Does it even matter anymore?
Stuck with this feeling in my core
Something that I never felt before
Won't let me go

Won't let me go

I'm way too focused on me
I'm giving into my hopes and my greed
But they try to paint like it's much worse than it seems
And they wonder why I'm tearing at the seams
I try to bear it 'til I

Break

Lyrics:

Puente:


Me soltaste en la noche sin decirme por qué
Me dejaste en pedazos, herido y ausente
Fuiste luz un momento, después indiferente
Y respiro recuerdos que matan mi mente

Verso:


Y no hay forma de hablarte sin volver a sangrar
Cada letra que escribo me vuelve a quebrar
Yo me di por completo sin nada que guardar
Y vos fuiste la herida que me hizo sangrar
Y no hay noche que pase sin verte en mi mente
Aunque duela pensarte, siempre estás presente
Me dejaste sin nada, siendo indiferente
Me quitaste la paz, me volví diferente
Y aunque quiera olvidarte, no logro escapar
De este ciclo eterno que me vuelve a atrapar
Y me quedo en silencio sin poder expresar
Todo el dolor que siento y que no puedo callar
Que no dejan mi pecho volver a respirar
Como el último “te amo” que aprendí a soltar


Puente:


Me soltaste en la noche sin decirme por qué
Me dejaste en pedazos, herido y ausente
Fuiste luz un momento, después indiferente
Y respiro recuerdos que matan mi mente

Verso:


Y no hay forma de hablarte sin volver a sangrar
Cada letra que escribo me vuelve a quebrar
Yo me di por completo sin nada que guardar
Y vos fuiste la herida que me hizo sangrar
Y no hay noche que pase sin verte en mi mente
Aunque duela pensarte, siempre estás presente
Me dejaste sin nada, siendo indiferente
Me quitaste la paz, me volví diferente
Y aunque quiera olvidarte, no logro escapar
De este ciclo eterno que me vuelve a atrapar
Y me quedo en silencio sin poder expresar
Todo el dolor que siento y que no puedo callar
Que no dejan mi pecho volver a respirar
Como el último “te amo” que aprendí a soltar

INDIFERENTE (prod. xenshel)

INDIFERENTE v2 (prod. xenshel)

reupload cause it missed a couple of seconds,
prod. trynacommunicate rock
go check his beats they're amazing

lyrics:
I've been dying for a sign
Need you right by my side
Don't want no compromise
Just look me in the eyes
While everything just dies
I'm breaking down inside
Can't run, I've really tried
This pain I-
-
You're the ghost in all my nights
Haunting me, quiet lights 
Wish that I could make it right
Want you with all my might
But you're nowhere in my life
Chivalry of a failed knight
Don't you want to be my wife
Give me time and I'll make it right

choices

Someone Else

nightmare

mid
lyrics:
Tell me how to make you mine
Tell me how to make you mine
Tell me how to pass the time
Tell me how to pass the time
Fell in love girl, that's my crime
Fell in love girl, that's my crime
Only with you my heart's at prime
Only with you my heart's at prime

only (prod.luminaria)

prod.xenoxx
lyrics:
you wanna live girl?
i wanna live as well
with full lungs I hearl
when i recognize your smell
-
i see your eyes fade
like a witchblade
got love and all in my own veins
shot a bullet in my head
like Kurt Cobain
no one heard me fall
it's the old way

old way

Spotify : https://open.spotify.com/intl-de/track/56RxB4BAbu8rTEjCJHMYkZ?si=0ac87f6dab264e16

Vocals by glasshill
self prod.
Mix & Master by glasshill

Sometimes I feel I could collapse
Anxiety slips through all the cracks
Exercise my mind with you, but my heart's made out of glass
Sometimes I feel I could collapse
Paranoia fills all of the gaps
Every time I bend for you, it is fucking up my head

'Fore I go insane again
Save me from myself, I beg you
Or is it too much to ask?
To feel your body on my hands
'Fore I go insane again
Save me from myself, I beg you
Or is it too much to ask?
To feel your body on my hands

Why are you sending me pics of yourself, uh
It's like, why are you hurting yourself?
But this time, why don’t you blame it on me instead?
I’m just your punching bag
Does it matter what I say?
Those stabs are just gonna push me away, away from you
And I would do anything, just make me forget your name
And delete your files right off my brain

'Fore I go insane again
Save me from myself, I beg you
Or is it too much to ask?
To feel your body on my hands
'Fore I go insane again
Save me from myself, I beg you
Or is it too much to ask?
To feel your body on my hands

To feel your body on my hands
Or is it too much to ask?
To feel your body on my hands
Or is it too much to ask?

Save Me From Myself (self prod.)

original song: scars demo by otuka

this is just a lil fun thing i like to do, as i do NOT claim any rights to this song 
and all the rights go to the artist and producer

otuka - scars (extended version)

Lyrics:

Ya no sé si soñarte o dejar de intentarlo
Si correr hacia ti o aprender a olvidarlo
Porque a veces me juras que nunca fue nada
Pero a veces tu silencio grita que me ama

Yo lo di todo y tú ni siquiera una parte
Me rompiste en pedazos, dijiste “más tarde”
Yo marcaba tu nombre en cada canción
Y tú ni un mensaje, ni una explicación

Me ahogué en tus ojos sin encontrar salida
Soñé con tus besos que nunca se rendían
Te escribí cien poemas, te amé sin medida
Me dejaste sangrando, sangrando en la herida

Jamás pensé que el amor fuera una herida
Creí que en tus besos viviría la vida
Me dijiste “te quiero” con una voz vacía
Y el amor se volvió solo una fria agonía

Un Paso Atrás

prod sickboi
mi <3
my favourite song ive ever made

lyrics

(souchu)
You took a photograph so i would last longer
Cuz i am bound to change
Never lookin back, how will i grow stronger anyways?

Think about your psyche, and karunai
You’re nothin like me, put down the knife
Prevail, its myself and every night
I can do what i want to, got every right

sit around and practice, its all i do
i come alive whenever i think of you
a sugar brain and i got the sweetest tooth
a black cat on my doorstep, i hope its true

No time left i already panic enough
So ill stay up, ill
I lied
You lied
To me to-

Cut my hands off and watch me bleed
Do anything for you, when im in need
Restart it all without a harmony
So when im up on stage i can sing w ease

(rivr persn)
when she opened up my life she said welcome to the end of it
stalking my tumblr you're such a bitch
get out of my mind i dont need you right now
i dont care if im not thinkin im just ready for flight now
black cat in the windowsill, witnessing the light wow
you fucked up i told you to stick it out

you told me youll be somethin better tomorrow
fuck it why won't it happen today
i wait for nothin then expect it to change
and then all of it just blows up in my face

(souchu, rivr)
You took a photograph so i would last longer
Cuz i am bound to change
Never lookin back, how will i grow stronger anyways?

Think about your psyche, and karunai
You’re nothin like me, put down the knife
Prevail, its myself and every night
I can do what i want to, got every right

sit around and practice, its all i do
i come alive whenever i think of you
a sugar brain and i got the sweetest tooth
a black cat on my doorstep, i hope its true

(rivr)
outrooo

black hair w/ rivr persn ≽^•˕• ྀི≼

Un Paso Atrás v2

Dissociating in the abyss.



all rights to respective owners.

🇵🇱 started frenchcore like 2months ago trying to make kurwabangers 🇵🇱

making shitty bandlab music when im bored
don't expect a specific genre of music, i am still discovering myself

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