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Discover my brand-new track “All 4 U” – a sweet yet thoughtful pop-driven vibe about longing, closeness, and that moment when everything feels like it’s only meant for you. Whether it’s late at night, in silence, or when you’re lost in your own world, “All 4 U” delivers the perfect soundtrack feeling.
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All 4 U

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SLAPPER - Enjoy The Silence '24 (DEPECHE MODE Cover)

"It Wasn’t Me" is a deeply personal track created with AI using Suno V5. Every detail—from haunting choirs and immersive solos to lush reverb—was crafted and mastered with Ozone 12 and custom plugins, including a vocal enhancer. The song is an emotional journey of self-reflection and healing, blending digital innovation with raw feeling.

Lyrics:

[intro]  
Yeah…  
Ten years gone… ten years lost…  
I’m standing here…  
Trying to pay the cost.  

It wasn’t me.  
It wasn’t me.  

[verse 1]  
I was a prisoner… inside my own skin.  
The powder… the bottle…  
The chaos within.  

Every promise I broke… every tear that you cried…  
It wasn’t my heart.  
It was poison inside.  

I know I cut deep.  
I left open scars.  
Chasing numbness…  
Beneath the stars.  

But if you could see the man I used to be…  
You’d know the darkness—  
Wasn’t truly me.  

[pre-chorus]  
Will you look past the lies?  
The broken years?  
Past the mask of anger.  
The shame. The fears?  

[chorus]  
It wasn’t me…  
It was the chains I wore.  
A haunted past  
I couldn’t ignore.  

If I sing from my balcony—  
“Forgive me. I love you. Set me free.”  
Would you see the man I’m trying to be?  
It wasn’t me.  
It wasn’t me.  

[verse 2]  
Addiction doesn’t ask.  
It doesn’t knock at your door.  
It just burns down  
Everything you’re living for.  

I never woke up.  
And chose this fight.  
I was running from shadows.  
Every night.  

Ten years blurred…  
Like a hurricane.  
But I’m standing now…  
Breaking the chain.  

If you can’t forget…  
I hope you’ll believe.  
I’m more than the ghost  
That you still see.  

[chorus]  
It wasn’t me…  
It was the chains I wore.  
A haunted past  
I couldn’t ignore.  

If I sing from my balcony—  
“Forgive me. I love you. Set me free.”  
Would you see the man I’m trying to be?  
It wasn’t me.  
It wasn’t me.  

[bridge]  
“Sorry… forgive me… it wasn’t me.”  
“Yeah…”  
“It wasn’t me…”  

[chorus]  
It wasn’t me…  
It was the pain I hid.  
The broken child.  
The life I lived.  

If I sing from my balcony—  
“Forgive me. I love you. Set me free.”  
Would you see the man I’m trying to be?  
It wasn’t me.  
It wasn’t me.  

[outro]  
Ten years gone…  
But I’m still here.  
Fighting through shame.  
Facing my fear.  

To all of the hearts I made bleed…  
Please believe…  
It wasn’t me.

It Wasn't Me

ed ghost story disguised as a chillwave bop. Shadows that drip, harps that rain, a harmonica that’s probably crying louder than you are — and a mocking female voice in the background casually reminding you: “oh, poor you…”

It’s like being stalked by your own thoughts in slow motion, with synth pads holding your hand while you try to run away (and fail). Perfect for late-night headphone therapy, dramatic walks through city streets, or sighing deeply at supermarket shelves because yes, even there… the ghost shows up.

🎶 Turn it up, let it haunt you, and remember: it’s not a breakup if the reverb lasts forever.

Lyrics:

Shadows drip, won’t fade from me
Every street, you’re all I see
Low flow, slow glow, deadly show
Where I stand or where I go

Can’t explain, can’t let it slide
You’re the hum I can’t deny
Midnight static in my head
Pulling on my every thread

Come on and haunt me — stalk me — follow me and chase me
You have the key — will never be free
Come on and haunt me — stalk me — follow me and chase me
Are you happy now to hear and see — such misery melody?

Cold flame, lost name, looping frame
Every move, you mark my name
Dead-end daylight, haunted nights
You rewire all my lights

Try to run, you rewind me
Same old reel, same old scene
You’re the glitch inside the glow
Negative flow in stereo

Come on and haunt me — stalk me — follow me and chase me
You have the key — will never be free
Come on and haunt me — stalk me — follow me and chase me
Are you happy now to hear and see — such misery melody?

