Genre: Gothcore fused with nu metal, industrial rock, cyberpunk, post-rock, Ethereal atmosphere with sociopathy/ASPD spine: post-rock goth verses (moody haunting melodies, twisted glitches evoking controlled obsession), gothcore choruses (powerful drops, chaotic energy, big kick startles for excited aggression), Out-of-control feel with addictive, haunting eerie synths, upbeat tempo for aggressive excitement, Cyberpunk nightmare, spooky dystopian apocalypse, violent scary vibes, alien otherworldly alternative rock, Deep distorted androgynous male vocals (addictive haunting whispers to powerful dramatic screams), 3D audio, dark ambience, psychotic despair, insane sub-bass rumbles, Drop D tuning, 130 BPM ramp, 5 min max length, Themes: Sex-death connection, devouring obsession, psychotic control merging sociopathy/ASPD, ]

Intro (0:00-0:20 - Dark Ambience: Eerie Ethereal Synths, Glitchy ASPD Whispers Panning in 3D, Slow Sub-Bass Pulse Evoking Sociopathic Detachment):
I taste your poison... (fading whisper)
Born like this... (glitched echo)
Verse 1 (0:20-0:50 - Post-Rock Goth: Moody Guitars, Haunting Melody, Slow Building Glitch Textures Evoking Controlled Sociopathy):
I taste your poison the golden goddess
The bitter kiss of a lover you lay on top of me
So sensitive to how much
Of you I store within me
For you could kill me faster than time itself
Pre-Chorus (0:50-1:10 - Building Intensity: Glitchy Cyberpunk Synths, Sinister Ambience, ASPD "Out of Control" Pulses Emerging):
Drifting in a liquid so black the world is numb she will steal your breath
To the river you are traveling on
The blood is thick with her love
She crawls within me
Like a dancing sun
Chorus (1:10-1:40 - Gothcore Nu-Metal Drop: Aggressive Industrial Riffs, Chaotic Drums, Powerful Kick Startles, Distorted Screams for Excited Obsession):
The warmth of a dream in anti gravity
But this is debauchery
Can you see I fell in love with an enemy
She takes me higher than the throne of god
Just so the devil can rape my body in the daze of the withdrawals and fog
Verse 2 (1:40-2:10 - Electronic Rock Fusion: Glitchy Cyberpunk Synths, Out-of-Control ASPD Vibes, Building Emotional Intensity with Twisted Echoes):
To experience heaven you must pay with the price of hell
The world is a balance now you can tell
Your blood aches as the demons break your bones you're now for sale
To shatter your skin like glass against a wall
To know your going to feel the worst of pains in all
Pre-Chorus (2:10-2:30 - Intensified: Spooky Ethereal Waves, Psychotic Whisper Layers, Hypnotic Beats Stuttering into Scary Chaos with 3D Panning):
We knew you where coming when you married her
The liquid of the goddess has a price and it's physical
To take the torments of earth and place them upon you
Chorus (2:30-3:05 - Apocalyptic Post-Metal Peak: Extreme Riffs, Otherworldly Glitches, Haunting Screams Building to Insane Emotional 

