(prod. chroma2k & veilonme)

[pre chorus]
im just a boy im not special
i dont want your help
youre just a girl your not special
we're not special

[chorus]
die next to me
fly next to me
shine next to me
lie next to me
cry next to me
writhe next to me
i dont want your help im not special

[verse]
lost oversea
i get lost overseas
pull the cover over me
pull the cover over me
feelin high like the trees
feel like god over me
feel like im not to be
feel like im not to be
if i woke up not me
would i finally be free
im fallin to she
i fall into greed
i dont want your help
i dont want your help
i dont want your help
i dont want your help
i dont want your help

[chorus]
die next to me
fly next to me
shine next to me
lie next to me
cry next to me
writhe next to me



Special

Produced by helpmeapache
Cover by ApacheSOS
shoutout stabat mater

dreaming when im dreaming
why wont you believe me 
why wont you believe me 
why can you not feel me
living life in 3d
bleach my eyes im cleaning
why am i not healing
cut my lip its bleeding

youre living with no meaning
ill tell you all my feelings
then hang you from the ceiling
your vision is demeaning
dont know if youre an angel or demon
im falling apart at the seams
ill be what you want me to be
kinzua is legendary
we'll reunite around the bend
im the light at the end
(when my life apprehends)

Bleeding

prod helpmeapache

mannequin face you can see me strike a pose
dirty but i shine like impurities in gold
blind to the eyes im a sight to be behold
i dont ever lie i can put that on my soul

i dont ever lie i can put that on my soul
im the vine in divine and the beauty unlike
if the world was a girl see the tears in the eyes
of her mannequin face and her life bleeding dry


Mannequin Face

prod helpmeapache
made with extra love from apachesos

kinzua is legendary
i jump off the bridge birds are circling me
i fall like a flower i stand like a tree
im tall like a tower im small like a bee
im hot like a fire i move like the sea
i look like im tired its easy to see
i cannot be bothered with evil and greed
this life is so gorgeous just like me
look at the world and all of its glory
story untold and stories unfolded
i am the past and i am the present
i am the future i live in your presence 

im fine in the eyes of divine
but they dont know what i am like
im being reborn by the nine
im finally nearing my time 
am i really alive or living to die
or living to die
or dying to fly
fly like a bird in the sky
like a bird in the sky

see me flying high
tethered by nothing but my mind
i pray to bloody mary
kinzua is legendary

Kinzua Is LEGENDARY!

Cover by Crowxan
Prod by Crowxan

fly like a bird and i shyne like the sun
feel like goldboy soft as the mud
smoking smarties but i feel dumb
put a hex on me im not the one
you cant flex on me im throwing ones
you cant shine with me you just begun
i cant talk to you cant even hum
cant be mad at you im havin fun

im havin fun, man im flyin with my crows and me
im eatin candy and i'm spinnin like a rotary
all the stars fall down and lay among the reeds
i regret it all, choke me with a rosary
back out the driveway so slow
im an angel, black road in my nose
start fallin like a leaf on a stone
fuck a highway take her down the back road

Smarties (w/ Crowxan)

prod helpmeapache

the mind inflates till the brain explodes
im repping kinzua bridge till my life unfolds
kinzua itch sos and crow
kinzua stock i invest yknow
kinzua school high honor roll
if you dont mess with that i dont like you bro

KINZUA SCHOOL

prod by crowxan
cover by helpmeapache

you wont see me again
you wont read me again
put my sorrow and pain to an end
we'll reunite around the bend
im the light at the- light at the
see me again
you wont read me again
share my shorrows and pains to a friend
we'll reunite around the bend
im the light at the end

you wont need me again
like a dog in a shed
i get lost on a dirt road path
dirty fur in the bath
making sense of a lie i uncover the past
chasing the high feel like god over me
you wont feel me again cause youre awful to me
i decay in the fall like the leaves on the trees
i am nothing from nowhere where nobody be


you won't see me again (prod. crowxan)

cover by helpmeapache
prod. emerich
@twelvelokkprinceofevil

go home you lost soul
go and grow old
this place is my own oh

im taking back my soul
i wanna go home
that place i used to roam
oh it just torments me
i really wanna go

go hope for life
so i can find 
out if you can fly now
down

i confide in myself
that im not going 2 hell
i wanna kill myself
i wanna kill myself
i think i hate myself
i know u hate yourself
but im better off anyways
im better off dead

