HOW COULD I HAVE BEEN SO DUMB?
Original Release Date: January 12th, 2019

I've been working on this music shit since I was sixteen
Had to cut off all my friends for it, they don't miss me
How ironic, how could I have been so dumb?
No fakes, I could never be the one
And now they see me pulling up in my fuckin' whip
Yeah, I'm right where the function is
Yeah, they used to never fuck with this
Now they hitting me up, ask for racks up on my phone
I just hit the silence, turn the volume up on BONES, yeah

Twenty-one guns, hit the lighters by the kerosene
If I die, know my brothers couldn't bury me
I just hope I got enough left for my family
Game changed, I no longer let em carry me
I look around and everybody look like droids (Look like droids)
They the demons, just some noise
Try to fight it but I'm lying to myself as if I got a fucking choice
No point, I'm just screaming in the voids, yeah

(Since you were born once, well, it can happen again)
(Only the next you won't remember the one now)
(Just as the one now doesn't remember the one before)

Overdosed twice, made it through some bad times
Always out here playing with the reaper then I cut ties
Living out of cars cause I couldn't pay the rent
Out of cars, but flipping coins like my name is Harvey Dent, yeah
Yeah, my family doesn't fuck with all the shit that I'm doing
Cause to them a nine to five's the only job worth pursuing
Normalcy is fucking trash compared to what I got brewing
Tried to make it singing, but I guess the raps what I'm doing, yeah

Twenty-one guns, hit the face if you don't fuck with me
If I don't fuck with you then move carefully
Used to be a fucking joke and now they scared of me
Knocking on my door, but they were never there for me

(Anxiety is the state of trying not to flip)
(All life is flipping when you push against it)
(The condition of life)

Twenty-one guns, hit the lighters by the kerosene
If I die, know my brothers couldn't bury me
I just hope I got enough left for my family
Game changed, I no longer let em carry me

DARKO
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JOSH A
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On Drugs.

Silence

Darko - Silence (ft. Josh A)

WILL I BE THE LAST ONE STANDING?
Original Release Date: May 1st, 2025

It's a battle just to live, try to grapple with my sins
Fight the Devil in the center of the octagon again
Yeah, he loves it when I'm low, swear he wanna do the most
Every day, it's like I gotta fight a battle for my soul
I see Him everywhere I go, every time I'm feeling low
From the bottom to the top, and every time I played a show
And some people that I know, let Him take over their souls
Gives you money, gives you pride, fame, and greed that's how He grows
I'm so sick of all these demons in my head tryna mess with me
Gotta make it out alive, don't wanna rest in peace
Yeah, I'm done with all this evil in the industry
Rather be a lone wolf on my own

I feel the Devil on my shoulder pushing me to my limits
But I gotta stay strong, no, I'm not gonna give in
Middle finger to the industry, that's just how I'm living
And they've been testing my faith cause (I've been)
Fighting the devil
I'm just tryna do some good, but they treat me like a rebel
Fighting the devil
Sometimes you gotta walk alone when there's no one on your level
Bury my trauma, cut out my drama
Bleed out on the track and I'll make a few commas
Devil still watching, people still talking
Set the world on fire 'fore I end up in the coffin

(Fighting the devil)
(Fighting the devil)

Yeah, it's a never-ending cycle when I break my will to live
Put it back together then I do it all again
Fighting with the Devil, can't afford to let Him win
Got my soul up on the line and I don't wanna let him in
The weight on my shoulders like a planet
Life ain't end up like I planned it
Everyone takes me for granted
Will I be the last one standing?

I feel the Devil on my shoulder pushing me to my limits
But I gotta stay strong, no, I'm not gonna give in
Middle finger to the industry, that's just how I'm living
And they've been testing my faith cause (I've been)
Fighting the devil
I'm just tryna do some good, but they treat me like a rebel
Fighting the devil
Sometimes you gotta walk alone when there's no one on your level
Bury my trauma, cut out my drama
Bleed out on the track and I'll make a few commas
Devil still watching, people still talking
Set the world on fire 'fore I end up in the coffin

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Fighting The Devil

Josh A - Fighting The Devil

HAD TO KILL THE OLD ME FOR A CHANCE AT SURVIVAL
Original Release Date: May 1st, 2025

Woke up in the ashes feeling like a ghost
Torn between my demons, yeah, they held me close
I used to be a shadow trying to play a role
But now I'm burning bridges just to save my soul
They told me who to be, had me locked inside
Fed me all their lies, but I cut those ties
They try to tell me that I'm wrong in my mind
Took a blade to the past, left it all behind

Left my past in the rear-view, I ain't going back
Wear my fate with my own hands, never fade to black
This the oath to the old me, but I ain't feeling sad
If they doubt me now, I'm the last to laugh
This is not the end no, this will never be over
Made it out the fire, but my heart grew colder
This is my revival, suicide gone viral
Had to kill the old me for a chance at survival
Had to kill the old me for a chance at survival

They said I'd never make it, said I'd never rise
Told me stay the same, obey and comply
They try to call me strange, like my brain just isn't right
But I've been going against the grain like my whole damn life
I'm finally moving on, now the old me's dead
I gotta be myself until my last breath
The demons in my head try to haunt me down
I just do my best, try to shut them out

Left my past in the rear-view, I ain't going back
Wear my fate with my own hands, never fade to black
This the oath to the old me, but I ain't feeling sad
If they doubt me now, I'm the last to laugh
This is not the end no, this will never be over
Made it out the fire, but my heart grew colder
This is my revival, suicide gone viral
Had to kill the old me for a chance at survival
Had to kill the old me for a chance at survival