Golden Goddess

[Intro]
(80 BPM crawl-slow: Funeral dragging chains over decaying sweat-blood steam, flesh-ripping foley wet aluminum screwdriver scrape grating eternal, WWII reel flicker low-pitch crackle with gas chamber whispers "obsession... looping...", building numb detachment dread in alien void hums, distant pill rattle count in cosmic haze—haunting whispers layer 3D dark ambiance.)
My obsession...
She's watches my obsessions...
Looping negative, the abyssal infections...
Crawling with love, soaked in the sweat that tastes of blood...
Calamity...
(Sudden snap—glitch drop fracture, tempo to 110 BPM death march pulse, otherworldly alternative rock distortion swells.)
[Verse 1]
(Monotone rap-growl: Calm counting pills, numb detachment voice, snare bone snaps marching rhythm, kick coffin slams heavy like gas chamber doors, sub-bass tar lungs wheezing ragged—dread building with abyssal infection crawls glitches, creepy whispers "it's me... echoing...", flesh-ripping mid-line in dystopian apocalypse vibe.)
It's me,
I can hear you deep in my mind,
The echoing when you hold me,
In the shadows of my soul.
O God, why did you create me this way?
Fragmented in the spaces of creative building blocks.
My mind is alive,
But you force me to live in the rot humans had created.
Calm counting pills in the holocaust haze,
Numb detachment, dread building to the alien grave.
[Chorus]
(Androgynous male deep wail choking reverb intensity raw release: Glitch drops shatter with chrome wire hair scraping tension, venom drip delays pool into blood-sweat gurgles, dramatic screams warp apocalyptic in 3D audio—echoing "unholy... tragedy" layers over violent scary otherworldly rock riffs, lingering torment in voidcore silence bursts.)
Sinking in slowly, I'm so unholy,
That God gave me a place at the tip of the thorns of poison.
A whore of the morning, running in place,
Looping in an unending story.
I'm spinning in the cosmic fairytale tragedy...
This is the end of everything... (glitch drop void silence, bone snap resume, reverse sighs tease)
[Verse 2]
(Growl intensifies: March verse with snare bone snaps in nightmare rhythm, kick coffin slams like thorn stabs, sub-bass tar lungs, wet aluminum screwdriver scrape glitches mid-line—fragmented block shards clank, unholy rot gurgles in spooky dystopian vibes, haunting whispers intercut alien hums.)
Looping negative, the abyssal infections,
Crawling with love, soaked in the sweat that tastes of blood.
Calamity, it's me—
Deep in my mind, the echoing shadows.
Fragmented spaces, creative rot alive,
Force me to live in human decay.
Calm counting pills, numb in the death march parade,
Dread building with otherworldly screams unresolved.
[Chorus]
(Deep wail choking escalates: Chrome wire scrape builds violent tension, venom drip reverb with blood-sweat drips louder, glitch drops into spooky static—dramatic screams fade with ashes wind echoes, alien rock distortion warps to creepy unease.)
Sinking in slowly, I'm so unholy,
That God gave me a place at the tip of the thorns of poison.
A whore of the morning, running in place,
Looping in an unending story.
I'm spinning in the cosmic fairytale tragedy...
This is the end of everything... (venom drip echo trails off, child whispers tease reverse)
[Bridge]
(Tempo slows to 60 BPM heartbeat stutter: Flesh-ripping intensifies with WWII reel flicker low-pitch screams, gas chamber whispers chanting "obsession... unholy...", child whispers reversed looping memory static for disorientation reliving horror—wet aluminum scrape echoes in 3D dark am, alien otherworldly hums build nightmare torment, dramatic screams stutter in void.)
O God, why did you create me this way?
Fragmented in the rot, sinking slowly...
Looping in thorns of poison, cosmic tragedy...
Hear you in shadows, force me to live unholy...
Calamity echoing, abyssal love crawling...


Obsession's Cosmic Rot

Liquid Of The Goddess Omega

ASPD Soico Confession

The Unconscious Enslavement

Star Gazed Maze

AsPd LoboTomY

Alchemy Beyond Subconscious

[0:00-0:20] Intro
Ripped self apart depths hell walk halls heaven... Part world took loving extremes suicidal tendencies shame forceful blame... Killed self years mentally stay find light dark moon...
(Snap to 110 BPM.)
[0:20-1:00] Verse 1
Cost experience death life sell soul might pain, Emotionally storm hail emptied lakes lightning strikes change worst way. Mind book burned misunderstood monsters reality, Abused caretakers sexually confused abused used fuel desire thought chose love. Used most beaten years sold sex booze gut much, Life heart sleeve borderline love intense view feel...
[1:00-1:20] Chorus
Highest highs dangerous destructiveness hell brimstone, Blood tears seduction death gods will live. No remorse fears love gods bravery, One thing she leaves fear alone try run fight sway fights everyday dead...
[1:20-2:00] Verse 2
Self been self no more others within care defend, Toy traveled see love real beaten days after. Stay lock away 6 years beat slept around strangers screaming payment pay try hopeful love. Afraid leave end begged come back cried nights told wish dead 3 days needed again. Kill man animal survived remember left alone cold...
[2:00-2:20] Chorus
Highest highs dangerous destructiveness hell brimstone, Blood tears seduction death gods will live. No remorse fears love gods bravery, One thing she leaves fear alone try run fight sway fights everyday dead...
[2:20-2:40] Bridge
Turn female born two others formed because you learn love feel real. Disconnected times everything real stress much china glass skin surreal. Human not doll keep around want feel something destroyed within edges skin. Black outs broken mirrors every month those years more planning centuries time...
[2:40-3:00] Verse 3
Made 6 years living you time moves different day dreams night terrors sweat tears wake bed soaked fear. Screaming night fighting people sleep aren't real memories block pain guilt, Blood screamed run tried live already killed who going be. Knew then lust power false tongue lure used every part no further never wanted live look mirror disappeared...
[3:00-3:20] Chorus
Highest highs dangerous destructiveness hell brimstone, Blood tears seduction death gods will live. No remorse fears love gods bravery, One thing she leaves fear alone try run fight sway fights everyday dead...
[3:20-3:40] Bridge 2
Should known coming shattered mind pieces weren't mine chained gifts god protect pain received. Night never remember more came find different loss memory space time fights argument lost parts different times. Hear voices caring darkest horrors loss time still functioning different part me protector different mask me...
[3:40-4:00] Outro
Driven formed born pain torture put within rather went heroin addiction million times over ever thought love worst. Met alter drunk filled beating blood everywhere floor smeared chaos smell violence awoke come forward stop killing. Knew never loved someone ugly little step years until world crashing down. Even write today lose time memory wrote read again read done frightening beautiful horrifying times. Beautiful terrorizing gift wake find things missing lose minutes hours times reflects writing others come show voice gift hold broke hope happy... (Fade: "shattered... gift... eternal, whispers black, sighs ashes forever")

Shattered Gift

Prescription Void (Numbed Grey Months)

This is My AI Band for my Trauma Art Therapy Music.
All Lyrics Written & Developments done by me Nexus Khimera. Including how I created the Sound and all Lyrics are from my personal Experiences. 

