Never Sober (Prod. Splashgang)

(vacant)
every breath that i take is filled with all kinds of hate
i need to focus
this is all the same that you told me it'd be
its all love from you
told me to sit down
i was quiet and calm
i see a future with you
im growing in mold the more hesitate with you

let me build up our walls 
protect us from every hazard
i dont need no cause of death
to know that something has happened
coz when im gone
that'll be it for the story i told
and every romance has a ending
but this one is cold
ill fabricate my death
to spend eternity with you
coz your all i need
just me and you

every breath that i take is filled with all kinds of hate
i need to focus
this is all the same that you told me it'd be
its all love from you

(softsystem)
Lately I’ve been distant, 
Wear my heart up on my sleeve but something’s missing.
I’ve been tryna stay afloat but it’s a mission,
Need intermission.

When it all goes wrong will you call my name? 
When it all goes wrong, will it fall into place?
Every time I touch your skin,
I feel it all again.
Was there something that I missed?
I fear it’s on my end.

A man weeps and grieves at the sight of his sacred garden,
Just please believe, it was never my intent to harm you.
In the bleak sunlight I sit and write while I take my time to heal,
Would it be alright if I could just lay down and tell you how I feel?

A man weeps and grieves at the sight of his sacred garden,
Just please believe, it was never my intent to harm you.

quiet conversations (feat. softsystem)

Lost a few things as of recent, life anything but decent
When we re-up on my teeth
It's the only time you catch me cheesin

visualizer: https://youtu.be/ihsYwdApTwU

losses

make believe

prod @jolst
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is that all you can handle
looking in the mirror and I see myself in tangle
is that all you can handle
I tell myself the same thing 
is it just ramble?
talking to myself I know what I can do
then doubt comes I know what ive been through
from the pills to the alcohol, stuck like glue
got myself from there to here so I knew

that wasn't all I could handle
been through the rut than more than just a handful
had my friends to call 
and to stand through the storm I was that blew me out just like a candle 
I can tell u all the things that I hate
I can tell u all the things that weigh
well im past that now
I don't feel that hate
im happy now need to realise it 

is that all you can handle
looking in the mirror and I see myself in tangle
is that all you can handle
I tell myself the same thing 
is it just ramble?
talking to myself I know what I can do
then doubt comes I know what ive been through
from the pills to the alcohol, stuck like glue
got myself from there to here so I knew

I had to get high
so that I could waste time
watch my life pass by
I don't know what I was thinking
certainly knew yeah what I was mixing yeah
that was a bad time of my life
thinking back I wish I could go back in time
tell myself that everything will be alright
alright alright alright

is that all you can handle
looking in the mirror and I see myself in tangle
is that all you can handle
I tell myself the same thing 
is it just ramble?
talking to myself I know what I can do
then doubt comes I know what ive been through
from the pills to the alcohol, stuck like glue
got myself from there to here so I knew

talking in the mirror

(pain/love)

Written by: Phantom Eclipse
Produced by: 05alagen
Mixed by: Phantom Eclipse & AkiraDoves
Mastered by: AkiraDoves
Artwork edited by: Phantom Eclipse

[Intro]
Just why did you have to leave
You're me & I'm you
So don't fucking
Leave me behind

[Verse]
Back in 2018 and 2019
They'd fight every night
Locking myself away
In my safety chamber
Drowning ears with
9tails, guardin, hk, nothing nowhere, and NF
Music was my life line

[Chorus]
Still have insecurities
I'll never give up hope just to die
That's your funeral
But I won't take the cyanide
I'll live past unlike you

[Bridge]
Somehow I found love within friends
I can call mine
Made a song for them
Called Make Me Shine

[Chorus]
I still have insecurities that I hide
Still I'll never give up hope just to die
In the end
That's your funeral
But I won't take the cyanide
Trying to find the truth
Within these Polaroids

insecurities (Prod. 05alagen)

(FREE) guardin + nothing, nowhere + midwest emo trap type beat "was it ever real"

visualizer: https://youtu.be/zHeToGeaJgY
sample:https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6XJBDX3Z0BY
vox:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=56ojW_pCNxg
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6sdq4N5S_xc
https://soundcloud.com/o67o/sorry
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u1QF-LWNUdY

awake

prod, mix & master by me :D

tell me
have you been lost before
found the silence knocking on your door
wondering what you're living for
feeling like you lose control

have you ever walked through the dark alone
chasing ghosts in places that you used to know
eyes wide but the light feels damn low
tryna find a way back home

but you're already there
tell me why's it lonely here
the suns bright but its not clear
its warm but its nowhere near
you try to smile but all you feel is fear
i trace my steps on the broken glass
time wont bleed it just wont pass
reflections lie in every pane
a thousand versions of the same pain

im tired i try not to lie
i focus on inside
i try not to die
but people need me here
its hard to suffice
im broken inside
im broken inside
im broken

tell me
have you been lost before
found the silence knocking on your door
wondering what you're living for
feeling like you lose control

im lost in places that shouldn't be known
in a crowd but im still alone
the compass spins but the signal fades
every landmark feels handmade
im walking distance' to see the same things
the pavement crumbles is this my fate?
consciousness is slipping away, away, away

agoraphobic

prod jolst

I can tell u that its like
tell u that im like this
u don't have to say anything
just hold a tight fist
I can tell u that its like
tell u that im like this
I cant be myself
so I sit in silence

never been the one to blend in
always felt like I was too different from them
im feeling strange when I should be on the offence
only cheer from the background are they really my friends
so I get so tired
is that what its like
to be so different that you sit an be quiet
leave your thoughts to your own
and that's fine
alright alright alright alright

