🔻 Song Insight
"Drowning" captures the brutal honesty of being entangled in someone else's illusion — and nearly losing yourself in the process. It’s about chasing the idea of love while drowning in deception, convincing yourself it’s real because the lie was easier to hold than the truth. The song paints the emotional unraveling of waking up inside someone else’s addiction, manipulation, and mask... and realizing the cost of trying to save them was yourself.

🔻 Lyrics
Intro
Pulled back in... by your grin,
Secrets you buried... branded by your hand.

Bridge
The friction in your past,
A story, lost and confused,
it's just another excuse.

Chorus
Buried in your fiction... (pause) lost inside—your lines,
Chasing empty veins... drowning in your eyes.
Tied to your illusion... I fell beneath your skin,
Lost in your addiction… another part of your sin.

Verse 1
Silent phone... (pause) messages denied,
Convinced me... I was blind... but I’ve seen inside.
Every word... rehearsed to sell the lie,
Never meant to stay... just a scripted goodbye.

Pre-Chorus
Master illusion... blurred every time,
Fake tears rehearsed... each scripted line.
Trapped beneath your shiny and new...
Now revealed—spent... and used.
Illusions fade... your colors bleed...
I'm left holding... the life you threw away.

Chorus
Buried in your fiction... (pause) lost inside—your lines,
Chasing empty veins... drowning in your eyes.
Tied to your illusion... I fell beneath your skin,
Lost in your addiction… another part of your sin.

Outro
I shattered myself... just to pull you free,
Tore at my soul... trying to make you see.
But truth is a mirror you refuse to face,
Lost in the wreckage... of your own embrace.

🔻 Personal Reflection
There was a time I thought I could save someone who didn’t even see they were drowning. I wrote this after realizing how deep I had gone trying to fix something that was never real — a mirage built on lies, addiction, and gaslighting. “Drowning” is a snapshot of that moment when the water hits your lungs and you finally stop pretending you’re breathing. It was one of the hardest realizations I’ve ever had: that I was loving a ghost, and killing parts of myself just to keep their illusion alive. This track is my reckoning... and my release.

🔻 4Me2BeFree
This song is part of a purge — a sonic cleansing. Drowning fits into the larger COTC collection as one of the emotional pressure points that needed to be released before I could fully step into who I am now. 4Me2BeFree isn’t just a name... it’s the intention behind every track. We transform trauma into melody, lies into lyrics, and silence into sound — so the people who feel invisible know they’re not alone.

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Drowning -  COTC

🔻 Song Insight
“Shiny, Plastic and New” is a direct hit to the hollow chest of betrayal. It’s about being replaced not by someone better — but by something shinier. Something easier. Something fake. This track rips the mask off the person who walked away and calls out the emptiness behind their applause, their lies, and their choices. It’s not just heartbreak — it’s a trial by spotlight, where the final act is truth, and plastic can’t hide it anymore.

🔻 Lyrics
Verse 1:
Come to the stage, take your bow
They wait on you, the king, they vow
The fake, the plastic, shiny, and new
Your time has come to see what you've done.

Pre-Chorus:
I was your muse, the one you played
Digging deeper in my new hell, walking away
This is what I get for standing my ground
To save you, I fought like hell.

Chorus:
You gave up on us for plastic and new
You gave up on us so you can do you
You're a coward and a lie,
You say I’m the one, 
you build me up just to let me down

Verse 2:
The spotlight’s bright, it’s all on you
The fake applause, the cheers untrue
Behind the mask, you're just a shell
Plastic dreams in a plastic hell.

Pre-Chorus:
I was your muse, the one you played
Digging deeper in my new hell, walking away
This is what I get for standing my ground
To save you, I fought like hell.

Chorus:
You gave up on us for plastic and new
You gave up on us so you can do you
You're a coward and a lie,
You say I’m the one, 
you build me up just to let me down

Bridge:
Take your bow, your plastic crown
The truth’s revealed, you’re breaking down
I stood my ground, I fought for us
But my dreams of love were never enough.

Chorus:
You gave up on us for plastic and new
You gave up on us so you can do you
You're a coward and a lie,
You say I’m the one, 
you build me up just to let me down

Outro:
Your plastic and new, take your bow
The curtain falls, it’s over now
Your plastic and new, take your bow
The truth is out, you’re fading out.



🔻 Personal Reflection
This one hit different. I was angry when I wrote it... not just hurt. Angry at being disposable. Angry at the way someone can trade real history for something artificial — all flash, no substance. "Shiny, Plastic and New" is for anyone who’s ever watched someone they love choose the easy lie over the hard truth. I gave everything I had trying to save something real — and they wanted something that looked good under stage lights. This song is me walking away from that fake performance... and taking the mic with me.

