produced by ryan kelly

lyrics;
living life in the camo
living life to dismantle
im living this life like a gamble
and i hate you
and i hate me
doesnt matter if i hate u

im petrified
im terrified 
i keep asking why 
but idk why
why do i keep on crying
are you really down to die?
are you alright?
are you too high?
Do you think youll die
i think youll be fine
take another one
it only numbs your mind
tell me your fine

keep asking why
keep asking why
please dont let me die
they kept telling me my futures bright
than why am i getting high
tell me im fine
tell everyone i tried
this isnt how i wanted to die
i loved you, never mind
please dont let me die here
im living every day in fear
popping one than 3 more 
i dont wanna die here
but fuck it im popping 3 more

i keep asking why 
i keep asking why
why do i keep on crying
are you really down to die?
are you alright?
are you too high?
Do you think youll die
i think youll be fine
take another one
it only numbs your mind
tell me your fine

living life in the camo
living life to dismantle
im living this life like a gamble
and i hate you
and i hate me
doesnt matter if i hate u



one more

sample from the notebook
produced by. boyfifty

lyrics;
the hardest truth to swallow 
is that there isn't always tomorrow
and you know it deep down
that your running on time thats borrowed
i know that sounds morbid
but I've always been running on time thats borrowed
and ive never felt this hollow
maybe a grave never looked so shallow

i gave my heart and soul to a girl
gave her my whole fucking world
and all she wants todo is hurt me
break me, use me, hate me, its all the same
you can never hate me more than i already do
when will you get a clue
i dont wanna be alive
but i do it for you
because im nothing without you
im empty and i never see things thru
you where holding me together
fucked as it sounds you really where glue 
and im nothing without you

the hardest truth to swallow 
is that there isn't always tomorrow
and you know it deep down
that your running on time thats borrowed
i know that sounds morbid
but I've always been running on time thats borrowed
and ive never felt this hollow
maybe a grave never looked so shallow

shallow (without you)

produced by sorrow bringer x clozz

lyrics;
you know im a bit psychotic
but im only like this when im off the narcotics
kush got me coughing coughing
gin got me slurring while im talking
can i get 1 moment
cuz im too busy trying to be a trending topic
me n the bros in this call locked in

rain falling by my window sill
im trapped in this hell
i dont wanna go out
because this is how i always felt
i dont socialize 
i created this cell
i take shrooms until my brain melt
feel a lot of guilt
but i made this my life
cant trust a soul
my chains all gold 
im 23 but i act old
talking shit like u know me
if u know me than why didn't i fold
u broke the code
now everyone knows

trending topic

produced by sorrow bringer

inspired by sewer

lyrics;
im looking for a way to escape
so i dont even care what i take
it numbs the pain 
but also is slowly destroying my brain
how many prescription pills will it take
to finally go insane

im on drugs right now
while i record this
im on drugs right now
like im on some tour shit
living life like i got some motion
but im jus passing another blunt in the rotation
crazy smart but somehow i missed the calculation
you think hurting everyone was what i wanted todo
i didn't even have those intentions
new and old friends in my mentions
but im just ignoring them
im busy during this recording session
im making songs day in and day out
bouta record like 20 songs
and im not capping about that amount
im a good guy, atleast as good as a guy gets
she thinks i wanna see her naked
but i jus wanna think about our future
like do we vibe, do u lie, do i keep it all inside
i over think everything
and the drugs dont help

im on the drugs right now

im looking for a way to escape
so i dont even care what i take
it numbs the pain 
but also is slowly destroying my brain
how many prescription pills will it take
to finally go insane

how many lies does it take for me to break
how many people switch up before i start to act fake
and you all start to hate
like you all count every single mistake

i cant figure this out
its driving me insane
im searching for better days
but its getting late
hope i can escape
but this is fate
tear it down
i hate everything i make
breakdown
i hate every emotion i fake

im on drugs right now
im looking for a way to escape
so i dont even care what i take
it numbs the pain 
but also is slowly destroying my brain


prescription pills

produced by. wraithontheporch x ne'erdowell

non profit

lyrics; lost somewhere on my pc lol

walking home in the snow

scrap off hellscape

produced by sorrow bringer

lyrics;
bitch im a scumbag
we all know it
writing these songs its driving me mad
its supposed to help with feeling sad
but all i ever do is feel bad
so i am always the bad guy
all my friends call me a scumbag

im a outcast
smoking so much i have panic attacks
got way to high now im recording this track
i dont even know what im saying
ill switch up the flow and still fuck it up
most of my friends always popping shi or sipping on liquor in there cup
i dont even like feel like getting fucked up
i abused that shit and i was dumb
but ill still roll a blunt
ill eatsome shrooms jus to go on a trip for the night
im 23 and i haven't done anything with my life
im chasing girls that never loved me
im smoking until its late at night
im always picking fights
im never feeling alright
but i say it all the time
i think i need a new vibe
fuck doing a line
fuck sleeping in like im not even alive
fuck everything i got get my life together
im trying to be on my grind
it gets hard most of the time
but atleat i try
because when i feel like making a song its always raining

im a scumbag
they all know it
writing these songs its driving me mad
its supposed to help with feeling sad
but all i ever do is feel bad
so i am always the bad guy
all my friends call me a scumbag



scumbag

produced by sorrow bringer

1st single off the ep w/ sorrow bringer on the 30th

new to me (freestyle)

produced by sorrow bringer

lyrics;
who could of guess it would of ended like this
destroy me, break me until quit
who could of guessed id let it end like this 
oh oh oh she had me whipped
than i caught u fucking wit him 
now im sippin again
who could of guessed i let the demons win

im not here to talk
im here to get out
this is my breaking point
and u dont care at all
all the things i say has no point
so i give up and walk away

i dont wanna talk today
i dont wanna play your game
when all u do is blame
its not the same
i like it when it rains
and u hate it when im in pain
you sliced deep u hit the veins
i cant look u in the face
because im not feeling great


end like this

produced by sorrow bringer

influenced by 9tails 

lyrics; something about stopping the pain in my head or sum

thoughts (interlude)

produced by ne'erdowell x cl6udy
non profit

hourglass

22 | vox/songwriter & engineer 

i make what i want my music isnt for everyone

email - m@scars.online

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