produced by cxrter x retz

throwaway off losing myself again

consider this addiction pt.3

4 months ago i lost my brother to the percs
i think about him everyday and it hurts
but i still do the same shit
i cant help it if my heart hurts
and taking these fucking pills is all that works
i need to get sober or ill end up just like him
i called him my bestfriend
than cut him off cuz of the drugs
but im doing the exact same stuff
cut everyone off so i dont have to feel the love
my grandma cant even recognize her grandson

get out my head

produced by the wonderful @iamaneerdowell

lyrics;
i say i try my best
but i
never try my best x2

gods always putting me thru tests
and all my friends are pushing me to the ledge
im still waiting for a text from my ex
my dr switched my meds
i think theyre working
its hard to fix something when ur always hurting
and nothings ever fucking working

is this shit always in my fuckedup head
i get tired of waking up and wanting to be dead
idk how much energy i got left
so leave me alone

if i do not answer the phone dont call me again
i dont wanna talk to you, you always got a plan
you use me for attention than go back to your man
ik i was apart of the plan
its okay you win

i say i try my best
but i
never try my best x2

try my best

late freestyle

originally performed by 9tails

non profit

prod virginiareaper

9tails - comatose (mars version)

my dog jasmine got put down 7/11/25 :(

this song got me thru so much in my life and its kinda poetic to make a cover.

originally performed by glaive

lyrics;

I'm fucked up bad
You didn't ask
I'll make it last
To see the past
I'm fucked up bad
You didn't ask
I'll make it last
To see the past

All dogs go to heaven
People don't because we're selfish
All dogs go to heaven
I know we can't help it
All dogs go to heaven
People don't because we're selfish
All dogs go to heaven
Stand by you when the world is ending

glaive - all dogs goto heaven (cover)

recorded on my 2015 mac book in my living room at 5 am

originally performed by austin snell
instrumental ripped from original song

This is lines at 11 percent battery
I was born to a long one
Had a thing for stepping cross one
If you catch me past most 12:00 a.m.'s
You'll find me swerving off some lines, lines
Yeah, work's got me strung out
Coming home to a ghost town
Yeah, I can't sleep, it's killing me
I keep telling myself it ain't 'cause of these white lines, lines

But I swear I'm trying to get out of this hell
Every time I look for love, I end up hurting myself
From the outside looking in, I'm just fucked up again
If you cared enough, you'd see
There's more to me that meets the eye
If you read between the lines
Yeah, I guess we finally burned out
She's in someone else's truck now
All those 'never agains' and 'where you beens'
Turned into me running out of lines, lines
But I swear I'm trying to get out of this hell
Every time I look for love, I end up hurting myself
From the outside looking in, I'm just fucked up again
If you cared enough, you'd see
There's more to me than meets the eye
If you read between
The lines on the bathroom counter
All the ones from the drunk texts after
Every time I try to rewrite my lines
I get stuck here in this chapter
But I swear I'm trying to get out of this hell
Every time I look for love, I end up hurting myself
From the outside looking in, I'm just fucked up again
If you cared enough, you'd see
There's more to me than meets the eye
If you read between the-

austin snell - lines (onetake)

produced by yeahthismoh x deephartt x feastythaproducer

rip quan

lyrics;
u deserve better n we both know it
i love you but i never show it
i left the door open
and now you wanna close it

texting u at 3am telling u i miss you
you say we cant do this anymore
but i told you i needed you
we both know i cant love in the situation im in
i hate doing this to you
but im lonely so i pick up the phone and call
i gotta let you down easy
its almost fall and i cant give u my all
how can i know what i want
if i barely know how much longer i got

u deserve better n we both know it
i love you but i never show it
i left the door open
and now you wanna close it

one day i might come back
better than before
but dont count on that
im counting my cards and if i hit i know ill bust
ill do it because im wasted, 
im emotionally drained
im calling because i wanna meet
lets go on a vacation
lets go lets escape this
its all a thought i cant do this
one day ill come back i swear
one day itll be easier 
i cant let you go thru this with me
so please just block me
and dont answer me
dont pick up the phone when your lonely
i wanna be your somebody
but we cant do this
no we cant do this

u deserve better n we both know it
i love you but i never show it
i left the door open
and now you wanna close it

use somebody

produced by hollowprpl

lyrics;
i know you hate me now
baby i got a purple heart
im all alone now
its just me and this guitar
i know you hate me now
fuck this place
im just gonna lay here facedown
please trap me
and make sure i cant get out

we link up n she told me not to tell nobody
like i would tell anybody
laying low has been my life
keeping it lowkey cuz u got the knife
hope u give me a chance more than one time.
i know i lied for the 2nd time
but its hard to not tell a lie 
when u lived this life
u keep alot inside 
u dont trust anyone
look me in the eyes
do u think i wanna feel like this
i dont give a fuck drain my life
for the 10th time

i been going thru alot lately
nothing has made sense to me
but i hope i figure it out

tell me i didn't fuck up my life
turn off the lights
you already have the knife
im not alright
im better off in the afterlife

i know you hate me now
baby i got a purple heart
im all alone now
its just me and this guitar
i know you hate me now
fuck this place
im just gonna lay here facedown
please trap me
and make sure i cant get out


hate me now

produced by. wraithontheporch x ne'erdowell

lyrics; lost somewhere on my pc lol

walking home in the snow

produced by sorrow bringer

1st single off the ep w/ sorrow bringer on the 30th

new to me (freestyle)

22 | vox/songwriter & engineer 

i make what i want my music isnt for everyone

email - m@scars.online

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