itgetsbetter...

lyrics:

i’m in london and i’m geeking out my head 😵‍💫
on the floor yeah i thought i was dead 😵
bitch gimme dumb brain she in sped 🥴
my vision fucked bitch i’m seeing infrared 👀

silver on my wrist silver on my neck ✨
wearing shit that you’d never even wear 🙅‍♂️
bitches on my dick why you in my hair 🤦‍♂️
i love finessing bitch gimme all your squares 🤫

bitch so bad make me wanna say a prayer 🙏
suck my dick while i light my cigarette 🚬 
black denim on my legs and they flared 👖
i’m so high bitch i’m running in the air 🌫️

i’m so high bitch i’m running outta air 😰
i’m geeked up and i’m swerving on the ped 🛵
got my fit from hell i’m getting all the stares 👹
bitch i’m licked bitch i’m licked bitch i’m licked 🍺 

black hair bitch like she slit her wrists 🩸
got a portal in my cup it ain’t tris 🫗
got a vamp bitch biting on my lips 🫦
studded bra bloody belt on her hips 🧛🏻‍♀️

so much shit in my system make me sick 🤮
powder on my nose it’s starting to itch ❄️
when i wake up i’m straight to taking nic 😔
i’m so stressed need to light another cig 🚬

Sick 3style (fern_shy + lemzy)

lyrics:

wrist like a mirror i can’t really tell the time 🕰️ 
red leather on my body like i did a crime 🩸 
red in my cup no i ain’t sipping wine 🍷 
got my shades on you can’t really tell i’m high 😎 

i don’t speak much you can tell i’m really shy 🤐
burberry my bag now i’m feeling really fly 🤑
smoke a pack a day i feel like my lungs gon die 🫁 
man this life sucks see you in the afterlife 😵

i got on that urghhh 🤮 
i got on that urghhh looking really nice 😉 
i don’t take off the tag i like looking at the price 💰 
she don’t have her coat on she must like my ice 🧊 

what the hell 😰
i got bitches looking at my belt 😵‍💫
bitch i’m smoking gas, no shell 💨 
double c’s on her chest no chanel, well 🤷‍♂️

wrist like a mirror i can’t really tell the time 🕰️ 
red leather on my body like i did a crime 🩸 
red in my cup no i ain’t sipping wine 🍷 
got my shades on you can’t really tell i’m high 😎 

i don’t speak much you can tell i’m really shy 🤐
burberry my bag now i’m feeling really fly 🤑
smoke a pack a day i feel like my lungs gon die 🫁 
man this life sucks see you in the afterlife 😵

Mayfair Music (fentanylove)

MULTICOLOURED WAIST w/ imsick [prod. pipe_bomb]

@itgetsbetterr8, @crryout2bracelets

https://youtu.be/bxgz8HnHVdA?si=j1ipt1N2gcwyjHZJ

lyrics:
wings on my feet you can say i’m fly 🕊️
wings on my feet you can say i’m fly 🕊️ 
black fit rocking with the black tie 🤵‍♂️ 
she won’t gimme head i might not reply 🙅‍♂️

red in my hands this shit ain’t a dye 🩸 
asian bitch bet that pussy superdry 😳
your girl looked at me then u and then she sighed 😔 
geeked up on the ped every night 🏍️ 

red in my cup i’m starting to cry 😢 
blade keep it tucked need it every night 🔪
pour the muddy syrup up in my sprite 🫗
stacking bricks i ain’t talking building site 👷‍♂️ 

yahh 🗣️
yahh 🗣️
if it’s nice i won’t check to see the price 🤑
10 bodies looking like i got a strike 🎳 

if she treat me good i might hit her twice 2️⃣
if she treat me good i might hit her thrice 3️⃣
smoking on this blunt i think this is spice 😵‍💫
open instagram just to check the likes ❤️ 

wings on my feet you can say i’m fly 🕊️
wings on my feet you can say i’m fly 🕊️
wings on my feet you can say i’m fly 🕊️
wings on my feet you can say i’m fly 🕊️

wings on my feet you can say i’m fly 🕊️
wings on my feet you can say i’m fly 🕊️
wings on my feet you can say i’m fly 🕊️
swagged out at the club looking nice 😎

