I had this song mostly put together, but I'm gonna give CSS some credit for inspiring me to record my own horny track.

This is my first time really playing with my acoustic guitar and all of garageband's amp filters, while recording in a garage no less. I've gotten so much milage out of that lil blue snowball microphone.

Music is my hot hot sex.

Thanks for listening.

Mess Of Myself - 5:11:24, 8.14 PM

a song i wrote after a letter i wrote to a friend

i thought about u a lot today

Happy venus in retrograde. I have not been well these days and i needed to let this mix out, a special one in 100-130 BPM from my recent very personal playlist. As usual, accompanied by poetry i wrote in psychosis.

the serpent watches from afar. 
i think i've known him before.  

we return to this cycle again,
in every permutation of our reincarnations, 
never meant to be, 
but always finding each other.  

please forgive me this time. 
 
i am sorry. 

i am sorry. 

i am sorry.

come closer. 
witness me as i slit myself open.  
do you hear them? 
my heart pulsating weakly under your presence    

now place your hands upon mine,
pierce deep into my flesh.
harder. 
help me shatter my bones.
let them splinter beneath your grasp.
The screams we have cried for this entanglement to end 

Come closer.
place your tongue on my wounds— 
do you taste the warmth of my blood whimpering beneath your touch?
Witness as our blood curses every soil it meets  
do you see now what has become of us?  

allow me to be a sacrifice for you. 
let the cycle of doing and undoing each other end. 
let me be free of you. 
and let you be free of me.  

let me bear the pain i have caused you. 
let me bear the weight of all the hands that have touched your fate. 
let me return, again and again, to hold it all for you.  

allow me to carry your sorrow, 
your wounds, 
the quiet ache left in the spaces between us. 
give them all to me.  

let me wear your curse across every lifetime, 
until time unspools 
and you are light again. 
until I am light again.
until we are light again. 

Track IDs:
Evita Manji & Oliver Torr – RealityShadows
Malesa – Brujas
Jan Loup – Shanti
Rempit G0dDeS$ - BLEED ft. Viktoria (Master 24_48)
Burial – Streetlands (Remix)
Stasya – Transparent
Rempit G0dDeS$  – A Hunger for Hope (Unreleased)
J Sliwa – Rage Quit
KELZ / Kelela x Koifin x Unearth – ABERRATION 
DJ CORPMANE – DOG FEAR
In My Talons – Can't Sleep Without You
LYZZA – Prosecco Girl
Mike Midnight – Secretlifeoflust
Oklou – LOADED
Séverine – All The Power She Corrupts
Escha Ytem – Norfolk Pertex Aquarium
Cute Door – Drool
Ytem – Levia
Sevdaliza – High Alone

cursed entanglements

'tis strawberry season, juicy, fresh, and hot out of the oven like summer itself

Strawberry Pie

Capturing and exploring what the subconscious couldn't express in my decaying vessel.

A collection of aural experiments by an artist of too many mediums. Sometimes a guitar, usually garage band samples and half written poems layered over sound effects.

New tracks tagged #saphic