Neon breath, the city slow
Harp like rain, the sirens low
Every step, you reappear
Mouth organ crying in my ear

Come on and haunt me — stalk me — follow me and chase me
You have the key — will never be free
Come on and haunt me — stalk me — follow me and chase me
Are you happy now to hear and see — such misery melody?

Haunt Me (Poor You)

2:30 AM Drift

Blue Eyes

A stone falls into the well and never lands. That’s the image that started this track — a meditation on depth, mystery, and the human need to search where answers may never come. “Deep, deeper, the deepest” is not just a refrain; it’s a reminder that truth often hides where light cannot reach, and that sometimes the search itself reveals more than the destination.

This song drifts between shadows and echoes, between hope and futility. It asks: what lies beneath our questions? Gold, grief, or nothing at all? In the end, perhaps the greatest wisdom is to accept that not every secret is meant to be uncovered.

A chillwave journey for late nights, headphones, and anyone who has ever stared too long into the dark — and felt it staring back.

Lyrics:

I dropped a stone into the well,
It never hit the ground I could tell.
The echo faded, swallowed whole,
A depth beyond my mind’s control.

What are you hiding under there?
Gold or grief or just thin air?
I leaned too far, I lost my grip,
Fell into the endless crypt.

Deep, deeper, the deepest —
Truth costs a fortune, lies come the cheapest.
Deep, deeper, the deepest —
The darker it gets, the brighter the secrets.

A whisper calls from underneath,
A siren’s song, a riddle’s teeth.
Is it a chest with locks of rust?
Or just the dust of ancient trust?

Maybe a voice that begs release,
Maybe a scroll with broken peace.
Maybe the wisdom no one claimed,
Or maybe nothing — all the same.

Deep, deeper, the deepest —
Truth costs a fortune, lies come the cheapest.
Deep, deeper, the deepest —
The darker it gets, the brighter the secrets.

I asked the depth, “What do you keep?”
It only answered back with sleep.
I asked again, “Why go so far?”
It laughed like some forgotten star.

And then I saw — the joke was me,
Searching where I’ll never see.
Not every door is meant to bend,
Not every question needs an end.

Deep, deeper, the deepest —
Truth costs a fortune, lies come the cheapest.
Deep, deeper, the deepest —
Go lose yourself, go laugh with the secrets.

Go deep… deeper… deeper than reason,
Some things are made to stay out of season.
Go deep… deeper… don’t ask me why,
Some mysteries live, some answers must die.

Deeper

🎧 SONG INSIGHT POST — “Hollow Name” by 4Me2BeFree
🔻 Song Insight

“Hollow Name” explores the emptiness that follows false love — when the person you thought you knew fades into someone unrecognizable. It’s the echo of what could’ve been, looping in the quiet after heartbreak. The song walks through grief, disbelief, and self-acceptance, set against a soundscape that feels both dreamlike and devastating. It’s a reflection on betrayal and the strange comfort of realizing that the ghost you miss was never real.

🔻 Lyrics

[Intro]
Yeah...
Still got your ghost in my brain,
Can’t lie, it hurts.

[Verse 1]
Didn’t think I’d have to kill the feeling,
Bury my heart, just to start the healing.
Mute that pain, I don’t wanna feel it,
Every time I try, I start reliving.
My best friend gone, can’t fake that ache,
Hate that I care, hate every mistake.
You had me fooled, thought it was fate,
Guess real love don’t show up late.

[Pre-Chorus]
How I miss somebody that broke me down?
How I crave the fire that burned me out?

[Chorus]
You had the one who gave you their all,
You let it fall, you let it fall.
You threw it away for a moment’s fame,
Now I’m stuck calling your hollow name.
Yeah, your hollow name...
Still echoes the same.

[Verse 2]
You had it all, but you gave it away,
For nothin’ real, just shadows that fade.
Fake connections, empty highs,
You keep on runnin’ from your own lies.
I could never stand and watch you drown,
I walked away, had to stand my ground.
But I still see your face when the lights go down,
I still hear your voice when there’s no sound.

[Pre-Chorus]
How I miss somebody that tore me apart?
How I love the one who scarred my heart?

[Chorus]
You had the one who gave you their all,
You let it fall, you let it fall.
You threw it away for a moment’s fame,
Now I’m stuck calling your hollow name.
Yeah, your hollow name...
Still echoes the same.

