Language prison break, freestyle from 16th December 2024.





For most of my adult life, I abandoned, neglected, and severed myself from my mother tongue.  I lost my intuition and awkwardly struggled to form a sentence that sounded natural. I did not grasp how my ignorance limited my self-expression, growth, learning, communication, creativity. I was blind to all the ways I could  shape my reality if I only embraced the language I was traumatised, shamed, betrayed, and lied to in, long before I had any motive to memorise new labels for things I knew already (no kurwa jabłko jest zielone, po chuj ma być green?).

Anyway, I'm glad it fought its way back to me, and even though I wasn't happy at first, seeing it take over my freestyles, sometimes so angry, ready to give up, feeling so incapable I banned myself from listening to polish music (esp. rap). Today I see it as valid and welcome it as a part of who I am, what I do, and how I freestyle. I have a lot to learn, but I’ve come a long way since this track—one of my first mostly Polish freestyles. Soon it’ll be 10 months old.

I had no idea what to name it, the file was called "english lost again". 2 weeks I couldn't decide so I just wrote the first thing that came to mind 5 min ago. As long as  it's out so I can post more.

Cover: photo of a sticker at the Three Sins tattoo studio's cupboard in Amsterdam. Shoutout to Giulio who showed me "something random" when I requested that for the cover. The edit is some birthday filter I found funny, adjustments to it are for you to discover.


No matter the language, no matter the form of expression, my soul is unapologetically emo. If you got here, DM me to pick what you wanna hear next:
 a) emotional af ENG cry track
 b) latest hype free PL
 c) old but good chill groove
 d) random choice from 300 voice files.

jak widać

pole emo soul

I turn my hell upside down.
In pursuit of despair, breathing recycled air.

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