Tortured memory
I recall you like a
Book from inventory
Sat on dusty shelving

Ex-Librising 
Stained with bookplates beauty 
I can never read 
Your writers voice

Unlike, paper
You stain more than ink
It's like a cut that won't restitch 

Turn me, gently 
Your love and hates the same
I'm a reader with an angle on feeling again

Haunted elegy 
I remember your voice
Faint with emnity
Or an enemies smile 

Ex-tremity
Remains a history of cruelty 
I can never wash 
This blood from you

C.r.u.e.l.t.y

Here 
I roll inside 
This metal
Object for you

Black box 
Of Saturn
Cubes me
Turning within 
Without 

Tears
Like oceans
Wicking
Fished from
Cosmic rain

Hacked off
Of solar halos
Maypoles wind
Me up again

Black Box

Pivot

Seance at the river 
I think I saw you in a 
childhood dream 

You were epic like a 
Silver relic
I wished I could take you home 

With me 
Decide
It's us 
Or the grainy memory
P-lease
Come back 
Your soul
Is a tattoo 
On my nights

It's not so nice 
The comfort I gather
When I can become there

Happenstance rewritten
I forgive you for
Abandoning 

Hand to hand
You kill me 
I wake up
And only know 
The view

These prevailing winds, 
That destroy everything
All I’ve worked for and
All I’ve not 

Knots become unbound 
I wish you’d hear the sound 
But you’re not around 
It’s just me 

This is what returns
When your empty nest 
Has become a tomb 
Of loneliness 
Not a friendly face 
Just an unkind silence 
You’re a momentary
Lapse of mind

Please unravel me 
From this cobweb
I’m the spider to 
the spider to the fly 

Boats become unmoored 
Like my heart in violence 
Waves don’t bury me 
They just break

The Fly

KC went to Sparky’s and he saw her, sitting underneath that Red Stripe sign.
Girls like that don’t show up much at Sparky’s Bar & Grill, and he said right then and there, “I’m gonna make her mine.”
It won’t be easy, but nothing ever is that’s worth your time.
He may go home alone tonight, but it won’t be from lack of trying.

KC pulled his chair up to her table, he pulled every trick out of his bag.
1st he asked her, “What’s your favorite color?”
Her smile lit up her face, & she said, “I like plaid.”
It won’t be easy, but nothing ever is that’s worth your time.
He may go home alone tonight, but it won’t be from lack of trying.

What’s it gonna take for him to somehow break the ice?
How’s he gonna make this work?
Only getting once chance, so he’d better get it right.
If he messes up he’s going home alone tonight.

Turns out she likes going to the ballet. Wrestlemania is more his style.
She digs foreign films without subtitles. He watches Three Stooges, feed his inner child.
It won’t be easy, but nothing ever is that’s worth your time.
He may go home alone tonight, but it won’t be from lack of trying.

Found out that she was a published author. Wrote some books, the titles he forgets.
He told her, I too have books at my house, but he didn’t tell her most had not been colored yet.
It won’t be easy, but nothing ever is that’s worth your time.
He may go home alone tonight, but it won’t be from lack of trying.

What’s it gonna take for him to somehow break the ice?
How’s he gonna make this work?
Only getting once chance, so he’d better get it right.
If he messes up he’s going home alone tonight.

If you visit Sparky’s you can see it, just in case you truly had some doubt.
A plaque erected underneath that Red Stripe sign,
Despite the odds the mighty KC had struck out.
It wasn’t easy, in fact it turns out it could not be done.
KC went home alone that night, and that’s the reason this song is being sung.

Going Home Alone

A dreamy, flowy hard song to get lost in, The Sundays meets Failure

A New Form of Hypnosis

Never done a techno mix in my 5 years of spinning, so I just threw this together one night. Feedback pls?

TECH[NOPE]

My cover of Failure by Breaking Benjamin.

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Recorded, mixed, & mastered by: Jackson Downer
Sound recording © Jackson Downer (2021)

Instrumental by: Basu Aeppli
Original song by: Breaking Benjamin

Failure - Single

Failure

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Retired the beginning of 2023. Been writing music seriously for about six years. Thanks for listening - and sharing!

FFO: Hum, Failure, Jawbreaker, Incubus.

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Also known as ZakuNuva, ZAQU was first exposed to EDM via 2000's techno and electronica. In later years, exposure to Drum and Bass in 2012 led to his love of fast and high paced music, eventually leading him to a love of Hardcore and it's adjacent genres. One of these genres, Future Core, was his gateway to the fast paced world of Japanese Hardcore, and eventually Techcore. Inspired by artists such as Psyqui, Lapix, and Srav3r. His current inspirations and genre favorites are artists such as Mylta, DJ Shimamura, Wooden, Xaev, and Yukiyanagi.

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