I Miss Her

Too Fast

second finished song. still no idea what i'm doing, i just play with fl until things sound good to me.

ty to 5head for producing such an amazing beat that i could really enjoy writing to.

lyrics:
i'm so lost in the void in the void
they cant rip me from the background noise
i can't seem to make a choice

look ahead to the abyss 
this is where i live 
every single person that i've met here on this earth
not a single one i can help with all my worth
all i do is walk and talk i lose them on this ground 
falling into the gutter rats running all around
hurting people left and right's a specialty by now
i swore to protect and yet i behead all these feelings that they hold towards my soul
digging up what's left 
it's not much but flesh and bone
emotions gone and in place i'm drawn
to the cave 
i'm a gutter dweller 
living underground 
fucking leave me alone 
i'm just an echoing sound
worthless piece of shit i was put here just to drown
blood from my eyes 
welcome to demise
hell on earth
worthless fucking birth
take me in my sleep and feed my body to the crows
the blackened deadness of my body reaches to my toes

loss
one consistency i hold
every time i hurt somebody i rip apart my soul
im sorry if ive done you wrong i thought i tried my best
guess it wasn't good enough my life's a fucking mess

burning in my chest
and aching in my brain
the clock on my dresser counts down time till i'm insane
i don't want to think no more i'd rather take the blame
lately life just eats at me in this weird kinda pain
i scan the tree line in search of what is tearing out my heart 
skin walkers roaming on this ranch of cerebral parch
cordially they tear me limb from limb 
i don't know bout you but this is looking kinda grim 

loss
one consistency i hold
every time i hurt somebody i rip apart my soul
im sorry if ive done you wrong i thought i tried my best
guess it wasn't good enough my life's a fucking mess

in my sleep i hear you calling out my name
the nightmares take me to this special place
darkness encroaches creating never ending flames
this reality is choking me no fun and games
all this that i speak of is really just a metaphor 
i do all this shit to myself i'm not a pity whore
i should've known this outcome you have nothing to forgive me for
screaming to the clouds god just help me i am wrecked and sore
voices from above crashing down
face what you have done right here and now
this is the path you walk from here on out
my primitive brain devolves and removes my crown

loss
one consistency i hold
every time i hurt somebody i rip apart my soul
im sorry if ive done you wrong i thought i tried my best
guess it wasn't good enough my life's a fucking mess

loss (5head)

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Retribution

so many thoughts on my mind
so many bitches that lie
so many people are dying
so many drugs are provided
so many fiends that i fight
so many lines i done write yuh
so many, so many, so many...

this is feeling psychopathic
anarchist, dirty little white kid
working night shifts
this is feeling paranormal
it's like i'm above all
it's like i'm inside of a snowball
all alone in this fucking place
looking at my cards, no ace
got no choice left but to face
my problems, moon fades

thoughts of me bleeding out, to death
tumor and humor, it's all in my head
failed attempts, smoking in bed
what a mess
hands so cold feeling like frostbite
not a motherfucking minute passing, without a fight
another fucking year no life, i'm tired
i just wanna die, in the moonlight

Moon

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