Remember ft. Julia Alexa

(Prod. lostangel. x jackruss)

witch's tale.

my visions gone blurry
and everything feels
unreal

trauma hit so bad
my brain started
splitting and now
I got different alters
that make me question
who i am

im lost
im so lost
and im feeling
trapped
in a body 
thats not mine
feeling like 
so many people 
but the energies 
is off

so believe me 
when i say
im lost
my visions gone blurry
everything feels
unreal

im feeling so
lost

im feeling so lost.

lost (prod. lostangel. x jackruss)

(prod. unknown instrumentalz x goldgrain)

this is another witch's tale.

"im gonna be real for a second,
 ima tell you a story i havent told anyone" 

I came from a long
line of addicts but
i'll never be that way
i'll never give myself 
back up to those 
hard drugs

i took that path
and i let it get bad
but i dont wanna live like that
cause that was never living
i was just trying to get by
and cope with all the pain i had

my mother had it bad
she was doing all the drugs
that she could get her
hands on
that she could get her
hands on
as for my father he never cared
he had the chance to meet me
but me left me waiting
not once
not twice
but for a third fucking time
and now im looking like a fool
for thinking you cared

oh why couldn't you care.

"ugh parents."

i've spent countless
nights in tears
because i had
nothing
i had fucking nothing.

i came from a 
line of addicts
but ill never be that way
i wont give myself back up 
to those hard drugs

i took that path
and i let it get bad
but ill never be that way
anymore

"im so fucking sorry".

parents

(prod. 2001)

witch's tale

watching my like
go by like
its a movie scene
i feel like
im not living my life
and someone's taken over

im fine i say
while i draw that blade
across my arms
these waves of
emotions got me 
barely breathing
nowadays its hard to
 put your trust 
and faith in anyone 
cause even your
best friends can
betray you

life's fucked up
i can admit that
i tried to make amends
but i couldn't deal
with that
no i couldn't deal
with that

and i cant believe 
i fucking trusted you
i begged you 
stay but really 
i just wanted to leave 
i just wanted to leave
ive been watching my life go by
like im a movie scene
that doesn't end
feels like someone's
taken over

its feels like this life isnt mine.

like a movie scene (2001)

(prod dead spyro)

this is another witch's tale.

oh daisy 
the universe
shifted the day 
you died
i lost a part of myself
the one you 
made me into

oh daisy
im sorry 
it was you
we fought together
but only i 
made it out alive
its like you 
gave your life
for mine and 
i made it hell

oh i made it hell

oh daisy 
im sorry
its like you 
gave your life
for mine
and i gave it hell

oh daisy

daisy(dead spyro)

(prod. 2001)

witch's tale.

i grew up in a 
stressful home
i had to learn
to take care of myself
cause i couldn't depend
on anyone else

i can not understand
why the universe
chose this for me
was i fucked 
from the start
was i fucked from
the start?
was there ever
really any hope
for me

i was raised in the system
i never had a family
connection
my foster mom 
left me questioning
my worth
do you know what its like
being emotional abused for years?

it starts to tear at your mental
it tears at your mental
so tell me
was there ever hope for me?

was there ever hope (2001)

(prod. lostangel.)

this is another witch's tale

life has me by
a fucking chokehold
losing my shit and
no one even knows
cause i keep to myself
i'll struggle with this alone

i dont need your opinions  
i dont need your help
ill just take it
day by day
guess ill figure it out
when i see 
the eviction notice
at the door

tattoos are the 
only way i cope
so i dont collapse
into a relapse
but no amount of tattoos 
can make me forget
all the hurt i been through
all the hurt i been through

3 point 5 grams 
thats all it takes
ill smoke another joint
and it'll be okay
i dont trust alcohol anymore
because the taste of it 
lets reality set in
the taste of it
lets reality set in

life has me by
a fucking chokehold
im losing my shit and
no one even knows
cause i keep to myself
but i dont need your help

no one even knows (lostangel.)

(prod. dead spyro)

witch's tale.

feeling like 
an outcast
my hearts heavy
and i feel like im stuck
in one place

thoughts started 
getting so bad, i thought
relapsing might be
a good idea, pop a few pills
just to numb the pain
even if its temporary 

even if its temporary
the pain will be gone
and i can move on
but i cant resort
back to then, no

but my brain is 
telling me to 
pop a few more
and call it a day
maybe it'll take me
somewhere i can cope 
with this (2x)

take me somewhere 
i can cope with this
only cause im feeling 
like an outcast
my hearts heavy
and im feeling 
like im stuck
in one place

so maybe relapsing 
isnt a good idea
cause ill just fall deeper
and my heart will just get heavier
my heart will just get heavier

i cant deal with this but i'll fight through it

outcast (dead spyro)

(prod. natebatez)

witch's tale.

i'm not used to the quiet nights

i still flinch when the thunder hides
even the silence gets too loud
guess i got addicted to the sound

i swear
i'm getting better 
but the ghost still hum
yeah the ghost still hum
somedays i bloom
other days i break
guess healing comes in waves

when you found me 
i was halfway
through the fire 
and you held my hand
till i realize it wasn't a dream
you pulled me out when 
i forgot my name 

now when the storm 
starts to whisper 
i just smile 
i'm not the same 
as i was back then 

if peace is a stranger
i'm learning their face 
if life's a circle 
i found my place 

i'm not used to the quiet nights
i still flinch when the thunder hides
even the silence gets too loud 

guess i got addicted to the sound.

quiet nights (natebeatz)

(prod. natebeatz)

witch's tale.

you don't know what its like
to lose your glow before the dawn
to be a child in body
but feel your soul 
move on

i stitched my soul 
with melodies turned pain into art
but the mirror kept asking
"will you ever be the same"

you took my story 
but i took control
you don't know what its like
to lose it all and still rise

my innocence is gone
but i found my light inside
they tried to write my story
but i changed every line

what they took from me that night
I'm taking back this time
every tear i buried deep
became roots in my heart

they broke me down to nothing
but i built myself divine
i built myself divine.

taking back what's mine (natebeatz)

終わりのない痛
trying to find light in a world of darkness

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