I put some diamonds on the time 💎 
Japanese brand jeans im lookin nice 🇯🇵
Gimme years i see envy in your face 🙎‍♀️
Turn around howd you end up in my eyes 👀 

New smoke new hoe same place, how could i be mad? 🤷‍♂️ 
how could i be mad? 🤷‍♂️ 
I keep my head in the sand 🏖️
Take a look around, no ones innocent 😇 

All i think about is my loud and my pen 🍃 
wearing foreign shoes 👟 
Making wheels spins 🚘 
And I remember I remember I remember when 💭 
Wearing foreign shoes, making wheels spin 🚘 

All i think about is my loud and my pen 🍃 
wearing foreign shoes 👟 
Making wheels spins 🚘 
And I remember I remember I remember when 💭 
Wearing foreign shoes, making wheels spin 🚘 

#itgetsbetter

wingsonmyfeet ft. Crryout (lushsoma) !!MV IN DESCRIPTION!! #itgetsbetterr

@itgetsbetterr8
lyrics:
i was pulling up to the club 🕺
waxed denim like a punk 🧑‍🎤
lotta pills in my gut 💊 
lotta red in my cup 🫗

bad bitches wanna fuck 😜
coz they know i’m serving cunt 💁🏼‍♀️
on her knees and she suck 😵
yeah she gimme yucky yuck 🤮

yeah she gimme yucky yuck 🤮 
gimme head in the truck 🛻 
baddie sipping on that mud 🍷
broski sipping on that blood 🩸 

i got snow on my nose ❄️ 
i’m gonna throw up 🤮 
i dropped snow on my clothes 😓
leather jacket filled with drugs 😵‍💫

i was pulling up to the club 🕺
waxed denim like a punk 🧑‍🎤
lotta pills in my gut 💊 
lotta red in my cup 🫗

bad bitches wanna fuck 😜
coz they know i’m serving cunt 💁🏼‍♀️
on her knees and she suck 😵
yeah she gimme yucky yuck 🤮

pulling up to the club 😎
i’m off all these drugs 🤧
this bitch wanna suck 😮
i just wanna fuck 😪

sipping on that mud 🫗
sipping on that blood 🩸 
my bro off the coke 🌨️
he on hella drugs 💊

in the toilets snorting ket 🐴 
i don’t give a fuck 🙅‍♂️
smoking cigarettes 🚬 
now my lungs are fucked 🫁 

i was pulling up to the club 🕺
waxed denim like a punk 🧑‍🎤
lotta pills in my gut 💊 
lotta red in my cup 🫗

bad bitches wanna fuck 😜
coz they know i’m serving cunt 💁🏼‍♀️
on her knees and she suck 😵
yeah she gimme yucky yuck 🤮

waxed denim (jaechii)

@itgetsbetterr8

lyrics:
it’s a white christmas in the club ❄️ 
my bro on the mud i be on the blood 🩸 
see a baddie on the street that i love ❤️ 
i don’t give a fuck i just wanna fuck 🙅‍♂️

i be up but these bitches they all stuck 🆙 
i be up but these bitches outta luck 🆙 
took her to my place all she do is suck 😫
took her to my place and she give me head 😳

yeah i’m smoking loud and i’m snorting ket 🐴 
yeah my body’s fucked i don’t even care 🤷‍♂️
said she got a man but i told her where ⁉️
it won’t hurt if you have a lil affair 😏 

bitches on my dick why you even care 💁🏼‍♀️
said he gonna try me bitch i dare 😹
geeked up i can’t walk on the stairs 😵‍💫
said she like this beat dancing to the snares 🥁 

yeah yeah
bad bitch like my swag asked me what i wear 🕴️
yeah yeah
walk around town and these bitches gonna stare 👀 

black boots on got another pair 👞 
fucked her like a bunny she call me a hare 🐇 
are you dumb did you not hear what i said 🗣️ 
dumb bitch yeah her hearing is impaired 🦻

yeah i’m sipping henny and i’m on the ped 🏍️ 
fuck the traffic imma speed through all the reds 🚦 
shiny belt on my dick see the glare ✨ 
shiny belt on my hip you can stare 👀

white christmas (ptrckparker)

keep it brief ion have timeee w/ Crryout (Lush Soma & Fern Shy)

