Fuck!
I lost a lot, I lost myself
I lost my love and lost my health
I'm fucking lost, please I need help!
Everytime I find hope something in me tells me I don't need someone else
I'm better off by myself
How to find the truth inside when I'm lying to myself?
How to build a new life when my inner child died at 12?
How to love another girl when her ghost still haunts my mind?
How to get a million bucks when motivation's hard to find?
Fuck this shit and fuck my life
I'm just gonna take this knife
Cut my soul and my cut my pain
The only time I feel alive
I need to die to feel alive

Alive (prod. by CannonTooCold)

Excommunicado, I kill 'em with bravado
It's time to meet your maker, you a faker in the barro
Cold blooded like a - viper
Got you in my sights like a - sniper
Too many chicks, too many fakes, too many peeps who pretend to be friends
Too many cigs, too many breaks, too many issues I'm holding within
Tell me what's stopping me from killing myself by picking up pills from the shelf?
It is my subconscious, I'm fighting my demon that's meaning I'm fighting myself
Yeah, I'm fighting myself, every goddamn day I'm fighting myself
Begging the reaper "Help me get deeper, tell me why couldn't I keep her?"
"Tell me why couldn't I keep her?"
Ever since I left her side I fucking cursed my life
Feel like something's left of her in me that still resides
I've changed, I'm consumed by whatever remains
I don't know what it means but it's causing me pain

Excommunicado (prod. by VEEDY ON THE BEAT X JOBE)

I got nothing to do but everything to deal with
Stuck in a delusion hoping for a scene switch
Everyday I'm losing faith, people say it's not so bad
Then I look in my mirror and I wish I were dead

Questions over questions, lessons over lessons
What is life teaching when you're failing all it's exams?
Never say never, one day I'll get behind it
Dweller in a cellar, one day I'll find the light switch
All this fucking pain, all these fucking regrets
It's always "drain your brain" instead of "sit back, relax"
Pandora's Box - let me open this shit
A paradox - there's nothing in it

Pandora's Box (prod. by borgiolini)

Voices gettin' louder, gimme some more powder
Sisyphus in this bitch, nemesis my boulder
Devil on both shoulders, I won't get much older
Sisyphus in this bitch, nemesis my boulder

What are you saying? What is the matter?
Can't understand you, eardrums are shattered
Rather won't listen, rather won't see
I'd rather be numb, rather won't feel
I've put myself in this position
My boulder - my acquisition
Lemme carry this weight
A baggage of my own mistakes
The more you lie the more you die
Every day, every hour, every minute, every second you feel how you fucking die
Bit by bit, piece by piece until there's nothing left
I guess I'm past that point, finally I can rest

Sisyphus (prod. by borgiolini)

I swear I'm 'bout to crash out
Do you notice when I black out?
Yeah she told me that I stand out
'Bout to tell that bitch "I am out, bitch I crash out!"

There's nothing that could hold me here
Would you notice when I disappear?
We both crash out

Is there something you ain't tellin' me?
All these fucking doubts they killin' me
Silent treatment is so damn loud
Because everytime we make out - we both crash out

Crash Out (prod. by borgiolini)

Pussies always ask me "do you wanna fight back?"
"Fuckboys gonna piss on you, set them on the right track!"
Nothing I would rather do! Fuck em like it ain't the truth!
Gimme reason to smell treason and I might snap!
Somehow everybody now wanna be a villain
Show em what that gun do yeah I'm down to fucking kill em
(Ayo she) told me she like bad guys, cook em like they french fries
Nobody got my back I'm sick and tired of these fake ties
I try to be a better person
So tell me how come my reputation worsened?
Roll up for fun, leave my pain and sorrow in the ashtray
Sorry I'm blunt, ask the lord why he rolled me that way
Mayday, mayday the ship I'm on is sinking
She vowed to rescue me but left me hanging
Back in the day I was standing in the attic
staring at the hook in the ceiling feeling panic
This is shit I thought I'd never say out loud
Better drop it on a track than to take it to the grave
Are you proud?

