sometimes my brain is so loud, i forget how to think.
sometimes my body is so tired, no amount of sleep helps.
and sometimes, like today, i’m just… scattered.

this song came from that in-between place, where trauma hums beneath daily life, where to-do lists feel like grief, and where being “present” is a battle you fight softly, every day.

if you’ve ever felt like your mind is a room you can’t clean,
or your past is something your nervous system still remembers,
this one’s for you.

thank you for listening to my tender chaos.

– nova bloom 🪐🌸

lyrics:
i woke up with a hundred voices
none of them knew what to do
my brain’s a map with missing places
and every thought forgets the route

tried to start a million somethings
but the weight just wouldn’t move
i swear i’m trying to be present
but the moment always leaves too soon

i’m scattered like clothes on the floor
memories i don’t want, and ten things more
my brain’s a room that never gets clean
but i keep trying, soft and unseen
tired in a way sleep doesn’t fix
drifting through the static and the mix
don’t ask me what i need, i wouldn’t know
just hold me while i overflow

my mother said she nearly lost me
before i even had a name
the kind of story told in passing
but my body’s never felt the same

i don’t remember being helpless
but i’ve lived my whole life on alert
and every safe thing starts to flicker
like my nervous system still expects the hurt

i’m scattered like clothes on the floor
memories i don’t want, and ten things more
my brain’s a room that never gets clean
but i keep trying, soft and unseen
tired in a way sleep doesn’t fix
drifting through the static and the mix
don’t ask me what i need, i wouldn’t know
just hold me while i overflow

there are pieces of me in every project
scraps of me in every plan
but i never finish building
what no one helped me understand

so i scroll, and sigh, and sip my tea
and try to find the whole in me
but some days i’m just...
scattered

Scattered

Songs for every version of me.

From dreamy synth-pop to raw acoustic confessions, from playful bops to cosmic grief ballads—Nova Bloom is where all my emotional states come to sing. Each song is a snapshot of a feeling, a mood, a moment. Different genres, different vibes, same soul.

For the overthinkers, the feelers, the weirdos, the lovers.
Come bloom with me.

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