- SOUL, ORIGINAL MIX - lofi cassette - 

- FRAGMENTS, ORIGINAL MIX - lofi cassette -

- XPLORE, ORIGINAL MIX - lofi cassette -

- TRUE, ORIGINAL MIX - lofi cassette - 

- BLISS, ORIGINAL MIX - lofi cassette -

- EVERGREEN, ORIGINAL MIX - noir motif - 

- FLOATIN, ORIGINAL MIX - lofi cassette -

- SURGE, ORIGINAL MIX - haus geek -

- LOST SIGNAL, ORIGINAL MIX - port88 -

- ABYSS, ORIGINAL MIX - lofi cassette - 

- PACE, ORIGINAL MIX - lofi cassette - 

- ITINERARY, ORIGINAL MIX - haus geek -

- LONELY STILL, ORIGINAL MIX - noir motif - 

- SMOG, ORIGINAL MIX - lofi cassette - 

- LIMINAL LIGHTS, ORIGINAL MIX - port88 -

- INFINITE LOOPS, ORIGINAL MIX - port88 -

- SOMEWHERE BETWEEN US, ORIGINAL MIX - port88 - 

- DAWN THROUGH A POLAROID, ORIGINAL MIX - port 88 -

- FINE, ORIGINAL MIX - haus geek - 

- MIDNIGHT TRAIN, ORIGINAL MIX - haus geek -

- OPEN, ORIGINAL MIX - lofi cassette -

- RIDE, ORIGINAL MIX - lofi cassette - 

- HIGHWAY BLUES, ORIGINAL MIX - noir motif - 

- THROUGH THE HUES, ORIGINAL MIX - noir motif -

- MISSING, ORIGINAL MIX - lofi cassette -

- DISINTEGRATE, ORIGINAL MIX - haus geek - 

- BREAK, ORIGINAL MIX - lofi cassette - 

- GETAWAY, ORIGINAL MIX - lofi cassette -

- RETURN, ORIGINAL MIX - lofi cassette -

- SUN MY SWEET SUN, KONSTANTIN SIBOLD AFRO TECH MIX - Red Axes -

364. - Recens -

A sense of Release is often experienced after a feeling of weight and pushing through.

A Piano Improvisation with some added effects such as Reverb and Bitcrushing to create a layered mood.

Artwork Sketch Handrawn by @Meyukicore
Colored by me using Krita/Photoshop

Release

That mid summer lull before the cold air knocks again.

August Woman

This is a very difficult topic for me to talk about But I must cos it’s my truth and this might inspire others that I’ve been in this situation or still in it.

I wrote this song “Drowning” to finally come out of my shell. 

I was raised as a ‘’Jehovah’s Witness‘’ and those years were a part of my childhood I do not enjoy talking about.

I was in a cage, trapped inside this ideology of faith and beliefs. Everything good was labelled as ungodly e.g Christmas (even saying the word “ Christmas” felt like a sin), birthday parties, Easter, dating, etc.  I was not allowed to have friends outside my religion ( they call them nonbelievers, unrighteous ones, Babylon,…). Therefore I lost many good friends and even self sabotaged my relationships.

This part of the chorus “Man cannot live by bread alone but by the holy spirit...”  was adapted from a bible quote “‘Man shall not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God.’”  I heard this quote a lot from the biggest hypocrites in the congregation that engaged in all sorts. 🤐

I sacrificed my happiness for that and all I got was more pain and more disappointment and serious identity crisis. At this point I said “ I’d rather eat the bread alone “ lol 

Picture this! The same people preaching to me to believe in ‘’Jehovah’s’’ judgement were the same people hurting me and judging me at the same time for asking valid questions about the faith, why men only were allowed to give lectures? respect your elders even if they are hurting you!!! don’t take blood even if you are facing death!!! Jehovah God sees it all and has a good reason for not saving vulnerable people including children (they say, may be the child would have grown up to be a psycho, so ‘’Jehovah God’’ allowed it)…. Etc. OMG.🤯

I’m so proud of myself to have been brave enough when I was 20 years old to finally leave the organisation of ‘’Jehovah’s witnesses’’. Though, I was still mentally in chains and haunted by their truth, which brought guilt and I felt like a sinner who deserves every bad thing that happened to me cos I left ‘’Jehovah’’, I felt dirty and damaged! Just because I wanted answers!

Many times I felt betrayed by these rules and those that preached the rules, drowned in tears literally saying “I need a sign! Help me’’, still no one to save me. But I kept fighting.

I wrote this song as a way of playing my part to inspire others  who may have been in a similar situation or trying to get out one, to keep fighting!

