PART I

When I wrote Ritmo, I reflected on many aspects of my life, but essentially on my ongoing difficulty in controlling my anxiety, which slowly transformed into depression. I also thought about the time I was attending therapy to gain better tools to manage it, and where I learned that routine is an essential element in handling anxiety and depression; however, I didn’t want to extinguish the adventurous flame within me.

During this process, I wanted to define what these feelings of anxiety and depression meant to me, and understand that I cannot deny them, but by accepting them, I could only then control them—it is part of my nature as a human.

In my present, I wanted to express that even after suffering the self-destructive calamities of anxiety and depression, it was okay if I consciously built what I manifested, and I began an internal journey, a discovery through these new routines I had created to rebuild myself.

During my reconstruction, I strengthened my relationship with music; at the same time that I created songs, I felt a great catharsis in channeling these feelings of sadness into music—something tangible through the senses—understanding the importance of some of these emotions that we sometimes label as negative, and their ability to create beautiful things when the perspective from which we see them has changed.

PART II

And I realized that many times asking questions is useless; in life, action is what controls life, and there can be no perfection in movement.
I wanted to add irony in having been born flawed, because we are only imperfect—but within imperfection lies the beauty of existing. We are all unique because of our imperfections; no one is better than anyone, yet we all are.

After dealing so much with negative feelings, mainly toward myself, I realized that the secret to respecting others comes from myself, and with them being my mirror, as at the beginning of the song, I close the circle of seeing myself in you and deciding that the best way to treat you, as I wish to be treated, is with love.

Music has created inexplicable, almost supernatural experiences within me.
But at the same time, I have always tried to delve into my consciousness, and it is during difficult times that I ask myself about life and existence.
We are an ecosystem in a sea of life; this new reality, without the distortion of uncontrolled emotions, pushes me to ask myself more existential questions.

What is my plan? Is my life determined by time I cannot see or control? Is it necessary that, in order to make my way, I must always “sin” in some way?

Ritmo

Lose yourself in the mesmerizing chaos of "Spiral Eyes." This track is a haunting journey into a world where reality unravels and nothing is as it seems. With its hypnotic beat and disorienting vocals, the song captures the feeling of being lost in a dream, where every truth bends and every angle lies. It's an anthem for those who see the world through a different lens—a dark and beautiful design.

Spiral Eyes

"Neon Church" is a powerful track that blends dark, electronic energy with a haunting sense of spiritual decay. It's an anthem for a modern faith, where traditional prayers are replaced by static and the glow of neon. The song paints a vivid picture of a world where hope is a flicker, and the search for meaning happens in the shadows of a broken, beautiful place.

Neon Church

"Tu Kaun Hai" is a sweeping and cinematic rock ballad that delves into profound existential questions of origin, destiny, and the nature of a mysterious, constant companion. The song builds from a gentle, introspective verse into a powerful, soaring rock anthem, creating a soundscape as vast as the questions it asks. 

The singer feels like a mystery to himself, questioning where he's from and where he's going. Yet, he is not alone. He senses a powerful connection to the world around him—the wind moves when he walks, the rain hums when he sings—and he knows there is a constant, unseen presence ("you") who is his shadow, his strength, and the reason he can forget all his sorrows. 

This is a track for deep thinkers and lovers of epic power ballads, perfect for a long drive under a vast, open sky.

Lyrics
धीरे धीरे चलता हु फिर रुक जाता हु 
जाने ऐसा करके मैं क्यों पछताता हु 
अलबेला सा क्यों लगता है मन 
मस्ताना सा क्यों है मौसम 

जब चलता हु, चलती हवाएं 
जब हस्ता हु, खिलखिलाती घटा 
जब मैं गाता हु, गुनगुनाती है बरखा 
जब मैं पुकारू, जी उठती है गलियां 

जाने कहाँ से आया हु मैं 
जाने कहाँ को जाता हु 
जाने तू कौन है?
संग मेरे रहती है हर पल 

जीवन की राहों में आगे बढ़ आया हु 
पीछे जो देखा जाने कहाँ हु 
जाने मैं छोड़ आया किसे पिछले मोड़ पर 
किस से मैं तोड आया जन्मो का बंधन 

जब सोता हु जागे जहां 
जब मैं जागु है सोया आसमान 
जब मैं रोता हु बरसे है बादल 
जब मैं रुकू थमती है सांसें 

जाने कहाँ से आया हु मैं 
जाने कहाँ को जाता हु 
जाने तू कौन है?
संग मेरे रहती है हर पल 

तू जो संग रहती है मेरे भूलू मैं अपने हर गम 
मेरी परछाई जो तू है तो फिर दुनिया है मेरे संग 

अब तो बस चलता ही जाता हु मैं 
तेरी ही धुन में खो जाता हु मैं 
सुलझा सा लगता है अब ये जहां 
पहले सा उलझा नहीं हु अब मैं

जब देखु तुझमे दिखे ये जहां 
जब सोचे तू, सोचे मेरा मन 
जब बोले तू, मैं भी बोलूं वही 
जब तू चले, मैं भी चल दूँ वही

जाने कहाँ से आया हु मैं 
जाने कहाँ को जाता हु 
जाने तू कौन है?
संग मेरे रहती है हर पल 

जाने कहाँ से आया हु मैं 
जाने कहाँ को जाता हु 
जाने तू कौन है?
संग मेरे रहती है हर पल 

(जाने तू कौन है?)
(जाने तू कौन है?)
(जाने तू कौन है?)

(जाने तू कौन है?)
(जाने तू कौन है?)
(जाने तू कौन है?)

