
oh-oh
know why
I-
ah hah

I can’t see
Through the glass
Glass

Silhouettes all on the wall
Whispers in my ear know I can hear them talk
I feel like a marionette feel like a doll-doll
Is it the stillness in autumn that made between us fall?

I don’t know how to word how I feel
I give you all of me for appeal
Tell me is what we have even real?
oh woah oh woah
I can’t believe all the things you say
The words I said I meant it
I meant it
yea I meant it-it-
Red wine on the carpet

All-
I do is hide

don’t know why
I even
I even
try

look me in my eyes
I-
Don’t say your goodbyes yet
I-
noo I don’t wanna say goodbye yet
I-
Hope

When I come back I hope you listen
you listen-en

I fall-
I fall-
right where the
bridge is
I-
bridge is
uh-

can’t live like this in these conditions
uh-
I-
u-uh

stuck inside a (box)

I still see your shadow on the glass
I-I-

Silhouettes all on the wall
Whispers in my ear know I can hear them talk
I feel like a marionette feel like a doll-doll
Is it the stillness in autumn that made between us fall?

carousel carousel spin my head around
like a carousel merry go we go
round and round the problems
I’m not the only one to solve them
I know I 
know that I’m not perfect but I’m trying

try so har-
ha-hard

you know that I try so hard
(you know that I try so hard)

I-I-
uh-

carousel

produced by @histarkey and @killahmel
mixed by me + @jvckrxid

lyrics:

bitch it's time to work today
bitch i can't go home
(huh)
bitch it's time to work today
bitch i can't go home
i swap a xanax for a perc today
bitch i feel so numb
i feel so fly just like the birds today
you know what we on
just know some guidance never
hurt you baby
i know it feels like it does
im on my knees
im by my worst today
im praying with the doves
im in the garden behind holy gates
im praying for some love
heheh
what makes you think i give a fuck
i need me some drank better fill a cup
and i don't wanna wait cuz im twitchin up
if you got something to say
better spit it up
if it goes to the grave
better dig it up
fuck it
break me a whole eighth
down ima roll it up
bring me a whole fake pill
ima throw it up

they know
they know that i do it better
they can't move the way i do
they dont like the fact
i represent some letters
they want me in tombs
number nine umbrella
for my margiella's
got raindrops on my shoes
they don't like the message
i'm sending out because
they don't like the truth
and they don't want me
doing what i do
wha-
do
i wear clover's garden as perfume
(b-bitch)
and the same way you don't like me
i don't like you
and it's entertaining to know
that my life brings pain to you

what brings pain to you
is paying me
its not paying you
bitch read the room
i know a thing or two
momma told me i gotta go harder
and keep making tunes
i make money like my father
and he knew that i would make it too
put my heart up in the garden cuz
i know it keeps me safe
wait wait wait wait
tell me things that i know i can't
say say say 
i hope that you would believe in the shit that
weighs weighs weighs
me down a ton it feels like bricks pressing my
face face face
all of my problems that i hold it's hard to 
save me (save me)
when i'm off it
i been making bank
can't go home i'm workin today
you know that i'm workin today
bitch it's time to work today
bitch i can't go home
bitch it's time to work today
bitch so leave me alone

footprint

produced by @histarkey
mixed by me + @jvckrxid

i made this in 20 minutes at like 3am

lyrics:

thoughts up in my mind
said that im going hard
they know that im going hard
i know that im going far
i dont know where im landing next
i might touch down newark one day
i might touch down jax
all i know is i know one day
they gone sing my shit in set
told myself that id be there one day
but i didnt know that id be here yet
told myself that id be there one day
but i didnt know that id be here yet
told myself that id be there some way
but i didnt know where beginning ends
told myself that theyd know me by name
but i didnt know that theyd let it ring

nodding off
i been doing it my way
i dont even think i feel a thing
i cant even feel my lungs
when i go to breathe
ask me things
like what do i know
not what i believe
i just wanna tell no fabrications
i want honesty
all these cuts
I feel the lacerations
when i fucking bleed
i got all these different
types of aspirations
I got fucking dreams
it feels like its time 
for celebration for
all of my bros and me

(what)

smoking clovers garden leaf
i had to let go of other
versions different parts of me
lately I feel like I float away 
when in this odyssey
lately its been so damn hard
to figure out what’s bothering me
but i gotta keep pushing
keep pushing i know
i got all these buttons 
you keep pushing 
keep pushing im tired
i gotta find my footing no
abc jeans be indigo
yea i keep my bros
my kin involved
i cant pop this percocet
bc its laced w fentanyl
bitch its time to work today
i cant go home

thoughts up in my mind
said that im going hard
they know that im going hard
i know that im going far
i dont know where im landing next
i might touch down newark one day
i might touch down jax
all i know is i know one day
they gone sing my shit in set
told myself that id be there one day
but i didnt know that id be there yet
told myself that id be there one day
but i didnt know that id be there yet
told myself that id be there some way
but i didnt know where beginning ends
told myself that theyd know me by name
but i didnt know that theyd let it ring

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