Dear Evelyn
I am
Not gonna send this letter
No love
Was given to me off of a silver spoon
So I learned how to savor off a blade
We both know I don't move how I used to move
Love me just the same
Love me just the same
I wrote you a song
You didn't sing it back
I wrote you another song
And you're singing it wrong
Woke up today (Good morning!)
(I just want to go back to sleep) I just need more time
I wrote you a third song, fourth song
Fourth time, four eyes
See you on the courtside
Swing and a miss
I laugh at you
Had to (Hold still!)
(1, 2,3!) I'm still mad at you
Let me go back to the past
(Slap!)
I just slapped past you
(Hold st-Hold)
Still woke up today (Good mo-)
(Just wanna go back to sleep)
I memorize the patterns of your teeth and your anatomy
I'd rather dream
It's easier than unraveling why you do not grab at me
Cause I'm the only one obsessed with you who doesn't have to be
I'm cool
You're cool
We're cool
So why isn't this happening?
I'm actually matter-of-factly perplexed so this is sadden-
I wrote you a song
You didn't sing it back
I wrote you another song
And you're singing it wrong
Woke up today (Good morning!)
(I just want to go back to sleep) I just need more time
I wrote you a third song, fourth song
Fourth time, four eyes
See you on the courtside
Swing and a miss
I laugh
At you
Had to (Hold still!)
(1, 2,3!) I'm still mad at you
Let me go back to the past
(Slap!)
I just slapped past you
(Hold st-Hold Still)
(Ill ill ill ill ill ill ill)
(Ill ill ill ill ill ill ill ill)
(Ill ill ill ill ill ill ill ill)
(Ill ill ill ill ill ill ill ill)
Hold still

Hold Still!

I saw twenty seven bodies when at Grand Lake
They were dropped
Unless getting shot
I felt panic for the plot
I went to the spot
They did not ask me for ID
There was not a single cop
Even near the liquor shop
Pop pop! close the door on me and get your fingers caught
Knock knock! In control like a top stock stopcock
Hot like a wok and you're following me
Like a shepherd with his flock
But I'm like a master lock

Can't copy! They're playing with their money all sloppy
Like monopoly. Nobody can stop me
I'm paparazzi the way I flash, snap no floppy
I could buy old school Atari

Running out of energy. No triple-A
I feel myself slip away
Shot in the dark. Made it ricochet
I can't scrub away my past
I'll probably end up double-A
And fail tryna run away with a priming double date

Uh, give all of my orders like a mandate
Stoop myself so I can think
Now I can't stand straight
We can't talk
We don't think the same and I can't translate
I don't think it can wait
I got manmade struggles handmade
Things you cannot patch up with a band-aid
Things that you cannot patch up with fanmail and grants paid
Demands made that without a plan I can't change
Damn straight

And I talk like I'm in La Folie
And I take the recognition like R.O.C
Do things myself to keep my R.O.E high
Know my trajectory like stars know the sky

But I don't know anything else about myself
Or if there's someone there to help
Or if there's someone there to help
Or if there's someone there to help
Or if there's someone there to help
Or if there's someone there to help
Or if I'll end up on the shelf

CAN'T COPY

I'd like to talk
I got a lot that's on my mind
Let me be direct: let's reconnect. I want the time
All you wanna do is have a fallback
All I wanna do is get a callback like

Hello
Hello, hello, hello
Shake to statements made like Jello
I get payments ever settled
Soles are placed on pedal
Kettle calling pot hot
Hotshot faking pop placement rebel
I was in Lockhart-put the braise straight to metal
I said I got things to settle

I change based on how big that I get just like a quantum dot
I talk a lot in mics. I'd rather do this than a common job
A bottle on the floor
Don't my mama. I've not gotten caught
I put inside my writings flows as sharp as shots from Octorok

I try to talk to you but it's a bore
I'm falling straight through the floor
I feel ignored
I'm wanting more
And that makes me feel like I'm dumb
I'm sick of the work and the burning of bridges
Fixing the glitch in my pitches
And in my britches
You think you're winning. I think it's funny
I spent more money just raising my puppies

And I took a detour
Now I'm sun-kissed
My regular list is like your buckets
I make more alone just off my archive
You don't write, so I don't want your top five

QUANTUM DOT (prod. noellefayt)

Huh
Huh

Systems in position cause they wanna keep me stuck here
Struck fear inside me like the headlights to a son deer
Gutting animals while I'm insisting what my life's worth
People wanna rule the world, but all we have is dry earth

I'll get a life, I'll get a job, I'll get a hobby
Take a gun and put it to my head so you can rob me
Take me to the grave of my old friend who died of oxy
Take the cells within my brain until I am a proxy
I won't think like that and nobody can stop me
But if I think at all my head feels like it's throbbing
They got me addicted to whatever makes my mind stop
But I know they're hurting me and that is all that I got

There's still revolution in - but no one's talking
Everybody cared until the views would stop logging
I guess everyone would rather move on to the next thing
Government still tries to tap my grandma's phone while text-
AHHH!
Get it?
It is not enough to have it if you never spread it
It is not enough to know when everything is guesses
Far more genuine and far more decrepit

