Only Us Tonight is a synth-drenched, full-throttle 1980s-inspired Pride anthem about joy, defiance, and queer love in the heart of Washington, D.C. The song follows a gay man in his 20s as he runs through the sunset-lit streets, surrounded by trans teens, drag queens, proud elders, and allies. There’s confetti, glitter, water spray, and the kind of freedom you can feel in your chest. It’s a tribute to the kids who were told to stay quiet, the ones who made it anyway, and the ones still trying. This song is loud, visual, emotional, and unapologetically queer.

To anyone in the LGBTQIA+ community who needs to hear it; show who you are. Be big. Be bright. Wear the colors, hold hands in public, dance like you were never told not to. Whether you're out and proud or still figuring things out, you matter. You’re allowed to take up space. You’re not too much, and you’re never alone. This one’s for all of us.

Note: All vocals are AI-generated due to financial limitations during production. While studio vocals weren’t accessible, all lyrics, compositions, and arrangements are original and deeply personal. This is a human story told with borrowed voices, until one day it can be sung by the ones who lived it.

Only Us Tonight

angelic (moremilly)

online (kirostardew)

bitches wish they had a body like me
ig: itgetsbetterr8

be like me prod me

There’s bones behind the velvet curtains
They rattle every time the lights go down
The real truth is sharp but it’s uncertain
Buried in the sound

You hear my voice in stereo
But still you scream my name
Am I a ghost or your hero
It all bleeds the same
I’m shaking hands with all my fears
Clapping loud so they can’t hear us
Drowning whispers in your cheers
And you call the darkness sweet

Hear the secrets as the speakers bleed
You know all my demons play the songs they always need
Every shadow’s just a different creed
People never ever listen only feel the speed (yeah)
Hear the secrets as the speakers bleed
You know all my demons play the songs they always need
Every shadow’s just a different creed
People never ever listen only feel the speed

Every scar is a hidden lyric
Played backwards in the haze of smoke
If the silence ever turned hysteric
Would you still laugh at the joke

You hear my voice in stereo
But still it ain’t the same
Think I’m the ghost not the hero
We all bleed the same
My shadow’s screaming underneath
But you’re deafened by my scream
Feed on secrets like they’re teeth
And you call the darkness sweet

Hear the secrets as the speakers bleed
You know all my demons play the songs they always need
Every shadow’s just a different creed
People never ever listen only feel the speed (yeah)
Hear the secrets as the speakers bleed
You know all my demons play the songs they always need
Every shadows just a different creed
People never ever listen only feel the speed

Every truth is a quiet fracture
Buried deep where the echoes stay
If the lights flickered and showed the picture
Would you still dance or turn away

My voice is stuck in stereo
I wanna get away
Yes I’m the ghost f*ck the hero
Let’s all bleed away
My shadow screams without a sound
You chase echoes spinning round
You still cheer without a frown
And you call the darkness-

Hear the secrets as the speakers bleed
You know all my demons play the songs they always need
Every shadow’s just a different creed
People never ever listen only feel the speed (yeah)
Hear the secrets as the speakers bleed
You know all my demons play the songs they always need
Every shadow’s just a different creed
People never ever listen only feel the speed (yeah)
Hear the secrets as the speakers bleed
You know all my demons play the songs they always need
Hear the secrets as the speakers bleed
ahh ahh
You listen to my voice but you don’t wanna hear
ahh ahh
My bones are breaking but you stayed sincere

I bled my truth unto deaf ears
The lights go down but ghosts stay near
Echoes fade but cracks stay clear
The lights kept singing while the end drew near

imsick & Crryout - Secrets ft. Sakura

do more (moremilly)

bagsbagsbags (kirostardew)

freestyle from god prod me

Mr. Bank Drainer (moremilly)

Don't Sleep ft. 1uglytom (prod me)

Joseph T. Matthews is a multidisciplinary artist whose work lives at the intersection of music, trauma, and storytelling. His songs are raw, narrative-driven documents that explore survival, identity, mental health, and the silence that follows abuse. With a style rooted in synth-heavy, emotionally stripped soundscapes, Joseph’s work doesn’t seek to entertain—it exists to tell the truth.

His music has been described as unflinching, clinical, and unforgettable. Every lyric is intentional. Every track is a record of what someone wasn’t supposed to survive.

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