[Bridge]
Yeah, I’ll bury it deep,
That part of me that used to believe.
You’re just a ghost in my memory,
You ain’t the one I see in my dreams.

[Outro]
I made my peace, I set you free,
But I still bleed when I think of me.
You chose your path, I stayed in pain,
Now I’m done whisperin’ your hollow name.

🔻 Personal Reflection

“Hollow Name” came from a strange stillness — that moment after heartbreak when you finally stop chasing explanations. It’s the echo of truth after illusion fades. Writing it helped me understand that sometimes what hurts most isn’t losing someone — it’s realizing they were never who you thought they were. This track is less about pain and more about release, turning absence into understanding.

🔻 4Me2BeFree

For 4Me2BeFree, “Hollow Name” represents the cinematic depth of emotional aftermath. It lives in the space between grief and acceptance, using sound and story to bridge the two. Every note mirrors our mission to transform raw emotion into something listeners can see, feel, and heal through. This track continues our exploration of truth — not the kind that comforts, but the kind that sets you free.

🔻 Copyright Notice

All lyrics and content featured in this post are protected under copyright (© 2025) and have been securely time-locked and validated through a crypto-based verification system to ensure originality and ownership. Unauthorized reproduction or distribution of any part of these works without explicit consent is strictly prohibited.

Hollow Name

Welcome to Apartment 404 — where silence has been permanently evicted, rent is paid in sanity, and the landlord DJs through your nightmares. 🎧

You wanted peace? Too bad. Downstairs, the gods are rehearsing their new EDM track called “Existential Bassline of Despair.” The ceiling laughs in reverb, the fridge gives unsolicited life advice, and the cat runs a small philosophy podcast at 3 AM.

This is not a song. This is a lease agreement with the absurd.
A chillwave track for anyone who’s ever tried to meditate while their neighbor hosts a 72-hour techno séance.

So dim the lights, open a can of cold reality, and repeat after me:
Boom Boom Trahlahlahlah — the only therapy your deposit doesn’t cover.

🎛️ Unbekannter Künstler presents: “Apartment 404” — a surreal synth tragedy you can dance to while crying in Morse code.

Lyrics:

Welcome to Apartment 404.
Silence unavailable.
Please hold while reality loads…

I rent a dream on the fifth floor high,
Below me the gods rehearse their lie.
They sing in circles, neon crimes,
The bassline files my wasted time.
My plants confess, the fridge replies,
I blink in Morse to my own demise.
Dark-pop insomnia, surreal groove of sighs.

Boom Boom Trahlahlahlah —
The ceiling breathes, the walls go ha-ha-ha!
Boom Boom Trahlahlahlah —
My landlord laughs from Apartment 404.
No God, no sleep, no door to bar —
Just Boom Boom Trahlahlahlah! 

The DJ’s ghost lives in my sink,
He plays my thoughts before I think.
The mailbox hums, the carpet moans,
The rent is due in dial tones.
I wrote to Heaven, the letter bounced —
The beat replied, “You’ve been pronounced.”
Cinematic synth nightmare, existential house announced.

Boom Boom Trahlahlahlah —
The universe claps in minor, ha-ha-ha!
Boom Boom Trahlahlahlah —
My sanity packed a suitcase for afar.
No soul refund, no seminar —
Just Boom Boom Trahlahlahlah! 

The hallway dreams in 808s,
The lift reports my moral state.
Someone downstairs just got promoted to thunder.
Form A-19, “Request for Quiet” —
Status: Pending since eternity.

The cat’s a prophet, the chair’s a spy,
My calendar screams “comply, comply.”
I dance with paperwork till dawn,
Kafka smiles — the music’s on.
They say the rhythm sets you free,
But I’ve become the melody.
Existential electro, absurd reality.

At 404 the night won’t quit,
The walls file taxes, the lights commit.
The doorbell whispers “You still here?”
I nod — the bass becomes sincere.
My neighbour’s laughter signs my fate,
A disco bureaucrat of late.
Neon despair with a smiley rate.

Boom Boom Trahlahlahlah —
Apartment 404 is the beating scar.
Boom Boom Trahlahlahlah —
I am the tenant of the avant-garde.
No truth, no rest, no guiding star —
Just Boom Boom Trahlahlahlah! 

If you don’t come to the world…
The world moves in next door.
Boom… Boom… Trahlahlahlah.