Systems in position cause they wanna keep me stuck here
Struck fear inside me like the headlights to a son deer
Gutting animals while I'm insisting what my life's worth
People wanna rule the world, but all we have is dry earth

People try to twist my view as if they were contortionists
They're rushing velocity
Take some time to fashion a philosophy
Why is my life so disproportionate?
The hole inside my soul is not full even with a Porsche in it
Fortunately, I can just sell my social life and soul just like my family before me!
Make lots of money and regret it all by 40
And retire by the time my bones are all too weak to support me
Just like a lion in the wild desperate for what to kill for
Someone say a brand I can shill for
Maybe by the time I strip my personality
I'll look like I'm worth at least a mil for (I'll kill for it)

You gotta lead or leave little brother
The clock's turning
You need some money
Don't need purpose
You gotta lead or leave little brother
The clock's turning
You need some money
Don't need purpose

Systems in position cause they wanna keep me stuck here
Struck fear inside me like the headlights to a son deer
Gutting animals while I'm insisting what my life's worth
People wanna rule the world, but all we have is dry earth
Systems in position cause they wanna keep me stuck here
Struck fear inside me like the headlights to a son deer
Gutting animals while I'm insisting what my life's worth
People wanna rule the world, but all we have is dry earth

THE HOLE

Monologue? (Interlude)

This is a song for a missus
Who spends too much time inside her own head
And I dream of dancing in a dream house
Till we get tired and sleep in our bed

I don't know what I'm doing here
I don't know what you're thinking

Oh, this is a hope that you listen
I spend too much time inside my own head
Cause I dream of dancing in a dream house
Till we expire and sleep in our deaths

And I don't know what I'm doing here
I don't know what you're thinking

This is for whoever listens
It's not for her attention
There's just love in my head
And I sing songs
Knowing they're about you
And it's nights you don't know that
Where I toss in my bed
And, and, and
I don't know what I'm doing here

I don't know what I'm doing here
I don't know what you're thinking
I don't know what we're doing here
Oh, I don't know what we're doing here

Temptations.

Music Video: https://youtu.be/ZsGWqpsOJ4g

Song dedicated to the 1985 BMWs

Lyrics:
'85 Bimmer
You cant rust my seater
Go flash-flash dash
I adjust my meter
But I love these fans
I don't hush my readers
I don't judge my greeters
I'm the clutch drive speeder

I don't take no breaks unless I wanna take a break
It's the sicker spitter
Lick it up and duck off in the place
In the past, I went lower than Impala Chevrolets
Now I jump so high they don't say Kevin Kempt
I'm Kevin Gates
I said please give me space
I move at a dizzy pace
I just want a starship like my name was Jimmy Page
So I put myself to work
Can't just be a pretty face
A lot of people just embarrass me
I can't affiliate
Only time I'm getting zeros is when adding to my digits
I might follow up with London-circle back and hit a wicket
I got money on my money
They should make a call to guiness
I got blue top to bottom
All these Bennys got me Bridget

'85 Bimmer
You cant rust my seater
Go flash-flash dash
I adjust my meter
But I love these fans
I don't hush my readers
I don't judge my greeters
I'm the clutch drive speeder (It's an)
'85 Bimmer
You can't rust my seater
Go flash-flash dash
I adjust my meter
But I love these fans
I don't hush my readers
I don't judge my greeters
I'm the clutch drive speeder

I don't take no breaks unless I wanna take a break
Like the little piggy, I just like to move to hit the bank
I don't care bout what you think and I don't care bout your thanks
You're ugly you stank and I can't care (Can't)

'85 Bimmer

WE CAN COME BACK!

Lyrics:
We could come back
But the time has gone
I'm run, run, running to escape from your love
Don't lie
'Cause I know your heart
Don't try- try- looking for someone to forget

'Cause
'Cause I gave you my whole life
And instead you gave me nothing
And you let me hear you're lonely
And you're lonely
Lay-hey
I was lost on my own way
I will never be the same guy (girl)
But someone told me that the loves fate
And I lose faith

We could come back
But the time has gone
I'm run, run, running to escape from your love
Don't lie
'Cause I know your heart
Don't try- try- looking for someone to forget

Back
But the time has gone
I'm run, run, running to escape from your love
Don't lie 
'Cause I know your heart
Don't try- try- looking for someone to forget

'Cause I gave you my whole life

Someone To Forget

Music Video

Someone To Forgot

Lyrics:
I'm 18, but some friends are still 17
I got a goal to keep them all-in-all safe
So if 23 year old MGK came up to them
I'd run over there to move them out the way!

