TOOPOOR - SWEET LOVE OF MINE [slow/reverb]

written, recorded, and mixed by non/real
mastered by @1wondir
produced by @plantcham

"obsidian encasing me
obsidian too thick i can hardly breathe
break me out
breathe me in
show me your empathy
can't get out
walls cave in
constantly confine me

i can't complete a thought without you getting to me
you feel the tension
you need my presence
please hear my message

i feel trapped
my brain keep cutting me
back to back
my reflection
stained on the glass
i can't get it off
i saw you once and i have relapsed

obsidian encasing me
obsidian too thick i can hardly breathe
break me out
breathe me in
show me your empathy
can't get out
walls cave in
constantly confine me"
-xxxxx

"obsidian" prod/plantcham

written, mixed, recorded by non/real
produced by @plantcham

"oh hell no

im done reminiscing
im tired of the bitchin'
ive burned down all my bridges 
just so i can look back at the smoke

you god forsaken soul
i doubt you'll ever grow old
it breaks my heart, turns it cold
and i know theres not a thing i could do
for you

oh hell no"
- xxxxx

"oh-hell-no" 04/02/23' prod/plantcham

recorded 10042024
written, recorded, mastered, mixed by non/real
produced by neverforever

"everyday just feels just the same
the poison drains me and i
can't remember your name
how could i forget such a name
like yours
i know you miss me everyday
i'd be lying if i told you i don't feel the same
it burns me to ash
to think of you suffering
my love
the burden is killing me
i can't succeed 
at you
oh my love
please come back to me
whenever you're ready 
just please
hear my voice
even if i can't sing

oh my love
oh my god
oh"

"everyday" prod/neverforever

recorded 11212024
written, mastered, mixed, recorded by non/real
produced by waves

"you're all that i need
if you're all that i need
ugh
if you're all that i need
then i'll give you what i got
if you want me to bleed
if you're all that i need
then i'll give you want i got
if you want me to leave
then come take my spot
from me

if you're all that i need
then i'll give you what i got
if you want me leave
then i'll go home bleed
but baby
please
try your best for me
that's all i can ask you to do
i know you can hear me
so please just hear me
and do what's best for you
so please

please take care of yourself

you're all i need
then i want you stay
if you're all that i need
then i really want you
cos i really want you
everyday
you already know
ugh

head over heels
or heals over head
it's one or the other it just
depends

if you want me to go
then i will just go
if you need me to leave
then i'll suck it up and just pack my bags
i'll go home
you'll never see me again
regardless if i'm alone
you'll go home
and i'll leave you
alone
i won't come back
cos i know that's not what's best for you
my love"
- xxxxx

"need" prod/waves

recorded wednesday, ‎august ‎30th, ‎2023
by non/real

"my bloody lips
on your bloody hips
i cant take my eyes off you
the ecstasy is failing me
i dont think i could fight much longer
dont lie to me
i see right through you
you used to love me
how could you?
how could you, baby?" x2
- xxxxx

"bloody"

started: 01232025
recorded, mixed, written, master by non/real
production by erra

"i know i should, but i could never hate you, no
i have all the reason 
ive lived through all the pain
almost been at death from all this suffering
some parts are still scarred into me
no it’s not your fault babe
i did it to myself
no no you’ve never been in the wrong
how could you ever babe? 
you just wanted me
but i messed us all up
no i never wanted this
no no no no baby not at all
no no no no babe it’s all
it’s all my fault
i did it all wrong
no you dont need to say another word
no ive heard it all before
there’s nothing you can say to change my mind
no not this time"
- xxxxx

"scars" prod/erra

started: 01232025
recorded, mixed, written, master, slowed by non/real
production by erra

"i know i should, but i could never hate you, no
i have all the reason
ive lived through all the pain
almost been at death from all this suffering
some parts are still scarred into me
no it’s not your fault babe
i did it to myself
no no you’ve never been in the wrong
how could you ever babe?
you just wanted me
but i messed us all up
no i never wanted this
no no no no baby not at all
no no no no babe it’s all
it’s all my fault
i did it all wrong
no you dont need to say another word
no ive heard it all before
there’s nothing you can say to change my mind
no not this time"
- xxxxx

"scars_slow" prod/erra

started: 12212024
recorded, mixed, written, by non/real
master by wondir
production by myss

(reuploaded, since i accidently deleted this *frown emoji*).

