Lose myself for a week now I’m lost here
Say you’ll see me in hell well I’ve gone there
Made a lot of mistakes miss myself now
I don’t wanna be here with this self doubt

Fuck me and love me
I want you your something that I need
An omen that I keep
Right with me

Now your saying that you miss me
Your the only thing I’m missing
Oh oh 

(More pills 
That I take everyday
It’s a new day
I stay baked everyday 
I don’t get lies
Might as well throw away
I can’t get by
When your standing in my way)
(X2)

Omen (P. ANPU)

In my head 
Yeah I know that I’m so sick
Everything that I do feels pointless
I don’t know what to say I’m annoying
Everything inside I’m destroying

Who knew that I’d be like this who knew
Saw you in class right there I’m new
Say my goodbyes even though we haven’t met yet
I wanna try to make this thing the best yet

Going back to the past still a goner
I don’t know how to feel I’m a loner
If she ever asked me if I loved her
I would tell her I do and I’d show her

Reach inside 
Grab your knife
I know it hurt

I loved you more
Back to the past
You showed me hurt
It always lasts 

Now I feel weak
I left you there in class
I broke my arm
You wouldn’t sign my cast

Who Knew (P. ANPU)

Who knew it would be this long since I met you
I don’t wanna fall baby I can’t even catch you
It’s me I know I’m broken
It’s me my heart is frozen

Everything that I said I can’t take it back
I wish I was dead give me more of that
When I call you your ignoring that
When you see me you see I’m always sad

But you make my day better
Put me on top never under the weather
Your so soft girl skin like leather
In my room just shaking yeah my head hurts

Fucked up that I need you to change in more ways
I try so hard to be here
We’ll be okay
I want to know if you love me the same way
I go to church feeling blessed on a Sunday

Feeling Blessed On A Sunday (P. ANPU)

Im the poison in your system
Listen here now
Couldnt kill you if you want
I dont know how

How to get rid of what
What I want now
I don’t like how I feel
I feel so down

I feel so down
Baby slow down
Going too fast
Needa turn around

Can your heat it now
Can you hear me
You don’t want me now
Wont come near me

(If I lose you I lose myself
It gets bad it’s all my health)
(x2)

Kill me but slowly
I wanna bleed out
Look in my eyes 
You’ll see that I’m not found
Lost in disguise
Who am I right now
Im gonna die and you’ll see when I’m found

Lose Myself (P. ANPU)

Light me up douse me in propane
I feel stuck and I feel like I have no name
Look at you do you need me right now
I don’t know if you’d see me when the lights out

If I ever said I was happy then it’d be a lie
Feeling like a problem all summer almost all the time
If you saw the real me you need the baseline
If I ever said hello I’d never have to say goodbye

Do you miss me
Was it something that we had
See you glistening 
Your the star that’s in my head
I feel so sad when you leave me
I feel so bad can you see me

I know i smoke too much
I could really give a fuck
Please don’t tell me what is real
Cause I’ve already had enough
When I’m singing all my songs they sound bad enough
When I’m looking at the sky know it’s getting tough

Can You See Me (P. ANPU)

PROD ME

Do you still love me the same when we met
I got up in my head
And I’m still sitting there with you

Do you remember my name
Am I yours
Are we here tonight
Or is it all dream I can’t escape

I like to say I’m fine
When I am not alright
Cause I put up a fight
But I can’t do it right

And I go missing again
It’s so bad for my head
I think I’m better off dead
Would you then love me again

She thinks I’m worse right now
And I was bad before
I guess I’m falling down
Cause I still need you more

I hate to act like I know what I’m talking bout cause I don’t
This stuff just doesn’t make sense
This stuff leaves me without hope

Better Off (P. ANPU)

Hangin from the roof
And I think I wanna know ya
Found it in myself
And I really wanna show ya

Flipping off these pills
Drop a few in my soda
I just wanna love you
Crushin on you over

And we dance for the night till it’s over
I don’t wanna fall but I’m never feeling sober 

I can’t even move
But I’m dying on the dance floor
She don’t wanna change
So I don’t even know her

Fucked up in my head now I think I’m feeling closer to darkness that’s brightness 

Tripping of a tab now she think she wanna try it
Feeling all these drugs so I think I’m gonna dive In
Can’t tell you all my secrets
I’m crying
Just believe me when I tell you I’m dying

You don’t need from me
I follow
Say goodbye
Wont see you tomorrow 
I lost you again
And I think it’s all my fault
Tell me to stay when I’m breaking through the drywall

Wont miss me
Just kiss me
And fuck me
And trust me
I love you something that I need 
your attention 
I need it
I feel like im fiend-in
I mean it
I see it 
I feel like I’m dreamin
Believe it