I can tell u that its like
tell u that im like this
u don't have to say anything
just hold a tight fist
I can tell u that its like
tell u that im like this
I cant be myself
so I sit in silence

I never wanna tell you where it begins
I don't wanna ever relive it
school was hell
and now im older
I can hardly tell
that pain got colder
always felt like I was out of place
like a ghost walking In the human space
they laughed while I stayed in my shell
told myself "you don't belong, but oh well"

I can tell u that its like
tell u that im like this
u don't have to say anything
just hold a tight fist
I can tell u that its like
tell u that im like this
I cant be myself
so I sit in silence

different

First collaboration between Istasha and me.

STREAM EVERYWHERE -> idm.fm/byracka

prod Istasha, Nimbustwokay, Lord Gasp
Mix master by Lord Gasp
Artwork by Istasha, Buvard, Lord Gasp

LYRICS 

Lord gasp intro:

Self starvation
Alleviate my pain
Im roller coasting
Kiss death with my two eyes closed
A bad bitch with a lethal dose
cradled by jaw clenching
Carefully salting the wounds
now does it sound drastic
Preferring me over you
Can’t be surprised its crashing
there was more signs in the sky pointing out 
than there’ll ever be bird wings

Istasha verse  :

Cyclic
Mind splat when the vice hits 
Intact thought sat where the sky sit
Cyclic, cut, scythe click
Let the metal hit  the grass 
And Despite this 
What i want 
What I’m on
Reap, eat, die 
Crescent get it done 
What I want 
What I’m on 
Two sides of a coin in a pond 
De sat; White clip
Fuckin with the Wiring 
Cut it, need a second of action don’t need a 
Sidekick 
Blackout, Sight dip 
Automate entirely 
A tired light, uncertain on principle 
Like twice slit 
What I want 
What I’m on 
Sow my feet down deep then I 
Can keep calm 
What I want 
What I’m on 
that purge my being on the spot type shit

Lord Gasp verse:
Sorry i fuck it up issa classic
Tired of soaking up in my acid
Calamity tightly sewn in my fabric
Burnt out , drape all these bridges in my toxic sludge
Depravity tearing away my sense of trust
I rotted my psyche away, turnt into curdled pus
i gut- gutted my heart out for you maggot sluts
leeches, boggus, sever the scum

Lord Gasp bridge :
Cradled by jaw clenching
Carefully salting the wounds
now does it sound drastic
Preferring me over you
Can’t be surprised its crashing
there was more signs in the sky pointing out than there’ll ever be bird wings

Lord Gasp outro :
Rip my limbs
And leave me split into segments 
So you can pick where my flesh sit
For y’all to feed off, you leeches 

Istasha outro:
Heavenly absorbed
And I swallow the last of the puddles
Sittin covered in a black interval 
Suddenly 
I’m up until planets fall out 
can they die 
Break the word

>STREAM<

Byracka (with Istasha)

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Episode 425 - Gridiron

Un viaggio emotivo tra sonorità trap alternative, influenze emo rap e atmosfere cupe. Per fan di Lil Peep, Juice WRLD e l’estetica sadboy.
Beat malinconico, ma niente 808 distorti, parole taglienti.
Se ti piacciono i suoni sporchi, viscerali e sinceri, premi play.
Condividi, aggiungi ai preferiti e tagga chi vive a metà tra la rabbia e la malinconia.

💔 Cuore Spezzato

⛓𓌹*♰*𓌺⛓
Contact: crxtiamusic@gmail.com

New Music Video out 
https://youtu.be/UhkCGzSZ1TA?si=bx29Ta8rYyVz9DPA

My former names include @kurama_sd , @kurama-sad , @reapers-shadow, & @reapers-remnants

My alt account is @kurumi-violet It will be used for emo plugg & more cutesy music

This account is for Dark hyperpop, Shoe gaze, Alt rock, & DnB might have other styles if they fit or are needed to convey an albums theme.

Hard Rock / Metal Podcast. The show features interviews from Rock n Roll Hall of Famers to emerging artists.

Ravenna è grigia, io ancora di più.
Ho imparato a respirare tra i fumi industriali e a cantare nei vicoli vuoti.
Ogni traccia è una cicatrice, ogni beat un modo per non sparire.
Faccio sad rap perché sorridere mi viene male.
Il mio sound? Una preghiera mormorata con l’autotune, mentre fuori piove ruggine.

do i have to? Elliott 
thehouseonstilts.bandcamp.com

https://onearth1.bandcamp.com/

weirdo music based on spiritual experiences

New tracks tagged #nothing nowhere