This song is an intense, emotional release, capturing the feelings of desperation, anxiety, and disillusionment. With raw, honest lyrics and a chaotic, unpredictable energy, the song conveys the sense of being on the edge, where the lines between sanity and madness are blurred. It's a visceral, unapologetic expression of frustration, confusion, and the struggle to cope with the pressures of life. 

I want to clarify that this song isn't a reflection of my current state, but rather a creative expression of the emotional turmoil I've been navigating lately. I don't drink anymore, and I'm not really going crazy. Or at least I don't think so yet, anyway. LOL Having faced numerous personal tragedies, in the last month, I've found myself in a very dark place, and this song is just my attempt to process and release those feelings. I just wanted to express it with a weird and crazy song. I hope that others who have experienced similar struggles will find solace in this song and know they're not alone.


LYRICS: 

[Verse 1]
I'm totally unhinged
I'm going crazy
I'm like a dog in a cage
I'm barking at the window
Now I'm afraid of kids' TV programming (ah)
I don't speak to my family anymore
My brothers are all gotten married
And I'm locked up in a cavern
So I kill my dreams (so, run) 

[Pre-Chorus]
No
I'm not fine
As much as you'd like to think (ooh)
I'm not fine
Don't ask me anything
Because.. 

[Chorus]
I'm going to go crazy
(completely)
(bla bla bla haha) (crazy)
For a hangover
Or because I asked for it?
Everything is fine
When I'm drunk
It's not because I'm French (bah voilà)
(classy-fancy)
Something's gnawing at my bones (ah, ah)
So help me get through the night
Some musicians are organizing a festival down here
Stop wanting to mean something
Just be epic 

[Bridge]
So
"BLAH-BLAH-BLAH" with a capital "B" and your open mouth
Like a sausage(agh!)
I am ifinissed because I ate too many of you 

[Outro]
No, I'm not fine
As much as you'd like to think
I'm not fine
Throw yourself out a window before I throw myself inside
No I'm not fine (No I'm not)
As much as you'd like to think (as much as)
I'm not fine
Don't ask me anything because
I'm going to Go
Crazy!



BALISTIC

@trisonline

@raaynen:

When I go up I’ll take you with me I didn’t show up are you forgiving?
 I’m just speaking what I’m living
You know I can’t forget it
I started making music with my bros thats how I’ll finish
Like turn me up and check my swag now
I’m passing all my bros the bag now 
Can you see that I was made for this?
It was never about getting rich
Now I’m using rubber bands instead of paperclips

It’s not my fault I’m suicidal
I got all my friends right by my side yeah they my idols
Maybe one day you’ll see me more than just a rival
I’ve been dreaming about this shit since a mother fucking child
 I feel like Gru feel like a villain
I don’t see why you could hate on me I’ve just been chillin
I’m like Goku with my Krillin
Bass so loud it crack the ceiling
I’m pouring up I crack the sealant
Banana clip the way I’m peeling

When I go up I’ll take you with me I didn’t show up are you forgiving?
 I’m just speaking what I’m living
You know I can’t forget it
 I started making music with my bros thats how I’ll finish
Like turn me up and check my swag now
 I’m passing all my bros the bag now 
Can you see that I was made for this? 
It was never about getting rich
Now I’m using rubber bands instead of paperclips

don't look (trisonline)

prod. by me

lyrics:
[Chrous]
I finally have reached you, now I'm lost up in your eyes
I won't try to deceive you 'cause you're makin' my heart shine
Lost in the void, floating through infinity
And all I hear is noise and these colors that I see
I do what I want, fuck it
Might just be in luck, I love it
You're puttin' up a front or somethin
My heart's beatin, can you feel it
I can't get enough of it
You say you're in love, you're bluffin
So please don't fuck it up for nothin
Can't fight these feelins, you're' my healin

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[Verse]
Huh, smokin on the gas pack out in Tokyo
I don't know if you've been told
But I'm speedin' through the night, yeah, out in the mountain
I don't wanna fight all the lights I've been countin
Shinin' so bright, got these motherfuckers doubtin' me, doubtin' me
And you light me up like a torch
So confused why my reality distorts
It's true I think I found the source
And I can't keep runnin' from this force (whoa)

[Chorus]
I final-final-final, rea-rea-rea, no-no-no, -er-er-er
I try,I try,I try, de-de-de, 'cause you're, 'cause you're, 'cause you're, my heart, my heat, my heart
Lo-lo-lo-lo-lo-lo, voi-voi-voi-voi-voi-voi, ay, ay, ay, ay, ay, ay, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh
All, all, all, all, all, all, oi-oi-oi-oi-oi-oi, an-an-an-an-an-an, that I see
I do what I want, fuck it
Might just be in luck, I love it
You're puttin' up a front or somethin
My heart's beatin, can you feel it
I can't get enough of it
You say you're in love, you're bluffin
So please don't fuck it up for nothin
Can't fight these feelins, you're' my healin'

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TOY RICH (PROD.AKI)

Songwriting has been a lifelong passion for me, dating back to elementary school when I first began crafting stories, poems, and eventually lyrics. As a former drummer in various bands, I always relied on others to bring my words to life musically. However, after a long hiatus from drumming, I decided to take the leap and learn to compose music to accompany my lyrics. Through classes and dedication, I've embarked on a new journey, breathing fresh life into old lyrics and penning new ones. You'll find a mix of older and newer works here. Especially for some of the lyrics. 

Music has been a part of me for as long as I can remember. One of my earliest memories is being completely entranced by 'The Little Drummer Boy' as a very young child. There was something about the rhythm and the melody that just captivated me. I must have played it a thousand times, wearing the record out, and from that moment on, I was hooked. I knew I wanted to be a drummer and to create that magic for others. 

But I was too young then, and of course, I couldn't afford a drum set just yet. So, I turned to writing as a way to express myself. As I mentioned above, I started with stories, then poems, and eventually, lyrics. I found that writing was not only a way to tap into my creativity, but also a way to process my emotions and experiences. 

As I grew older, my love for music only deepened. I realized that music has this incredible power to transport us to different times and places, to evoke emotions and memories that we thought were long forgotten. It's a universal language that can bring people together like nothing else can. 

For me, writing lyrics is a cathartic experience. It's a way for me to tap into my emotions, to process the world around me, and to create something that I hope will resonate with others. And when I hear my words come to life in a song, it's truly magical. It's a feeling that never gets old, and it's what keeps me coming back to music time and time again. 

I love many genres of music and artists of many genres. And if you listen to some of my songs, you will find that I like to make songs of different genres as well as mix different genres into each song. One of my all-time favorite bands is Evanescence, and I have made a lot of songs where I have tried my best to emulate that sound. 

Now, I have recently started experimenting with new sounds. I never heard of glitch beats before I took music classes, and now I'm fascinated with the sound, so I have been experimenting with glitch beats recently. 

I hope you enjoy some of my songs. And thanks so much to everyone who has been listening so far. I truly appreciate it. I welcome constructive feedback to help me grow as an artist, and I appreciate your support. ❤️

BTW if you follow me, I will ALWAYS follow back. If I like your music, I will follow you, but if you don't follow me back within a week or so I will probably unfollow. The same goes for when I see someone listening to my music, I WILL follow, however, if they don't follow me back within a week or so, I'll unfollow, because I'm at my limit of follows and I want to follow back everyone who follows me. Did not know that SoundCloud limits us to following only 2000. 😢













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