🔻 4Me2BeFree
This track is part of the reason 4Me2BeFree exists: to call out the bullshit, the masks, the performances people hide behind. Not all songs are subtle — some need to name names, even if they’re metaphorical. “Shiny, Plastic and New” is theatrical, angry, honest — and exactly what we need to burn through the fog.

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Shiny Plastic & New - COTC

“Touched” is a soul-infused emotional ballad blending raw male vocals, cinematic piano, ambient textures, and gospel harmonies. With stripped-back verses and powerful, swelling choruses, this track dives deep into the pain of holding on, the fire of letting go, and the strength it takes to heal. A song for anyone who's been scarred but refuses to stay broken.

Lyrics:
When the days drag on and the nights feel cold
And the dreams we chased just slip through our hold
When I look at the past, all I see is you
But I’m starting to learn that I’ve got to move

I tried to fight it, tried to keep you near
But the more I fought, the more you disappeared
I can’t pretend that it’s all still the same
I’ve been standing here, playing your game

When you feel the fire, look into my eyes
You’ll see the fight, you’ll see the lies
Don’t come too close, the weight’s too much
It’s where my darkness lives, it's where I’ve been touched

I’ve held on too long, to a love that burned
But the lessons I learned, are the ones I’ve earned
Now the silence speaks louder than your name
I’m starting to feel like I’m not the same

I tried to run, but you pulled me back
Now I’m standing tall, taking what I lack
I can’t keep hiding, pretending to care
I’ve found my way, but you’re still there

When you feel the fire, look into my eyes
You’ll see the fight, you’ll see the lies
Don’t come too close, the weight’s too much
It’s where my darkness lives, it's where I’ve been touched

I’m not broken, but I’m not whole
I’m fighting these shadows, reclaiming control
The light still flickers, but it’s mine to keep
I’m walking away from the chains, from the grief

When you feel the fire, look into my eyes
You’ll see the fight, you’ll see the lies
Don’t come too close, the weight’s too much
It’s where my darkness lives, it's where I’ve been touched

I’ve been touched, I’ve been touched…

Touched

“Peaceful Transfer” is soft and deliberate—low movement, clear tone, and the quiet feeling of letting go without resistance.

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Peaceful Transfer

It was always meant to happen, the stars were aligned — and to end. Like Lana del Rey’s California, it’s a quiet wish: I hope you find someone that feels right for you.  

Lyrics:
And hope you find,
you find your California.
Hope you can finally leave the 
mask outside the door.
I hope you find, I hope you find
a dimmer flame now, a lighter
and warmer, less intense kind of fire now.
The kind that doesn't light up an internal war now, 
the kind that doesn't make you scared though somehow wanting more.

Leave a little space for me,
I'll leave a little space for you;
somewhere down the line we'll see,
we played just the right role.

Leave a little space for me,
I'll leave a little space for you; 
somewhere down the line we'll see
it was almost worth fighting for.

Lyrics: Adriana Lazcano.

California

Being haunted from past baggage, feeling uncertain about opening a new door. A plea for clarity, or release. 


Lyrics: 
I traced the shape of something unseen,
a presence I swore was waiting for me.
I had traces of darkness clouding my mind,
a daunting fate I refused to write.

I sensed the chill before the door could unseal, 
A pull that drowned the doubts i concealed, 
Still, I stepped in with just a candle in hand,
hoping its light would drown the omens out.

And out of all the souls trapped in between realms,
your ghost is the one that scares me the most.
My mind for you is a foolish host, 
yet I summon you, and shadows come close.
You still roam this earth, yet you never appear,
so why are you still haunting me?

I see your name flicker in the dark,
You gave me nothing but the illusion of warmth,
a hollow whisper carved in my skin.
Then left before the fire sank in.

 I turned the cards, but the message was hollow,
a voice in the static, a name I still follow.
A séance of silence, a ritual in vain,
were you ever real, or just another spell to break?
You still roam this earth, yet you never appear,
so why are you still haunting me?

Lyrics: Adriana Lazcano

Phantom

“Detach” is calm but distant—slow groove, airy textures, and a subtle sense of pulling away from everything, quietly.

Detach


🔻 Lyrics
[Verse 1]
Sunny weather with a smile on
Just an ordinary Tuesday, getting along
Skipping down our… your street
That’s when that fuckin’ song comes on
The one you sing in the shower
You know, the one before you’d leave
God, I should’ve known back then
What a sleaze

Your shitty sports car that I keyed, yes please
Three words I can’t forget, they trap on repeat
I know I promised my doctor I would be good
Maybe it was to be happy? Neither-either-let’s just call the whole thing gay
Okay? Oookaaay? Oooookaaaaaay! Yaaaay! I’m soooo excited!