@itgetsbetterr8
lyrics:
man this uni life so boring need some hoes to fuck 😒
need a bitch to gimme head need a bitch to suck 😝
i’m w bro and he sipping on that dirty mud 🤮
i just want some lust i don’t want your love 💔

at the rave next day we at the club 🕺
we don’t take L’s we just take them dubs 🏆
she got bikini on we not at the tub 👙
i’m w bro w my slime i’m w my blood 🩸 
yeah my fit disgusting yeah my fit is yuck 🤢 
when i step out imma cause a flood 🌊
at her crib and my dicks what she rubs 🍆
at her crib bunning zoot and we high 💨

i just nutted in her eye 👁️ 
futuristic drip they call me mcfly 😎
i was so ketted i thought i was gonna die 😵
i’m alone at the crib i was gonna cry 😿 

bad bitch told me she was thai 🇹🇭 
she was freaky in the sheets but she’s really shy 🙈 
she was grabbing on my dick i was on her thigh 🫣
i ran out of ket imma need a resupply 🐴 

man this uni life so boring need a hoe to kiss 💋 
i was coughing for a week so i’m really sick 😷 
outside w crryout and you know we take some flicks 📸
we don’t fuck with flat bitches need them really thick 🍑 

i was at the rave i fucked up my kicks 🤬
i’m w 2gon33 and he got the stick 🔫
i got lotta pounds i got money bricks 💷
yeah her parents home soon i’m cumming quick 🏃‍♂️

imsobored (shottuhs) #london

I know it rains
On top of my pain
There'll come a day
When it fades away

I'll prevent waking up on the street
Stop what I'm doing and all in between
Pick a flower
Then I'll see what you mean
I won't think I'm crazy if I still believe

Close
My
Soul
I know
It's hard to grow, grow

When I expose
Feelings under my nose
It's hard to let go
when my love's closed

I won't kiss my life goodbye
It's going to be all right
But I'll never forget
This ugly time

I'll prevent waking up on the street
Stop what I'm doing and all in between
Pick a flower
Then I'll see what you mean
I won't think I'm crazy if I still believe

Close
My
Soul
I know
It's hard to grow

When I expose
Feelings under my nose
It's hard to let go
when my love's closed

I won't kiss my life goodbye
It's going to be all right
But I'll never forget
This ugly time

I won't kiss my life goodbye
It's going to be all right
But I'll never forget
This ugly time
Believe

Close
My
Soul
I know
It's hard to grow, grow, grow
It's hard to grow, grow, grow

Surviving The Struggle

Only Us Tonight is a synth-drenched, full-throttle 1980s-inspired Pride anthem about joy, defiance, and queer love in the heart of Washington, D.C. The song follows a gay man in his 20s as he runs through the sunset-lit streets, surrounded by trans teens, drag queens, proud elders, and allies. There’s confetti, glitter, water spray, and the kind of freedom you can feel in your chest. It’s a tribute to the kids who were told to stay quiet, the ones who made it anyway, and the ones still trying. This song is loud, visual, emotional, and unapologetically queer.

To anyone in the LGBTQIA+ community who needs to hear it; show who you are. Be big. Be bright. Wear the colors, hold hands in public, dance like you were never told not to. Whether you're out and proud or still figuring things out, you matter. You’re allowed to take up space. You’re not too much, and you’re never alone. This one’s for all of us.

Note: All vocals are AI-generated due to financial limitations during production. While studio vocals weren’t accessible, all lyrics, compositions, and arrangements are original and deeply personal. This is a human story told with borrowed voices, until one day it can be sung by the ones who lived it.