"you look so ugly next to him
the way you just fall back
you tried to move on from me
but you can't get me out
(you can't get me out)
i’m under your skin
(your skin)
i’m in your walls
(i’m in your walls)
i’m the voice in the back of your head
(in the back of your head)
i’m the ink you just can’t rub off

i’ve been reliving every single thing
to your colored hair
to the way you looked to me
the way you held yourself
while i put you through misery
i tried to live through a dream
but i guess i woke up from my sleep
oh darling you don’t need to say a thing
to me
you don’t need to say a thing
just save your breath for me
just try to get some sleep
oh my love
just please listen to me
take some rest
take my sympathy

do you miss how we’re supposed to be?
just fighting for each other
just fighting for some peace
but i know you too well
i memorized every detail
smeared across my face
is your favorite color
every fucking shade

i’ve been reliving every single thing
to your colored hair
to the way you looked to me
the way you held yourself
while i put you through misery
i tried to live through a dream
but i guess i woke up from my sleep
oh darling you don’t need to say a thing
to me
you don’t need to say a thing
just try to run away
just try to get away"
- xxxxx

"so detailed" prod/myss

recorded: 
vocals, mix, written, master by non/real
production by erra

"...it’s been a hundred days
since i wiped the tears off your face

i tried to give you what you wanted
now we wither away

oh

i wonder, do you still have my flowers hung on your wall?

oh

your wall

oh.."
- xxxxx

"entry; 100days"

started: 02232025
lyrics, vocals, mix, master by non/real
produced by neverforever

“im clawing at my skin, im trying to get you out
i cannot make a sound, so  i gotta hold my breath
so deep in, i try not to reminisce
i just know ill end up where i begin  
broken arms, and now so many scars
all these splinters were deep
all over my arms
one hug from you
and now i burn like
likelike like stars

i gotta let you go
even if i don't want to 
i gotta let you go
i gotta let you go”
- xxxxx

"splinters"

started: 02172025
lyrics, vocals, mix, master by non/real
produced by neverforever

"no one can hurt you now

i keep talking to myself
hoping you'd respond like
man i hate the silence
get me out these walls
i gave her my all
i gave her all away
i cant see your face
live now, but die again another day
(live now)
everyday just feel the same
(die again)
i can't keep on going on
i got blood stains on my arms
(another day)
i-i-i still got scars from that day
they almost had my picture framed
almost stood around my grave
held their hands and fucking prayed
but thanks to myself
i'll live to die another day
everyday just feels the same
i can't keep on going on
i got blood stains on my arms
i-i-i can't keep on going on
i got blood stains on my arms
i gave her my all
i gave her all away
i can't see your face"
- xxxxx

"bloodstains"

started: 02102025
lyrics, vocals, mix, master by non/real
produced by shade08

bro thinks he's ericdoa or smth..

"babe it's do or die
but with you it feels like suicide
been on my mind
and i can’t get you out
everything about you
just lingers around
everywhere i go
i see you around
they been looking at me like
‘man how could you let her go?’

go"
- xxxxx

"go"

started: 04042025
lyrics, vocals, mix, master by non/real
produced by neverforever

"you think i hate you?
i'll come out say that
slap me across the face
baby i like that
rewind to yesterday
got two cats on the lap
purring, now hissing
i'm abouta get attacked
hey 
you say you missing me
you miss the old me
come on now baby
come here and show me
come on now baby
treat me like the old me
move it so slowly
you want it to last 

you think i hate you?
i'll come out say that
baby i hate you
don't ever come back
ik you well
ik you will relapse
you’ll crumble into me
cry out your misery
i told once
and i'll tell you again
don't ever come back
no we is not friends
you’ll try and bend down
i won’t hesitate to break it
over and over
again and again"
- jake

"missing me"

started: 04272025
lyrics, vocals, mix, master by non/real
produced by neverforever + non/real

"you don't seem to ever change
your hair still the same color
my tears fall down like feathers
the leaves blow in the wind,
regardless of the weather

i can't seem to get away
from you now"

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