Polluted

To Serve & Neglect

Amorphous

Life Can Be...

Beyond Waste

bonus track for "songs for the after", a covers album i've been working on and off on for about a year now. it started when i got broken up with in february of 2024, and then it just snowballed over the course of however long it's been marinating in my computer's files. i hope that when the whole album is out i'll stop being so depressed but that probably won't happen. i'm gonna release it here and on bandcamp. this is a bonus track covering radiohead's motion picture soundtrack from the oknotok white cassette tape. fuck thom yorke and jonny greenwood, free palestine til it's backwards.

motion picture soundtrack (demo)

I Saw The Devil

🖤✨ Practiced On Me (Rework)
by The Miracle Syndicate

She said I looked tired, but smiled when I spoke
The kind of smile you offer a patient.
My coffee was cold before I noticed
That her chair had never been taken.

I tried to remember what we talked about
But my mouth held no shape.
I wiped her lipstick off my glass,
But it was never there in the first place.

I wrote down half of a name
In the steam on the window,
But it bled down the glass
Like it didn’t want to be known.

Yeah.

She may have loved me 
Or just practiced on me 
In case it ever counted.
Ooh...
She may have loved me 
Or just practiced on me 
This is all I've amounted.

The restaurant closed and I kept sitting,
Listening for footsteps that never walked away.
A waiter asked if I was alright,
And I said I was just waiting for a mistake.

He smiled like I was joking,
The way you smile at someone you pity.
I left a tip for the absence,
Then walked home through a city
That didn’t blink when I crossed the street.

I cut and ran through the forest
Where I could still smell her perfume.
Then I couldn't help but notice
I was alone in my dark room.

Again.

She may have loved me 
Or just practiced on me 
In case it ever counted.
Ooh...
She may have loved me 
Or just practiced on me
This is all I've amounted.

In the end, I forgot her face
But not the silence she taught me to hear.
And sometimes, when I pass the place 
I swear, I see her disappear.

Credits:
Written and performed by Elena Morgenstern, Nayeli Astra Xóchitl, and Brad Astra
Produced by The Miracle Syndicate
Mixed and mastered by Brad Astra at Nude Studio · Calgary · Canada
Label: Painful Records © 2025

Practiced On Me (Rework)

❤️‍🔥✨ Fall Into Your Hunger
by The Miracle Syndicate

Every promise tastes like metal
Every kiss cuts down to bone
You breathe me in like a sin you’ll keep
And I’m too fucked up to go home

You press your faith against my skin
You pull me under, wear me thin

And I fall into your hunger
Like a wound that wants the knife
If you take me any deeper
There’ll be nothing left of life

Your hands are coal, they stain my white
Your eyes are storms that never fade
I wear your name across my throat
Like a prayer I can’t escape

You press your faith against my skin
You pull me under, drag me in

And I fall into your hunger
Like a wound that wants the knife
If you take me to your ruin
There’ll be nothing left of life

Every promise tastes like metal
Every kiss cuts down to bone
You breathe me in like a sin you’ll keep
And I’m too fucked up to go home

Credits:
Written and performed by Elena Morgenstern, Nayeli Astra Xóchitl, and Brad Astra
Produced by The Miracle Syndicate
Mixed and mastered by Brad Astra at Nude Studio · Calgary · Canada
Label: Painful Records © 2025

Fall Into Your Hunger (Rework)

The wound is where the light enters.  —Rumí

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also known as nginx and real internet girl
a piece of me died in february!
FAIR WARNING: EVERYTHING I MIX SOUNDS LIKE SHIT!

Artist, Writer, Producer, Sound Engineer, Video Editor & Visionary.

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