MORNING! (Prod.  norestformonkey)

prod. @dercept
feat. @ilovesoruto & @buddy_official <3 <3

finally another song love u guys ♥
please go check out soru and 3gz

(soru)
i need a change of scenery
i'm tired of only having clouds for company
my heart is heavy and i'm sipping on my misery
please don't ever say that you're missing me
but when u call on me when u vent to me
say u still need me that hurts me deep
when u on your knees and you're so sorry
can't look away you're hunting me

(venaz)
cause you fill my void
i can barely escape
got me paranoid shaking
i just wanna be saved
and don't trip about the shit we can't change
i let you go but the pain don't ever fade

cause you fill my void
i can barely escape
got me paranoid shaking
i just wanna be saved
i held you close but it wasn't enough
broke my heart yeah i thought it was love

(3gz)
i caught you posting about me
but you know it's hard to change
i told you that i'll be fine just give me space
you know you are the girl of my dreams
but i'm slowly suffocating
so give me time so i go and think it out
i can't move on no doubt
i watched you leave while u left me breathless
now u picking me down like my necklace

(venaz)
cause you fill my void
i can barely escape
got me paranoid shaking
i just wanna be saved
and don't trip about the shit we can't change
i let you go but the pain don't ever fade

cause you fill my void
i can barely escape
got me paranoid shaking
i just wanna be saved
i held you close but it wasn't enough
broke my heart yeah i thought it was love

damage

misery and pain

misery and pain - w/soru & 3gz  (prod. dercept)

don’t wanna visit 
your fucking grave
remember how my heart 
would race

more than moody

I’m in the sunken place

dearly departed
I thought all I wanted 
was to 
forget your face
more than moody
oh I’m in 
the sunken place

remember how my heart 
would race
before the love
(before the love, it fell from grace)
it fell from grace

now the only way 
to be near you
is to
visit your 
fucking grave

hard to remember
(visit your fucking grave)
how my heart would race

I was hanging 
on every
word that you 
would say

and now it kills me slowly
you didn’t call me on that day
(slowly)
there's nothing anyone can say 
hard to remember
how my heart would race
(visit your fucking grave)

dearly departed
although discarded i would stay
(if i knew that, it would end up this way)
you took everything 
and you threw it all away

you took everything
visit your fucking grave!
I’m in the sunken place

don’t wanna visit your fucking grave
I’m in the sunken place
remember
how my heart would race
(in the sunken place)
more than moody
hanging on every word you say
before the love
it fell from grace

there’s nothing anyone can say
although discarded I would stay
I’m in the sunken place
you took everything
& you threw it all away

more than moody
I’m in the sunken
I’m in the sunken place
you took everything
and you threw it all away

x. grav3y4rd .x (malloy)

(I’ll take the roses)


lost in time
trapped in space
a broken heart
a shattered vase
all the memories
that we once had
are now fading away
forever sad


I’ll take the roses
the petals fall like rain 
and turn them into love again


cried oceans over love letters
but i transcend
secrets defy my resurrection
prophecies from the afterlife
through the darkness
I’ll find the light
Hide in the shadows
lost in the night
I’ve lost my soul 
I am a ghost
i ‘ll take the roses

my spirit rises
spread my wings 
take to the sky
(transcend)
in my retrospection
spread my wings 
take to the sky
with my resurrection


I’ll take the roses
the petals fall like rain
and turn them into love again
(transcend)


I’ve lost my soul
I am a ghost
I’ll take the roses
petal fall like rain
cried oceans over love letters
but i transcend
(transcend)


my heart is shattered
my soul erased
(my heart is shattered
my soul erased)
all the memories that we once had 
are now fading away
forever sad


and though the tears may flow
and the heart may ache
thorns that pierce me 
can make it go away


I’ll take the roses
the petals fall like rain
and turn them into love again

x resurr3cti0n x (epil3psy)

dimi
p.tsein
lyrics:
onaylamistim coktan kendimi ben
girmeye hazirdim kalbine
bosuna miydi cabalarim benim?
simdi karsimda igrenc biri.
onaylamistim coktan kendimi ben
girmeye hazirdim kalbine
bosuna miydi cabalarim benim?
simdi karsimda igrenc biri.

acıyorum cukur açıyorum
sana varmak isterdim ama kaçıyorum
beni mahvettim ben de mahvoldum
kendine çektin aşık oldum

mahvoldum mahvoldum
bencilliginden biktim
gitgidekayboldum

*ne sacmaliyorsun sen?*

bosuna miydi?