Only Us Tonight

angelic (moremilly)

online (kirostardew)

bitches wish they had a body like me
ig: itgetsbetterr8

be like me prod me

There’s bones behind the velvet curtains
They rattle every time the lights go down
The real truth is sharp but it’s uncertain
Buried in the sound

You hear my voice in stereo
But still you scream my name
Am I a ghost or your hero
It all bleeds the same
I’m shaking hands with all my fears
Clapping loud so they can’t hear us
Drowning whispers in your cheers
And you call the darkness sweet

Hear the secrets as the speakers bleed
You know all my demons play the songs they always need
Every shadow’s just a different creed
People never ever listen only feel the speed (yeah)
Hear the secrets as the speakers bleed
You know all my demons play the songs they always need
Every shadow’s just a different creed
People never ever listen only feel the speed

Every scar is a hidden lyric
Played backwards in the haze of smoke
If the silence ever turned hysteric
Would you still laugh at the joke

You hear my voice in stereo
But still it ain’t the same
Think I’m the ghost not the hero
We all bleed the same
My shadow’s screaming underneath
But you’re deafened by my scream
Feed on secrets like they’re teeth
And you call the darkness sweet

Hear the secrets as the speakers bleed
You know all my demons play the songs they always need
Every shadow’s just a different creed
People never ever listen only feel the speed (yeah)
Hear the secrets as the speakers bleed
You know all my demons play the songs they always need
Every shadows just a different creed
People never ever listen only feel the speed

Every truth is a quiet fracture
Buried deep where the echoes stay
If the lights flickered and showed the picture
Would you still dance or turn away

My voice is stuck in stereo
I wanna get away
Yes I’m the ghost f*ck the hero
Let’s all bleed away
My shadow screams without a sound
You chase echoes spinning round
You still cheer without a frown
And you call the darkness-

Hear the secrets as the speakers bleed
You know all my demons play the songs they always need
Every shadow’s just a different creed
People never ever listen only feel the speed (yeah)
Hear the secrets as the speakers bleed
You know all my demons play the songs they always need
Every shadow’s just a different creed
People never ever listen only feel the speed (yeah)
Hear the secrets as the speakers bleed
You know all my demons play the songs they always need
Hear the secrets as the speakers bleed
ahh ahh
You listen to my voice but you don’t wanna hear
ahh ahh
My bones are breaking but you stayed sincere

I bled my truth unto deaf ears
The lights go down but ghosts stay near
Echoes fade but cracks stay clear
The lights kept singing while the end drew near

imsick & Crryout - Secrets ft. Sakura

do more (moremilly)

bagsbagsbags (kirostardew)

freestyle from god prod me

Joseph T. Matthews is a multidisciplinary artist whose work lives at the intersection of music, trauma, and storytelling. His songs are raw, narrative-driven documents that explore survival, identity, mental health, and the silence that follows abuse. With a style rooted in synth-heavy, emotionally stripped soundscapes, Joseph’s work doesn’t seek to entertain—it exists to tell the truth.

His music has been described as unflinching, clinical, and unforgettable. Every lyric is intentional. Every track is a record of what someone wasn’t supposed to survive.

If your uncle looked like Kenny Rogers, Santa Claus, and an almond farmer all rolled into one, singing 1980s synth pop vibes, that would be me. Every now and then I’ll mix in a little reggae, blues, country, or rock just to keep it fresh.

Most people just call me Mike or Michael, though some know me as MDRJR on SoundCloud, or simply Uncle Mike. However you see me, the guy with the white beard, red t-shirt, and trucker hat, I hope what you hear feels genuine, creative, and healing in its own way.

Until the day I get to perform live in a city near you, my dream is simple. When that moment comes, I want the whole crowd to be my backup singers, because I know you’ll know these songs as much as I do.

A huge thank you to all my listeners. I read every single comment, and I especially value the ones that carry real meaning. Your words mean as much to me as the music itself. Without you listening, I couldn’t keep creating what I love.

I started sharing here in July 2024, but I’ve been writing songs for over 35 years. This is my ongoing journey, reaching anyone who needs to hear these songs, mantras, and messages. I see you, I feel the connection with my true listeners, and I’m amazed at how many of you keep showing up daily, weekly, monthly, and even yearly. It reminds me that you need these messages just as much as I do.

Much love to everyone who connects with these songs. Thank you for being here.

– MDRJR / Mike / Uncle Mike

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