[Verse 2]
Walking through our stupid hall
Our photos still up on the wall – gross
I locked the door, set the alarm
Passcode still 6969 – how appropriate
Guess your new man feels safe and warm
Don’t worry, it won’t take long; we’ll be seeing you along

That lamp looks bougie, trust-fund guilt
Hope he liked how that was built
Like a rainbow spray… now that’s not gay – it’s flambé

[Chorus 1]
Shiny and unstable, I’m the show you missed
Kiss goodbye to your IKEA bliss
I never liked that ottoman – was that the one you were on?
God, your taste was never strong, but your lies… oh baby, they were lifelong

[Verse 3]
I tiptoe past the bathroom sink, see two razors – black and blue
Oh sweetie, did you think I wouldn’t figure out there’s two… or wait, three?
Their shirts, your cologne – this ain’t my house, just your fuckin’ throne
But I left you something by the bed:
A sticky note that simply said:
“I saw the video. Lighting sucks. Work on your angles, use your words.”

[Bridge 1] (quiet, spoken)
Remember Cancun? You used my photos on that hooker site…
My beach shot next to your whorelight
Do me a favor: take down the pics with the kids. That’s all I ask.

[Verse 4]
Back in the kitchen, memory lane
The wine rack I built now holds your shame
The blender we bought – rage-smoothie time: tears, vodka, lime
That Santorini canvas? Let’s just say… it’s now graffiti
You think this is over? I’m just starting
Hope he likes the lube-stained backsplash in shards and parting

[Verse 5]
The closet’s worse than I remember, your secrets smell like December
Oh, your keepsake box – RIP to those concert stubs and that replica cock
That cock you said meant something deep – now embedded in the mirror, sweet
I held onto things… not anymore. I’m holding bats, not metaphors

[Chorus 2]
Shiny and unstable, I came home to slay
I’m the glitter-covered wreck of your perfect gay cliché
You didn’t break me… you just gave me a bat
And a reason to write a banger – so thank you… for that

[Bridge 2]
Oh! Your boyfriend had a dream I killed him?
Sweetie, dreams don’t come true
I’m sad, not psychotic – I paint in chaos, not blood
If I wanted to break you, I’d just send this song
You said I’d never make it without you? Look what I made because of you

[Final Chorus]
Shiny and unstable, this is my peace
Swinging through trauma in rhythmic release
I cleaned my pain off your kitchen floor
Sang my rage through every glass door
So if they ask, “How are you doing today?”
Just play this track and walk away
’Cause I’m done with you… and your glitter lies
This is me… saying goodbye

[Final Chorus: Amped-Up]
How’s that goin’? You doing okay?
Just wanted to say – from the bottom of my fuckin’ heart –
I don’t like you

[Outro: Fade Out]
I really really really don’t like you
But thank you
If it weren’t for all the fucking things you did,
I wouldn’t be here, in a place I’d rather be…
Oh, and before I forget – you’re allowed to be vocal, right?
Maybe it was just the light? The angle was kind of fucked up too!
Was that even you? With all that experience, I expected a little more!

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Shiny & Unstable - COTC LGBT - Explicit

🔻 Song Insight
"You" by 4Me2BeFree is a quiet detonation—the unraveling of a soul betrayed not by absence, but by deception. As the opening confession in the COTC (Cleaning Out the Closet) collection, it plays like a sonic autopsy: soft at first, then gutting. The track captures that specific horror of realizing the person you loved was never really there… or worse, never real to begin with.

Layered acoustic textures and swelling strings provide a deceptive warmth—just enough to make the blade twist deeper when the truth hits. This isn’t about heartbreak. It’s about the theft of history, identity, and a future that was never truly shared.

🔻 Lyrics
[Intro]
How can you be so blind not to see?
What is so broken inside of you?

[Verse 1]
How can you be so blind not to see?
What is so broken inside of you?
You’re someone I don’t know,
A stranger in his clothes.
You stole our soul,
And without him, I am alone.

[Chorus]
You started a war!
Destroyed our home!
Ripped me to shreds!
Gutted my heart!
Made me lose hope!
Left me to die alone—
Where has he gone?
What have you done?

[Verse 2]
Every memory we made,
You stole every part.
You kill my beating heart.
The passion—
The fire—
It’s all gone out.

[Bridge]
Pain I have inside—
Without my friend, who am I?
I lost myself in your crime.
I feel as though I’m doing your time.

[Chorus – Reprise]
You started a war!
Destroyed our home!
Ripped me to shreds!
Gutted my heart!
Made me lose hope!
Left me to die alone—
Where has he gone?
What have you done?

