Chew on this for a while. Lots of stuff to unpack in here.

CRITICALITY VOL. 4 MIX

BVLL - Polartek 100 (prod Loffst)

GEEKIN 2

BVLL - geekin 2 (prod. Loffst)

BVLL - DESTINY (PROD. LOFFST)

BVLL - SPEK-OPS (PROD. GRIFFSAUCE)

BVLL - Kant (PROD. LOFFST)

BVLL - Moonwalk 1973 (PROD. LOFFST)

BVLL - Hangout (FEAT. Ghostie)[prod ghostie]

"Cosmic Cajun"

Late night, keep on driving to the unknown 
Creeping with the knife, might end it all alone
The smoke is twisting to the sky, the music playing on my phone 
My eyes are getting heavy, but I don’t wanna go home 
My palms are getting sweaty, I can feel them fucking drip
My legs are getting fucking heavy, feel like I’m gonna tip 
Take a rip of the nic then I dip 
Feel the burning on the wrist 
Hurting deep inside a pit 
Tryna get a grip 
I’m addicted to feeling like shit 
I can’t help but hate to exist 
Sleeping in, I’m vacant within 
Everything is caving in 
I’m a guest in my own skin 
Greeting the reaper with a grin
I’m burning into fucking bits of sand eroding every tidal hit
I’m damaging my body I’m not managing I’m spotty and I cannot cope 
I’m foggy like I need some coffee hearing disembodied voices everywhere I go 
Waiting in the lobby of my frontal lobe I don’t know where to go

Laying in my bed, my head is on the pillow I’m thinking bout my death 
I’m just a speck of tiny dust from a lightless star that reached the end and now it’s floating far
Galaxy inside my head and I’m now floating to fucking mars 
Just a dying star 
What’s the point in living if my fear ajared
Getting closer to my death, like diabetics and candy bars 
Rotting in the bed again, losing my own resonance like the wood of a guitar 
The moon has reached its cycle so I’m grabbing the rifle 
Frontal lobe is on a spiral 
Blowing it in the church aisle 
Every night is a new trial 
I’m in denial, I got the rope around the throat so the damage spinal




Produced by oceanash

Cosmic Cajun

"Gators and Ghosts"

Lurking in the lagoon
I’m eating cajun fries seasoned with gloom
I feel like nothing inside, molecules have all died 
Sweep evidence with a broom
Under the rug, I’m removing the shoes 
The blood has soaked through 
Using the bleach so you won’t see the clues in the room, when the lights are turning blue
Creeping in the swamp 
Throwing bodies to the gators and they chomp 
Floating parts in nature but the water calm
Rolling papers, smoke keep on blowing with the fucking palms
Person missing, snakes are hissing, on their heads I fucking stomp
I’m no longer living, seeing visions of myself embalmed 
I’m saying Avada Kedavra when I’m waving my wand 
Floor of the creek, I’m in the fog
Cypress trees next to the bog 
Is where I hid the bloody saw and all my flaws with muddy cloth
Feel the claws when I draw the prey closer then they caught up in my jaws 
Eat ‘em like Pulled pork with a side of Cole slaw 
Now I'm wanting more
Skeleton galore hid beneath the river shore 
Now my vision twisting more, my face melting to a corpse
A million thoughts I’m torn 
Now I’m exploding with gore
From my brain, I go insane, from the pressure I cannot contain 
I’m Breaking from chains, I never maintain a minute or moment of peace 
I feel deceased, my DMT released 
I don’t want my heart to beat, I think it ceasing during my sleep, so I’m avoiding counting the sheep
Making the beats, I got my enemies all on their fucking knees 
Now I’m speeding off smoking the weed 
I stuff it up in a honey berry blunt   
3 gram cherry keep making me dizzy and lighting the room up 
Sneaking through the grasses 
Weaken from the gashes 
Blood is seeping like molasses, slowly leaking as the match is lit 
Look into your head as I’m detaching it
Use the fucking knife, I take your life and then I’m stashing it 
Grabbing the resin, I’m dabbing it 
Dragging the bat before whacking it 
I’m hacking with the hatchet 
I'm takin your body, I’m wrapping it 
I'm cracking my skull cuz demons inhabit it



Produced by oceanash

Gators and Ghosts

"to be great"

“ruin with a blink”

Thinking sinking deeper on the brink 
Speak with shrinks connecting links
Thin ice playing hockey like a bruin in the rink 
Throw me in the bin I ruin with just a blink 
Watching them down another drink 
Demons wink, I’m never in sync

I’m a loner stoner, keep on roaming looking for a spot to smoke
I’m Looking like I’m homer, donuts when I pull up, making you croak 
Dying is my theme, G L double O M is the team 
No redeeming self esteem 
I’m Yung Keanu Reeves, i got some grief that I will never tell 
I’m dying, make a wish, and then i throw it in the fucking well
Pennies stacking all the let downs weighing on my back 
I’m oceanash, you know my luck is bad 
I’m waiting to collapse
Creeping thru the street at midnight 
Tryna sleep but panic in sight 
Overthinking killing my mind 
Hating the way I was designed 
Creeping thru the street at midnight 
Tryna sleep but panic in sight 
Overthinking killing my mind 
Hating the way I was designed 

Thinking sinking deeper on the brink 
Speak with shrinks connecting links
Thin ice playing hockey like a bruin in the rink 
Throw me in the bin I ruin with just a blink 
Watching them down another drink 
Demons wink, I’m never in sync

Am I manic am i sane, these thoughts won’t go away 
I’m smoking and toking another game to make myself ok
But I’m feeling  more broken
I’m choking on the smoke I’m coping 
Chemicals in the lobe I’m corroding
Marinating, soaking, in my trauma demons keep on winking at me
I’m overthinking more deep 
Losing control of my life, try to give me advice but I don’t know who to believe 
Epinephrin is seeping deep, the panic is creeping 
All over I’m bleeding
Regret that I’m keeping
My life I’m deleting
The reaper is creeping 
Calling my phone and it beeping
Wrist leaking
Hearing the demons speaking
They seeping aromas that reeking
Bad omens all I’m seeing

Thinking sinking deeper
Connecting links
Thinking sinking deeper 
Speak with shrinks   


Produced by oceanash

ruin with a blink

the river of wailing

one day at a time 
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