LostSoul (w/ 12lokk)

produced by helpmeapache
cover by helpmeapache circa 2024

i wanna see the light and infuse my dirty soul
cause havoc in the night thats my type italic bold
my hands are turning black from the sun it burns a hole
my angels borderline but they shine like dirty gold
i wanna feel delight but it flees from me
it comes so easily to you, but not apache
i dont need help i just need empathy
im really not that cool im just a sight to see

and ur so different eye shadow but you’re ignorant
it was ruined when it started but i used to be so innocent
I guess i never changed i just grew up u wont get that bitch
got scars to match baby i dont  want the stitch
razor sharp kiss from ur razor sharp lips 
I be knowing when u lying cause ur bad at this
and baby if its is real life i feel disconnected 
and this used to be our lock now i see its unprotected

Empathy (w/ Powerpuffgoth)

Cover by helpmeapache
i forgot who made the beat i am sorry

chrome soul chrome hearts for the weak
rose gold on the throat crown jewel on the rings
crown you as the queen of an earth so bleak
bow down to the sword and the skulls underneath
and the gun only kills when the trigger is squeezed
and the love of a girl isnt special or sweet
let the dust of the world cover over the seas
love is nothing and I am not nothing to me

break me down like the qu
playing this game get a clue
im sick of you
you stick to me like glue
i stick to you like magnets
opposites attracting
something fascinating happens
we're cold like a savage
bold with no italics

Chrome Soul Trigger

prod helpmeapache

I know that I hurt you, heard it from the grapevine
smelling like your perfume, cuz you never liked mine
think its past my curfew, cant be out past nine
do I not immerse you, am I here to waste time?

think it's past my curfew, think it's past my bedtime
I might go and curse you, I be out late night
I can be the worst you, that would be the best "I"
I don't wanna hurt you, but...

think that I heard you talking to yourself, I
cannot emerge through all of the bad times
pink belt up on you, make your body shine, shine
strawberry fondue, sweeter than the sunlight
I fall apart, I cannot pretend
i feel like a burden on all of my friends
blame it all on you i will not repent
strawberry fondue, sweet til the end 


Grapevyne (w/ Crowxan)

prod by chroma2k

do you still like me like i like you
see you still cornered in my room
through spring and storm hi mr moon
running into you running through you
feel like a bad flu peel in a black coupe
seeing the past through glasses with black hue
i dont heal through peace imma smack you
i dont feel no heat thats the sad truth
do you still like me like i like you
see you still cornered in my room
through spring and storm hi mr moon, 
running into you running through you

through you
you, you, you

do you still like me I do
i cant get over 
i scream into the moon
until the night is over
sunlight unveils my mind
i feel it taking, oh no
my bright red ashes melt into the snow

runningthroughyou

prod helpmeapache

you can see me on the screen hdmi
im flyin robin wings in the sky
driving nascar movin speed of light
life uncertain just promise me tonight
helpmeapache you savin my life
when the night falls I arise 
dirty and digusting thats tmi
see me on tv hdmi

high-definition multimedia interface thats what hdmi stands for

make me feel so lucky like a horseshoe
i could never hurt you
see the error of my ways through my eyes
like glass seein through all the lies

HDMI

prod helpmeapache
made this so long ago but i love it you will love it 

sugar in my fiji invisible and i cant be beat
can feel your vision on me from my head down to my feet
i stay up late at night writing songs bout you and me
i look at you with silence, froze up and take the heat
sugar in my fiji hate me but i think youre cool
i feel your anger brewing, and it hurts me to my soul
do you stay up late at night, writing songs about me too
just promise me tonight, and ill promise it to you

i told you a thousand times 
i hold your life in mine
i hope we last awhile
im slowly breaking down
the coldness makes me shake around 

my life is nothing to talk about

Domesticated (2k24)

prod helpmeapache
jerseysos

im slaying bosses
like hills covered in crosses
theres pills inside my carcass
im dirty like the garbage
im rolling off it
im thriving rolling off it
sneaking in the market
and stuffing up my pockets

we shooting like a rocket
just load it up and cock it
get a grip dont drop it
i just get too cocky
all this ice no hockey
all these carts im shopping
youre bogus and MALARKEY

bosses

2024 reupload
shoutout ivy knight
helpmeapache flip

ivy knight_salvation

prod. @worismakethatshit
cover by helpmeapache yours truly

ill type in all the lyrics here sometime later
love thy neighbor

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