Please bare please bare please bare with me
When I step in Calabasas it is just a normal city
I got sunkissed skin. Out too much. I'm getting dizzy
I'll be late next bar. I've been getting way too busy
...See?
I mean what I say and I say what I mean
Can't put cash in my pockets. I'll walk with a lean
I'll be gone by the morning like Sally J Reed
I'll be gone in the morning like most of my enemies
Show 'em love. Show 'em visions of the burning effegies
I'll be out in the water. Who cares if I'm right?
My friends, we have been through more than hell and high tide

"Man it's all love"
I don't care. I want loyalty
"Man it's all love"
I don't care. I want loyalty
"Man it's all love"
I don't care. I want loyalty
"Man it's all love"
I don't care. I want loyalty

"Man it's all love"
I don't care. i want loyalty
Washed artists circa 2020 owe me royalties
I don't worry 'bout a hazard like i'm messi
People hating on my posts with no likes, just DM me
Matter fact, I want to laugh. talk about me like you met me
Like it wouldn't make your week if you found out I saw you texting
Haven't talked to some in months, and they're still using my name
Same letter but petty and pathetic are not the same
same gun works different if you don't know how to aim
I got catch me if you can money hopping out the plane
Haven't talked to some in years, and they're still using my
Haven't talked to some in years, and they're still using my name
Let me repeat that I say what I mean
And my green is all blue like my name is Al Green
And I'm not Eddie Murphy, but I still end up in Queens
Big brother keep the Smith on him like his name was T.T

"Man it's all love"
I don't care. I want loyalty
"Man it's all love"
I don't care. I want loyalty
"Man it's all love"
I don't care. I want loyalty
"Man it's all love"
I don't care. I want loyalty
"Man it's all love"
I don't care. I want loyalty
"Man it's all love"
I don't care. I want loyalty
"Man it's all love"
I don't care. I want loyalty
"Man it's all love"
I don't care. I want loyalty

Truthfully i love love
It's in my vocations
I hope we see each other in our future good graces
Love should have loyalty. Some take the word and twist it
I scare myself the times I watch the new divorce statistics
The force of new Porsches serves as modern day extortion
Poor choices I mulled over might've muddled my morning
The grinding of gift-giving's winning the shotgun wedding
There's no forever. You'll keep replacing the bedding

Wishing the world luck. We'll need it for where we're heading
Wish it luck. We'll need it for where we're heading

I Want Loyalty

I Want Loyalty (prod. kevinkempt)

In February, I was inside one of the practice rooms at my university. It was my second semester of my Freshman year, and I felt like exploring the buildings I hadn't yet seen. The rooms were, by all accounts, imperfect. Each had different chairs, different levels of acoustic padding, varying levels of damage on the walls and pianos, occasional trash, and the slightly out of tune upright pianos, with, luckily, most of the keys and pedals working. None of the acoustic provisions mattered. Most rooms didn't have it, and the walls were thin enough to hear everyone else playing anyway. None of that mattered to me. I spent my first day in the room just playing piano for the first time in what felt like forever. After playing for a little under half an hour, I got a call from a family member. She was asking whether or not I could attend some event back home. I responded, not really thinking about it, and after some further small talk, we finished the call. Once I put down the phone, it hit me -- small and large changes in my life and family, even the ones that just happened recently, will impact how I go about parts of my life forever. That's when I asked the question: What do you do when you know that it's different forever?


I then went back to my dorm room and fit what I could in my backpack: a Shure SM58, an audio interface, my laptop, a desk mic stand, and some cables.

This was not perfect. I'll be posting behind the scenes on my social medias so you can see the process (probably Instagram, YouTube, and TikTok). My username is kevinkempt on all of those. There's a clear room reverb and very audible piano from other students practicing in the background. All this tied with the cheap gear I used are not ideal conditions for a """studio""" recording. I couldn't be more happy about it, though. The song would not exist any way other than how it was recorded. Figuring out the chords and melody on the piano and practicing my lines for hours in that room honestly made me attached to it. The song was recorded in two sessions, one being in February and one being in April (mainly for adding more background vocals and figuring out ideas for the bridge and final chorus). When I went in April, I went into one of the practice rooms without really thinking about it. This one had slight acoustic padding. I recorded for around an hour, and kept experimenting, but when I listened back, I kept hating the result. It took me so long to realize that I wanted the sound of the other room. Before that, I never really considered how these similar spaces could have such different sounds, let alone how I could like one of them more than the others.


I wouldn't trade the process of this song for anything, and I hope it connects with you in the music. Maybe you can answer what to do when you know that it's different forever.

Lyrics:
What do you do when you know that it's different forever?
What do you do when you see someone else's family portrait?
When do you say you're beyond a lost cause?

Maybe I was a ghost in the frame
Reaching out while you lost my name
Maybe I was the last to know
Everything leaves. I should've let go
(I called but the number changed)

What do you do when you know that it's different forever?
What do you do when it feels like a blur in the rear view mirror?
Where do you go when the road never rotates back to home?

Maybe I was a ghost in the frame
Reaching out while you lost my name
Maybe I was the last to know
Everything leaves. I should've let go

I called but the number changed
I knocked but the house was estranged
I walked past the place we stayed
Until my reflection gave way

Maybe I was a ghost in the frame
Fading out while you learned my name
Maybe I was the last to know

Everything leaves. I should've let go (You should've let go)
Everything leaves. I should've let go (You should've let go)

Everything leaves. I should've let go

What do you do when you know that it's different forever?

Different Forever

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