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Revival

Josh A - Revival

CAN YOU SAVE ME?
Original Release Date: May 1st, 2025

Things were going so great for a minute
But one thing goes wrong, here we go again
One mistake, now I'm suddenly a villain
So, you throwing me away, straight to the end
And now It's over and done
I got so caught up in the darkness
Packed your bags and moved on
You turned our love into a carcass

(Now I've got nothing left, so go ahead and)
Drag me to Hell, I'll burn with the omens
I'll die in slow motion, it's too much, it's too much
(So, can you save me?) Or am I too far gone? (So, can you save me?)
(So, can you save me?) Or am I too far gone? Drag me to Hell

So, all that you told me was never the truth?
I gave you my love, but you gave me a noose
Stabbed me in the heart saying no hard feelings
I down another bottle till my heart stops beating
I just wanna know when the cuts stop bleeding
Sometimes I just wanna stop breathing

(Now I've got nothing left, so go ahead and)
Drag me to Hell, I'll burn with the omens
I'll die in slow motion, it's too much, it's too much
(So, can you save me?) Or am i too far gone? (So, can you save me?)
(So, can you save me?) Or am I too far gone? Drag me to Hell

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Drag Me To Hell

Josh A - Drag Me To Hell

IM JUST SUFFERING IN SILENCE
Original Release Date: May 1st, 2025

Five years off the chemicals
I'm still scared of my own brain
Took time but I'm miserable
Still scared of my old ways
They ask if I'm fine, I tell them a lie
The truth of the matter, I'm broken inside
I'm trying to climb, been falling behind
And if I don't make it, don't think I'll survive

I can't let my demons out
So, I gotta keep fighting
And I can't let em break me down
So, I'm just suffering in silence
So, I'm just suffering in silence
I'm just suffering in silence

Why would you want this life? I don't leave this house
I stopped doing drugs, so I don't go out
And people been talking, they been filling me with doubt
Like maybe I should go back on em
Go and buy a brand-new bottle then I'll fuck my life up
Go and see the Reaper, ask Him, "When's my time up?"
Pop another pill, black out, tell em I'm done, I'm done
And I can't say all the things that I feel
I just throw away my heart in the furnace

(So go ahead and run, I'll just walk away)
(Everybody does in the end)
(Run, I'll just walk away)
(Everybody does in the end)

I can't let my demons out
So, I gotta keep fighting
And I can't let em break me down
So, I'm just suffering in silence
So, I'm just suffering in silence
I'm just suffering in silence

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Suffering In Silence

Josh A - Suffering In Silence

WHERE DID THE TIME GO ON?
Original Release Date: May 1st, 2025

I'm overtime
And the cost of the truth is
I'm freaking out
I just wanna start it over
I'm not blind
But I hate what's right in front of my eyes
(In my eyes)

And I can't go on
My head's been gone
I've been so wrong
And there's no more time at all
This time I can't bury my sins
I'm diving right to the end
It feels like I'm going psycho
My life went catastrophic again
I swear I just wanna live
I wonder where did the time go on?

I heard Heaven's got a place for me
But the Devil keeps dragging me down
I guess I'ma just wait and see
I feel him watching when no-one's around
And I'm always walking
The line between life and the end
Try not to fall in
Try not to go

And I can't go on
My head's been gone
I've been so wrong
And there's no more time at all
This time I can't bury my sins
I'm diving right to the end
It feels like I'm going psycho
My life went catastrophic again
I swear I just wanna live
I wonder where did the time go on?

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I Can't Bury My Sins

Josh A - I Can't Bury My Sins

WE LOST TIME THAT WELL NEVER GET BACK
Original Release Date: May 1st, 2025

The world changed, every Devil has an offer
And everybody took the form of a monster
Temptations calling out
And God's nowhere to be found
I know you feel lost in this world
I felt this way for too long
I hope one day you'll realize
That it's all so wrong

Take my hand, I'll guide you through the darkness
I'll help you land, don't become another heartless one
In the upside down, don't let them take your soul away
And just hold on tight, we'll fight our demons together
In the upside down, you'll be lost but you'll have me
In the upside down, they'll take your soul forever

We lost time that we'll never get back
And all the lost souls went and turned all black
But we can't give into this madness
I'd rather be myself than have this
Don't wander too far
Cause the monsters try to lure you in now
Don't cover your heart
It's a blessing all the good you'll bring out

Take my hand, I'll guide you through the darkness
I'll help you land, don't become another heartless one
In the upside down, don't let them take your soul away
And just hold on tight, we'll fight our demons together
In the upside down, you'll be lost but you'll have me
In the upside down, they'll take your soul forever

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The Upside Down

Josh A - The Upside Down

IS THIS REALLY WHAT YOU WANTED?
Original Release Date: May 1st, 2025

You really thought it would be that easy?
But now you're just another one death, bring me
I will not live in fear no more
I'm living my life, bout to settle that score
This one's for the ones that hurt me
For the ones that wanted me dead
This one's for the flipping dramatics
I hope you all lie down in traffic

(Fuck around and find out)
Fuck around and find out
Fuck around and find out
Fuck around and find out
(Fuck around and find out)

(Is this really what you wanted?)
(Is this really what you wanted?)
Is this really what you wanted?
Now you're chilling six feet in the coffin
Think twice 'fore you come around here talking
Try to play it safe, but you gave me no option
Now it's-

(Fuck around and find out)
Fuck around and find out
Fuck around and find out
Fuck around and find out
(Fuck around and find out)

I will not live in fear
I will crush my enemies

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F.A.F.O.

Josh A - F.A.F.O.

Ghouls Ft. Rickyrogers

lil throw away track, might publish on streamin platforms if yall fw it enough lmk <3

My Bad (prod Taigen x Jkei)

NEW MUSIC RELEASES EVERY SINGLE FRIDAY!!!
Lyrics & Socials are in the Description of Songs
so much music, so little time.
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