Apartment 404 (Chillwave Version)

Un instant suspendu entre la fin et le recommencement, où la solitude devient lumière.
Écho d’un soleil qui disparaît lentement, laissant place à la réflexion et au calme intérieur.

alone in sunset

She said forever — and left me in the dark.
So I danced through the pain, until all that was left was a hint of flame.

A Hint of Flame

NOT ON MY TEAM

REACHIN' FOR MY CHAIN I BURN YOU UP JUS' LIKE THE SUN! 🔥☀️

JET LI

Ah yes — the classic “existential drizzle on the Autobahn” vibe 🌧️🚗💭.

This track is what happens when you overthink your life somewhere between St. Pölten and nowhere, your wipers performing a modern dance to the rhythm of regret, and your last coffee from a grey motel café starts tasting like your ex’s voicemail. ☕📞

“Living the Moment” is that chillwave fever dream where the only GPS is your feelings, the only traffic jam is in your brain, and the only passenger is your inner poet wearing sunglasses indoors. 😎

Perfect for:

Driving west while questioning your entire existence

Pretending your fogged-up window is a cinematic metaphor

Nodding slowly like a philosopher in an Opel Corsa

🎧 Play it loud enough so the raindrops keep rhythm.
And if you hear voices — that’s just the radio guy promising a “brighter dawn.”
Yeah, sure buddy.

Lyrics:

I’m driving west this morning,
Cold rain falls on the road,
Vienna fades behind me slow,
Salzburg waits in the unknown.
The coffee steam still lingers,
From that grey motel café,
The radio hums a velvet song,
And I just drift away.

Living the moment on my wheels,
The world keeps turning under steel,
Raindrops drum their little deals,
Living the moment, on my wheels. 

Fog wraps the fields in silver,
The signs all blur to blue,
A thousand puddles mirror
The sky that I once knew.
My mind is soft and quiet,
The wipers mark the beat,
Half driving, half just floating,
Through rivers on concrete.

Living the moment on my wheels,
No destination, just how it feels,
Raindrops write their secret reels,
Living the moment, on my wheels. 

The motorway’s a mirror,
And every car’s a thought,
We move, we slow, we scatter —
All chasing what we’ve lost.
The radio man keeps talking,
About some brighter dawn,
But I just keep on gliding
Through November’s song.

Living the moment on my wheels,
The road is long but my heart heals,
Rain like music, soft and real,
Living the moment, on my wheels.

Living the Moment

Componist, Beatmaker, Producer from Germany - Düsseldorf 

I am currently looking for musicians who are interested in working together. I create 99% of my music myself, that means composing, sound selection, mixing & mastering…. I would like to improve my skills by working with you and learning from each other and creating something beautiful. I am not tied to any genre and am happy about every request.
Until then, 
1st Collin

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"If it didn’t matter, it wouldn’t hurt. Pain is the gift of knowing you’re alive."

4Me2BeFree is more than music—it’s my story, my scars, and my survival. Every song is a piece of me, a raw melody of love, heartbreak, and resilience. I blend AI-generated vocals and instruments with real emotions, turning my experiences—especially from an LGBTQ+ perspective—into something that speaks to anyone who's ever felt lost, broken, or just searching for something real.

Breakup songs? Yeah, they hit different. Music carries us through the worst of it, and every generation finds their own anthems of love, loss, and getting back up. Heartache doesn’t care about age, gender, or where you come from—music connects us all.

I make music because I’ve been there. The pain, the anger, the hope—it's all in these songs. If something here hits home for you, let it. If you feel something, let me know. That’s the connection that keeps this alive.

calme après le chaos
entre cosmos et solitude

A lifelong creative mind blending technology and art. My journey began in 2005 through the lens of photography — from aerial and macro to underwater imagery — and evolved over 13 years as an Official Government Photographer. Along the way, videography and drone cinematography expanded my visual storytelling.

Music has always been my heartbeat — I play eight instruments and record from my own home studio. With a strong foundation in IT and my role as a Senior Administrative Specialist, I now channel all these worlds into neuroART — a project fusing AI, music, and imagery to explore the intersection of human emotion and machine creativity.

hey, i’m kikai udon.
i write from the moments i couldn’t decide, the spaces i didn’t fill.
i keep the mess, the pauses, the things i never said.
if you’re somewhere in between, take what you need and leave the rest.

Hi there — welcome to my corner of the web.

I’m here for one simple reason: to share my music with you.
Take a listen, explore, and I hope something here resonates with you. Enjoy the vibe!

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