Are You Proud Freestyle (prod. by goth helma)

Nonchalant:
https://soundcloud.com/nonchalant-jav
https://www.instagram.com/im.nonchalant9/

You better look me in the eyes and tell me what you see
Just a dead soul vibin' in the summer breeze
Got shit to attend, got shit to lock down
Maybe next year I'll see you in another town
Sluts wanna fuck - this ain't nothing new
If I love her better keep her fuckin' ass in view
She told me I'm cute but I can be a sick fuck
She pull slip down if I don't slip up
Whatever man, fuck these hoes
Kill me when you see me chase a bitch instead of dough, yeah I mean it though
Yeah it's time to get my money right
Cuz I'm tired of the feeling when the money tight
(That's why I) Gotta save some bands, fuck anyone who's begging
Let 'em know how many fucks I give and they start sweating
What do you mean I've changed? Who do you think I am?
Ey yo N to the C tell 'em how it be

Summer time
An I'm back in this abyss
Stackin money over feelins
Coz these feelin I won't miss
I'm nonchalant To the whole world
Give the finger to my old girl
Everybody try pull me down
But I'm like atlas
Wid da whole world
Weighing on my back
But I'm like
Oh well
Petty shit can't never draw me out from Where my soul dwells
Haters hate to watch me level up
An doin soo well
But I'm doin soo well

What a lonely road
This deep dark Abyss
Wid the luv you showed
It soon turns to this
But on the bright side
A Deep light inside
Helps me to fight
And hold onto this

I'm nonchalant
So come let's spread it to the whole world
If you don't like me 
ima do you like my old girl

Middle fingers up
Like when I level up
It's soon time to blow
I stay in the zone
Hustle in night an cold
Girlies love my flow
But when they gotta go
I stay chasin doe

Remember when we use to play out in the rain
Kiss and cuddle just the same
Now thing between us ain't the same

Summertime Flows feat. Nonchalant (prod. by IAFG)

No, I don't need no barbie
Feelin' fine by myself since I got that money
Doin' well, tell me what the fuck is strugglin'
Ex behaving snuggly, bitch you could've called me
Feelin' like a rockstar
Bitch be like a pornstar
Moaning like a monster
Fill her like a boxcar
Never late I'm right on time
Fuckboys wanna do a crime
Handle it with my new nine
Now they momma gotta cry
Actin' like they in a trance
Switching sides like JD Vance
Pull up in a brand new Benz
Let 'em know I love my fans
Gettin' high and raise a toast
No more love for dirty hoes
Fuck around and find out
They can't help but feel aroused 
Yeah Yeah

#Justhavingfun (prod. by goth helma)

Yeah I guess I feel alright, alright
Why don't you stay one more night, night
Take me to your neverland
Take me to your neverland

Tell me 'bout your neverland
Tell me 'bout your many friends
Tell me I'm a gentleman
And I tell you why I simply can't
Keep up, cuz all my demons creep up
Gotta deal with all of 'em before I put my feet up
Speak up, baby let me hear it one more time
Tell me I'm not worth your time
I just need a single sign

Neverland (Prod. by Vydee x andrzxz)

Nonchalant:
@nonchalant-jav
www.instagram.com/im.nonchalant9/

What is memory lane
Place that's filled with hella pain
So I don't go there
Get caught in the snow where
Silly rabbit tryna run from all the memories
Alice is catching up I'm stuck knowing that time don't ease
The pain get stuck in my own brain
Feels like it's heavy rain
Thoughts raining thousand pains
Why can't I love the same
See you don't act the same
An then I start to change
Reacting to the pain
Storm growing in my brain
Don't get what up and changed
Like did I cause you pain
Girl did I cause you pain
All these thoughts in my brain
Stuck too me
Like a stain
Maybe my love had changed
Doubt that I love the same
Heart bleeding out the pain
But still this pain remains
Wish memories would change
Acting while feeling change
Communication strained
Can't say what's in my brain
Can't feel the love it's changed
Tragedy left you wid pain
Wish I could take you pain
Guess I weren't worth the pain
So I leave you right there
Stuck in on memory lane 
Run rabbit
Run rabbit
Run rabbit
Run
Wid all these memories right here then one must have a gun
I'm steady rolling loud coz feelin I ain't feelin none
Chillin with Mary Jain no spidy an I'm feelin numb
Run rabbit
Run rabbit
Run rabbit
Run
Gaslighting really works no cupid got me feelin dumb
Climb out this dark abyss father said we already won
They on the losing team
So silly rabbit
Run run run 


I got so much pain inside
So much pain that I can't hide
Let me tell you 'bout my life
It's a struggle, it's a fight
Let me take you back, moments filled with pain
You won't make it back - trip down memory lane
It's 2006, first time in the loony bin
My dear parents in despair, I'm consumed by sin
It's 2012, another four months locked away
Realizing it's myself that puts me through this pain
It's 2019, my dad in a coffin
Still mad at him but I hope he know I love him
It's 2021, I lose the love of my life
Four years gone, she's still haunting my mind
It's 2025 and I question my existence
Demons in my head but I promise I resist 'em
Whatever comes whoever goes I don't give a fuck
Life is a bitch and I demand that hoe to suck
Now I'm looking back I think I fell in love with pain
It really is insane this trip down memory lane

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