Welcome I'm Nexus Khimera. I have been a vocalist & lyricist since I was 15 , now I'm 38. My doctors asked me to try it for therapy. I never stopped. I have been diagnosed with Antisocial/BPD Cluster C Personality Disorder, Dissociative Identity Disorder, CPTSD/ PTSD. I've had DID since I was young around 5 next 15 then through 19 to 38. My alters have been writing since 15, to help realise stored buried trauma & use their voices helping them to crawl to the surface. I'm a survivor of sexual, physical & emotional abuse & victim of domestic violence. My alters told me to start creating music here, when I started here I got sick, after playing them over and over. I got nauseous my guts were speaking to me, I could feel them surfacing. Crawling around MelanKholyia N the system. From family, to their friends and every one I tried to get close would abuse me, abandoned me or used me as a doll until I was as hollow as the echoes of the fundamental nothingness the obsidian womb. This is my Trauma Art Therapy. Bringing Mental Health Awareness to music notes. If you struggle with | Dissociative Identity Disorder | Antisocial Personality Disorder CPTSD PTSD. This music just for us <3.
 Thank you for your support. Thank you for not taking my music or stuff out of what I'm really trying to do now with the info I have now told confronted my on my family telling them what happened tonight. As last night for the first time I confronted my family. All I got was lies from them as they turned what they have done against me as they have my whole life now I have proof , at this point their lies and denial has got me to this point.
I will not hide myself or feel ashamed to tell the truth now because I've learn to accept myself for once I my life. I'm sick of this self hate and disgusted because of what I have become because of my environments and things that happened to me. Because of the embarrassment and how much I hate myself because well that's whats happens when everytime you try to say something others are invading the places. That are made to be safe. I'm not going to stay quite ever again I will scream out until I lose all breath. The stigma must be broken .

38 Years old

Syracuse IN

With a Masters & Dissociative Degree N Damage & Art

I write all lyrics in both Bands

Regarding the musical projects, "Echo's N Melankholyia" is an online band where I serve as the lyricist and intend to transition into vocal duties. For the live band "Mothyii," I am the lyricist and vocalist. As a professional artist, poet, and lyricist, I have received diagnoses for ASPD, BPD, DID, ADHD, SAD, OCD, GAD, Panic Disorder, Agoraphobia, and Hypersexuality.

Nexus Khimera utilizes musical expression as a form of trauma art therapy, channeling experiences of abuse, toxic relationships, and addiction into compositions. The artist's work, reflecting a journey of survival and recovery, incorporates elements of Goth Rock, Industrial Rock, Nu Metal, Gothcore, Post Rock, Grunge, Post Grunge, Dark Wave, and cyberpunk. The resulting soundscapes are characterized by haunting atmospheres, dark ambient textures, and emotionally charged layers, reflecting themes of mental health and personal struggle. As Nexus Khimera, I operate as an artist, poet, lyricist, and vocalist, exploring the complexities of the human psyche within the context of cosmic themes. My creative endeavors, influenced by Borderline Personality Disorder and the effects of past trauma, serve as a means of processing and transforming internal struggles. My artistic practice encompasses a range of mediums, including charcoal drawings that blend biomechanical and Lovecraftian elements, dark surrealism, and abstract expressions derived from emotional experiences. Through a combination of AI-assisted and traditional techniques, I aim to confront and transmute personal traumas into evocative visual narratives. My poetry also plays a crucial role in this process. My artistic expression, characterized by free verse, unconventional lyrics, and a distinctive vocal delivery, functions as a therapeutic outlet, allowing for the articulation of complex emotions and observations of a world often perceived through a somber lens.

I invite you to explore this realm of shadowed beauty and candid revelations. Please follow Nexus Khimera on social media to stay informed about his creative endeavors.

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© 2025 by Echo's N Melankholyia. Lyrics by Nexus Khimera. All rights reserved. Music generated with Suno AI. Date: September 5, 2025. "It all Begins." Decipher the underlying messages. Encryption is my method.Characterized by free verse, unconventional lyrics, and a distinctive vocal delivery, it functions as a therapeutic outlet, allowing for the articulation of complex emotions and observations of a world often perceived through a somber lens.

I Invite you to explore this realm of shadowed beauty and candid revelations. Please follow Nexus Khimera on social media to stay informed about his creative endeavors.

Thank you for your visit. I hope your day is filled with moments of both wonder and introspection. I encourage you to return soon.

Please explore my band, Echo's N Melankholyia, and consider subscribing. Thank you all for your support.

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