I know you're a demon, not personal, you just doing your job 
I'd like to hear from you from time to time
I miss loving you, you know? 
It felt nice saying I love you, goodnight
Lately I've being thinking that ain't coming back 
That was the first and last time I'll get to try 

Can I say what I think about you in 3 words?
When looking at your eyes makes me feel the rush?
I think barely cought couple from the lot
(Said Christmas instead of Haloween, hopefully that way you'll never get to see how you got me staring at the ceiling in my bead 
Yeah music pretty important, but really who cares? 
Strenght is what you got, even though you never see it I can feel it 'cause I really ain't got nay)

Oh fuck I really love your story
How your mind drifts away in your memories
I feel numb 'cause your mind's a fucking labyrinth
Baby I'm still sorry for Dicember 
I killed what started in November 
Right after we first kissed in October 
(Right before you came back to make me remember
It wasn't even about us, I hugged you back in September) 
You told me shit was fucked up, back home's getting heavier 
You was happy to be there, 'cause we make you forget her 
And damn we liked each other, something sweet that seemed so perfect
But I should've hold on to that dance, your sugar kinda salty made me say yes to quick
At least we tried something, guess I would've never said nothing

I love writing about you (Please do me a favour)
There's so many ways to look at us (Don't forget we had another love)
But this the last time I use you (Don't call 'cause I aint gonna pick up)
To write another story 'bout us (One truth and two lies) (Two truths and a lie) 
A short chorus, baby's just like us (let me hate you, that's all) (I love you, that's all)
Long verses, you never asked me 'bout this
(Thanks for asking 'bout this, You won't get the reference, This is how love feels, like happy sad memories fucking up your pace)

This gon' be a long one
Babe don't  runaway, wait nine minutes, don't skip to the end  
Didn't give much thought into choosing your song 
I'd already let so much out in a different one 
Sorry I didn't say nothing, for so long 
I miss you when your sitting next to me, singing love songs
I wrote you several, hurt some times, but shit they were honest words
Sometimes I wish I could say something, it's better like this, it could be worse girl
(I'd rather write a huge long verse 
I got angry every other day, makes sense, if you kinda did the same thing another someone did before 
It's still wrong, but shit they can confirm I still love you, I should scream it to the top of my lungs)

But no
No no no, that's wrong 
Fuck, fuck, fuck, this is love 
Love, love, love, I'm not done
Done, done, wrong, I'm done


This should be over, but I still got shit to say, or not, shit's pink and white, I don't really know, but I think I'm feeling okay, to look into your eyes and get lost one more time in that shine
Would you let me try? Pay no mind, it's alright, go sleep tight, this wasn't a good day, you need a doctor
Come..., let your sundress fly high baby

The Last Of Our Experiment

Adapted from remarks made by Cassie Haynes during a session at the 2022 Collaborative Journalism Summit titled, "Making money beyond grants" in May 2022.

Learn more at https://collaborativejournalism.org/cjs

Produced by Joe Amditis (@jsamditis)

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