English Translation
I walk on slowly, then I stop again, 
I don't know why I feel regretful then. 
Why does my heart feel so carefree and bright? 
Why is the weather filled with such delight?

When I walk, the winds begin to blow, 
When I laugh, the clouds all seem to glow. 
When I sing, the rain begins to hum, 
When I call out, the sleeping streets become alive.

Who knows where I have come from? 
Who knows where my journey will take me? 
And who knows who you are, O mystery, 
You stay with me for all eternity.

On the roads of life, I've traveled far and wide,
When I look behind, there's nowhere left to hide. 
Who did I leave behind at the last bend? 
A bond of lifetimes, did I make it end?

When I fall asleep, the world begins to rise, 
And when I am awake, asleep are the skies. 
When I start to weep, the clouds begin to pour, 
And when I come to a stop, the world breathes no more.

When you are with me, all my sorrows fade away, 
If you're the shadow that is here to stay, then I know the world is with me on my way.

And now I just keep walking on and on, 
I'm lost completely in your melody, your song. 
This tangled world now seems so clear and true, 
I'm not as lost as I once was, because of you.

When I look at you, the whole world comes in sight, 
When you start to think, my own mind thinks alike. 
When you speak the words, I say the very same, 
When you start to walk, I follow in your flame.

(Who knows who you are)

***
This track uses Generative AI Vocals and Instruments.


Tu Kaun Hai

prod neverforever.

i mixed and yes its rough, working on it
but
im content
<3

lyrics;
The vultures keep circling 
The sky is warning me 
Telling me take what I can 
Fight while I’m kicking
Don’t go down alone
Cause If this world is ending 
I’m putting my all in it 
making the call
Would you pick up the phone?
I never meant for this
Isn’t that obvious?
Is it that foreign to you
that I could make a difference 
If I wanted to?
I’ll try till I’m bloodied
I’m ravaged and bruised
I’ll look death in the eye 
while hes tying his noose. 
I’m no stranger to solitude 
It mocks and it bends me
As if I’m not fragile 
enough yet already
Im heaving with every 
step down this road 
Searching for this 
God forsaken place
They call a home 
But the vultures keep circling 
The sky is warning me 
Telling me take what I can 
Fight while I’m kicking
Don’t go down alone
Cause If this world is ending 
I'm taking you with me

[i wanna be scared
i wanna be hurt
i wanna remember
i'm not scared
i'm not scared
i'm not scared
come on
come on]

vultures (prod. neverforever)

'Borrowed Dress' is a haunting, introspective track that explores the painful irony of conformity. It's a critique of living in a world of borrowed fears and stolen scripts, where individuality fades into a "faceless parade." The song is a delicate blend of Math Rock's intricate rhythms, Folktronica's serene acoustic strings, and Avant-Garde's ethereal textures, creating a ghostly, dream-like soundscape that ultimately calls for the wild pulse of an authentic life.

Borrowed Dress

Je pense donc j’oublie

Même Dieu m’a dit "tant pis"

J’écris l’absurde et j’applaudis

Un philosophe... en survêt’ gris~

Je-pense-donc-j’oublie (I-think,-therefore-I-forget)

愛は幻想、現実は暗い。

でも、明日は誰にあるのか？

傘の代わりにサックスを持つ。

今夜はレッドランタンブルースを歌う。

赤ちょうちんのブルース(Red-Lantern-Blues)

終電…

君を乗せて

銀座の夜に消えて

Last-Train-to-银座(Last train to Ginza)

Tomorrow, and tomorrow, and tomorrow…

This track takes Patrick Stewart’s legendary Macbeth soliloquy and drifts it through a haze of lo-fi beats, rain ambience, and dusty vinyl crackle. This one’s all mood — Shakespeare reimagined as midnight philosophy over a chill hip hop groove.

It’s lo-fi. It’s literary. It’s timeless despair with a head-nod beat. Perfect for studying, brooding, or plotting the downfall of kings.

Lofi Shakespeare

this is not your grave
but you are welcome in it

Avant-Garde Musician.

Listen to my first album ESTOICO.

Audio Illusionz is where darkness meets energy. The music moves through gothic EDM, darkwave, industrial beats and experimental textures, with flashes of stripped acoustic reflection and the occasional playful song. Every track aims to bend perception with heavy drops, haunting melodies, surreal lyrics and raw emotion.

This is not background music. It’s full immersion. Press play and step in. Relax.

You're listening to a project born from a unique collaboration. I don't write my songs alone; I work with an AI assistant that helps translate my personal ideas and philosophies into concrete lyrics. Why? Because I believe in honesty and transparency in the creative process. Every song you hear is a part of my search for consistency and truth. See it as an ongoing conversation that you're also a part of. I stand behind every word, because it comes from my own 'deep silence' and the unwavering belief that we can write our own stories, free from all the noise.

Experiments with sound and expression have gotten us so far. Hope you like what we are scratching. Join us in the journey.

We are based out of New Delhi, India. 

Ctrl Alt Delhi is @kinshuksunil.

Beats stitched from rain, grit, and revolution — giving back to the roots while chasing the thunder.

Cinematic soundscapes crafted from opposites: lo-fi rain, hip hop flow, Miles Davis horns—and then, suddenly, a hardstyle drop or EDM anthem that hits like thunder. Every track is a story, whether whispered in vinyl crackle or screamed through subwoofers.

My music is built on rhythms, voices, and traditions created by Black artists and communities long before me. Hip hop, house, and EDM wouldn’t exist without their innovation, courage, and culture. If I’m lucky enough to ever earn anything from this work, a portion will go toward supporting organizations like the NAACP and programs that help people of color step into the EDM scene. This is my way of honoring the legacy while continuing to learn, give back, and create.

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