Antagonist - Faust (Michael Harrison)

bazenleri kendinde suc ara
(p.greyrock, dollatega)
lyrics:
tahmin ettim gibi ama neyse
tamir etmedi kalbimi kimse
elime baska biri degse
vazgecmem yine

kalsam da canli 
yine onu benden biktiririm
yoluyorum saclarimi 
senin icin birakirim

dogrudan saparim hep
ortaligi batiririm
bazen yanimda kalmani istesem de 
davranirim yokmussun gibi
kayboldun sanki
buradan gitmedin ama
pesindeki benim

asktan intikam alicam
ama becereksizim
ama sanki ne yapicam
benden nefret edeceksin

diye korkuyorum
sanki elimde guller var ve bekliyorum
ciceklerim solmaz ama mezarina yetisir
kendim bile dayanamaz koselere cekilir

yokmussun gibi :<

cant drop all plats the beat says its sold:(

Lyrics:
Always fucking myself up all the time 

Always feels like I'm a burden in their life 

I don't think many people hear my fucking cries 

Posted up with my friends, but I still wanna die

Faking myself, faking my personality 

Feels like I'm switching myself almost every week 

I don't even know who I am, yeah who are we? 

I'm so fucking done ima end in a fatality 

I don't like no drama 

But I run around looking for some drama 

I don't know what's wrong cuz I don't wanna 

Keep a stick on me I might just fucking pop ya

Two of us only one can fucking make it out 

Fuck that bitch named Jacob he can kill himself 

Put an end to this I might just fucking kill myself 

Put one in my brain and Ghostboy down and out for the count 

I really don't like living with my fucking self 

always angry, bipolar, struggling with health
 
Always scared to go around and ask for mothafuckin' help

so toss my fucking pain in a fucking wishing well

I know you don't wanna deal with me 

I wouldn't even want to deal with me 

Being myself doesn't make me happy 

Lock his ass up and I throw away the key

Always fucking myself up all the time 

Always feels like I'm a burden in their life 

I don't think many people hear my fucking cries 

Posted up with my friends, but I still wanna die

Faking myself, faking my personality 

Feels like I'm switching myself almost every week 

I don't even know who I am, yeah who are we? 

I'm so fucking done ima end in a fatality 

I don't like no drama 

But I run around looking for some drama 

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Always fucking myself up all the time 

Always feels like I'm a burden in their life 

I don't think many people hear my fucking cries 

Posted up with my friends, but I still wanna die

Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID) (prod. greyrock)

//im sorry for any mistakes i have made from the past till the present. 

caught you on the next line yea
see eye to eye when u try to lie
i cant really be myself tonight
cause you see me that way all these time

yea baby
i think you wanna call it off
yea babe
call it off

i try my best to be there for you 
but i cant really tell that you know its true
why is it too hard to tell me a clue
holding on for this time its a truce

im in love babe

  

im the worst i know @wistual

R3GR3T

its nothing personal // yashi's forever
@tsukibara
@kwnkolektiv

Thanks for checking out my music. The lyrics and vocals are mine, the beats are created by various musicians that are credited in parentheses of each song. I started creating music from poetic and lyrical inspirations and writing that started with reading old journal entries from difficult times in my life. I use a lot of repeating themes and you'll notice this as you listen more.
Some of my poetic lyrical inspirations are from Shakespeare & E.E. Cummings. 
Some classic/old school artists that inspire me are: Elliott Smith, Bright eyes, Brenden Urie from Panic at the Disco, Lane Staley of Alice in Chains, & Counting Crows.
Some newer artists/soundcloud artists inspire me:
 Softheart, guccihighwaters, sewerperson,  velvetears, 4everfalling, yung van,  guardin

all lyrics aside from one song are my original writing.
(photo by William Zdan)

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