[Verse 3]
How could you be? How could you take this from me?
You were my world—everything that I was.
You’re the worst—a thief in the night.
I will never see you…
I will never hear you…
I will never be with you…
I will never understand.

[Pre-Outro]
I opened my heart.
I gave you my life.
I trusted your words—
The promises that you broke.
The lies you told.
The mistakes I made.
The things I said.
The sacrifices I displayed.

[Outro]
You never said goodbye...
I’m sorry we met...
Sorry I said yes...
Sorry to kids...

🔻 Personal Reflection
"You" wasn’t written with catharsis in mind. It was written because there was nowhere else left to put the pain.

At some point, I stopped recognizing the person I was next to every day. That moment of clarity—that snap—came not with yelling, but with silence. This song was born in that silence. In that awful stillness where you realize the person you loved was a mirage built on manipulation.

It took everything to stop blaming myself. To stop thinking I “should’ve known.” But the truth is, some monsters wear your favorite memories like skin. And this song is me peeling it back… one lyric at a time.

🔻 4Me2BeFree
"You" sets the tone for COTC, the first body of work where I stop softening the blow. This is where the masks fall, the wounds stay open, and the lies get named. 4Me2BeFree has always been about reclaiming truth through storytelling—and this track? It’s the moment I stop whispering it.

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You - COTC

🔻 Song Insight
"Animal" is a lyrical execution—sharp, bitter, and final. Part battle cry, part eulogy, it tears through illusion with teeth bared. This isn’t a breakup song. It’s a realization track: the moment the curtain drops and the persona collapses under its own fraudulence.

Structured as a verbal reckoning, “Animal” confronts the myth-making that happens in toxic dynamics—when one person spins stories while the other quietly bleeds behind the scenes. The song’s tone is scathing but measured, never desperate… just done. Like striking a match and letting the whole delusional narrative burn.

🔻 Lyrics
[Verse 1]
Fantasy world you live in,
Delusions dressed as truth—
You rewrote history
To make yourself the proof.

I wish I lived in make-believe
Where everything you say is real.
So naive you must be
To think I’d never feel.

[Chorus]
All is fair in love and war...
But this was never that.
It was a mirror cracked by lies—
A truth you never had.

I could’ve read the leaves,
But let’s be honest:
I was never the reason
You left so thoughtless.

[Verse 2]
You’re not the genius I believed.
I gave you too much grace—
For who I thought you were
And who you couldn’t face.

[Bridge]
Dumpster fire ignorance,
Rail-grade flames—
Hearts gone numb,
Desires untamed.

You’ll either wake up
Or sink in the wreck,
Drowning in your logic
Of what comes next.

[Verse 3]
Never forgiven, never forgotten—
I keep score,
You keep rotting.
Too blind to walk,
Too proud to crawl—
It was never love.
Not at all.

[Outro]
No heart, no weight.
Not worth the crime.
Not worth the date
Or the borrowed time.

Spilled tears, wasted light,
I won’t name you again,
Won’t resurrect the night.
Yesterday’s dreams were never meant—
They died with you
And all you meant.

🔻 Personal Reflection
"Animal" was written during the tail end of denial—the moment where I finally stopped giving the benefit of the doubt and started giving myself back the benefit of clarity.

There’s a rage underneath these lines, yeah… but it’s not just anger. It’s grief that matured into indifference. The hardest part wasn’t losing the relationship—it was realizing I was the only one treating it like it meant anything at all.

This song is about reclaiming reality from someone else’s fiction. About burning down the fantasy house they built in your name—and refusing to ever go back inside.

🔻 4Me2BeFree
In the context of the COTC project, "Animal" is the throat rip. The chapter where love songs die and the storyteller takes the mic back. It's a sonic confrontation, raw with betrayal but restrained with purpose. Every word is a scar sealed in melody. This is what it sounds like when survival no longer needs apology.

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Animal - COTC

"If it didn’t matter, it wouldn’t hurt. Pain is the gift of knowing you’re alive."

4Me2BeFree is more than music—it’s my story, my scars, and my survival. Every song is a piece of me, a raw melody of love, heartbreak, and resilience. I blend AI-generated vocals and instruments with real emotions, turning my experiences—especially from an LGBTQ+ perspective—into something that speaks to anyone who's ever felt lost, broken, or just searching for something real.

Breakup songs? Yeah, they hit different. Music carries us through the worst of it, and every generation finds their own anthems of love, loss, and getting back up. Heartache doesn’t care about age, gender, or where you come from—music connects us all.

I make music because I’ve been there. The pain, the anger, the hope—it's all in these songs. If something here hits home for you, let it. If you feel something, let me know. That’s the connection that keeps this alive.

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