Dying On The Dance Floor (P. ANPU)

PROD ME

If you tell me to leave
Then I might as well stay
I’ve been stuck in my brain
I swear I start to decay

My god I’ve been feeling like I’m so done
What have I done I don’t feel like I am someone

You find a way to tell me that you hate me once or twice again
I feel like I am losing myself way to often my friend
And tell me that you love me but I’m so wrong
And I tell you that I’m here but I’m so gone

And I love the rain
And it’s all the same
And I found the pain
My heart beats like the rain

Sayin that I need some help
Baby save me from myself
I don’t wanna sit right here
Cause I don’t wanna go to hell

Switchback
All my friends say they hate me
Run back 
Got me feeling like the 80’s

If you tell me that you love me I expect you to stay
If you tell me that you want me
I don’t know what to say

Thinking back bout the pictures
I can picture them all 
If you ever need someone
Then I’m someone to call

When you told me that you want me back
I swear I had a heart attack
And there’s no ever stopping that
So you’ll just see me crawling back

Crawling Back (P. ANPU)

PROD ME

Let me go
Feeling all alone
Baby hit my phone
I just need you tonight

And you make me feel so worthless
Baby what’s my purpose
Nothings ever perfect
Is it even worth it

Is it worth it
Your so perfect 
See you shining like stars

Is it worth it
Your so perfect 
Your so worth it
See you shining like stars

If you cry
You can hold onto me
I said if you die
I don’t want to still breathe

I don’t mind 
If you want you can hold onto me
I don’t mind if you go
You got your reasons to leave

Blow me back like a sawed-off
I can’t shut off
My love for you my heart for you baby
I adore you baby 
I can’t leave I wanna stay lately

Feeling cold 
All alone
Need a sign
To get me home

Is It Worth It (P. ANPU)

PROD ME

This pain inside will kill me
These drugs I consume won’t help me
It’s all a bit overwhelming 

You don’t want to see me live my life
Dont Want me to try again
in my head can’t sleep at night
Feel like I wanna die again

Losing my life slowly
At times I think I’m losing my mind
Wakin up to feel this way
Nothings ever feeling right 

Even in a crowd I feel alone
There’s nothing special about me
The way I’m feeling is a disease
It traps me surrounds me

In and out of reality
I’m sick I knew she’d always doubt me
Changing my ways to try and feel but
But I keep on drowning

Trying to find a way to get by 
But I can’t and I 
Lose my self instead 
time flies by
It’s like over and over again

I lose I can’t catch a break
No matter what I do
I cannot relate 

Stuck on the outside
Far from the bright side 
Look at the night lights
Brighter than flash lights 

I told you I loved you
That was just last night 
You said your goodbyes
And Now I can’t act right

Overwhelming 𓆩♡𓆪

Still not ok (P. ANPU)

Sad Day (P. ANPU)

PROD ME

Sitting at the bottom 
I know it’s hard to breathe
I know it’s hard to see
What’s good for you or me
What’s meant or not to be

I told your ghost to head for the light
It ended up wrong cause it was never alright
I’m looking for you can you see my signs
I end up alone because you left me behind

I don’t know what to say till my heart breaks
Everything feels worse than a heartache
Most of these pills give me headaches
How long will I bend till I will break

On and on I’m still going on I sing my song
Till I’m dead and gone

(Break my bones just like plastic
Looks like magic 
But it’s tragic
I’m broken)
(X2)

Holy tonight
Hold me tonight 
I’m on my knees begging that I’ll be seen tonight

It feels like it’s wrong but maybe it’s right
You tell me that I’m wrong then get me out of sight

Idk Wht 2 Say Till My Heart Br3ks (P. ANPU)

Did you see the blood drip out of my eyes
I don’t wanna leave but I have to say goodbye
I don’t wanna stay here longer
Getting weaker not stronger

If you ask me how I’m doin
I would lie and say I’m fine
I don’t wanna stay behind 
But I wanna press rewind

And if you got some words to say
Say them twice to me
So I don’t forget your name

Say you don’t know me
I’ve been feeling so lost
I don’t wanna be here
Mind controlled by Zoloft 

Lose myself again
Can’t ask any friends 
I don’t have none

I think I like ya too much
To be here 
I don’t know but I feel okay
When I see you in the mirror
Now it’s clear
I don’t have to be afraid of what I fear

Go oh
I’m a goner
I’m a loser
Please just throw me away
I don’t feel okay
I just wanna fall down
When I feel so stuck
But when I fall down
I know I’m done
And it scares me so
I don’t know where to go

Lie And Say I'm Fine (P. ANPU)

sad asf
I just say what I feel
I hope you feel what I say
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