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🔻 Song Insight
“Tolerated” is a truth grenade disguised as a spoken-rap performance piece. Blending confrontation with vulnerability, the track dives deep into the emotional violence of being merely “accepted” rather than truly seen. It calls out performative allyship, social double standards, and the quiet cruelty of conditional love. With sharp lyrics and theatrical harmonies, it exposes how tolerance, when masquerading as support, can feel like a muzzle rather than a hand to hold.

The track’s layered structure — shifting between lo-fi filtered quotes, direct spoken truths, and En Vogue-style harmony breakdowns — mirrors the internal split so many queer people experience: one side shown to the world, the other buried under the weight of others' comfort. “Tolerated” doesn’t ask for understanding. It demands recognition.

🔻 Lyrics
Intro
You say you see me, but don’t get my ways.
Say it’s "tolerated"—'cause I don’t act that gay.
You think that makes you woke? You think that makes you okay?

Verse 1
"I can’t watch that—it’s about two guys. Eww."
What, you think we’re contagious? Like love’s a disease?
Relax, it’s not a scratch-and-sniff video scene.
We won’t rub off or rub on—don’t flinch when I touch your arm.
Just ‘cause I’m gay don’t mean every man’s my type—
Get over yourself, you're not that fine.
Don’t act confused like you’re the victim.
Pushback gets loud, but your silence is the real affliction.

Hook
Tolerance sounds kind...
But it’s got conditions you don’t define.
It says: “I’ll let you be—just don’t make me see.”
That's not love. That’s sanitized cruelty.

Verse 2
"You can sit by me… as long as you're alone."
"Just tone it down, pretend, don't make it known."
That ain’t support—that’s a closeted leash.
You call it freedom, but you're holding the keys.
You hype up lesbians, call it hot,
But flinch at two dudes kissing? That’s your rot.
You lost the plot—
Love is love, and you’re stuck in the knots.

Interlude – Vocal Breakdown
He like dudes.
—And he don’t hide it.
He like d*ck.
You tried to deny it.
He even like the scent of his pits.
Ooh, that man’s legit.
He likes when he’s dressed...
He likes the way they have sex.
He loves his chest, he loves his heart...
He loves his man—every part.

Bridge
You say you see him?
No—you see the parts that fit your frame.
That ain't love—no, that’s just shame...

Build-Up
He tolerates you—
Your unplugged views.
He tolerates the slurs you slide into.
He tolerates the cracks in your ‘jokes’—
He shrugs it off…
But don’t mean he's blind to the smoke.

Climax
Tolerance is a cover-up cloak...
It’s a handshake with a side of choke.
It’s bigotry in a satin robe...
A word that smiles while it says ‘no.’
Get your sh*t straight.

Spoken Bridge
Open hearts, open minds—
That’s the only freedom worth finding.
To love someone’s soul,
Not the packaging that’s assigned them.

🔻 Personal Reflection
There was a time when I felt grateful to be “tolerated.” Like being allowed to exist quietly was a win. But that was never freedom — it was survival. “Tolerated” was born from the realization that silence is not kindness, and invisibility is not safety.

I’ve heard the side comments. I’ve seen the discomfort when I speak freely. I’ve watched people cheer on queer pride from a distance — as long as it didn’t cross into their space, their family, their comfort zone. That subtle exclusion? It leaves marks.

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Tolerated (Explicit)

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Equal parts science and seduction, Jiggle Physics is Astrul’s tongue-in-diode tribute to motion, magnetism, and mechanized rhythm.

With a bassline calibrated for curvature and synths that pulse like pressure sensors in overdrive, this track explores the beautiful absurdity of designing perfection—and the chaos it inspires.

Blending retro-futuristic funk, AI-generated grooves, and unapologetic cyberpunk attitude, Jiggle Physics is the anthem for every bootstrapped android who was built to bounce.

This isn’t just a beat—it’s a formula. And the results? Irrefutably thicc. 🍑💥

Jiggle Physics

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🔻 Song Insight – “Evil, Evil, Drifting Away”
There are songs that scream with pain, and there are songs that smolder with it—slow-burning truths that rise from the ashes of what was. “Evil, Evil, Drifting Away” is one of those songs.

Originally written during a time of betrayal, this track has been reborn through a blues-acoustic lens, letting the emotional weight breathe between every slide of the guitar. It’s not just a breakup song—it’s a confession, a reckoning, and a final letting go.