Share with someone who needs to hear this. 
Keep fighting 💪💚”

Drowning

A Day Spelunking

Captured at MENCA GATHERING in Lithuania, this recording is a raw excerpt from my 4hrs liveset.. only what I managed to save, but still a real slice of the moment!!

Liveset Snippet @Menca Lithuania

Addict

prod francium thanks shin for sending me the daxbak stems

francium - I need to block Noelleallowed

Lyrics written by Yasmine 

Verse 1:
I sit here, so patient, I’m waiting, till you reply
So anxious, I stand still, my mind run, yet no reply
Insomnia, my nightmare, is all about my future now
Distraction, I leave home, taking everything to relieve my mind
With music, I lay wake, my room spins, but still, I don’t hear a sound
No calling, no respond, I sit and wait, the time don’t stop, why hinder now
Why lose me, am I losing, is it ending, am I done for, has my time come

Cho:
Answer my request, I’m begging on my knees
I see lavish in their life and I’m asking for a treat 
 the way you answer theirs, please listen to my plea
I don’t want a man, just my wish from a teen
Answer my request, can’t return to the land
I love my freedom as much as independency 
Answer my request, I’m begging on my knees
I see what you did, and you made them easy

Verse 2:
He’s heard all my cries and he’s seen all my tears
Through all the impossible, He made a way and sealed my hope
Through it all He guide me, Down the path He leads me,
So why do I question this request, Oh God, I just want it to end
He knows all my worry, gave me the life that I needed. 
Open doors for me to walk through
So, if this don’t work, then its all for the best
Imma just look on to the next
Life just happens, Gotta humble the pride
He knows what’s next, so I’ll sit and reside
With three or four more to go

Cho:
Answer my request, I’m begging on my knees
I see lavish in their life and I’m asking for a treat 
 the way you answer theirs, please listen to my plea
I don’t want a man, just my wish from a teen
Answer my request, can’t return to the land
I love my freedom as much as independency 
Answer my request, I’m begging on my knees
I see what you did, and you made them easy

Bridge: 
I will not doubt
I will not lose
I will not turn 
I will not Run (2x) 
I sit here, so patient, Im waiting, till you reply
So anxious, I stand still, my mind run, yet no reply

Cho:
Answer my request, I’m begging on my knees
I see lavish in their life and I’m asking for a treat 
 the way you answer theirs, please listen to my plea
I don’t want a man, just my wish from a teen
Answer my request, can’t return to the land
I love my freedom as much as independency 
Answer my request, I’m begging on my knees
I see what you did, and you made them easy








answer my request A.M.R (Official Music Audio)

lifes a roller coster and it dont help to be a bit mad hahaha we are all mad here

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Maine jazz, classical, roots, rhythm & blues pianist. Accompanist, keyboards, special band projects, musical theater, composer, & teacher. Let's talk music.

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△ Experimental / Ritual / Expression △

SaadhuK is an experimental project that mixes ambient, hypnotic and psychedelic sounds, ranging from Slambient to Psycore. It has mysterious textures that create a surreal atmosphere and a schizophrenic flow that keeps you on edge, always anticipating the unexpected!

- Side Projects 
BorderLines [w/ Setu Ketu] 
Terrible People [w/ Anti Priest]
Silent Symmetry [w/ Dark Lotus]

I write and record songs in different genres.  

I have already had my songs played on BBC Radio 1 and 2 and loads of plays on BBC Introducing.

My aim is to have my songs published by reputable companies and have them performed by successful artists Worldwide.

Kemi Amos is a cinematic and evocative singer-songwriter whose music serves as a sanctuary for the unheard and unseen. Raised within confining strictures that silenced her true self, Kemi’s artistry is born from the courage to transcend those limitations and reclaim her identity.

Her debut album, Awakened, is a profound and unflinching exploration of vulnerability, resilience, and liberation. Central to the album is the haunting track "Drowning," a raw anthem born from Kemi’s personal struggles growing up in a restrictive environment. The song captures the pain of feeling trapped and the fierce determination to break free, resonating deeply with anyone fighting to reclaim their voice.

Through haunting melodies, searing rock-infused choruses, and introspective lyricism, Kemi crafts a sonic refuge for those grappling with despair, self-doubt, and invisibility. Her work resonates as both a voice for the lost and a beacon of hope for anyone yearning to break free from their own cages.

With Awakened and songs like "Drowning'', ''Ayekan'', Kemi Amos affirms the transformative power of authenticity and the solace found in embracing one’s deepest truths.

Hey guys, I try hard making and producing these songs so dont judge, you know, judge if you want.....I will take those judgement into consideration.

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