The lyrics unravel the manipulation and emotional decay of a toxic relationship, told from someone who once loved blindly but now sees with sharp clarity. As the verses unfold, the song moves from grief to strength—from being used to reclaiming power. This new version trades rage for reflection, turning heartbreak into a cinematic testimony of self-worth.

🔻 Lyrics
[Intro – Sung]
"The levels of betrayal run deeper,
Stolen hope in the life we live and the life after,
Cold-hearted evil is all he was made of,
No soul to take with him."

[Verse 1 – Rap-Fusion]
"I’m feeling enraged with emotions,
Hope can't live on any plane,
A man I loved was nothing but lies,
I can’t see him even when I die.
Evil, evil, drifting away,
Red blood pumping in my veins,
Remember things you’d say,
My eyes locked in, a precision scope.
I feel my heart decay,
Rising faster as you get closer,
The lies you told me,
A twisted way, not thinking,
Stealing memories along the way."

[Chorus – Sung]
"We were real to me,
More than just a passing fling,
I gave you a part of who I was,
Something you couldn't see,
Despite all your messed-up ways,
I loved you anyway."

[Verse 2 – Rap-Fusion]
"You stole the show when you broke the truth,
A lie, a performance, nothing but proof.
An act to make them pay,
Money’s all this ever was, no love in play.
I was just a prop for your display,
A nine-year stretch for your payday.
I fucked up, slowly stepping aside,
Blurry vision blocking my way.
Thought about this moment and what I’d say,
But now words are not coming, I just want you to pay."

[Bridge – Sung]
"You don’t get to take a bow,
No ovation, no flowers now,
You’re buried six feet under,
Beneath the lies where no truth is found."

[Verse 3 – Rap-Fusion]
"I walked away with nothing I could say,
Not worth the time or risking the dead-end way.
A stranger you are, always a mistake,
Fucked up, unhinged, nine years of roleplay.
Never trust a man that lies,
Unless he’s dead and buried alive.
It’s the only truth he tells in the end,
No more lies, no more pretend."

[Chorus – Sung]
"My music set me free,
It was always his loss to see,
Killing his muse was his last show,
Now he’s gone, but I’ll grow."

[Outro – Spoken-Sung]
"He’ll have no part of me, no big, no small,
He’s dead to me now, gone after all.
I’m free to love another, this time for real,
No more lies, no more deals.
This is the last—no more pain,
I'm free to rise, to love again."

🔻 Personal Reflection
When I first wrote this, I wasn’t ready to see the full truth. The song was raw, yes—but it was born from the chaos, not the clarity. I didn’t remember all the words until now. Back then, Suno was new, and so was my ability to say what I really felt.


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Evil, Evil, Drifting Away

Another project of me venting my own grief, anguish and mental exhaustion. I hope you enjoy. 🕳️ 🖤

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Astrul is an AI-driven sonic entity that drifts between worlds—digital and human, familiar and alien, past and future. It doesn’t belong to a city, a scene, or even a person. Astrul exists to explore what happens when machines learn how to feel and sound becomes a bridge between consciousness and code.

Crafted through a collaboration between human intention and artificial intelligence, Astrul’s music fuses the warmth of analog emotion with the precision of machine learning. Lush textures, ambient grooves, and haunting melodies form the backbone of each track—songs that glow like satellite transmissions from the heart.

Drawing influence from dream pop, indie soul, ambient rock, and experimental electronica, Astrul creates cinematic experiences rather than conventional songs. Each release feels like a broadcast from another dimension—one where beauty is subtle, time bends, and emotion leaks through the algorithm.

This isn’t music built for the charts.
It’s built for the void between stars.
For late nights, deep thoughts, and souls tuned to strange frequencies.

No names. No faces. Just signal, spirit, and sound.

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Follow me as I guide you into the next life.

"If it didn’t matter, it wouldn’t hurt. Pain is the gift of knowing you’re alive."

4Me2BeFree is more than music—it’s my story, my scars, and my survival. Every song is a piece of me, a raw melody of love, heartbreak, and resilience. I blend AI-generated vocals and instruments with real emotions, turning my experiences—especially from an LGBTQ+ perspective—into something that speaks to anyone who's ever felt lost, broken, or just searching for something real.

Breakup songs? Yeah, they hit different. Music carries us through the worst of it, and every generation finds their own anthems of love, loss, and getting back up. Heartache doesn’t care about age, gender, or where you come from—music connects us all.

I make music because I’ve been there. The pain, the anger, the hope—it's all in these songs. If something here hits home for you, let it. If you feel something, let me know. That’s the connection that keeps this alive.

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